Really cant believe my memory is awful. just stuff that happened a few years back i cant even rmb. and my face recognition sux either.. its like meeting my friend few years down the road and totally even no clue that i know them at all.  =( kinda guilty. feels as if wo mei you xin yi or something. sighh.

mann, dont like the new layout of blogger. =.= its too... plain, difficult to use. too mature/stern/serious feel.

it needs to be more light hearted like last time!oh well..

anyway i was thinking that sometimes i keep saying i miss those days when i just keep talking over the phone with someone for the whole day..and talking about something really deep and reflective and stuff.

then i realised, whats more difficult then talking deeply with someone? it is when u talk gibberish and enjoy it greatly. i'm not even talking about friends crapping on the phone. i really meant gibberish. nothing but grunts/snorts/whines/spouting random and meaningless phrases yet everything can feel so meaningful. =)



At the end of everyday no one can take these things away
We all want love and that's okay,
Maybe there's someone.
When my song has slipped away
And the darkness swallows the day
Another one's not very far away, so baby just hold on.
Just hold on
Hold on

for the recent event thtat i organised for my department recently, we invited a guest speaker to talk about hwo to be optimistic in the face of changes. and he ask us, whether we are a optimistic or pessimistic person.everyone said optimistic, and secretly down in my heart, i think i am a pessimistic one. wonder if it is obvious cos i know i i am a person who smiles quite alot.haha

ok, i dont exactly know what point i am trying to make here.... but i am a person full of contradictions and even i myself am confused with myself.

but ok learned some tricks to try and change...

i dont understand why anyone can be so anal and thick skinned.. criticizing other ppl's work when his is like probably 10 times worst.  how in the world can you be so deluded? how in the world can he be so confident of his competency....that he is lacking severely?

safe guard safety as safety safeguards

thinking of a safety slogan, and somehow there seems to be some pun that i can play but i just cant get it.

anyway random, adam lambert looks so shuai without eyeliner can??!!

Lazy eyes

For some weird reasons, alot of guys have lazy eyes! As in, both the eyeballs arent looking at the same place...and I find that quite... eeeeeeee. it looks weird and a tiny bit repelling!!! and like i dont know which eyeball to look at.


but it seems really common these days. like in this one month itself, i think 5 guys? i haven seen this problem in girls yet. wonder if its really because of gaming... hmm, needing to see like more than one location at a time..

i hope i dont ever have this problem. eeks.

wonder sometimes if i listen to mellow song too much. initially they calm me down.. then now wondering if they make me feel down.. to the far left of the spectrum.

sometimes i really dont understand why just because we are executive officers we dont have any "best staff of the month" award and stuff.. i mean like, huh so dont we need affirmation, motivation that we are good too? But then again, this whole monthly award thing seems so fake also. ayee oh well.

there's another award also.. where the role model gets to go korea! i think its for tech. staff too.

its just weird you know. i mean ok, if you say director dont need such affirmation.. i can kinda udnerstand...because to get to that position u probably have alot of experience and stuff.

but for a fresh grad executive.. because we are young..with little experience.... these will just boost our morale mah. think its more of the years of experience then the ranking thing leh. oh well.

writing/painting on our walls

for the weirdest reason, all along i am envious of people with their own rooms/house. and one of the reason is that they can paint/draw/put whatever they want on the wall! although i had this idea all along... it struck me only recently that even if i have my own room, i would still not draw/paint random stuff on my wall right? =.= because we are not brought up to draw on walls. if we ever scribble stuff then my whole house will look in a mess what.

ahh ok i m very tired i forgot what i wanted to say..
but its just something in the line of.. should i allow my children to draw whatever they want on the wall? i mean if its ugly the most paint over it only what. should probably let them paint an decorate their own rooms right? so that they becomes creative in future. hmmmm. but then they may learn to vandalise stuff.

ok think too much...