First time woke up late for lecture in NUS

This is barely the 3rd week of uni and I couldn't wake up in time to go for lesson. Supposed to have lecture at 8am, but I only woke up at 9.45am. lolx.. Rushed down in time to attend the 2nd half of the 2nd lecture. Didn't really want ot go to school, but have a tutorial after that, plus meeting fang in sch to go for blood donation, so had to make a trip down..

The IT tutorial is really easy... Now the headache is how to score well for the project, this is a MUZ get A module... cos the rest is really tough. haiz...

Went down to HSA for blood donation, today is the 15th time, but Fang couldn't donate due to low blood pressure... wasted.. think this is the 3rd time that she's being rejected as a donor leh... previous 2 times, think it was due to low Hb level.. Don't know why... she look healthier today, but still failed the screening.. hmm.. So in the end, she had to wait while I donated. Next time will try to remind her to eat more and healthier before coming for donation. must do some preparation. haha...

Thereafter went to COMEX fair to get the printer. walked around the place, and scouted for a few quite good models. In the end, I got the Fuji Xerox, 203A monochrome laser printer. too bad that the duplex cost too much. $200 more for that extra convenience, I don't have that amt of $$ to spend like that... So no choice... Have to manually flip the notes when I want to print double-sided. Lug the big printer home, and I'm really satisfied with it.. Yeah... Its fast and print quality is quite good as well. But it burnt a hole in my pocket le.. have to save up more this few weeks le... T_T.

Life's Beautiful

In the library doing my work now, just suddenly feel like blogging down some of my thoughts.

Yest was a busy day, meeting quite a few ppl along the day, and thus I didn't really do much work. Met Ashley in the afternoon, just to hang out.. initially suppose to go ice skating, but our legs are quite "cui" after the run, plus her hairline fracture near the ankle, ruled that out. Thus just hang around PS. Then in the evening, met Fidia, and Lynal for dinner.. Have not met Fidia for erm.. 4 yrs ? Really long time... nice to catch up on some of the things that has been going on.

Eventually was talking to Lynal, and what he said bought back sense to me.. it was a really simple sentence which I've known for some time, but sort of forgotten about it in the midst of all the things that has been happening around me. He just said " Since the 2 of you have already broken up, be happy for her that she can find happiness in the future relationship, since what I wanted in the first place was for her to be happy. Be glad that she has already found it elsewhere. " Upon hearing that I felt a sudden peace in my mind. Don't know why it suddenly wiped off all the unhappiness thoughts in my mind. Guess perhaps all along, I couldn't let go, cos she still mean something to me and I was honestly still thinking about patching back at some point of time. But realising what I had wanted was her to be happy in the first place, The path that we are in now perhaps would be much better for her. Though on my part, there's still some reluctance, but I guess sometimes love for the person is blinded, at least for me this time round, I am.

My hatred and unhappiness has suddenly dissolved in thin air..

Love and peace is definitely a much better problem than hatred. Being gracious enough to let go of things that has occured is one trait that I muz inculcate into my daily life. I shall take back my previous lesson learnt in the previous post regarding on " no point on being nice... " And replace it with.. " Be Gracious and accepting "

Fang told me this some time ago.. "Everybody has their own option of choosing their life path and which suits them better." She has thus found hers.. I'll just be glad that she has found her happiness elsewhere and I wish her all the best in her current relationship, or any future relationship where she can truly find her own happiness. and I hope to be able to find mine soon.

Thank you to all my dearest fren who have stayed by my side all this while, supporting me, lending me a listening ear, and giving precious advices. Special thanks to Karen, Fang, Daniel, Lynal, HS, Jiahui and my dear Sis.

I think I've finally seen the light to this torturous moment, and put an end to the 5 months of misery that I've been going through. I will survive and be stronger. To end this post, I would like to quote what Karen always tell me

" Life's Beautiful ".

PB for 21km , 1hr 55min

Recorded a new PB this morning when I ran the 21km for SBR.. Some call it Singapore Bay Run, Some say Sheares Bridge Run, Whatever it is, SBR is the correct one. It was actually rather unexpected actually, didn't really train for it, so wasn't looking at any PB or fast runs.. was just hoping to complete it around 2hrs or so.

The day didn't start well actually. I only slept at 1.15am, due to the reluctance to sleep, and I was waken up by my Aunt's call at 2am. She called to ask if I still want to borrow the car for the run later. Lolx... 2am, when I'm right in the middle of my short 3hrs sleep. Though I wasn't really awake, I still agreed, and somehow manage to drive back by 2.30am with my mind not really sane. Took a short nap, before waking up at 4.15am to prepare for the run. Left house a bit late, due to wearing of contacts. Its always a problem whenever I wear contacts early in the morning... Cos my eyes are small.. plus the sleepy morning, it just makes it even smaller and harder to put it in. haha... What to do... small eyes has its disadvantage.

Chiong there asap, but was turned back at Nicoll Highway at 4.59am. The road closure starts from 5am actually. but the TP refused to let me past. Damn. the car infront of me manage to go thru.. !@#$%$#@! . had to make a big loop back, and thus I got to the venue a bit late. Flag off is at 5.30am, I reached there at 5.25am. Still had to find Ervin, to put down some of my things.

