New directions
Hmmmm met up with my Next Staje companions. Can't believe Staje is in tatters. Sad that the values and principles that the cca was built upon is erroding. Wells it's not for me to judge I was never really involved, in the process but was always interested in the product. I appreciate and applaud the dedication momo, Shan and su put in. Great job guys!
But the reality is the system we're in. To most, Staje is just another cca, another line in a CV and it just looks good that I achieved smthin. But really it was the Staje whr I learnt slot abt life. Much more Abt discipline and teamwork and focus then when I was in army or even in hockey. From what I hear, it's sad the experience the sch has given the children. Time to crack the whip! Haha. Oh wells now how do I pray for this?
I did say we can't separate or segment our lives. Everything is related and affects everything else... I really thank God for opportunities like this because I love the stage. I love the ability of expression and experiencing perspectives and discovering emotions i never knew i could. All this talk about confidence, creativity yada yada is merely the tip of the iceberg. I admit I myself have not really experienced everything about theatre. There's more to it than I can imagine. It is limitless. The reason I come back is because we believe in a theatre reaches within and then reaches out. It is inclusive not exclusive and gives opportunities to all. I don't believe prima donna know it alls, neither do I believe in just a specific type of theatre style. It's just like the tiny red dot that keeps moving and adapting.
Anyway gonna pray abt it. I still see this as an open door.
On another issue now, I guess we need to rely on God always. Nothing in us is of any good to get us to heaven. Not even our own minds. Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. Honestly I see myself as a terrible person who doesnt deserve this redeemed life. Like why would God waste the Life of His son on me? Am I really that worth it? Well that's God's love for you it really brings you to your knees. Even in our darkest moments when we feel everyone is against us and where we can't stand the silence. it's only in this silence we realise who we really are. It's in moments like this we see our true colors shining. And I dont think it's a really nice colour. And honestly silence is a good thing. Taking away that which keeps our heart in the world may just put our gaze back on the heavenly things. Anyway what i'm saying is we're still growing. Still changing. And I guess sometimes we're all just ok with mediocre lives before abba father. We laugh and laugh and take all that is said lightly. But one day that laughter will turn to tears. And I guess that is true to some extent. Oh wells not sure what i'm talking about. I know it's really late now. For the first time my parents reprimanded me for staying out too late. hmmmm ya shall just apologize later. Anyway I really feel that the juice is running out for some of the leaders. We forgot to connect to the source. but yea persevere in prayer. Gonna end tonight with prayer.
