Kuku island =p

after looking around town for joyceys present 4 like 3 hrs,we were pretty bored waiting 4 nian coz she has to give tuition n have her beauty sleep.we were thru with waiting.haha.so we decided 2 go on a little adventure.wanted 2 go Haji lane.but then,nt sure how.n den Kusu island.lol.but we missed the laz ferry.dang.and so...we decided to trick nian tt we r at kusu island n ask her to hurry up come meet us.=p

only prob is tt she heard "kuku island" so she immed assumed we were talking a whole load of crap n refused 2 believe our story.sentosa was deadquiet.beaches almost empty cept 4 a few souls.n to think its a sat.muz be the rain.we muz be mad 2 go sentosa.totally not dressed or anythin.in jeans n umbrella toting.lol.turns out we had a great time nonetheless despite the incessant drizzle.the new sentosa express is pretty cool.rly increases accesability.cafe del mar having grandopening tt day.really wanna go there.its a bar cum cafe open 24 hrs on wkends n up till 1 on wkdays.=) we even managed to play the luge.lol.no queue at all.haha.

chionged back town to meet nian n get present.finally.damn scared the shops close.but shdnt be la.when we walked back frm palawan beach back to the trainstation,it was vvvvv deserted.n a lorry full of bhangras kept staring at us.ting got worried coz nv noe wad they mite do.lol.they wun dare do anythin one la.but i admit it was scary...thank god we decided 2 walk thru the huge carpark instead coz its lighted n safer.phew.ate at wisma after tt.phew.what i day.i tink we muz be mad 2 decide to go sentosa outta the blue. but we decided we shd have more "adventure trips" 2 weird places...

ichibansushi

yes nian.i posted tis photo of
me a glutton.so dun complain. rocksolid mango sorbet.><

what were we lookin at??
photos frm 2wks ago at ichiban wisma.kept trying to put photos in a collage.but 2 no avail after 1wk.i give up...anyone noes? we were v pretty tired.resulting in the not-so-pretty-n-not-glam photos...lol.n we discovered tt mangosorbet is a gd item to order if u r on a 1st date.coz its so hard to eat tt it creates a whole conversation topic by itself...ok.im spastic.=/ wanted 2 order better desserts but everythin juz ranout at nite.bleargh.

30 jan 2007

i admit.ive been n ass/jerk wadeva recently.throwing tempers and getting so irritable recently.=( sorry for upsetting anyone thru misunderstandings,impatience n what nots...alot of things going thru my mind recently n its driving me mad.the whole doesnt revolve around me anyway.i guess its up to myself to not let my feelings get to my head.i dunno why i let myself get so affected easily.dang.dumb on my part.thx to those who put up with me recently.not doing anythin but juz listening despite me being mean at times.sorry sorry.i will control myself nxt time.i promise.=(

arghh.freaking pissed with my sis today.she took my thumb drive n lent it to her friend w/o even telling me.wtf.i was close to tears trying to find the damn thing.it means alot to me since all my photos and songs are inside.and wad if the dumbass friend decided to delete off my stuff.damnit la.so irritating and irresponsible.i juz went into a rage when i found out she took it. so damn freaking pissed..=(
anw,i agree with val abt the expenses thingy.feel kinda bad taking my parents money too since im capable of earning money myself.maybe take juz abit la hor.like u take for transport.=p speaking of transport,argh.it is horrible. at least not waste money extravagantly la since u r not earning it.muz really learn how to appreciate money and stuff.prepare urself 4 the real world.we're gonna be adults soon, or more like young adults alrdy n hence muz start acting like one...gonna post some photos tmr or sum time soon.=))) although they have been rather outdated.
ohyea,i cant believe tt SOME PPL can actually lose their earring TWICE at TOPSHOP and still manage to get it back each time.hahaha.muz really start believing in miracles.lol.Thank God its found lest we will buy another 1 to cheer u up.

