mOod : ='(

wElL i didn't blog ovEr e chiNesE nEw yEar cOs' i didn't haVe mUch tiMe..e pErfoRmAncE lAst wEd wAs grEat.. shAroN N i acteD prEtty wElL i guEss.. aftER e pErfoRmAnCe , i wEnt oUt witH hEr..wE toTalLy chilLed oUt.. misSed tt dAy lOads.. but aNywaY.. CNY to mE wAs a drEad..i wAs moRe of misSiNg hEr dEn anythiNg elSe.. alL i cOuld thiNk of wAs thAt shE was lEaviNg oN moNdAy (26/1).. hUrts totalLy..bUt e lAst fEw dAys togEthEr wAs moStly talkiNg oN e phoNe tilL e weE hRs of e moRniNg..trEasuriNg those moMents..hmM.. oN sAtUrday , c|aRa lEft bAck to aUst.. e rEd dEvi|s sEnt hEr ofF.. dEn on sUndaY , sharoN , gracE N hEr friEnd , mE N hEr wEnt oUt to takE nEos i gavE hEr soMe "farewElL" gift toO.. my baBy wAs feEliNg sAd N aNgry cOs hEr dAd toOk away hEr hP..bUt iN e eNd i stilL mAnagEd to mEet up with hEr..hUgs*.. afteR tt.. graCe , hEr friEnd N i wEnt to e airport to sEnd aUdrEy ofF.. shE wAs also goiNg to aUst.. hais.. whEn i cAme hoMe i aSkeD my dAd if hE could sEnd mE to e airport oN monday morning bEfoRe schoOl..hE alLoweD , but my moM didN't alLow.. tsk tSk.. aAhHx.. so i spokE to hEr oN e phone N criEd..=S.. aNywAy moNdAy morniNg.. soMe hoW i maNagEd to go to e airport at like.. 0710.. i wAs jUz .happy. to sEnd hEr ofF...but yEt iNsidE it hUrts so mUch.. misS yEw loads baBe!!!...*tEars .. grAcE , rAvr|c , shAroN n i wEre deRe.. i mEt aH foO dEre toO.. noE wad ?! shE was goiNg to aUst toO...aArrhhh..hais..saw quite afew SYC peEps la.. so latEr e 4 of uS hEadEd bAck to schOol... iN schoOl i calLed hEr bEforE shE boardEd e planE..shAroN n i wEre liKe *cryiNg..tsk.. wEnt foR e fiRst lEsSoN for e day.. dEn Mrs oNg wAs liKe.. "leanNa are u ok? do u want to go home?" .. e wholE day i was jUz moOdy.. half e tiMe loOk liKe cryiNg.. dEn gracE , rAvr|c N shaRon kEpt comiNg to my clAss to aSk if i wAs okaE.. guEss i worriEd em alot la.. thAnks to alL who aSked if i wAs ok or not toO.. haix.. i jUz wAnt my baby bAck.. i'm missiNg hEr totally..it's e 2nd day w/o hEr todaE.. i'M misSiNg yoUr phoNe cAlls.. y havE u lEft mE liKe thAt ?.. but probably it's for your goOd..jUz chilL oUt dEre huhs..

hApPy 3Rd mOnth baBe

yoOOhoO!! lEe hoUse rOcks totalLy =D wElL wAd cAn i sAy ritE ?! tHis yEar , oUr chEerlEadiNg tEam iS goNna bE rEal stroNg!!! hAHax.. todAy wAs e firSt houSe mEetiNg.. thEn aftEr tt i haD cCa N wE alL weRe neEded to hElp iN e clASs dEcO..yEps..latEr rAvriC , sHaRoN N i wEnt ofF to mEet kOr` N gracE.. mEi` cAmE back tOday toO cOs e traCkeRs wEre haviNg thEir cRosS coUntrY... dEn at oMs saw dAz w/ hEr ga| N vaNesSa.. lolx.. aftEr wE mEt kOr` , wEpracticalLy slacKeD mAN..half e tiME laughiNg likE soMe kUkus..=S.. aftEr tt wE hEadEd to Douby Ghout.. kor` mEt joE N soMe friENds.. dEn wE wEnt of to plAy poOl , but thEre wEre like TOOOoo mAny ppl deRe , thUs' wE didn't plAy lA.. yUp sO hEadEd to ps... alL of uS waitEd witH gracE foR hEr* to coMe.. aftEr wE mEt her dEn rAv , sharOn N i wEnt oFf.. tSK.. sO mUcH sTufF to dO.. yAy!! tMl chUrCh agaiNs..

