today is the last day of the michaelmas term.
tomorrow is the start of my Christmas holidays which last till 19 jan.

i'm supposed to feel so happy that i'm free at last.
but i'm not.
i feel a bit numb.
perhaps its cos i still have one supervision each on thurs and fri.
and i have a lot of work to catch up on.

i guess the only advantage is that i get to sleep in.
and i don't have to set my alarm clock anymore.
and there are no more saturday lectures.

i have no idea why i feel so sian.
is it pms.
i have no idea if hormonal fluctuations can lead to sianness.
argh.

or maybe its just cos i don't really have anything to look forward to.
but that can't be it either.
cos there is the CF houseparty, europe trip and Christmas stay at my aunt's place to look forward to.
or am i really looking forward to all that?

or maybe its cos i feel so behind.
academic-wise.
i've been smoking through most of my cells supervisions, getting by with hc bio knowledge.
which has worked. so far. except for the enthropy bits- then i'm lost.
i just shut up for chem sup.
QB sup is ok cos i can do math.
physio sup is just a matter of discussing answers, and there is no real need to speak (and therefore expose my ignorance)
practicals are ok.
i always understand what is going on.
but so what- they aren't graded anw.
except for chem.

and so i have managed to somehow convince my supervisiors to give me respectable predicted grades.
which is all that matters for this term, really.
except for my cells supervisior who said "i really don't know what to predict for you" and so she didn't.
so on the surface it seems that i know so much and i'm really on the ball.
but i'm not.
i'm struggling to stay afloat.
there is just so much new information to be read and digested and i haven't done that yet.

argh.
and salsa.
feel like such a lousy dancer after notts.

so i'm really feeling quite off.
haiz.

spoke to xinyi on the phone just now.
finally got the chance to catch up with u!
at last.
really glad to know that u care :)
with determination i'm sure the 4 of us can stay together despite the distance.
and then in june we can all meet up again.
and wouldn't that be fantastic.
that is something really worth looking forward to.

went to nottingham yesterday.
discovered the day before that there were 2 events running concurrently- the s'pore/msia nottingham games and the nottingham uni dancesport competition.
so i woke up at 6 am to catch the coach to notts with the cumsa ppl at 7 am.
reached notts at 9 plus
it was freezing.
it was even colder than when it snowed at cam on fri!
but it didn't snow at notts
supported my uni's team till abt 2 pm.
during which i met xiaoen and rosanna!



xiaoen, me, rosanna

and i returned xiaoen her pillow.
:) :) :)
yay
we met grace there too!



she helped me get a phone number to call a cab.
thanks :)
it was really helpful cos i could call a cab to get into town from the uni.
so i did.

got lunch, then went to Portland leisure centre for the dancesport comp.
reached at 4pm, got changed, warmed up and practiced a bit with my partner.
salsa was supposed to start at 530, but there was a delay, so it started at abt 7 instead.
when i first walked into the competition hall at 4 pm, my first thought was "oh sh*t"
cos i looked around me and i saw all the dancesport competitors in their shiny glittery sequiny professional looking costumes. and i felt so underdressed.
i just wore a black skirt and a red top, and the other two females in the salsa team wore dresses. simple non-shiny dresses, but still dresses.
and every single female competitor there, salsa or dancesport, had her hair up in a bun.
every single female, that is, except me.
cos whats the point of doing all those hair flicks and such if u put ur hair up in a bun? the whole effect is just gone.
so i didn't put my hair up in a bun.

so the individual dancesport competition ended.
then salsa started.
there were the beginners and open category.
so i joined the open.
there were abt 40 couples in the heats.
the 3 couples from cam got to the quaterfinals.
so in the quaterfinals there were 20 couples.
then they selected 10 couples for the semifinals.
none of us got through.
as we stood on the sidelines watching it occured to me that all those who got into the semis were dancesport ppl from earlier in the day cos they were still wearing their dancesport attire.
then they selected 6 couples to go to the finals, during which they were ranked.
and as we watched then dance, i realised that none of them did the basic step at all. the salsa basic step, that is.
what they did were the cha cha cha, jive and samba steps.
all that to salsa music. and since they were dancesport ppl they looked good doing latin steps.
to salsa music.
and since the judges were ballroom judges from the dancesport comp, they judged salsa using ballroom standards.
so effectively the whole salsa thing was just ballroom comp to salsa music.
i felt quite cheated.
then i was told by the more experienced team ppl that this is a common phenomenon- when salsa is judged using ballroom standards.
it used to be the case in Varsity matches as well, until it got so bad that some ppl took action and now salsa comps in varsity are proper salsa competitions. so that is good.