it ends tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this eveningI give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

jc days

and not forgetting the jc clique.in j1,we were the infamous 6 pokes.(cldnt get minmin's photo.=s)notorious in sch for being perpetually late n other reasons.haha.dunno y we became close as a clique in da1st place.fate la.haha.maybe coz we were all in sports ccas.lol.cant rmb.n then we had 2 split coz of change of classes in j2.=( we were devastated initially.but soon got used 2 the idea n we went diff ways.still talk n eat occasionally,bt the feeling is diff i guess. n then its down 2 the 3 of us in da same claz.we got even closer n almost spent the entire yr 2 together.so much so tt the guys in our claz kept calling us the powerpuff girls n teasing us abt it.lol.hiaz.good old times tt we can never relive again.=((( dunno 2 feel sad tt we drifted apart or feel happy tt we shared some gd times 2gether...

Random memories

was juz thinkin of the past juz now.how time flies.and how we've changed.matured.bcame closer.really miss the past 2 yrs in jc.and prob the yrs in sec sch more.its ironical how we seem 2 b able 2 meet up when we were schooling bt we meet up so seldom now we r out of sch.=( really hope we dont ever drift apart...u gurls rawk.thanks for all the wonderful times 2gether.lol.i am sounding so crappy and stuff...managed 2 salvage all these photos frm my hp.haha.random pics frm most recent n then backwards in time.

towning again =)

met dear joycey at town today.it was actually supposed 2 be our girls outing.but celest cant make it and the rest r busy so its juz down 2 the 2 of us.come 2 tink of it, we nv really went out alone 2gether b4 did we?haha.joyce cut her hair! haha.she looks nice although she tinks its not.lol.we shd hav taken more photos.we went shopping ard town but i din buy anythin.=( went threading at littleindia after tt.thanks for today gurl.haha.=))) went 2 another shop to thread coz the original one was not opened today.act i think this time its less painful than the previous one. i put on alot alot of weight! haiz.so sad.damn.i muz lose those kilos.argh.=((((

Gurls day out

went training in the morning.got bitten by lots of mosquitoes...damn it.
coach said tt the mosquitos only bite girls.ya rite.funny.damn mosquitos.
i think my blood type sends signals tt says "come suck me".lol.
oh n i juz realize theres alot of eyecandy ard kallang.=p
all the dragonboating,canoing,watersports teams all train there.
they r so hot.so much better than tt Rain can...haha.
met part of the girls today.=)))) went pastamania to eat.
it was juz a simple outing but i really cherish it. <3
its been a longgg time since we act really had time 2 go chill 2gether.
only thing was tt we cant find spaces at starbucks n had 2 settle for sakae.
ok...nxt time we juz go NYDC okay?
love my new earrings.thanks darling.haha.
n to think u bought me da same 1 as nian.
oops.nian dun be angry.it wasnt my fault! haha.
meet up soon yea? we'll all be working at rafflesplace.
how cool is that.
ohhh.and Shannen!!! i guess chancing upon ur blog was like serendipity! haha.
Ting said she saw u or smtg.we shd meet up.its been a very longg time.=D
teach me some korean.haha.kidding.

Quote of the day

We can do no great things, only small things with great love. <3

-mother theresa

TGIF

so fast and its friday.lol.time really flies...im really happy today.=) got my admin job.God definitely answered my prayers.or more like he got sick of my constant whining.will be working at AIA at raffles place on mon.but its a 2 week assignment thingy.hopefully can extend.ill be working at da same building as val c! haha.wad a small world! but she said tt most likely wont be working same dept la.Got a scolding by the consultant with my swimming company though.=(
coz got an assignment to coach nxt tues at bishan.but obviously now i cant since i'll be working 5 day workweek.damn.it sucks to be scolded.its nt my fault tt my schedule change so abruptly.but i dun blame her la.coz if im the consultant,i would be pissed too. i am getting fat.=( or more like i was fat ever since after may.hiaz.cant seem to lose weight.damn sad.arghhhh..trying to get some cardio done.yes. i am going to do it man...

