is something i hardly ever seem to have enough of.
there is so much i want to do and it frustrates me that i don't have the time to do these things cos i have other more urgent or important things to do.
such as work (no choice) which eats up most part of my day, and grad sch preparation.
in terms of interviews, flying around, admin work. and grad sch is urgent and important.

yet i still want to read those books i've been given.
i want to work out my faith as i've been called to.
and i want to practice the different types of dances that i'm learning now.
and i want to spend more time talking to my brothers.
and lots more.

maybe i'm not being realistic about what i can handle, and thats leading to frustration.
or maybe i'm not making full use of my time.
maybe i'm not disciplined enough.

maybe i should stop whining and actually do something.

and so the impossible has happened.
i've been accepted by my dream universities.
including the ultimate dream one.
i've read and re-read the emails so many times to make it more real.
i know that it is definitely not by my own strength, but by God's grace that i've got the chance to go there.
thank you Lord.