so salsa ended and i left.
look a cab to the train station.
discovered upon enquiry at the ticket booth that train from notts to cam was cancelled.
(*&^%
the other alternative was to take a train to leicester, then transfer to cam.
that would cost GBP27.
!
no way.
so i called yf to get him to check the national express website for coach listings.
the last coach left notts for cam at 605 pm.
decided to pray very hard.
then decided to take a cab back to portland leisure centre where the team dancesport competition was held.
the dancesport team ppl were still there, and they had a coach back but i didn't know if there were spare seats.
so that was a risk i took.
as it turned out, there were spare seats.
i was so grateful.
so i had to sit in the comp hall watching ballroom dancing till abt midnight.
got to see my partner compete in the A team cha.
and as it turned out he and his partner won the first position in that category.
and since the A team is the most advanced team, he is really quite a good dancer.

so i had, effectively, spent 7 hours watching ballroom and doing a bit of salsa.
thats more ballroom than i've ever seen my whole life.
decided that waltz is painful, quickstep is dangerous, jive is funky and cha is intense.
oh yes.
before i left for the train station there was a demo by this couple.
who hold the record for having won the most number of ballroom competitions at blackpool.
the mc introduced them as being "simply the best"
and they were.
they did 4 dances, including 2 waltzes.
and they danced to Beauty And The Beast and Once Upon A Dream and 2 other songs.
the lady had 4 different dresses, all of which were incredibly beautiful.
all were almost floor length.
and when they danced to Once Upon A Dream, she wore this pink dress that was so apt.
and she did a coffee grinder.
in that floor-length dress.
...
she didn't spin as fast as yq did but she did a coffee grinder nonetheless and look so elegant getting into and out of the seemingly unglam position.
incredible.


they were dancing to Beauty and the Beast and she wore an amazing green dress.

reached cam at 130 am.
reached my college at 2 am.
and felt so so happy to be back in my room again after the very eventful day.
it all feels so surreal now.
hmm.
feel so off.
i wanna dance.
i only train once a week, and thats not enough, but i don't think i can afford to commit more time.
haiz.
hopefully next term will be better.
oh my
it has just occured to me that i won't be dancing in dec!
!!!
!!!!!!
how terrible.
oh yes.
there is still Club Salsa.

:)

photos! from when xiaoen and diane came over.


view from a bridge at King's.


xiaoen and i on the bridge! pic courtesy of yf, who volunteered to be our porter/tour guide/photographer/shopping buddy for the day. key word: volunteered :p


bridge of sighs. went to visit st. john's college.. and finally took a photo with one of my fav bridges in cam. i like it cos it looks so nice and old and harry potterish. walked across it and it isn't that exciting. opens out into this nice walkway though.



some pple were graduating that day. apparently cam grads don't have hats! ok its not a hat but i dunno the name for that thingy grads wear on the head then throw up into the air


it got dark really early, while we were still at market sq. left marks and spencer and discovered that the sky was really pretty so i tried to take a photo. not v successful but oh well :)


we went punting on sunday when diane returned from oxford. i paddled first.. i think the paddle was more useful for pushing off walls than for anything else


there are many bridges over river cam, and punting under the bridges is exciting :) i used the stick to move the punt by pushing off against the bridge. a bit unglam though.

haven't blogged for some time cos i have had no time to blog!!
sunday was spent on dance prac.
cycled to a team member's house at 2 pm.
locked my bike to a pipe outside her house.
went into her house and was informed that she had a bike shed.
decided against using the bike shed cos i didn't want to trouble her.
so just prayed very hard that my pretty pink bike wouldn't get stolen.
she drove us to peterborough.
reached the village/town/watever at 315.
i only saw a cluster of big cold buildings with no sign of humanoid life on the streets.
then someone spotted a sign that said "sports centre"
so we parked the car and went into the building and located the gym/dance studio.
we weren't allowed to wear heels in the room (wat type of stoopid rule is that) so i had to dance in my socks. wattheheck.
ended dance prac at abt 615 pm.
this nice guy drove a few of us back to cam and the rest of the team went to someone's house for dinner.
on the way back i realised that leaving my bike outside the other person's house was a blessing in disguise cos if i had left it in her shed i wouldn't have been able to get it out cos she went for dinner instead of gg back to cam. so i was really thankful.
it was a rather surreal and boliao experience-travelling for abt an hour to get to a dance studio in the middle of nowhere to dance for 3 hours before travelling back again.
hope i don't have to do that again!