Started the race at 5.42am, 12min later. And supposingly should be running together with Ervin, but I started off rather fast, and I lost him within the first 1km. Lolx.. With an aim in mind, roughly 6min/km. I paced myself carefully for it. only to find out that I've been going at a pace of abt 5min 20 sec. Upon reaching 10km mark, the timing was 54.50. Reasonable enough, and I decided to chiong 11km under an hour, so that leaves with 10km for the next hour. My pace wasn't really consistent due to the heavy human traffic flow. Had to mingle and squeeze my way thorugh. Hate it when I start too late. That's what happens.

I hit the wall when I reach 17km mark. My mind keeps telling me to stop running, and start walking. I've been running alone all the while, and when this type of things happen, its either I win the battle and carry on running, or the devil wins the battle and I start walking. I had to mentally psycho myself, using phrases like " There's no one else other than myself that can pushes me. Its all in the mind that I Will succeed. And I just kept going, counting down each individual KM, as my body is aching with pain. Mentally keeping myself in the race, while letting my eyes float around, staring blankly into the scenaries and just keep running. Till the last KM, I hit the toughest challenge. That is my body is starting to shut down. The exception level of gastric juice in my stomach made me almost vomitted out. My heart was pounding and my legs were trembling, the rhythm some how went out of order and I just kept coughing and coughing and coughing, losing my breathe. If I were to carry on with that pace, with the lack of oxygen ( cos I was frantically coughing ). I'm sure I would end up fainting by the side. Cos I experience moments of darkness infront of me for a period of time. So I had no choice but to slow down to catch my breathe and to ensure that I can finish the race in a piece.

So my last 1km ended in 7.38min. The slowest km that I clock for the entire race, explains and shows the amount of pain I was facing. All in all, I finished the race in 1h 55min. A good experience I would say.




Some distance Seems a bit ambigious. cos I don't think I ran that fast. e.g. lap 7-8, and lap 15. Even my 1km run up the Sheares bridge is faster than my last Km.. Zzz....
(Clocked this using my Timex 50-lap memory Ironman training watch. It came in handy..Yeah.)

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While talking to Teckwei just now, found out that Bj has since been attached to Leonard, ( Who I've long suspected that he has to play a part, plus my sis witnessing it. ). This was more of a confirmation rather than a shocking news. Cos he studies in the same course as her. And this make me realise that i've been kept in the dark for so bloody long. When I asked her some times back in june whether she's together with him, she don't dare to admit it.. What to do. being ditch in such an awful manner... reason given " I want to see if life without you would be better" WTF. Wat a hurtful reason. how bloody cruel can that be...

Come to think of it, its a lame excuse, cos apparently she already has him in mind. to get together within 3 months of breakup from a 4 yrs relationship, just shows what type of person she is. Told karen about it, and she tell me that every fall I'll learn to become stronger and learn something different. I agree..

It doesn't pay to be nice, cos there are too many bastards and bitches around that screwes it up.

My Sis said that I'm mentally strong, and I should be able to cope with it. Yes, I would say my mental strength is stronger than a lot of ppl, and thus I've not really shown anybody my weaker side, cos I'm still handling it well. Just that when you compare Emotions with mental strength, its different. I'm a emotionally weaker person. This is one area where I think I lose out ba. and I've got no idea how to make it stronger...

Studying in VJC

Went to VJ today to study, and I should say, was rather productive. Don't know why, but just feel so comfortable there. mind is at ease. especially so when there's no bad memories from there... ( other than the poor A level grades ). and I had no internet access, which plays a huge role in allowing me to focus on my studying.

Daniel came to pick me up from tampines, before we went down together to start mugging around 11.30am. studied there till abt 5pm, together with Meng Siong, before leaving there, cos Dan need to attend some bdae party. Just nice that he's travelling by TPE, managed to get a ride back too.. yeah... really lucky. THanks Bro.. for giving me a ride. =) .

Was rather productive today, finishing up a few tutorials and managed to read a bit on the Chem notes. Thinking of taking a break and rest early tonight for the SBR tomorrow. Tomorrow's run would be a slow one, hopefully can complete around 2hrs. 11km for the first hr, 10km for the last 1hr. Didn't really have much time to train for it, so I guess this target is reasonable.

Deleted off Bj's contact from my msn.. It's done so after feeling absolutely terrible for the past few months, whenever I see her appearing online with nicknames that hurts when reading. I've not totally recovered from it and I want to move on. With the constant appearing of her with those nicks, it just deepens the wound. So to prevent that from happening again. I've forced myself to delete the contact. Though that would mean I'm breaking off contact le. But I guess, " chan tong bu run duan tong, " Might as well do so now...

Yeaps..
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Never will one day of your Life be the same.
Live life as you want it to be..

