taiwan...

man.... its 10.48 right now and im fruckin bored in this camp...
i cant get to sleep as usual... oh wait im a nocturnal creature.. nvm..

you see.... i've got to get up at 5am everyday to pack fresh rations for the people... and doing all the shit... interacting with hypocrites and fucked ups... i wonder if anybody appreciates what im actually doing here...

i'm good i know... i think for the people... but sometimes i cant help but think its parallel to playing golf by yourself and doing 18 hole in ones =\

been playing soccer b y myself almost everyday... which is good... i do feel i'm improving alot by the day... cant wait to get back and play with the guys... gonna show em my 1337 skillz

thats the only thing thats keeping me alive in this place.... the hypocrites doesnt help much... not to mention the unappreciative people... oh i just realised i repeated myself...

well thats what i'm going thru...

GOD!! IF YOUR READING THIS... *HELP ME PLEASE*waveswaves*




Travis

last post before i leave

i'll be leaving for taiwan in a few hours time... there will be people i miss and some i wont. let me start afresh when i come back =)

couldnt wake up in time today as usual... thank god for the best superior one could have.
Thank you once again Mdm Chow.

lastly...i want to say

CHEER CHEN WOULD YOU MARRY ME???? =)))))))))))))

its been a long time lol

yeah its been along time since i posted here....

anyway here are someup dates on my life...

i'm taking lessons on acrylic painting for 2 months already
i'm enjoying it but its just that i simply do not have enough time to spend on my paintings
i've been trying to paint in camp but its not that good to do it in front of everybody, gives them the feeling i'm slacking like an ass

Things not been that good in the office.... all i can say is there are times where insensitivity in the office that causes my sarcastic side to overflow badly.
I know sacarsm does not help in any situation but unfortunately thats who i am and what i am
Unfortunately that is what i can do to release the feelings i have inside at that particular moment.

I will be going to taiwan next tuesday... I will be a better person when i come back.. it is the time where i will get my fricking ass on all schedules

Oh.. and i need to clean up my room badly


I dont know who's found this site yet but if you do... say hi...

minjan.

浮誇

浮誇
作曲: C.Y. Kong l 填詞: 黃偉文 l 編曲：C.Y. in Londonl 監製：Alvin Leong

Co-ordinator : Stanley leung /programming(synths/cubes/vocoding) & pc manipulation : c y kong/
Drums: davy chan / bass: 細威 / guitar: 亞賢/ chorus : Patrick lui/music recorded & spiced by c y in London 12/46 london/ guitar , bass & drum recorded by david sum at avon studio

有人問我 我就會講 但是無人來
我期待到無奈 有話要講 得不到裝載 
我的心情猶像樽蓋 等被揭開 咀巴卻在養青苔
人潮內 愈文靜  愈變得 不受理睬  自己要搞出意外
像突然 地高歌  任何地方也像開四面台
著最閃的衫 扮十分感慨  有人來拍照要記住插袋  

* 你當我是浮誇吧  誇張只因我很怕  
似木頭 似石頭的話  得到注意嗎  
其實怕被忘記 至放大來演吧  
很不安 怎去優雅
世上還讚頌沉默嗎
不夠爆炸 怎麼有話題 讓我誇 做大娛樂家

那年十八 母校舞會 站著如嘍囉
那時候 我含淚發誓各位 必須看到我
在世間 平凡又普通的路太多  屋村你住哪一座 
情愛中  工作中 受過的忽視太多 自尊已飽經跌墮
重視能治肚餓 末曾獲得過便知我為何
大動作很多 犯下這些錯
搏人們看看我 算病態麼 ?

Repeat *

幸運兒並不多　若然未當過就知我為何
用十倍苦心做突出一個　正常人夠我富議論性麼

你叫我做浮誇吧 加幾聲噓聲也不怕
我在場 有悶場的話 表演你看嗎 夠歇斯底里嗎 
以眼淚淋花吧  一心只想你驚訝 我舊時似未存在嗎 
加重注碼 青筋也現形 話我知 現在存在嗎

凝視我 別再只看天花  我非你杯茶
也可盡情地喝吧  別遺忘有人在 為你 聲沙

all i can say i can relate to this song in some ways heh

I have noticed a talented song writer in Hongkong lately.

He is Eric Kwok

我猜是我中了箭.....

I have just went thru the most tiring day in my army life.... thanks alot TBC aka The Burning Cock. I shall not even mention his name here. Anyway TBC is my big boss, he has just shot 2 arrows at me and sam to spasm uncontrollably and foam in the mouth.

