We talked about old times
And it made me smile because you didn't forget
Roy Chong
30th May 1985
roy_cmh@yahoo.com.sg
Saturday, February 26, 2005, 9:00 pm
at last.... the thing that made us all over stress....
the thing that spoil friendships.....
the thing that cause everyone to be in a mess....
FYP!!!!!!!!
ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!
handed in on friday!!!!
ITS ALL OVER........ no more days of looking at the monitor and staring at the codes!!!!!
NO MORE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday went over to Jeslyn's house to complete the documentation...
and its really difficult!!!!!
so many things left undone.... and left undone for Jeslyn and me to do......
what a mess that is left behind........
we did it until the next morning!!!
didn't sleep at all.... didn't even take a nap......
luckily Felix, WHO IS NOT EVEN FROM OUR GROUP, went over too to help us a bit.... if not, we really can't make it....
THANKS FELIX!!!!! I own u one.....
I wanna thanks Jeslyn too.... if it wasn't for u, i will not finish my part the documentation!!!! Thanks so much!!!!
we did until the next morning, then i went to sch to somehow compile everything....
then at last, we managed to hand in, althought its like 45 mins late... heehee....
but lucky our supervisor is a nice guy.... haha.....
anyway, we are not the only group that is late.... there is still a lot of group still doing their screen shots when i walk pass the lab!!!
anyway, its all over....
i slept for like the whole day today.... really super exhausted......
can't wait for the presentation to be over.......
then, can really relax liao....
but still got CDS project and POT portfolio to complete...
i really dunno wat to do sia.....
will try to complete by tomorrow.....
Lastly, I would like to write a Thank You Message to everyone that had helped me for my FYP.... (Since Jeslyn and Diana also have write... hahaha)
Firstly, I would like to thank my group members (u know who u are) for being there for me... Thanks for giving me encoruagement when i am feeling stress....
I would like to thank Jeslyn especially... Thanks for the help on Thursday nite.... If it wasn't for u, i will be so dead... i really appreciate it.... thanks for helping me on my part of the project.... thank for being there for me when i need help.... I feel that our friendship had really strengthen a lot...... THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!
Secondly, I would like to thank Felix's FYP group.... Felix, Diana, Horng Jiunn, Siew Hui and Zi Yang.... Thanks for the help u guys had provided us..... Thanks for not being selfish and letting us use ur laptop and even show us what should be done.... Althought u guys might think that its nothing, but its really important to me, and i am really touched by ur actions.... I truely appreciate it.... We own u guys one..... Especially thanks to Felix, who came over to jeslyn's house with me to help even though u had already finished ur fyp!!! u r really a very nice guy and i promise to be nicer to u!!! WE OWN U A LOT!!!!! and pls let me treat u a meal pls!!! Anyway, i think we should treat ur whole grp a meal......After this FYP, i feel that my friendship with Diana, Felix and Zi Yang had strengthen, and of cos, i made new friends with Siew Hui and Horng Jiunn.... You guys rocks!!! Go KTV together sometime ok??? Anyway, THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!!
Next, I wanna thank people like Ning Jing, Alvin Choo, Geraldine, and whoever that had helped me with codings.... Without u guys, i will never get to finish my FYP... Thanks for next being selfish and helping me with codings even thought u guys are very busy and stress up too..... I own u guys a meal too!!! (Wow, think gonna be broke liao!! hahaha!!!) THANKS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Next, I would like to thank Ben's group.... Ben, Nisa, Rizlan, Huiling and Qidi..... And not forgetting Jason and Ariel..... Thanks for staying with me until very late to do FYP..... Thanks for the encouragement...... Especially thanks to Ben's group for letting me use ur fyp server room..... But i have to apologise for not borrowing my laptop to u guys.... i have my reasons.... really sorry.... but once again... thank u guys!!!!!
Lastly, I wanna thank all those people that I had not mentioned above, who had helped in my fyp project in a way or another... really appreciate the help that u guys had provided!!! THANK YOU!!!!
THANK YOU!!!!!!
This FYP had really been an experience for me.... It showed me what white and black side of people.... It had create new friendship and even worsen exisitng friendship.... But what is most important to me is that, I feel that i had known and understand people more.... I finally realise who my true friends are... people who will be there for u even when they are having problem themselves.... people who don't mind sharing their knowledge with u.... people who will give u encouragement and not pour cold water..... I had really feel touched by these people's actions.... but for some people, i really feel pissed with them... i really feel frustrated even when i hear their names..... i guess even time cannot amend these feelings..... but nontheless, i had really gain a lot during this journey.... Really would like to thank these friends that i had..... THANK YOU!!!!!