First Lab session

Went shopping with Karen yesterday. It's been a really long time since I last did that actually. Accompanied her to Orchard to buy some stuff that she needs for her trip. Haven't been to Orchard for a few months le.. If I don't recall wrongly, the last time I went there, was with Fang. Nevertheless a good breather outside the normal routine of going to sch, then to tuition or back home. At least noticed some changes that has happened to town itself.


Came home and tried studying and doing tutorial.. Was faced with tough challenges. Really have no idea where to start from... reading from the notes, is really insufficient. Think I've no choice but to get the text book by monday. If not I'm falling too far behind. This is only 2nd week, and they are driving me up the wall. ARhz...

Appeal for my computing module has not being processed either. and the dropping of module period is nearly over... Sianz.. If I can't get the tutorial slots, I'll have to drop the module. This is just so frustrating. Though I would have personally preferred to drop Calculus rather than computing, cos Computing is definitely going to be easier for me. Not sure if I've got that choice. Hoping to see some emails tomorrow to tell me whether the appeal has been successful. If not I'm just so dead.

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Today attended my formal lab Session. Biodiversity lab session, on Mircobiology. Basically was about bacteria culture, innoculation of bacteria, smearings, etc. 2pm to 7pm. Really long hours. Supposed to have ended by 6pm, but the 2 dear group mates are so Kiasu and BLUR. they just keep asking the T.A ( teaching assistant ) to repeat what she has just said, and copied every single thing down. Btw, they are twins. So 2 blur sotongs. SAME SAME. lolx.. Cos of them, I ended lab an hour late, and had to rush down for tuition which is at 7.30pm. Luckily, its nearby. was just a little late.

When teaching my student, the questions on life sciences, is about the same to what I've been studying!!! and she's only sec 1. WTH... though its not as detailed as what I'm reading in my current module, I wasn't even exposed to all these when I was in JC. the education system has really changed so much in recent yrs. Thank goodness I'm reading Life Sciences in Uni, Doubt any other major Uni students of my age would have prior knowledge on it. Stresses me out man.. She's studying what I'm studying now.. So Am I suppose to know much more in depth ? Haiz...

MUG MUG MUG... meeting Dan and Meng to go VJ to study tomorrow. Need to get cracking le. Weekend is suppose to be a bit more relaxing. but mine is just the opposite. Cos my weekdays are just so packed with activities that I've got no time to study. Weekend is the only time.. Sadedz...

Don't know exactly what to post today... but just have the feeling of doing so.. Suppose to be asleep by now, cos there's lect at 8am, but just can't fall asleep... or perhaps... just don't want to turn in as yet.. Was reading through the Organic Chem notes just now, and looking at the stacks of notes to be read... I'm really wondering whether I can do well.. Its really tough to understand. Alright.. to be fair, Computing and stats are fairly easy... Calculus is still ok... just need to do a bit more.. With a stronger background in Math than the rest, it just makes things simpler, though not that good either.. The bad thing, I'm now in Life Sciences, and the core are bio modules. and math modules only stands at 1 or 2 modules.

There's really not much time to spare in Uni. feel like dropping the tuitions to free up time for me to read up. Its really tiring to handle both at the same time. Need a balance in Uni with things I like to do as well.. Looking at my dad, recently just injured his arm, and both my parents are getting old le.. If I stop tuition, it'll just put more strain on them.. how can I do that... but my profession now is a Student.. which should I be doing ? but if circumstances don't allow, what to do.. Being independant is never easy. kinda envy those who are being sheltered by their parents all the way. And to think that they are always complaining that their parents are putting so much control on them... WTH. living in the best of comfort, yet they are still complaining.. Ppl once said abt my independence, but that really comes with a price..

Haiz... shall hang on to the tuition till the end of the sem and see how it goes...

Love

Love is kind, yet cruel.
Love is blind, yet encompasses all else.
There is no such thing as unconditional love.
If you do something for someone,
you expect reciprocation, you expect some response.

Love causes happiness beyond measure,
and sadness beyond measure too.
Love causes many a sleepless night, good and bad.
Love is contradictory, like the angel and the devil,
Love is bittersweet, like sugar yet with a pinch of salt

Love is never perfect.
It comes and goes as fast as the wind,
never able to fully grasp it,
yet still able to feel it.

Love lures you with sweetness.
But when the curtain comes to a fall,
you will know that love is lonely,
you will disbelieve in it,
you will know it is a deadly trap,
an endless bottomless pit.

Taken from Ashley Foo...
( While answering her question on Define Love )

Realise that after 1/2 a yr, I still can't forget about it.. Not that I've not tried to forget about it, but perhaps, I've not tried hard enough, or like Kianseng, maybe I didn't choose to forget about it at all. Whatever the case is, I know I'm still not emotionally stable to start something afresh, and to think about the backblast that I may face if it fails, I'm reluctant to get started again. Have to wait till I'm ready to face it again... but that will definitely take a long time, 1 yr ? 2 yr ? or more ? Let time decide itself. Till then ... ...