[My name is]: a|exiA
[In the morning I am]: slEePy
[All I need is]: cOnfidEncE
[Love is]: coMplicAted
[I'm afraid of]: bAlLoOns
[I dream about]: thE fUtUrE


-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .-
[Pictured your crush naked?]: no
[Actually seen your crush naked]: no
[Had sex]: no
[Made love]: no
[Been in love]: uH huh
[Cried when someone died]: yes
[Lied]: yes


-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[Coke or Pepsi]: coke.
[Flowers or candy]: Candy
[Tall or short]: tall


-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[What do you notice first?]: thE wAy thEy portrAy eMsElvEs
[Last person u slow danced with]: nO oNe



-W H O-
[Makes you laugh the most?]: mEl.p , daz, sharon..toO mAny to naMe
[Makes you smile]: cloSe friEnds
[Do you have a crush on someone?]: atm no.
[Has a crush on you?]: no idEa
[Easiest to talk to]: closE friEnds..[f.a.t.e]


-D O. Y O U. E V E R-
[Sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: nopE
[Save Aol/aim conversations]: nopE
[Wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: yEa..
[Cried because of someone saying something to you]: sEldoM


-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[Fallen for your best friend]: nopE
[Been rejected]: yes
[Rejected someone]: yes
[Used someone]: yEs
[Been cheated on]: yeS
[Done something you regret]: yes


-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[You talked to on the phone]: dAz
[Hugged]: faMily dUriNg mAsS
[You instant messaged]: mikE
[You laughed with]: no oNe


-D O .Y O U-
[Colour your hair]: nopEs
[Ever get off the damn computer]: yes
[Habla espanol]: no.dun speak spanish


-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[Smoke cigarettes]: nO
[Obsessive]: nopE
[Could you live without the computer?]: yeP
[How many peeps are on your buddy list?]: buddies? a few.
[What's your favourite food?]: noNe iN particulAr
[What's your favourite fruit?]: nonE in pArticulAr
[Drink alcohol?]: yeA
[Like watching sunrises or sunset]: yeP
[What hurts the most?]: tHinkiNg of thE woRst to hapPen
[Trust others way too easily?]: soMetiMes


-N U M B E R-
[Of times I have had my heart broken?]: 1
[Of hearts I have broken?]: 3
[Of continents I have lived in?]: 1
[Of drugs taken illegally?]: 0
[Of tight friends?]: 0
[Of cd's that I own?]: don't coUnt em
[Of scars on my body?]: coUntlEss
[Of things in my past that I regret?]: loAds

wElL.. firSt weEk of sChoOl hAs jUz eNdeD.. i'm stilL tryiNg to adjUst to e sEc4 lifE...oNe weEk hAs pasSed so fAst..i havn't goNe to s.f.x laSt weEk.. hopEfulLy i cAn gO thiS weEk..tsk i misS my fElLow friEnds deRe..hmM dEn schoOl lifE.. *stArtiNg to gEt strEsSfUl.. wAd to dO?! i'M iN seC4 lE.. cAN u bElievE iT ?! wth..hmM my tEachERs..soMe okaE.. soMe not sO okaE.. but anywaY..chElLe haS beEn comiNg to scHool almost every othEr daE iN e aftErnoOn toO.. dEn e rEcesSes arE fUn lA , coS i gEt to fiNd out who i'lL seE foR e nExt feW weEk's rEcEsS.. hmM.. jUz now [fridAy] i wENt to pUngGol eNd with my fAmily.. dA staRs wErE sO nicE.. dEN i was thinking of e sword of orioN , with e obloNg N stUff.. tsk..todAe is fUlL moOn toO..hmMs..thAt's abt it |a..i dUn thINk i cAn slacK toO mUch lE..oh yAr.. i alSo saw daz's stEad lolx..shE loOks liKe soMe oNe lEh..lolx =D.. *[chElLe : u sIck , u betTer takE cArE woR!!! hUgs]*