monday- chem prac.
it was deceptive.
i thought all i had to do was to synthesize a product, run the IR of the product and starting material, and that was it.
actually that was it.
but.
it took me 5 tries to get a reasonable looking IR for the starting material.
i couldn't get the peaks that were supposed to be there.
then at last the demonstrator said "i think the peaks overlap with the nujol peak"
(*&^%
and 2 tries to get an IR for my product. cos my demonstrator said "i would be happier if u ran the IR again to elongate the peak" and since the pracs are all graded my the demonstrator and counted i couldn't say no.
IR isn't that hard to do.
but when i had to do it 7 times it was really tiring.
interpreting the spectra was a breeze compared to all that.
and then we had to come up with the mechanism for the rxn.
i could only figure out half the steps.
and it was annoying cos i know we learnt it in chem s!!
so i was feeling helpless and tired.
then i asked this guy how to draw the mechanism.
"there are 7 steps" he said before giving me a glimpse of his work. like wattheheck loh. i did let him have a copy of my IR spectra for the starting material afterall.
so i tried to figure it out on my own.
but i really couldn't.
then i realised that there were 2 hongkongers in my group!
so i went up to them "do u know how to do this?" i asked in chinese
so they nicely helped me with it.
and taught me a bit of cantonese to boot.
so nice :)
went for cf, then stopped by at a friend's place, then went home.
did work till 3 am.
stoopid cells supervision work.

finally bought the USB ethernet card blah blah that might be able to retify my internet connection
going to speak to the com officer tmr.
then hopefully i'll be able to chat on msn at last.

oh yes.
this evening was rather warm.
it was 5.2 deg C and i could cycle without gloves and i could still feel my fingers. amazing.
last night was terrible. -0.1 deg C i heard.
and it was so foggy i could only see abt 50 m in front of me.
cycling was exciting.
i really appreciated my bike lights a lot.

and it is official.
i think.
i am competing at the salsa open at nottingham this sat.
yes its the nottingham games so those of u who think i don't do sports, ah hah! i'm participating in the nottingham games
yay :)
its free style i think.
quite worrisome cos i haven't socialed with my partner much.
and we are going to practice for this event.
one hour before we are due to compete.
my goodness.
then again we are just doing it for fun so it doesn't really matter.
time to go brush up on my shines

frost!
there was frost everywhere today!
half a field was covered in frost- it looked a lot like snow.
the roads were covered with a slippery layer of ice.
it is cold.
i love my coat :)
i only need to wear 2 layers hehe
and i love the scarf that tuan qi gave- its so warm and nice :)
dance training at peterborough tmr.
bleh.
bleh bleh bleh.
don't feel like gg all the way to some ulu town/village for dance prac.
lazy~

went for cg today
left at abt 1030 and went to get my bike.
and behold!
there was a layer of frost over my bike seat!
frost=tiny pieces of ice that refuse to come off when i try to remove them with tissue.
but the key thing is ice.
its -0.4 deg C now
(courtesy of cam weather website that is updated every minute. or every second.)
but it won't snow cos the sky is clear.
pity.
there are stars though :)
too cold to stand outside to admire.
although my balcony is only a few meters away.
hehe

my heater is working!!
really thank God for that.
it is no longer warm enough to warm itself and nothing else.
today it actually kept my room warm while i was out.
wowee
and its actually hot when i touch it.
in the past (in fact until this afternoon) it has been so not hot that its only very slightly warm. warm enough to qualify as "not cold"
but now.
it is hot.
yippee :)
although, as veek pointed out, there are other ways of keeping warm.
:)

had dance prac on wed.
2.5 hours.
and i didn't even sweat!
so it is quite slack.

today's cell bio prac was great.
went at 11 am.
prepared chloroplast sample.
left at 1240 pm to go to grafton
performed from 1-130 pm.
a salsa thing with the team.
about 5 couples went.
so they just played music and we socialed in the middle of the shopping centre.
all in aid of the BBC save the children fund.
then i cycled back to the lab and continued my prac.
best lunch break ever- it was really fun!
can't remember much of the prac though.