Candid Shots

Bought the labcoat and lab goggles today. Suddenly felt like taking a photo with it, so I just put on the lab coat and got my mum to take a photo of me posting with my apparatus.. lolx. Just too bored.. but the effects were not bad wor... With the test tubes in hall, it makes me look " ahem " professional.... ( less the background, which spoils it... )

Went to meet my Ex. Colleagues from starhub for lunch this afternoon, Just a suddenly feeling to meet them, and it's just 2 bus-stops away from NUS, so why not. other than this week, not sure when will be the next time I have time to meet them le.. A nice feeling to see them again, Warmly welcome by Guoyong, My buddy in starhub. Miss talking cock and crapping around with him.. Those were the days.....

In the evening, after my tuition, met Lynal for Pool. Played a race to 7, and I won 7-2.. Played reasonably well today. Feel good with my strokes. So long never play with him le... Guess we are all getting a bit more busy. Will try to improve my skills further when I join the NUS cue sports...

And I didn't get my Tutorial Slots... ARhz... ITs irritating the hell out of me... First, I didn't manage to get my core modules, then first bidding round, I didn't get my electives, and now, balloting for tutorials, I didn't get it either... WTF. everything just don't seem to be going my way. Need to ballot again tomorrow, in the hope that I can still get some decent slots. Though I've got no choice for some modules, cos the rest all clashes with my lectures. The stupid bidding and balloting system of NUS.. I really condemn the system they are using.. Arhz..

No title

Went to teach tuition in the morning, Once again, its a boring sunday. Would have preferred not to travel from tampines to clementi if I could.. Seriously, but what to do... for my own survival and allowance, I have to do it. As it was along the way, gave Fang a lift back to her hall, before heading for tuition, which is just 5mins away. Thereafter met her for Lunch. Something different from my normal Sunday routine, whereby I head back home without eating anything. So it was good, to have met her, if not most prob would go empty stomach again... Went to Clarke Quay to eat pepper lunch, at the new building, ( is it called centre ? ) lolx... absolutely no idea man.. haven't been travelling else where other than NUS, Clementi ,Sengkang , and back home, Realise that I don't say Tampines, cos I don't even visit TM... Some how I've gotten use to the monotonous lifestyle that I'm leading... though getting use to it doesn't necessary means I'm enjoying it..

( Pepper Lunch )


Thereafter rushed back to meet my aunt before going to Toa Payoh to collect the SBR race kit. It was very packed, with the limited parking lots available, I had a hard time finding parking space. Collected the kit, which was efficiently handed and signed up for the SAFRA running club. The queue for paying the registration fee for SAFRA running club wasn't exactly very long, perhaps about 15 ppl, but with 2 counters operating at SNAIL speed. it took me 50mins before it was my turn. ULTRA slow service. ARhz...

Tried doing some of the Calculus tutorial, couldn't remember so many things. Had to approach my aunt for help. At the very least, I managed to finish it, that's the consolation. More to come and more reading needs to be done. Uni life is tough...

Have almost decided on joining Contract Bridge club and Cue Sports, focusing on Pool, Though I would have preferred to play snooker, but the training sessions clashes with Bridge session. So have no choice. Looking at my current schedule, I'm already packed to the brim.
Mon - Tuition
Tues - Bridge
Wed - Tuition
Thurs - Pool
Fri - ( most prob Bridge )
Sat - Free
Sun - Tuition.

Hmm... Doesn't look appealing at all. But guess this would be my time table for at least this sem. To continue to teach tuition a not for next sem, would depends on whether I can handle the work load. I've already taken cycling out from my routine Tues night ride. A sacrifice I've to make in order to improve my skills. Have to find other time to go for cycling instead....

(Some rare scenes captured last week, appearing in the sky above Tampines MRT. )

Just decided to add in some photos. Realised that I've not uploaded photos for a pretty long time.

NUS RUN 07

Went for the NUS run this morning at Kent Ridge park, 10km run, not a very long distance, but the route taken was quite a killer. The amount of upslopes and hills is no-joke. Keep climbing and climbing.... and more climbing.. A good training actually. Wasn't preparing to go for this run at all until Meng Siong jio me to go and run on thurs, last min decided de. So went into this run without any preparation. Quite satisfied with the timing of 45.50min for this 10km route. good timing for me who don't train this distance de. Didn't really know how to gauge my own fitness without running the route, so had quite a lot of reserve in me when I crossed the finishing line. HAha... its a good thing, cos its the last conditioning run for next week's SBR 21km run.

Insufficient sleep last night, came back after the run to sleep, and Once again. I'm practising to be a couch potato, who only goes out to run, other than that, I'm usually at home seated infront of my lappy, playing game, reading news. Hmm... the only couch potato without a big belly I guess.

End of first week

Today marks the end of first week in NUS. Many things has happened along the way, and time really flies. To think just some time ago, I was still waving good bye to my men, and now, its already a week into Uni.

Went for the first field trip of the many that I will be attending in the future.. Though a short one to Kent ridge park, which is .. erm... in NUS itself.. haha... On a biodiversity module, so kinda can expect what are the things I'll be seeing. Today's session was mainly on identifying of plants around Kent ridge. Had a hard time remembering the names, all the biological terminology, bleahz.. just amazing that the plants that I learnt today, are all the plants that we usually see when we go outfield, and we use it for camouflage as well.. lolx... was able to understand the reasons why the secondary forest we are in, are in such bad conditions etc... Enjoyed the field trip.. rather enriching. Good to take a breather outside of the lecture hall...