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I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone


Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
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wElL yEstErdAy wAs thE firSt dAy at sChoOl iN thIS yEar.. aNd it iS not eVeN wEek oNe yEt.. tsk tsk..but anywAy..dA dEcipliNe sUcks totalLy , coS dEy arE coMiNg doWn rEal hArd oN uS .. othEr dEn thAt , my foRm tEachEr hAs beEn eRm.. okaE lA.. can't sAy anythiNg mUch abt it either , cos i duN rEalLy noE hEr.. but i heArd froM pEarl tt shE's rEal niCe =X .. rEcEsS rOxs |a.. mEt lOaDs of jUnioRs.. havn't sEen eM for sUch a loNg tiMe.. shAroN N i hEadEd roUnd e cAntEen, i foUnd z!hUi , aNd foUnd out thAt shE wAs usiNg my OLD clAss lolx.. latEr sAw fairli , dEn saw mf with hEr cliquE , Rj N hEr cliqUe , alysSa.. mY bUng fAmily.. tSk.. jUz so mAny of eM , bUt mY hEart's misSiNg out on oNe... oh wElL wEnt bAck abit latEr after rEcEsS , N Ms lAu was iN clASs alreAdy..=S fiRst iMprEssioN of mE alrEady sO bAd.. btw , i'M sittIng at e bACk of e clAsS N ALONE...=X kAeS nVm.. wElL thAt's abt yEstErday [bEiNg thE lASt tiMe foR thE firSt day iN sEc sChoOl..]
..todAe .. i hEadEd to meEt shAroN , so thAt wE coUlD prActicE soMe stupiD script thiNgy.. shE cAmE aloNg to hElp mE mEmorisE e script.. lolx..so thRow fAce , cOs wE wEre makiNg so mUcH noisE wOr`.. wE oSo mEt pRiS N wEnt foR lUnCh..*foOd.. latEr iN e aftErnoOn , nic dropPeD by to paSs mE my x'mAs prEzZiE.. thAnkx bUdDy!!

=my dAmn bloG got problEM agaiN i thiNk... tsktsk=

*yAwN.. i jUz toOk my aftErnoOn nAp.. cos i slept REAL late lAst nitE.. my aunty frOm eNglaNd calLed ard 2am N so i pickEd up e phoNe coS i wAsn't a sleEp yEt.. but thAt's not e poiNt.. anywaY tml schoOl staRts..i'M actUalLy excitEd..[cAN u bElievE it ?!] but e tAut of mE bEing iN sEc4 jUz sUck .. coS it'lL bE a stUdyiNg yEAr.. aHhH wAd E.. nVm oH shiT.. mY hoMework !!! havn't finishEd it eithER.. aHs.. it's 1st jAn Y2K4.. babE.. yA likE lEaviN at e eNd of thiS moNth.. eNd of thiS mOntH.. whY... wHy iS it sO fAst?? why.. why mUz yEw lEavE mE?!.. ::anywAy:: lEt's jUz seE wHat schoOl wilL bE like tml.. maybE i shoulD calL clAra to gO bacK tml hUh heHex..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!!!!!

lEt mE rEmEmbEr soMe of my stoOpId nEw yEars ResolutiOn ..
1) tRy to bE nicER to pPl
2)dUn bUlLy e lowEr sEc
3)study haRder for i'm iN sEc4
4)listEn more , talk lEss
5)havE a closEr walk with christ
6)nEvEr to abaNdon chUrCh lifE
7)livE lifE to e fUlLeSt

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!!!!!