keep trying.but somehow cant seem to forget.i wonder if i will regret my decision.n yet, the irony.u seem to be able to take it in your stride...

mingy.

anw,mingy,i never 4got about u ok.dun be mad.haha.love ya.u r my constant source of entertainment,pillar of support,and listening ear, shoulder to cry on all bundled up in one.=) thanks for all the 5min-become-1hr conversations.haha.esp today.was really feeling quite down and lonely and there was no one there to pick up my pathetic call.so yeah.i guess u r my SOS line as well.

im back from training.
pretty tired...not only am i the only girl today,but i am the only chinese.ok.another 2 came later.bt tt didnt reali make much of a diff to the race ratio either.been thinking whether I shd have started this sport.its really not easy.and the committment is heavy...hiaz.felt quite demoralized today.the 2 other guys with me did like better than me.and the coach had 2 stop once in a while to correct my footwork and stance.coach said i muz loosen up and not be so stiff.ok.maybe i shdnt compare with them since they started slightly earlier n the fact tt they are guys...=( intially it was ok.but im starting 2 feel a little uneasy after 2day.mainly becoz :

1) there are v few girls. so far i have only seen one other girl during trainings.or more like woman
2) the fact tt the ppl there are so fit.ppl who bench-press 85kilos,ppl who do 98 situps in 90 seconds,ppl who do pullups like there's no tomorrow.
3)then there's the culture shock.i realize tt malay guys are totally diff from chi guys.they way they speak and act.no offence la.they r very nice guys.juz need to get used to it i guess.mingy u will understand rite.haha.

wth.i cant give up right now.no.i muz hang in there.learn something and learn it well is the bare minimum.=( sorry for whining and moping around.lol.

feeling dejected =(((

been thinking about wad i did the past month or more.and I realized I 've been quite a loser. I kept trying to find an admin job but to no avail. all my attempts futile. u noe how tedious finding a job is.and how hard it is to get one.a good one that is.as the chinese saying goes: its like finding a needle in the sea...hiaz.the fuckin thing is that those employers dont contact u if u r not shortlisted.so its like,they tell u 2 wait 4 days.and make u hopeful.bt ultimately,u dun get the job.its like tasting failure over and over again.i hate this feeling to my guts.fffffff.to think ive wasted so much time and effort and transport money tryin 2 get one.
and i hate it when ppl make it sound like i nv try hard enough to get one.its juz that i am juz not fated 2 get a 9 to 6 job i guess.its not my fault.im so sick and tired of it.im nt gg 2 try anymore.dun talk to me about it anymore.i hate it when ppl tell me what to do.and plus my mum nagging at me nt to get a job adds on the pressure.come to think of it,its not the money tt i want the admin job.its the fact tt everyone has a proper job like that.damn.4get it.my quest 4 jobs r over.i decided to juz settle to coach swimming part-time so I can train full-time as well....

what you think, you become.

got my job

went for an interview to be a swimming coach.ha.was pretty intimidated at 1st coz other ppl like all damn pro liddat.we were assessed on our swimming skills, communication skills and stuff. about 3 hrs la.thanks.i was like shivering and shivering in the pool...in the end, i got the job! haha.pretty glad about it.because i kinda lost my credential certs and stuff.the kind tt states wad silver,gold swimming awards etc.and sum ppl today had lifesaving skills under their belt whereas i have nought.=( i will be coaching beginners and intermediate levels.hopefully i get to work with kids.i think i will feel uneasy coaching ppl older than me.lol.this job really suits me coz its not smtg boring.and it still leaves me time for other stuff.=))) made frens with a national dragonboater today.she looks really intimidating at 1st but after a while i realized tt she's like so gentle.haha.she broke the ice by telling me tt i looked familiar.turns out that she could have seen me b4 coz she stays very near me.really coincidental.we will have to undergo training sessions to learn how to be a coach but can also start coaching at da same time.we had to practice being a coach today and i realize its not as easy as it seems.to ppl who know how to swim, breathing underwater and stuff cums naturally and seems v easy but for someone who doesnt noe hw to swim,theres alot of details to pay attention to and u have to be very patient.really hope i am up to the job...in the mean time, i shall go relax..ha.=)