Went to SCBA ( Singapore Contract Bridge Association ) to play a pairs competition, though a friendly game, but it was still rather stressful. Sparing with good players from all over the place. Its being a really long time since I last played there, but the results was quite good.. got 3rd out of a total of 13 teams, managed to win $8 for it.. not bad for a game where I paid $2 and wasn't expecting anything actually. Did quite ok, except 3 boards, if not could have being even top the chart. Still got a lot to learn, and its just that today, there are some sch teams playing, they got slaughtered by us... I was there before, can understand how they feel. Definitely, I'll try to go there more often to play, firstly, I enjoy it,secondly, playing with the better players, can make me improve too. Will work towards my aim of getting into Singapore youth team. That may seem a bit tall with my current standard, but an aim is to work towards to. No matter what the outcome is, I know I've tried my best, that's the most important thing. NUS-NTU challenge coming up, Muz do well for that...

A 10km run at Kent ridge park, NUS run, yawnz... last run before I go for SBR next sunday. time to take a break and will take tomorrow's run easy. Idea is to just condition my body with the slopes there...

Another day in Sch

Just another day in school. Quite a boring day actually.. Met karen to go sch together and I did a big cock up by mistaking the time to meet. thought it was supposed to meet at 10.45am, but she meant 10.30.. So I was kinda late for the few rare times. Making her to think that I've pangseh her and went off first le.. So sorry abt that, almost caused her to be late...

the only positive thing about today was that both lecture were significantly better than CHEM and Calculus. Had intro to computing and biodiversity. Have a much better understanding in both and it does makes things easier when you have an interest in it, cos you would have prior knowledge to it, or at least, the lecture would sound interesting to you. haha...

the few lecture mates were rather friendly, got a few girls sitting beside me, tried talking to me, self introducing, but I was rather cold. didn't know why. Wasn't really interested in talking or knowing them. And one of them is actually quite pretty, with 2 not bad de... but just didn't want to talk more. Need to be more open and friendly..

What CCA to join is still a big headache for me... Can't decide.. I don't have much time to spare for it actually. Mon, wed got tuition, and my lessons on fri end at 6pm. Don't know which would be better for my personal development as well. Have wanted to take part in sports for some time, but didn't dare to commit due to the heavy training that may be involved.. But looking at all the rest, I know I won't be totally happy without doing anything that I may enjoy. I need to focus on studies, yes, but I need to find a balance from elsewhere. There's no where else for me to do so now... and I can feel the emptiness in me... HOW?!?

Bridge Club

Attended the MA1102R lesson, Calculus lesson, and it was better than the Chem lecture that I attended yest. Perhaps cos my foundation for Math is better. Things sounded familiar, and I could make sense out of it, but when coming to Tutorial Qn, I'm still at a loss. Really forgotten how I'm suppose to go about doing it. Jia Lat....

Bummed around in sch after the lesson at 2pm until 6.30pm, just to wait for the bridge session at 7pm. Luckily Desmond lent me his room to take a rest in. Took a short nap and did some work. Quite shag out just now, due to the morning 16km run with Allen. Had quite a good timing for it though, 1hr 40mins for it.

Played with the Bridge club ppl, and I regained the love for playing well... Erm.. though it wasn't really lost in the first place.. Cos I enjoy playing it.. lolx... Just that playing in a " tournament like " environment, the feeling is different. Got to see a few familiar faces, previously from VJ as well. know there's a heavy influx of VJ bridge players in the club. Got this pair, previously from HCJC so " zuai " think they are very good. Even commented that VJ bridge isn't that good, when they themselves are quite lousy, and we won 1st and 3rd in national inter-sch, where they were not even listed in top 5. KNS. Wait till I find a proper partner to Pawn them.

Still considering whether to really join this club, or should I try out something different. Definitely, I know I don't want to be in the committee anymore.. Just want to participate and enjoy, rather than putting in all the effort to organise things. But Should I join other sports which I've previously wanted to ? hmm... Tough call here..

First day in NUS

Today was the first day in NUS. Met Desmond and his fren Ben. Got to know new friends and along the way met Liang He who was with another few ppl. So went there alone and in the end managed to find some company. Luckily.... Perhaps its partly due to my personality I guess. Easily make friends as long as the person is open enough to. Not sure if this would be the clique that I would be sticking to for the rest of the sem, though I'm taking 4 of 5 modules together with most of them. Will see how it goes.. Hmm... total of 7 ppl, 5 guys and 2 girls. with one of the gal, Grace, appearing to attract some attention from a few of them. but looking at all the rest of the fellow lecture mates, the proportion of gals to guys is overwhelmed.

Was attending the Organic lecture, Catch no ball from the lecturer. Honestly, I've forgotten most of the stuff. had a hard time trying to figure out what he was saying, with the Cheena accent, it makes things worst. Have to read up on the A level work to revise a bit.. hopefully it helps.

