Womanly Woes 2

Just pierced my ears recently and gosh! Why does everybody says that it doesn't hurt?! It hurts sooo much more then injections? But then again perhaps if i had pierced my ear when i was younger, it would not have hurt so much. :((

It is such a frightening experience for me anyways.

And so the ear piercing shop says that i can start changing my ear rings after 2-3weeks from piercing. I waited for 3 weeks just to be extra sure..took out my earrings, and to my horror! there are like lumps in my earlobes! i panicked like crazy, asked my mum, and she was also very shocked and said it was an infection.. making me panic even more. =.= lucky i googled and it seems like such cysts in the lobes are quite normal.

then, i wanted to try on a new pair of earrings that i bought to see if i was allergic to them..but when i tried to wear the earrings, it hurts so much! T-T tried to wear the earrings on and off for about an hour? then i freaked out more and decided that i shd just use the old earrings since i m very sure that i m not allergic to them. took another one hour to try wearing them..failed. gave up and went to sleep. 

the nx morning my mum freaked me out by saying it would be more difficult to put in the earrings if i dont wear them immediately as the hole may have closed. so i spent about 30mins putting in the first earring, my empty stomach was churning like crazy, rest quite a bit before trying to wear the nx earring, and pheww! the second one went in quite easily.

All in all, its so freaking scary T-T so many times i just feel like giving up and letting the ear hole close. Damn it. Really dont understand how those girls with low threshold for pain or the really demure girls go through this. Is it really because they are vain enough? especially those girls with so many ear piercing in their ears. OUCHHH! 

maybe i m just a wuss :(

Not born to be a tai tai

Ok i am totally not a tai tai meant to be. I kinda find mani/pedicure frightening when they remove my cuitcles..and hair dying/treatment quite tortourous :(( one mlment my scalp is like burning.. the other moment  its like frostbite.

womanly woes

Arghhhhh. I cant believe what i did. I swore that i took the beige bra ytd night, cause i planned to wear one of my white blouses today morning. Then...for god knows what happened.. when i came back home and bathed...ahhh! I was wearing smth green with pink poka dot instead! Under my freakibg white blouse! =.= and.most of my colleagues are guy. Sigh! I feel so dumb=( ok just hope that it was obvious

Behind the scene

Its really tough being the person behind the scene...the operations and maintenance guy. It is already tough for any one to want to operate and maintain any new concept in the first place without any training/experience nor expertise, and here i am trying the best i can to be as receptive as possible to the new idea, and trying to gain as much experience i can through fumbling around... and once something looks bad/wrong.. they start pointing fingers and snapping at me right away asking why this why that. seriously annoyed.

firstly, the stuff that they were asking about.. wasnt even to be maintained by me? if its not even under my purview, what the hell do you expect me to do about it? i did advise the other party to do something... but what rights do i have to force them to do it our way when its not even ours? damn annoying.

all the fluffy idea of blurring boundaries are really fantasic ideas. but when it comes to real accountability, liability and audit.... how to share? =.=

so much angst these days. damn.

The difficulty lies, not in the new ideas, but in escaping from the old ones, which ramify, for those brought up as most of us have been, into every corner of our minds.
J.M. Keynes.