the temperature is insane.
my new fridge is my window sill.
sometime ago i closed the window and put my bottle of milk on inside of the room on the window sill. and the milk remained cold overnight.
was cycling back at 5 pm today.
it was dark and cold.
could make puffs of condensed water vapour by breathing out.
i still think its fun :)
but its not so fun when the wind cuts through my gloves and chills my fingers when i cycle.
i need new gloves!!!

counting down!
12 more days to freedom.
bittersweet.

we are exactly halfway through michaelmas term now.
15 more days to the end of term!!!
I can hardly wait.

then i can stop sleep-walking through chem lects.
i only remember things like the demonstrations involving liquid nitrogen and liquid oxygen. he poured a flask of the stuff onto the floor, and we would see the liquid splash onto the floor then evaporate. cool stuff.

cell bio lect is still managable thanks to hc.
the lecturer likes hands-on stuff.
so she divided the LT into groups, then made each group shout out different parts of the reductive pentose phosphate pathway when she showed it on the ppt slide.
so we had diff parts of the LT shouting out "ribulose 5-P!" "ATP!" "NADPH!" "Triose P!"
and the loudest group got a bag of chocolates.
yep.

physio lect is exciting and interesting. sometimes.
like today we learnt about osmoregulation.
input=output.
so the lecturer, this huge bald guy, decided to show us what this meant.
literally.
so he showed us a ppt slide of himself in a smart suit downing a glass of wine.
then he showed us a second slide of himself (still in that smart suit)...
peeing.
i'm not kidding.
the whole LT was momentarily stunned.

QB lect is good.
cos we are -still- differenciating.
and integrating.
and the lecturer is this old guy who says things like "this is the most important equation for this part of the course. u must be able to recite it in your sleep and when u wake up, and at the height of your sexual pleasure, you must be able to scream VdC/dt=Ji-Je+-J !"
...

and yes, i am studying in cambridge.

xiaoen came to cam on fri night!
she brought 3 gifts with her-
good company, great advice, and familiar chinese christian songs!
yay :)
so we stayed up talking till 5 am on saturday to talk and catch up :)
woke at 9 am to go for lect
so guai right :)
she went to chem lect and physio lect with me!
wow.. thanks :)
then we went shopping (whats new)
and visited king's college, trinity and st john's
bought fudge from the fudge shop (yum!)
i felt like a tourist all over again!
then we went back to my college and fried dong fen and baked chicken for dinner
yum~
then we stayed up till 2am to talk
hehe

today!
we went to king's college chapel for service.
the choir was amazing
the chapel was amazing
the service was rather different from what we are used to
it was very structured and traditional.
since its rememberance day, the sermon/address was about remembering the war dead. references were made to WWI and WWII and certain key events that happened then. it was interesting to hear things from a british perspective.
then we went to sains to buy stuff to cook for lunch
we bought salmon cos it was cheap
so we had salmon fried bee hoon and french toast for lunch :)
then we went to clare college to meet yvonne and diane
yvonne has a nice and big room!
nofairnofairnofair
then we met yj and yf
and went down to the boathouse to
punt :)
so fun!
my second time punting.
now i make the punt go where i want it to.
except in a straight line.
i can make it turn!
but it can't go straight ahead
argh.
need more practice
but its almost winter, so the college punts have all been kept- the touristy ones will soon be kept too.
so i'll have to wait till next year.
haiz.
brought bread, and we all had lots of fun feeding the ducks :)
got them to do loads of funky things like fly, peck each other's tails and jump (not all together of course)
discovered that ducks adopt a streamlined shape when they want to swim quickly to peck a piece of bread.
no one fell into the river, though the punt did rock precariously at times.
and there was a 3-way collision.
exciting :)
but we're all safe
then we rushed back to clare to collect diane's and xiaoen's stuff.
i cycled to the bus station first to try to convince the bus driver to wait for them to get to the station.
but the person was like "the bus waits for no one"
so the bus drove off.
and barely a minute later, the 3 of them arrived at the station.
fortunately they were able to secure a place on the 530 bus, so we waited for abt 45 mintues.
in the end, it was a blessing in disguise, cos xiaoen had lots of important stuff in my bag, which i would have forgotten to return to her had they rushed down to the station in time to chiong up the earlier bus.
then the bus arrived and they boarded the bus.

