ahem ahem

been about a month since I've written here. Many things have happened since then and many realisations as well. Looking back I never regretted allowing you into my life. Till today you still hold your promise of ps32:8....
Now before I continue just would like to note that 3 of my dear friends are happily married! Thank God that I was able to attend one and was truly blessed and amazed at God's work. How God meticulously(and I say meticulously) places 2 people to become one for His glory. What an amazing description of 2 believers coming together. For His glory. And yea of course while i was sitting there hiding tears I was thinking of my other friend 300km away as nervous as always but I know he enjoyed it.
God's plan is indeed perfect. We can't deny it. And nothing more beautiful than having him in control of a relationship. With God we know we are accountable to whatever actions we do. With God we know the source of blessing and love comes from. With God we know He has us in His mind always. What a thought actually what a truth right?
Wells I wished I had known that when I was searching for intimacy in people. From friends, and eventually girlfriends. I kept trying to find this love in them. I was selfish and foolish. That at the end of it, the love I was seeking turned to pain, hurt and disappointment. I don't deny that there were sweet moments, but after thinking about it deeply, it was just a shade of the love I would find. Because of the pain, hurt and disappointment we become cynical(at least that's wat happened to me) and doubtful of this idea of love.
Anyway whats the big deal about love anyway? Actually it is quite a big deal. Our attitude to one another actually shows the love that is in us. That my faith is actually based on love. And the very fact if my actions don't show it, it means I m not of the faith.
1 John 4:7
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.
What are some actions that contradict?
I guess for me what i say i don't do. Or if we know a brother or a sister isn't doing what is right we tell others about it but don't go straight to him or her. Sometimes I wonder what are our motivations in correcting ppl. Do we do it out of love or neccessity? If it's neccessity so ppl will think like you or follow the standards you set for yourself then I guess you are just like a pharisee. Jesus didn't come to the world because of necessity. It was because God the father loved the world(john 3:16) that he came down. He loved the sinner hated sin. If God didn't hate sin, there wouldn't be love for the lost. Yet He came down is the truth I want to say. We must forsake position, knowledge and wisdom to win the people whom we love. Is it so difficult? Yes. But with christ, it's easy because we have the power and motivation to do so. (Phil 4:13)
I am still putting my hope in Him that I can be more like Him. This past few weeks have been a tempest. Where work overwhelmed my spirituality. Now as I enter calm waters I recall that it was you who was guiding this life to experience the difficulities this life would give.
Building relationships take time. Discipling someone takes time. Loving someone without any condition takes time. Healing the pain of broken relationships takes time. But whatever it is, it is done in His eyes. It's just for us to have faith that He will grant us grace to continue growing in grace.
Just a thought, to those seeking for love out there, there is no greater love than this, that a man would lay down His life for his friends. I only know of such a one. If the person you love on this earth is willing to do that, you are blessed but most of the time love that we can only express is selfish. I am a testimony of that love. You may deny it but the love is temporal, the love that this person gave is eternal. The love of this earth is till death do you part, the love of Jesus is from now and forevermore. Amen.
To those who have not been scarred by the pain of broken relationships you are blessed because you would be a blessing to those who have. You give hope. Thank God for it and cherish this blessing. And if you are in a relationship keep God in the center of it because He is ur assurance, your first, your true lover of your soul. Focus on those around not just on one then you'll know the endless source of love from above.