Ended the sch around 12noon, and headed back immediately, didn't really want to hang around sch much longer with no apparently... Got back to TM, just decided to visit the arcade to play some games. Perhaps a bit headache over the lost feeling in lecture. Went to buy deep fried squid and deep fried mushroom, a real SINFUL food. have been on a low fat diet whilst preparing for the 21km SBR. The pressure of the school really pushes me to eat something that I'm not supposed to eat and have resisted for weeks. Damn.

Not supposed to eat those junk food, not only because its unhealthy, but also because I realiesed that my body don't react well upon eating it. Can't perfom to its best when I'm eating junks. Have no choice but to have more self control. just one more week to go. and I initially still thought its this Sunday. Gave myself a scare. still got one week to prepare. Phew... Suppose to meet allen tmr morning for a 16km run... hopefully will be able to complete it without injuring my muscles.

Oh ya... I got bitten by my student's dog. 2 of it actually. was just trying to get out of the house and they rushed towards me, crashing and biting on my right thigh. KNS. did absolutely nothing to provoke them. These dogs should be exterminated. A threat to humans, not only to me, cos my student has been biten by it a no. of times as well. Its not the first time le... Definitely got something wrong with it.. If given a chance, I will definitely take a base ball bat and whack its head off... Arhz... for repaying its kindess of leaving pain and a mark on my leg..

Adrenaline and fun filled day

Today has been a fun thrilled and exciting day. It begun with a relay duathlon with Hong Sheng at bedok reservoir. We took part in the relay organised by Ngee Ann poly, consisting of 4km run/ 4km kayak/4km run. It all went well, and we successfully completed the course, though not at a very fast time. Considering that we were not really prepared for it, the results were rather ok. The organisation of the event was rather messy and cock up too. It's not a very big event and the starting time was delayed by 30mins. That's not really acceptable. No professionalism displayed by the organiser and there were insufficient equipments for all to use.

While we were doing warm-up, we were being spotted by some HDB personnels who were trying to film joggers jogging at the reservoir. So we got approached to be filmed and HS was up running. Got a $20 reward for it. Quite a good deal, just to run up and down a few times.

Ended the race around 12.40pm, had to rush off to meet the class to go minds cafe. Chiong home to change and went off to meet Allen. Went to the minds cafe at Boat Quay area. played from 3pm till 5.30pm. A first for me actually. Have never played at such places before. Was rather fun to play those guessing games as a group, though I think I would have preferred to play more strategic games. By nature ba..

Went to Allen's house to play mahjong after that, with Huixuan and Yeelun. Yeelun was rather a newbie in it, thus was playing really slowly. He must have been thinking a lot about it, but a bit too long to be honest. Imagine playing only 2 winds, " dong " and " nan " in 3 hours. OMG. that's like the time I usually take to play 1.5 or 2 rounds. Haiz.. what to do. Just have to be patient when ppl are learning.

Overall today has been good. Whole day jam packed with activities, rather than staying at home home day, being a couch potato. This should be the last time that I actually go out to play before the start of the school term in 2 days time...

Oh ya... I got my modules le... Yeah... though both are under Breadth. used a total of 5 pts for 5 modules this sem. taking the more unpopular UE for this sem. Will store power and bid for some that I want the next few sems. Phew... at least I got the module before the lecture week. Have to work hard from now on le... Muz curb myself from playing so much com games.

I DIDN"T get my modules

Didn't manage to get BOTH the modules that i bid for on wed. So now i've only got 3 core and 0 electives. CRAP... What a way to say we can finally have a say in our future and choose what we want to study. How to choose and make the best out of it when I can't even get the modules that I want ? With only 400 general pts, I threw in 379 for computing, and I was outbid at 399. With the other module, last min outbid at 50. WTH.. ARhz.. Pissed off.

Wasted the whole day at home trying to source for ULU modules which can be taken with 1pt or at least a min. pt. Tomorrow need to bid again and hopefully will be able to get it.

Have 2 tuition sessions tomorrow, which will effectively destroy my bidding time. bidding starts at 0900 and ends at 1700. And I have tuition at 1000 at Clementi and another session in Sengkang at 1700.. Just how wonderful things have been going for me. Timing just clashes.

Have been a couch potato for the past few days... or rather weeks. other than the fact that this couch potato does a bit of workout and replaces the TV with this tiny 14.1" screen, everything I've been doing is really infront of the laptop. Couch potato baking in the process....

Just came back from Mengkit's bdae bbq at BUKIT BATOK. Freaking far. but what to do.. my army buddy and I've promised him that I'll be there. Missed the NDP on the water platform as a result. What a waste. Will try to catch the replay if possible, though that is usually unlikely to happen, cos I don't like to watch replays.

School is starting in 4 days, and I've not gotten my modules.. Crap... Just makes me dread going to sch even more.

Talking about Bdae party, just decided to upload some photos taken at Karen's Birthday last week..