then i was about to leave when xiaoen called me "i know what i left behind"
!
"my pillow"
!!!!!!
noooooo
it was too late for me to cycle back to get it and pass it to her.
argh
so i'll have to pass it to you the next time we meet.
probably at notts.
i'll prob go for that.
or if i go to london this weekend then i'll pass it to you.
so sorry :(
somehow feel a bit responsible for that :(
will really really try to get it to u asap

other than this glitch it was a lovely weekend.
thanks for coming all the way here.
hope both of u had fun :)
miss u both lots already

the sky was a shade of silvery grey.
a chilly wind blew ever so gently, rustling the almost-bare branches of the old, old trees.
evening was approaching, and people went about their business in the market square, hands thrust in their pockets, heads lowered.
on one side of the street, the majestic king's chapel stood proud, its grey gothic architecture awe-inspring, yet cold.
on the other side of the street, the great st. mary's church overlooked the market square, the signs of having weathered centuries of storms and people clearly showing.
a busker sat in front of the church with her key board, on which classical piano pieces were lovingly and skillfully rendered.
the music rose from the keyboard and travelled to all parts of the street, even down the narrow cobble-stoned lanes- a perfect accompaniment to the eveningtime scene.

that was what i thought when i cycled down trumpington street today.
when the music started playing i thought "wow i feel as if i'm in some movie"
and it really did feel like something out of a film.
and then i remembered that i had just been given an insane amount of work to do.
and then i crashed back to reality.

some random photos that i've finally uploaded- using a fren's laptop.
i want my proper internet connection back :(



halloween party with the salsa team! note the guy's black fingernails and paper fan.



another team member! dressed as some vampire/phantom thing.



the owner of the house actually carved 2 pumpkins to make pumpkin pie which was really good. this is wats left of one of the pumpkins. quite scary.



hongking's bday cookout at corpus! almost 20 ppl went..and we could all fit into jiahui's room. was fun :)



robinson Nat Sci formal! some of the bio nat sci girls.



Guy Fawkes day. went to midsummers common to watch the fireworks with my cg. the fireworks aren't as impressive as those in s'pore though. fire works are sold at sainsbury's, and yf and hk wanted to buy some to light. fortunately that didn't happen, and we were content just watching fireworks set off by other ppl over the week. i even saw some from my window one night.



the leaves are starting to turn golden and fall.. and its getting colder too.



churchill formal sometime ago... when gladys and i had our desserts pennyed!

this is a momentous moment.
i have completed my physio essay.
at last.
at last.


today i succumbed to pressure wrought by insanely low temperatures and concluded, after 3 weeks of self-denial, that my fleece jackets aren't warm enough.
so i went to Warehouse and bought the long black coat i had been eyeing for a month.
its long (so my jeans won't get wet), water proof (so i won't be drenched with it rains), black (so dirt doesn't show too easily), has a hood (so my hair won't get wet), is fur-rimmed around the hood (so i look like an eskimo), has a zip (so i don't have to use the buttons), has buttons (so i don't have to do up the zip when i'm cycling), has pockets (to store my gloves) and, most importantly, fits me.
so its a fantastic coat and i love it very much.
appart from the fact that i have detected signs of the fur shedding.
but ah well.
after looking through h&m, topshop, miss selfridge and warehouse i concluded that this coat suits me the best.
so i'm happy with it.
unfortunately its also a bit pricey.
ok its very pricey.
its GBP70.
!
and after 10% student discount its GBP63.
which is S$...
i don't wanna convert.
think in pounds!

i wanna scream.
dance prac was cancelled today (yay) so i decided to work on my physio essay.
so i worked on it.
and worked on it.
and worked on it.
and i'm still not done yet.
and i'm sick and tired of the stoopid cochlea.

took a nap in the afternoon.

the song in snow white says "a dream is a wish your heart makes"

i dreamt of my family.
and how my parents cared so much about me and looked after me even in my dreams.
i miss my mummy.
i miss my daddy.
and i miss my brothers.

and i also miss orchard.
i miss xiao long bao
and la mian
and being able to walk around in shorts and a t-shirt.
i miss singing praises and worshipping in chinese.
i miss my church.
i miss my friends.

for the first time since i arrived in cambridge, i truly feel homesick.
and the realisation that i won't be back for another 8 months- the implications and the reality of it all has just hit me.
8 months.
how am i going to survive that.
Lord please give me strength.



back to work.
reading the textbook through eyes rimmed with tears.

its getting colder everyday.
looking out of the window is -not- a gauge of temperature.
the sun was shining so brightly but i knew that that could not be trusted.
wore 3 layers of clothes, a hat and gloves and was still cold.
need a good coat!

