all these years i refuse to believe that..

..my art is awful! =(
i cant even cut stuff properly when there are already black lines for me. ahh how did i graduate from kindergarten hahaha.alamak.

and i totally cant visualize what they want me to do when the instructions are right smack in my face =.= hmmm, hope whatever i wanna do turns out nice! totally lost track of time and hoho, gtg out.

and i still refuse to admit it. boo~

how do you say no to something you don't wish to attend when its being made in advance? (and u are obviously not booked) damn it.

should i just say, " i dont wanna go out with you?"

i hate being fake.

the unknown knowns?

i know something's wrong. but i dont know whats wrong so i dont know how to solve it. sigh. 

find this so cute~ haha

White collar

omg, love this series! and ahhh the main character is just so cute ~! ^^

mothers

been wanting to write this for awhile now.

yes i know how it feels to be annoyed at your mum for some characteristics. and at the same time because you have been nurtured in her care, grow up to have the same very characteristics that you dont like. haha its kinda all so kinda laughable yet frustrating eh? but at least i think we are still in the stage where we are aware of it and hence being able to try to correct ourselves?

they are going to perform the tribal piece again for freshmen inauguration in august.

initially i was like,
"oh shit i really dont feel like doing it again cos i m lazy and scared and i think i cant rmb the moves at all"

then when i realised that its on 1aug, the day i start work, i was like
"YES! i cant make it" =.=

now, i'm feeling guilty for having those feelings. haha damn it. i probably should go back for trainings right? i mean i shouldnt be like so "ban du er fei". i used to hate skipping lessons in whatever i learn, now i just keep finding excuses to skip lessons. whats wrong with me now? used to be so ambitious with everything. but i just cant find that drive anymore these years. gaah. but i m really scared to go back for lessons! =(

and last time i can say that cos i dont really have friends in the cca. now i have, but we aint that close, but ayeeee, i feel that i should start contacting them again but haha at times i feel like just giving up those friends too =X i do admire how some ppl (like zoe) manage to close friends like just within a few weeks or days. like its just so hard to click at times. and it totally freaks me out when some ppl are too friendly too. ok, i'm antisocial! i really dont like socialising. zzzzzzz. and its tiring to keep contacting those newly found friends to form a stronger bond so i will usually just brush it all away. which is kinda sad isnt it? and prolly i'm just really bad with connecting with ppl =.=

and arghh, some stupid ppl keep asking me to plan class outing again. like helllo! i aint the class rep you know. and not that we haven been meeting up, its just you always not free so we stop including you, oops. but since u are the one who wants the outing, cant u like plan smthing instead. booo.

i'm blue =(

blah~