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Wednesday, April 21, 2004

11:38:00 AM

-all out of love-

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish i could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am i without you
I can't be too late to say i was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem, so right?

And what would you say if i called on you now
And said that i can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or i'll be gone, i'll be gone

oh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

Sunday, April 18, 2004

9:36:00 PM

i'm sick. ahHs..my hEad is feEls heavy..i'm running a temperaturE aNd i've got a flu. blAhs whatever..i'm still surviviNg...had aRt camp on fri-sAt. aNd i didn't sleep at all.. meaning whole 24 hours..gill dedicatEd a simple plan soNg on 98.7 on e late night show tt nite..aNd it was read out!! yay..it went something like.."this is going out to all the people iN plmgss library doing their aRt now..."..dEn we wEre like..wth..LOLx...anyway had 2.4 on fridaE..then yEst. wE haD competitoN agaiN..
Recently i'vE seEn aUdrey aNd wEi ning toO..my goSh..misSed em loAds..i was so freakiNg excitEd to meEt thEm..[`sighs]
Heard from my dAd thAt soMe friEnds froM e U.S arE comiNg doWn..it's like so loNg sincE i'vE seEn that family...also heard thAt perhasp only he is comiNg down..his brothers may not be coming doWn..ahhs wadever..++childhood memories++ ~~maybe i only thought that his brother was cute aNd stuff, but it ain't anything more than that. anyway tt was SO long ago..yAr kinda stupid thinking of that..~~
.:hi to all s.f.x pEeps..i headed down todae , but didn't manage to seE u guys.. heard from sherlyn that kris ,alex ,sarah, my brother, cordE aNd mAryaNn wEnt off..='(..wEll..i'lL seE u guys soOn yArh!?:.

And i will take
you in my arms
and hold you right where you belong
till the day my life is through
this i promise you

[The best thing to LeArn in life is to LovE and to be Loved
in Return..I loVe u not beaUse i need u...but i need u
bEcausE i love u..*]

to..
gracE aNd pl.p : thanks for being concErnEd for mE..i'll drink lOads of h2O kaE..
daz : lolx..thanks for making mE laugh so mUch, although i'm fEeling so sick..=)
di : thAnks for all e msges too!
lil' baby : thanks for calliNg mE whEn u first heArd tt i wAs sick toO=)

Friday, April 09, 2004

12:46:00 AM

if you were to lEave,
wHere wOuld u go?
whEre wilL you hidE?
whAt wilL yoU lEavE bEhind?

it's in the way, that you move mE
the way that you tease me
the way that i want you tonight
it's iN the way , you hold me
and the way that you loved me
and when i can't find the right words to say,
you feel it in the way..

i still think abt you
i still dream abt you
i still want you and nEed you by my side
i'm still mad abt you
all i ever wanted was you
you're still the one

..G^morniNg..

Thursday, April 08, 2004

4:49:00 PM

HAPPY 15th

birthdaE

to dAz!!!!

-smilEs kaE-

Sunday, April 04, 2004

12:30:00 AM

fiNalLy da weEk's almoSt ovEr.. so i'm doNe witH moSt of e tEst.. but nExt weEk dEre's still 1 tEst i think..blAhs..anyway. hEard froM ethEl thAt niNg's comiNg thiS moNth..likE maybE anytiMe soOn ?! yUps..aNd so iS audrEy lOLx..shE's hEadiNg bAck thiS wEd.. prEtty coOl hUh..hAHAx..so e sEc 3's arE bAck froM alphA caMp toO.. hEard tt dEy realLy eNjoyeD emselvEs.. UNFAIR wE diDn't haVE caMp laSt yEAr.. (".)
ritE. so MYE aNd chinEse o's comiNg up nExt moNth.. likE helL i havn't touchEd my boOks..blAhs..likE whO e fuck carEs..jUz gEttiNg so borEd aRd.. jUx eNjoy bEiNg aRd peEps iN sChoOl witH mUh brothErs aNd so oN.. my lil' jUniOr hAs beEn upsEt latEly, thUs calliNg mE up to tElL mE hEr problEMs..poOr ga|.. =S..
aNywAy.. no cCa yEstErdAy. coS thEre wAs rEhERsaL foR e comiNg compEtitioN nExt weEK..so yAr..BUT..pEople , wAzZup up witH lAurEN aNd wEn jiE?! wEird... tAut dEy wEre supPosEd to likE sharoN..LOLx..jkjk..
oH yArh..i got myself thiS shiRt jUz noW..i thiNk it jUx roxs..nicE buttoN shIrt..
-manchestEr Utd bEAt aRsEnAL 1- 0 iN e FA cup..hAHAHx... rAwkx mAN..
-aRt cAmp comiN' uP.. (-_-)

[why are we still friends]
[when everything says]
[we should be more than we are]
[and tell me why]
[everytime i find]
[someone that i like]
[we always end up juz being friends]