woke up for church this morning.. but was feeling tired cos i talked to my darling on e phone till this morning.. then after church, she came to my house to chill out.. she did this dance for me and she looked damn sexy :) hahax.. so we spent time together till she had to go home.. after she left i got changed to meet her at the airport.. grace sharon and i were there.. later heather came also.. so we makan upstairs and walked to the departure hall.. sighs` my baby cried.. so did i.. i know it's not gonna be easy for us.. but we'll try to pull thru' this few months okae ?? ... my heart breaks`.

i feel the impact w/o you now babe
i'm feeling so lost and empty.
i keep looking at the phone,
hoping that u'll call or msg..
but i know you might not..
lonely has consumed me again.

imissyou.iloveyou
-tears`

my life moves on

yesterday
woke up at 11+ cos rachel woke me up.. then just as i put down e phone with rachel, my baby called me.. so we talked till ard 1. She went to meet her clique and then i had to go for d'arts national drama competition.. this year's performance was okae la.. scared that we won't really do well sighs`. RGS did quite a good job.. then in another school's drama, there was this guy who acted gay haha.. more like aqua man!!! damn funny.. sharon and i were just lauging our heads of and freaking out. but anyway, i left aft awhile to meet her.. sat awhile at NYDC with ARMM. suddenly i just felt like the past.. being ard with juniors and all.. then i gave my darling a rose haha.. she was suprised again :) hehex.
Later my darling, me and mF walked ard to look for the plastic flowers haha. then we were late to meet sharon jess grace yulian and char at ps. guess they were abit angry for awhile.. paiseh la !! ate at swensens then walked ard ps and took neos :) later she and i went to buy 2 t-shirts of the same kind haha.. :) smiles*

grace: she gg back, sad not?
me : duh.. but kinda used to it.
grace: you'll never get used to it lor.
me: ... true.

sighs` i'm gonna miss my girl.. it still hurts, but i guess it's all worth it.

yesterday i had school as usual and i have to say, my facil for communications suck la !!! ahHh.. got nothing to say about him. he just freaks people out.. =X

anyway that's not the point. after school i went to meet my darling at heeren.. so we walked ard and she bought a pretty nice jacket and belt from 77th street.. after that we took neos :) and we looked really great haha.. later when we stepped outta heeren, suddenly channel U people came to interview ME. that was scary cos they were doing some show thingy, then fiona xie was like talking to me.. ERrr.. okae.. they had to like pull ppl off the streets and try a lip stick on e person.. so suay i kenna la !!! don't laugh at me !! for your information i wiped off the lipstick DUH.
Then my darling and i took a bus to ps and we sat in macs awhile cos i needed to do some wireless networking, but anyway at the same time i was trying to buy time la haha.. tell u why later. aft that she was supposed to go home at 6 cos she had something impt, but her mom told her it was delayed haha.. so i was waiting for sharon's call to say tt they have reached her house already.. then i brought her around to waste time and talk to her.. aft tt i got the cue to send her home.. so we met her sister on the bus and we went back together haha.. i bluff her tt i needed to go toliet so that i could walk her home.. upon reaching, i pretended to go to e toliet, then i brought her to the pool side where grace , jean , sharon , jess, heatherwas there waiting for her :) it was so funny cos my baby was like shocked la haha.. she was stunned that there was a surprise for her.. and her mom actually planned with us to make her come home for something impt.. so we ate pizza and KFC by the pool.. then we pushed my darling in.. and later i also kenna.. tsk tsk.. but anyway i'm just glad she had a great time la.. my planning was all worth it :) .. then jie ying and all came down to the pool side to play also.. after that all of us went to change.. then i had to come home la !!
sighs` i miss her. i love her.

freak la.. can't they just let me do whatever i want this weekend ?? i only ask for some time to be with her before she leaves..why must you all make things so diff.. i'm over the point of being upset that i don't needa vent my anger pain and fustrations anymore... i've got nothing more to say to you all.. just leave me alone.

to my darling michelle.

happy 18th anniversary.

thanks for being the one in my life.
u've brought me so far..
i can't go back to whom i used to be.
we've been thru' alot together..
all the ups and downs..
i'll never forget the times spent..
every second that i'm with you..
my heart just melts`..
i can't help it..
i keep falling for you.
iloveyou`andalwayswill..

yours forever,
laogong

school.
seems to be getting better.. it's just pretty slacky and laggy kinda thing.. but other then that, it's alrite i suppose..
aft school, i went off to meet fairli, audrey and my darling.. she bought herself a pretty nice bag. glad that she's happy with it.. then after that she and i came back to my house and headed to punggol beach.. we were like half the time not very happy with each other and all.. so yarh.. it's okae, i hope we're okae now.. i really miss her alot..

i hate the way the days passes.
how can time be so cruel ??
it happens time and time again.
All i have to do is put up a front
strong as i can be,
i laugh the pain away,
i fight back my tears,
each stab in my heart,
it hurts so bad.
why is it me ??
what have i done to deserve this ??
or am i doing all these for the glory of love ?
i feel weak.
i feel tired.
i'm emotionaly drained..
sighs`
it's not your fault.
it's no one's fault..