Monday, February 21, 2005, 1:15 am
i feel that life will not be the same for me as before.....
i had become really moody.... my mood has become a traffic light....
suddenly green, suddenly red......
i will get very depress all of a sudden for no reason.....
but of cos, the main reason is still her....
i dunno whether i am a loser or wat... but i just can't bring myself to ask her that question.....
i already had many bad experiences.... i don't wanna lose a friend like her.... althought i only know her for not say very long, but still.... i wanna keep her as a friend.....
i am no longer the cheerful person i was in secondary sch....
i feel that all those crapping and laming now is just to cover up my sadness and depression.... o god..... i am becoming back like that time.......
depression..... i hate that word..... it had followed me before, and i don't want it to come back.....
i get very frustrated easily..... that day i just bursted out everything and scare the hell out of everyone in the server..... but then, i think that is the true me..... that is when i no longer cover up myself..... i let it all out.......
shout it all out.........
shout........
o god....... u are the only person that can help me.......
where are u when i need u......
i scare i will attemp again....
i really don't wish for it........
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Thursday, February 17, 2005, 12:37 am
I had been really sick for the past few days!!
First is on the night of the 2nd day of chinese new year....
When i reach home, i feel like i am getting sick liao....
thorat pain like siao.....
then at night wake up, feel really sick and dizzy.......
i went to take my temperature and its like 39 degrees!!!! That's really high lor!!!
then actually is ok already, but then now the sore throat starts again!!!
The pain is really unbearable!!! it cause me to not getting into sleep last nite!!
even now, i am feeling the pain!!!!
i feel like i am going to collapse soon.....
all the stress from BI, FYP etc etc.....
i can't take it anymore!!!
i am going to collapse.......
p.s.: going to post about Rizlan's birthday soon.... Rizlan, don't cry ok?? HAHA!!
Wednesday, February 09, 2005, 1:34 pm
I love you....
But i cannot be with you.........
(-_-)
I love you.....
But you love someone else......
(-_-)
I love you....
But u choose to wait for him......
(-_-)
I love you......
But you don't wanna open out to me......
(-_-)
I love you......
But you just can't accept me......
(-_-)
I love you......
But you choose to stay alone......
(-_-)
I love you.....
But you ignore my love.......
(-_-)
XiaOMuN sitting alone in a corner....
Wiping away the tears.....
Sunday, February 06, 2005, 1:46 pm
heard a new single by one of my fav JPOP singer, Mika Nakashima...
it's titled "Sakurairo Mau Koro"
i downloaded the promotional video of the song....
and it hit me.....
hit me deeply.....
make me feel all emotional......
plus the mood of the song........
the video is about this boy and girl, they were what the chinese call "qing mei zhu ma"....
as in, they are growth up to be a couple....
then the video show them playing around this sakura tree.....
then it showed then grow up into teenagers....
but the girl was forced to leave the guy........
and they was forced to part..... at the sakura tree.... where they used to play....
the guy was left alone..... alone..... always waiting.... at the sakura tree where they used to play..... alone.....
even until the place surrounding the tree has been developed...... and the boy had grown up into an adult..... he is still waiting.... alone....
and one day..... workers came and wanted to cut down the tree..... he stopped them.... stopped them from cutting down the tree that they used to play at.....
and he did it!!! but still.... he waited... alone... for the girl to appear.... but no sign of hope......
he grew old...... and he is still waiting..... alone.....
and at the end of the video, it showed him having his imagination.... every single day where he waited.... that the girl will appear.... and they can happily be together.... just like before.... at the sakura tree.......
this video almost made me cry.... i have no idea why.... but its just so sad.....
can u imagine leaving someone u loved.... and waiting for her to re-appear.... but it didn't happen...... that is so sad.....
OMG, typing this blog entry already made my eyes wet.....
plus the song that i am playing... this very song..... which is about the love story of a boy and a girl...... where the boy waited forever.... for the girl to reappear..... waiting at the sakura tree where they used to play..... alone......
P.S.: I have uploaded the song onto my blog... for those who have speaker... u can listen to it... even if u don't understand japanese, just listen to the tune... and think of the story that i have told u......
XiaOMuN signing off.... wiping away the tears....... alone too.......
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