Photos taken at Karen's Bdae Party 1 week ago.. ( The small grp of 03S12 )

Karen n Me.

exponential increase in mileage

Went down to NUS today, to settle my declaration for Life science modules. Need to manually fill in the form and sign the paper they would allocate me the modules... Haiz.. Quite a dumb way of doing it I would say. No other faculty has to do it manually and life sciences has to do it. Went all the way there, fill in the form for less than 5 min and went back. WTH.. at least now I've gotten my allocated core..

Tuition was cancelled today,quite last min. had nothing to do in the afternoon. Kinda good actually, cos I was actually having a slight headache. Took a rest instead( by playing game :P)

Met up with Kianseng for running in the evening, had to do crash course running for mileage now. cos AHM is like 2 weekends away. NO TIME le... die die... we did roughly 11km today. timing was 58.45min. Good thing that I ran with him, cos I'm really out of shape.. last distance clocked was 4km, yesterday.. Tiring for the legs. Usually running with another person means more motivation to keep myself going. Especially so if he's infront of me.. Just have that urge to catch up, thus pushing myself more. Just nice he's training for SCSM too. So I have a running buddy near home le.. YEAH!!! can train together all the way till SCSM. Have good feelings regarding this.. haha..

Realise that I've been blogging at 1plus 2 am everyday. So the date that appears are always a day late... hmm... perhaps I should do something to it..

Crabs are my FAV!!

Supposed to go training for kayaking this afternoon, but the canoe federation was close and PA only rent out boats to members. Had no choice but to postponed the kayaking training and we went to Bedok reservoir to do running instead. By the time we reached there, it was already 3pm. Freaking hot weather to run in. It was really a killer. Suffered a bit of migrain after the run. Clock 19.35 for 4km, not a very good timing, but a vast improvement from my previous atrocious timing of 21.15min. Shave off roughly 2 mins. Still got 6 more days before the actual event, Relay with Hongsheng for the run-kayak-run. Hopefully will be in prime condition. need to watch my diet and training carefully this few days le.. PLUS I need to have regular sleep. have been sleeping at 3-4am everyday..

Came home to rest after that, at least I was driving today. Shelter away from the awful weather. Should be fixing my tuition on Sunday from now on. Thought that means I need to make an extra trip down to Clementi, but it seems better for me and the student at the moment. Will take a look at my time table and see how it goes.

Will be heading down to NUS science dean office in the morning. I haven't gotten my allocated modules and I'm suppose to bid for electives le... How to bid without knowing the core schedules... Irritating. Though its my fault that I didn't attend CORS briefing, Science fac introduction tea session and any orientation, but the least they could do was to send a email to inform ppl to declare the major earlier isn't it.. Haiz.. Now I'm left with no choice.

Jio my Cousin, Wei Qi out just now to eat supper. Just had a sudden craving for Crabs, and we went to Changi V.. We ordered 1 black pepper crab and 1 chilli crab, with deep fried man tou. SHIOK!!! It was very spicy but the crab meat was "thick" the chewing feeling is heavenly. Been a long long time since I last had such enjoyable and delicious crab. It didn't come cheap though, $63 in all for 2 person, roughly $30 per crab.. but well.. sometimes just have to pamper myself once in a while. Used to pamper other ppl, now I've only myself to do so.. Will not deprive myself of good food.. Muahaha..

Crabs are my FAV!!!!.. Pheee.. So satisfied after gobbling down one whole crab.. =)

Black Pepper crab

Chilli crab

The 2 plates of crab

Karen's Birthday

Yesterday was Karen's birthday party at Aloha Loyang. Went over earlier to help her with the decorations. Reached there about 4.30pm, and immediately started blowing balloons. A bit testing of my breath, cos I was blowing approx 40 ++ balloons. Those good quality balloons are much harded to inflate.. *Panting*...

Ppl started strolling in around 7.30 -8pm, and the place got a bit more lively around that time. I was actually alone, only made a few new frens who went there a bit earlier too. Until Jiahui came, I didn't know anybody else.. haha. but ppl was with her bf, sometimes shouldn't disturb their conversation. hanging around until the rest of them came, the ppl from our class that came was only a few of them, namely, jiahui, allen, jiacai, mindy. plus me, 5.

Walk around occasionally to see if there's anything that I can help out, and at times, went to find Tim ( karen's bf ) to see if there's anything I could do too. Soon, it was cake cutting time. Helped to get the place ready and took the cake out. Tim was telling me to help get the birthday song started and ask me to stay infront to help. I was like... Huh... Cannot lar.... you are her bf, If I do too much, other ppl's mouth will start to wag. better stay back a bit and let him handle. Think it was a good choice to do that, as everything still went smoothly.

Stayed behind to play mahjong with Allen, Mindy and Jiacai. The tiles that I got was a total thrash. I only game ONCE over the course of the whole game. was playing defensive throughout the whole game and Allen was the casualty of it. Cos I'm before him, not getting good tiles means I have nothing nice to discard and anything I discard is the tile that he had previously discarded.. lolx. In the end, Allen and me ended up losing and Mindy,( the lcky girl ) and jiacai both won. But come to think of it, I only game ONCE, erm.. win $0.80 for that game, the total loss of 7.90 is still OK.. haha.. was very cautious not to " fang4 pao4". Phew.. minimise loss. Was still wondering the " shi2 san1 yao1 " played a role, cos it was said that its very bad luck to game that.. hmm... and I was getting shitty hand the whole of yesterday.. perhaps perhaps...