I love it when u call

I found a switch
Turned it on
Hit the ditch
And carried on
I was so near
Now you're so far
Are you quite sure
Just who you are

you could chose a friend
but you don't seem to have the time
wonder if you ever get to say what's on your mind
O take a little time, take a little time

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all

This song is stuck in my head.damn..=)

NUAH-ing!

I've been nuah-ing at home the entire day today! Gosh,i tink i slept half the day away.12 hours minimum.this is crazy.i tink im going mad...the weather sux.it totally destroyed my exercise routine.wanted to do cardio.damnitdamnitdamnit.darn this weather.cant swim cant run.crap. i dun even feel like moving my ass to the gym which is like a 8min walk away in the cold cold rain. argh.the paranoia of the results day keeps on haunting me.the feeling sux.i dun wanna face reality.Goddamnit.ohmygod,why is it still raining??? it has been raining for like the entire day.... grrrrhhhhh....tmr's my interview with UOB.hope i will get the job.gotta pray hard today.

met haitun in the aftn at SGH to do some volunteerwork.its our 1st time there.and we were like the youngest can.mostly all old Christian aunties.lol.we basically went around the wards and entertained the patients, esp those who have noone to visit them.we gave them crafts and taught them how to make the crafts.ok.more like the aunties taught them since we were new and didnt noe how to make.i guess we were able to relate to the younger patients better.like those of our age.most of them are in there 4 like some serious illness.so quite poor thing la. theres this girl,nurfazilla or smtg liddat.she has multiple schlerosis which means a disease tt affects the nerves and paralyses part of the body. in her case, she cant walk.After chatting with her 4 awhile,we realized she only got the disease like in 2005 and she was previously an active athlete. she was in siglap sec girls soccer team.apparently quite zai one.got win bronze,gold in nationals tt kind.its really quite sad becoz she say she will nv be able to play like tt in this state. at most only limp around.i think its the feeling of being appreciated really gives a sense of satisfaction to the volunteers.although there are sum patients who wave u away, but when u get patients who appreciate wad u r doin, u feel great.hopefully,we can volunteer more in future.=) i really want to seek a career in the healthsciences...haha.haitun says she wanna do occupational therapy or smtg to tt effect.hurhur.lets see.later see blood u scream or smtg.kidding la. anw, had a great time wif u today.oh,the desserts at SGH kopitiam are great! they even have stuff like bananaboat and other icecreams.yummy...=)))) okay,i gotta go bathe now.tata.

H.A.I.T.U.N

hey beeee,u will alwaz be my BFF.haha.or rather BBFF.anyway, juz wanna tell u tt u r not a loser la.dun be crazy. u r so fit.why will u be a weakling? hmm,i will alwaz be there for u whenever i can although i have been busy and have not really talked to u as much as b4 As.yep.anw,i still care for u even though i dun msg and call u as often.really miss the jc days. we used to have so much fun in school rite.lol.i think its hard for things to ever be the same again...
anw, our clique should also have a gathering soon ya? we havent met fer quite sum time as well.
talk to u lata or smtg bee. ("_,)