Night has fallen,
I sensed Darkness,
Along came Silence,
Acompanied by Lonesome.

Darkness, is there any end?
Lonesome, is it a friend?
Shh...Silence, ryhmns like a song...
Why does the night seem so long?
My lost soul wandered in Darkness,
Humming the song of Silence,
Every corner i saw Lonesome there,
Why does it follows me everywhere?

Thank God,
he sent Daybreak,
fought away Darkness for my sake,
Silence song? it did not stay,
So Lonesome, too,
went another way.

so let me talk about HISTORY.
On saturday, went to cine for orientation in the morning.. then after that met my darling and we headed to sentosa. i think i've uploaded some of the pictures :) anyway we ended up swimminging and i had a great afternoon with her.. ltr we met jess then i had to ZHAO.

Yesterday
slept in church cos i was extremely tired. so i came back home to sleep, then we were supposed to play badminton but it was cancelled.. anyway i had stomach flu and didn't feel good so.. yup. darling and i met up at the park to hang out.. with loads of mosquitos.. she bought me a drink cos i was sick.. *winks.. so sweet of her.. sighs`.. suddenly feel like hugging her.. =X
sarah : hey girl, why didn't you tell me or kris wht happened ?! i feel really bad cos.. whn you said tt you didn't feel like playing badminton, i should have guessed that something was wrong.. sigh. sorry eh.. just wanna let you know that kris , i and the whole of fate is always behind you no matter what :) HUGs.

today
monday blues.. it's back to school.
so the first day at poly.. well it was freaking screwed up la. firstly, met ariel in the morning to go to school and we were like LATE. opps.. okae anyway, then my group is like SO quiet. aarrgghhh... there's 2 ppl from PRC , one malay and another s'porean chinese. PENGx.. i skipped 3 hours of lessons cos i needed to go to the IT help desk. hahahas.. then aft that i had a 2 hour break.. oh i had basic science today and it reminded of Lena koh.. then i had this quize thingy which i failed. can you imagine the first day at school and already failing stuff... oh well.. anyway i was released early today, so met darling at PS. we walked ard.. and i still miss her.. =X the only reason why i go to school is to look forward to the end of the day so that i can be with her.. sniff ``

kris : have fun in bangkok. remember to buy me things kae !! will miss yooo!!

well this is not leanna..
hmm..today i dont noe what she did
but then i know that she waited for me in the mrt station
sorry laogong..was in a rush..
well..went to her house to bake cookies..
hahha well as you can see i dont know how to bake cookies
but then it tasted nice la...
hmmm..erm.. then i went to her room to study..
she wasnt much help..hahha i still dont understand the maths problem leh??!!
hmm nvm la..ok la..
shall end here..need to go home..
byebye!!!!! take care!! hugs! muackx!

badminton on sunday
- there was sarah byn my darling and me
- played doubles sarah byn , darling me
- singles she, me
- really under estimated darling cos she played real well.
- tired

this morning darling woke me up cos she wanted to come over to my hse.
- uploaded songs to her ipod

then went to dad's office
- did some designing with fabian
- he was being damn lame
- his colour combi really sucks haha.

school tml
- RP freshmen orientation for SAS/STA

idon'twannagoschool``

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna
be good enough for you
Can't pretend that
I'm all right
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just to late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothings alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just to late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

happy april fool's day

yesterday, kris sarah n i baked cookies. choc cookies to be more precised.. it sure tasted good :) they came over to my house to bake it, kris and i did most of the 'taking and puting' it in the oven chore, while sarah did the mixing haha.. kae la we did even out the job of baking.. go take a look at the pictures we took while baking haha.. so altogether we baked like nearly 110++ cookies.. both big and small. -winks.
The OC` premired today. loved that show. spoke to sharon on the phone too.. it's been ages since i've really spoken to her.. hope we'll meet up soon or something.
The damn RP package has reached me.. rahh` i don't wanna go school.

sports day in PL today` sighs i miss all these times..