stoopid physio essay.
:(
"discuss how animals...."
best.
there are so many different types of animals!!
why can't it be "discuss how mammals..."
argh.
back to work.

hmm.
i don't know if i've mentioned this, but my internet connection is screwy, and thats why i haven't been on msn.
the internet autodisconnects every 10 seconds or so, and then reconnects.
so if i were to go on msn, 10 seconds later i'll be offline, then i'll have to sign in again. and that is very annoying, cos i only have enough time to say "hi" to someone and thats it.
thats why i haven't been on msn.
and thats also why i can't post pics cos i can't upload stuff with my internet disconnecting every 10 secs.
i dunno why its like that.
asked this computer officer person and he doesn't know why.
think i'll have to ask for a second opinion.

yesterday was exciting.
ad 3 lectures, 2 supervisions and 1 assessed prac.
so yes, i'm actually doing work here.
it is incredibly mentally draining loh.
and it all stretched from 9 am-6pm.
then ee may and i decided to cook dinner.
so we went to sains, bought some stuff and cooked pasta at my college.
yay~
after that i went to watch the first water polo match in my life (didn't watch the hc matches... huge pity!)
but i left halfway at abt 10 pm to go for a salsa social.
its called a "salsa party" organised by the cam dancers club.
i read abt it on their website even before i was sure i was going to come here. and i knew that i really wanted to go for this party and it finally happened hehe :)
was quite fun cos most of the team ppl were there so i got to dance quite a bit.
and things are really looking up with my partner. he actually dipped me, so thats a huge improvement from the cblt and hammalock only routine.
ended at 1130, after which i went home.
yay.
so that was my exciting day.
i do thank God for giving me the strength to go through it all!

and now.
i need to do work.
after my 5 hour cell prac. left an hour early cos today's prac was easy.
i have QB assignment and physio essay due on sunday, chem practice questions and cell bio short ans (yah right) questions due on tues.
and sat night there is a cg outing-cum-bs, sunday i have salsa training in london 3-6pm and monday i have 6 hour chem prac.
so no, i'm not slacking over here.
and no, i'm not just playing all the time.
yes, i am suffering greatly under the workload.
but i do still love it here :)

i can't post photos anymore!
sad :(

quick update.

tuesday
went for robinson nat sci formal.
food was good.
much better than sidney and churchill :p
bought my first bottle of wine!
got it from the college bar and shared it with a fren.
we couldn't finish it though.
not couldn't. didn't. cos we are good girls :)
then since it is some robinson night at Ballare(club) we went there after formal cos it only cost us GBP 1 to enter :)
there was a vague halloween theme so some ppl dressed up.
quite interesting costumes.
left rather early- about 1045(!)
cos there are better ways of spending time
much better ways :)

wed:
did physio prac with the frog gastrocnemius muscle.
i was fascinated when i first saw the muscle contract when i passed an impulse through it.
amazing.
then i varied the voltage and frequency and watched the muscle undergo twitch or tetanus.
it was just so... amazing.
watching that piece of tissue contract.
i was like "wow"
especially since we need to learn the complex mechanisms involved, which makes me appreciate God's creation so much more.
whoever said the Science and God are incompatible is totally wrong. at least to me. the study of science has made me appreciate God's handiwork so much more.
that's one of the reasons why i love bio so much.
the amoeba was pretty amazing too :)

left the lab at 5 pm.
we stayed late cos i was discussing stuff w hk and a demonstrator regarding the refractory period of the muscle.
which wasn't a good idea cos it was pouring when we left the lab.
sad :(
so we tried to wait for the rain to stop.
but it didn't
so i called for help.
and was supposed to get an umbrella delivered to the physio dept.
but then 5 mins later i felt so bad imposing on someone else that i decided to cycle back myself. in the rain. in the dark. yes it was dark at 5 pm.
so i was drenched.
not a good thing.
ah well.

salsa prac.
there is much improvement.
my partner said hi to me!
first!
usually i'm the one to say hi first.
this is a big step forward.
that was about all the conversation we had.
in addition to "whoops!" "sorry" "lets try that again"
yup.
but we can dance together.
so thats a good thing.
just that we dao each other.
but its ok.
can dance can liao.




don't think i'm very happy.
i'm not sadistic.
i just feel that i should be direct instead of beating around the bush and going nowhere.
i'm sorry.