sickening

The dreadful rain is making me moodier and whinier everyday.=( Iwish the rain would go away.Then i could go swim and stuff.The swimming coach course thingy was cancelled today because of the rain.argh.was so looking forward to it in the morning...it really sux to be unemployed.the feeling totally sucks.wtf.i have a job la.but its super not worth it since its only 4 hrs.at 1st they say its 5 hrs.den at least still a lil more reasonable la.to top that of, i am so bored to death there becoz im practically slacking most of the time.to think i can make my own phone calls and fall asleep there.becoz its a high-end clinic, the patients are quite few...so i only help out like twice everyday with the therapy sessions with the kids when they r in the gym.all in all, i tink i seriously spent my time workin fer only 1 hr out of 4.=( hiaz.im telling u, if i carry on further doin smtg liddat, my braincells are really gonna bust.im getting dumber by the day.and so much for my resolution to read books.only read a grand total of ONE book after As.anw,i have an interview at UOB bank nxt mon.Dear God, pls lemme get that J.O.B.really really hope i can get tt job.the hotel job is still tendering but obviously its my last resort.the absurd shifts and hrs are juz not my cup of tea but my last resort la.some may beg to differ,but its a personal choice la.since i prefer to keep weekends to myself and my girls. Haven't meeting my girls for quite a period of time now,hiaz.everyone's juz so busy and caught up.its boiled down to juz short msgs and brief phone calls.=( with so much stuff happening lately, we should really really really meet up real soooon.yes, leeting, ive had similar sentiments as u do.haha.and ive yet to eat that shepherd's pie! im drooling alrdy.

HAPPY 19 BDAY SHIMIN!!!

happy bday minmin! hope u have a blast today!!! =) Stay as strong and fit as ever! ("_,)

whatsgoneisgoneandnevereverwillcomeback

ive been thinking alot these few days.and i feel maybe we're not just meant to be 2gether.we've laughed, we've cried and definitely created many memories these past 2 years.and I really dont wanna let it go like tt,but u kinda leave me with no choice.im juz nt ready 2 accept u,n maybe nv ever will be.why cant u juz understand and see things in my light?cant u juz compromise a little.wtf.really didnt expect things to turn out like this in the end.nevertheless,i really hope i dont lose a friendship along with this relationship.I guess i still do care for u though we will walk different paths cause of our different ideals.I dont know if i will regret this in future.but hey, ive made a decision.so i might as well stick with it.I do cherish all that u've given me,but all good things do come to an end.....

swimming at safra club

have been swimming for average 3 times a week for like 2 weeks?? really love swimming. i juz love the adrenalin rush. its a gd thing tt the safra pool is always quite empty.really need 2 lose weight. im freaking fat now.i really dunno why i became like this.hiaz.maybe its the lack of exercise ever since tennis ended in may.and prob the stress resultin in indulging in comfort food.damn...really need to burn tt calories! ("_,)

My hamster

My dear hamster, Rocco who has been with me fer abt a yr! Minmin: See? it didnt die. Rocco is as sweet as an angel when it sleeps.but othertimes,its a little devil.running on the wheel and disturbing me time and time again.but nevertheless, he provided gd company during my dreadful mugging period.lol. ("_,)

volunteer work

These are some pictures frm the volunteering with mensa at Chan Su lan methodist home. I know. they are kinda pathetic coz they r frm my hp.haha.hope to get more of the photos soon. Anyway, volunteering with so many kids was quite an experience...since they r a really boisterous and rowdy bunch incl sum special needs kids as well. There was this little boy, Nicholas who kept crying at 1st becoz his mum just left him. quite heartbreaking.but eventually he forgot about it and juz joined in da games and stuff.really cute. P.S hes the one with the yellow balloon sword...Merry and I finally got our balloon flowers after waitin 4 like 30min or so.the balloonman didnt want 2 e ntertain us at 1st..=((( haha. looking forward 2 the next volunteering session.("_,)

New blog!

okay.i realized that alesiakoh.blogspot.com is really spastic.so yeah.changed the blog name. wanted alelicious.but its taken.=( daym. i got the idea from fergalicious.haha.hope i dont get sued by fergie...i shall post more entries soon.=)))) tata.