I've been avoiding this blog for a while now. I struggle over what to share and what to say. In blogging I always feel lost in the line between sharing all the inane details of my life and sharing deeper more profound thoughts. Plus the lack of profundity lately seems, I must say... embarrassing. I mean I think about a million things daily, but I don't seem to have enough time to really think it over and share that in an articulate way. I do however find myself addicted to Facebook, where I can share all the randomness of my day in a fast and easy format. I wonder sometimes if we are losing the ability to think deeply at all with some of the technology and speed we now live in. Everything is fast, abbreviated and "entertaining" or we just don't track.
So here is a little bit of both I guess... Since I'm feeling very random.
Randomness:
I bought a new car! Well maybe the technical word is an SUV. I did my research obsessively as usual, but really that is just to justify what I'd already decided... I wanted a new car. The Civic was nice but it was so small and hard to carry people other than myself. I'm way to social for such constraints so now I have a nice pretty Honda CRV. I spent a week working on the deal but finally got one where I feel I didn't get totally screwed over. Though of course the dealer swore up and down they weren't making any money on me. Whatever... They wouldn't have made the deal if they weren't making money.
The snow storm was so crazy here in Portland before Christmas. Everyday was an adventure, but I loved the way the city slowed down and just walked places and got out in their neighborhoods. It was fantastic to see all the people sledding on Tabor or cross country skiing through the streets. I've never seen anything like it.
TV infomercials bring me so many giggles lately. I don't know why but I seem to get an inordinately large amount on the TV stations I watch (and on other randomness I cut cable to afford said vehicle above so its really limited now). My favorites are Smooth Away the magic hair remover that I'm sure just rips the hair out of your skin. OW! The Snuggie, a blanket with arms. You just have to see the commercial and you'll know why I love it. Then there is the one I promised to get my roommate for Christmas but never had the chance, the Ped Egg.
Deeper thoughts: (And I thought I didn't have any?!)
Lately I've been pondering where my ministry focus needs to be next. So far I have no confirmed direction. In fact I think I need to have some more serious prayer and thought in this area. But what is clear is that I seem to be floating. Floating and not invested fully. Am I'm really adding any value right now with the kids in HS? I'm not so sure... I am not sure in fact where I belong anywhere right now.
What I am loving is my weekly prayer times with Kate. These are so essential for my spiritual well being. It keeps me accountable and focused on what God can do in our lives and the lives around us. I do know without a doubt, that prayer is one of the most awesome gifts we've been given. That ability to talk directly to God and hear him speak back to us is so amazing! Also, I feel I need to be focusing on being in the Word more. I need transforming and renewing of my mind. This can really only be achieved by filling it with Truth. My thoughts are overrun with lies sometimes and I need that Truth stored away to combat this.