Left the chalet early in the morning to come home and sleep. Now my biological clock is totally upside down. Awake at night, sleepy in the morning. Have been sleeping at 3.30am-4 am and the little sleep I has made me rather lethargic. Don't really have the motivation to drag my tired body out of the house to run/train. Need to tune back and get back to training.. Sch is starting in one week's time. And i need to go down to NUS to manually declare my major. Sianz 1/2. I haven't gotten any modules as well. haiz... That's the bad thing of skipping all orientation, course briefing and not checking emails.

I game "Shi2 San1 Yao1"

Just got home from a night of Mahjong. Supposed to be an AAR session with them regarding our Laos- Cambodia trip, have a short sum up of some of the factors during the trip. But it ended up viewing some of the photos that I've arranged and playing mahjong. The Mahjong started around 11pm, and we finished 3 rounds of it by 6am. A rather fast time. Plus our last round was like 1hr 45 min. A record fast time that we've managed to finish it.

WoHoo... Today is the first day that I game " shi2 san1 yao1". started off with 9 tiles already set, and the tiles that keeps coming in were either words or 1 or 9.. I was left with either perservere with it or change to a " Dui4 Dui4 Pong4 " I chose to hang on to it, believing that I will succeed. And I did.. YEah.... Was so happy with it, cos its really tough to game with that and I've tried so many times before but have never succeeded. Finally got it today. Today must be the special day. =) I game with the tile, 9 bamboo. haha..

prior to playing mahjong, I was bidding... erm or rather, trying to bid for modules. Supposedly, I'm to bid or confirm my core modules by this bidding term, 1C. but I couldn't cos I was supposed to have declared my major 2 days ago, allowing them to allocate my majors. I wasn't informed about it, and absolutely got no idea of it. Only got to know it when I log into the system. Need to wait for them to process before I could do anything. Its kinda irritating looking at the modules and the system for so long only to realise that I couldn't do anything. Call and check with CORS office, they redirected me to Life science extension, but nobody picked up. Wil try and call again later today to check. DIE DIE have to get the modules later, because this bidding session closes today at 1700. Can't imagine the consequences if I can't manage to get the core modules. Haiz.. y so much trouble...

Matriculation day

Went to NUS today for matriculation. And I guess its one of the few rare times that I go to such event alone.. Just nice Karen was in sch, so she accompanied me for half an hour before she went off. But she wasn't allowed to go into the queue itself, so it was rather irriating that she has to wait outside... Anyway, really grateful that she came to accompany me...

The process was rather slow. Had to queue up and wait for the no. My no. was like 140 away .. Zzz.. long wait.. So I decided to walk through the PC sector while waiting. Anyway, I've gotten my laptop, so that was kinda rubbish.. just walking through to see what's the price like.. lolx..

Cleared the matriculation after an hour plus, before proceeding up to the matriculation fair, where all the CCA try to promote themselves. Got attracted to a few, namely, Motoring club, bridge club, aquathlon club, Cue sports and canoeing. Hmmm... a headache actually. Realise that my interest is so diverse that I like to take part in so many things. How to handle all ? Don't want to repeat what I did in VJC again. Taking up 4 cca with cock up results. blahz...

Got contact by the Bridge club chair, regarding the training sessions, and got called down for some training sessions. Apparently, there's a NUS vs NTU contract bridge competition in the early Aug. and they are short of junior players to represent the school. Got activated to try and brush up some of my bidding and see if I can help the team. Didn't really like the guy's comment on some of my bidding though... Too insistent that he's correct. hmm... nvm.. shall reserve my comments till I know him further and his skills first.

Yawnz.. facebook is down, and i can't play FSX. ( fantasy stock exchange ). have to wait till tomorrow and hope that my shares have gone up.. haha... scary feeling to leave it unchecked for a day.

Tomorrow will be going down to practise some bridge. Just nice I have tuition after that, not a wasted trip anyway. Hopefully will be able to learn something from there.

Went for cycling just now. MIA for a month and when they saw me, they were so warm, asking where have I been and stuff. makes me feel homely, and attached to them, like a family. Nice feeling. Perhaps that's why I try not to miss any Tuesday session as much as possible. Good ride today, with the few usual chiongster charging ahead, was with the second pack today, averaging 37km/h. The front back was going at around 40km/h. too fast for me to catch up at the moment. I will TRAIN till I can catch up with them. Meanwhile, considering offloading my bike in exchance for a road / triathlon bike. Sure to encounter with lots of disagreement from my sis and mum. Definitely saying that I'm wasting money, don't know how to save. But I guess sometimes passion for it will eventually save me time and money elsewhere, cos I'll be spending more time on my bicycle riding, rather than doing other things. Hmm.. will see how much I can save this 2 months first. definitely I'll get a tri bike sooner or later... just when ....