The end of this chapter is nearing

Have not been into this blog ever since i felt my life was not worth to share.. haha..

anyway.. updates..

Its another 2 and half months to finishing that last.... lap for masters. Im beginning to lose interest, like seriously. The passion isnt burning as bright as it should be. When i see some of my classmates who are really into it, producing tip top designs... its just intimidating to know that im superbly average... cant even point out what im really good at.

But rest assured im doing my best for my parents. Most importantly, dont wanna waste ALL that money.. haha. Im hoping someone or something could guide me along this field, bring up the fire again in me, maybe its just stagnant for so long or probably i have other things in mind. I dont want it to be just a paper or just a job to go by.

Like every other time, when graduating nears.. of course i cant wait to finish school . Makes it especially hard when im someone who is so ambitious, but not all the time capable of doing things.. haha

But the scary part is .. what to do next?

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get a job

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travel

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earn even more money

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2010

Wow...... cant believe ppl actually still wanna read my blog.. anyways.. hello u allz!
i cant be bothered to blog for now! hahahah!

homely day

wished i had more of these no meaning days..

After a long long time.. i finally had a 'homely' day..

What do i mean by a homely day? freedom to do whatever i want at home. Got the time to bake some cookies yesterday. Glad it turned out right despite my mood kitchen scale. Oh.. so moody like the owner.

Had this conversation with a few friends. Whether i need to get some anger management for myself. Haha. WIth just so many things that pisses me off these days. I wonder is it just me.. .. The thing with being a girl is, you tend to become a bitch if things get in your way. Need to slap myself if i was bitching again haha.

Its been sickening these past few months.. drama comes to me wherever i go. If there is something that i would have learnt is..... that nothing beats living with your own family. I think the cycle is coming to me again. i can only stand 6 months away from home.. then i will start to stare at family photos.. call home regularly.. check out my sis's blog.. have no appetite for proper food... will only think of what to do back in sg.

So anyway, will need to do some serious drawing , sketching for studio. Dont really know what she really wants..
My thesis.. is going on quite fine. Just that im too lazy to do all the research readings and all.
Place Management... is such a bore
International Archi Practice... next week is our group presentation!

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nowadays, i feel that im being challenged....
i just feel that as days pass , and as i get older..
its getting harder to convince the one you love how u truly feel
it is even harder to convince myself to believe things
since a long long time ago, i know this sounds ridiculous...
deep, deep down in me..
i always had the instinct that he would be the one i spend my life with...
but sadly, the more im trying to reach for him the more he is running away from me...
maybe that shows something
i dont know when...
but maybe, one day im gonna give up trying
the more u trust a person, the more skeptical you become
this thing with Ex's popping up again in life... reminds me of that very ugly episode of mine
is history gonna repeat itself?
sometimes i wonder why,... God brought some people to my life
but surely this one is gonna impact me the most
all these while i have been praying ....
if he is meant for me..... please make the both of us closer to each other
but if he is not, then please make me forget him
cause the thought of losing him is just too scary for me. :"(

Mid year updates

After months of not blogging, cause i was too busy and really tak kuasa, and for some reasons its better to just keep things private.

my new friends..


my not so new, but trusted friends, and my vogue habes cartoon haircut.

finally a graduate , all thanks to my parents and anyone else who is around me.
grad dengan muka tersenyum lebar with these girls..

my short meet up with fanah at mel.

Past few months, didnt have a life, was frantically doing assignments. thankfully, less drawings, but more essays. Finally.. its the winter holidays! got lot of catching up to do!

korang kenal ke siapa ni?

the fact is... i really miss my blogger!
in the meantime, i'll make this site private, might want to change the url...
so hmm... life has been pretty mundane.. well err not really, i have been spending time with my family & friends, out almost every other day. been visiting my aunties and uncles, since i know they miss me alot! hahah. and trying to look for something fruitful to do. anyway, so many celebrations coming soon.. i must make full use of it while im still here...
just now, while on jemputan at 2 places

the joke of the day is.....

while everyone else is trying to grab a chance to take picture with this guy here... me the selenge , dont even know he is a celebrity, all the while i thought they were trying to get hold of the pengantin..

im like... "mana pengantin nyer???".. tengok the other way...*smacks head*
dont know whats the excitement all about, baik amik gambar ngn aku kan!

matair baru aku kepe? haha.. padahal adek sedara.. wakaka!

Raya Korban

Siapa kata aku tak ber- raya?....siap dgn baju baru ok!