We both went to SAFTI MI(I'm too tired to think of what is stands for but its the camp where officers are trained) with 5 other MIB (military intelligence battalion/brigade/iamjustguessing) dudes to cover this huuuuuuuuuuuugeee hall of warriors with 20 over pieces of rolled up canvases which goes to over 40-50mtres when we unrolled them. We were there from 10am to 4pm unrolling and piecing the 20 pieces together to form a huge carpet for guests i dont give a shit about.

After the 5th piece this warranted officer walked in and told us we were doing it the wrong but anyway its up to us to do it his way or our way yada yada yada.....anyway he told us this was supposed to be done by a 40man coy....thank you for your thoughtfulness TBC.... only 4 guys from store today and you HAD to pry us away when we were already standing in knee deep shit piled up back at the office.

The guy talks like he farts. Easy.

I am frickin pissed I have to go back to the same frickin place again to move in the tables and chairs.

我猜是我中了箭.....

another weekend another monday

i wanted to go sleep at 1045 just now but being the accomplished procrastinator I am, I am here updating my life on a website at 1211am =)

I've been listening to songs from softhard,easonchan,wubai,lizhongsheng and maydays new album eversince i came back.

I have to say I'm getting quality sound waves these few days

I'm so frustrated with the camp rules that forbid me bringing a mp3 player... I am currently considering going to pick up a decent discman to play in the office.


and.........





I just want to say cheer chen qi zhen is my goddess

something to share

最佳損友

作曲：Eric Kwok｜填詞：黃偉文｜編曲：Eric Kwok / Jerald｜
監製：Eric Kwok / Jerald / Eason Chan

朋友　我當你一秒朋友
朋友　我當你一世朋友
奇怪　過去再不堪回首
懷緬　時時其實還有

朋友　你試過將我營救
朋友　你試過把我批鬥
無法　再與你交心聯手
畢竟　難得　有過最佳損友

從前共你　促膝把酒　傾通宵都不夠
我有痛快過　你有沒有
很多東西今生只可給你　保守至到永久
別人如何明白透
實實在在　踏入過我宇宙
即使相處到　有個裂口
命運決定了　以後再沒法聚頭
但說過去　卻那樣厚

＊問我有沒有　確實也沒有
　一直躲避的藉口　非甚麼大仇
　為何舊知己　在最後　變不到老友
　不知你是我敵友　已沒法望透
　被推著走　跟著生活流
　來年陌生的　是昨日最親的某某＊

生死之交當天不知罕有
到你變節了　至覺未夠
多想一天　彼此都不追究　相邀再次喝酒
待　葡萄成熟透
但是命運入面　每個邂逅
一起走到了　某個路口
是敵與是友　各自也沒有自由
位置變了　各有隊友

REPEAT＊

早知解散後　各自有　際遇作導遊
奇就奇在　接受了　各自有路走
卻沒人像你　讓我　眼淚背著流
嚴重似情侶　講分手

有沒有　確實也沒有
一直躲避的藉口　非甚麼大仇
為何舊知己　在最後　變不到老友
不知你又有沒有　掛念這舊友
或者自己　早就想通透
來年陌生的　是昨日　最親的某某
總好於　那日我　沒有　沒有　遇過　某某

PS: for friends who have found this undisclosed site of mine. leave me a message =)

thoughts.

i just got back from hongkong last week, but my mind is still lingering in charming city I was born in.

I had a good talk with my Kai Ma. She's actually learning this art called Zi wei dou shu. basically is a divination skill. She gave me a little insight of my future, I shall leave the contents out of this. All I can say is I'm a little more confident about things now and clearer about my direction in life at the moment.

I forgot what made me decide to enlist into the army but I am still very unsure even till now whether it was the right choice for me.

I've been thinking alot about things. maybe a little too much, maybe a little redundant.

One of my new year resolution is to take up at least 3 different courses this year, and get a girlfriend dammit. I'm twenty one years old in september and I feel its getting a little embarassing for me to go on.

Okay its not a priority, but at least I will be open. I'm more interested in getting my life on track.



I used to have this aspiration of being a film director. Because I felt, through film, I could materialise my fantasies and inner thoughts. Lately, after much serious thinking, I realised that what i truely enjoyed was writing. Writing about stories, about anything that I fancy.

Aspiring to be a film director all the time was only because of my distrustful nature, that other people might taint my perception of a flawless imagination which has my big fat name written all over it. The little control freak inside of me delusioned me with the desire to have power over everything during production. I'll talk about that little monster another time.


I have since identified song writing and scriptwriting to be a more practical and potential option for me. Did I mention the shy little spark of Tony Leung wannabe in me.

Through Mayday, I have realised the art of writing lyrics can be so provoking to the imagination and it brought me to a new plane of listening to music. Listening to lyrics that are written with so much thought and feelings, gives me images that blend in with music so beautifully crafted that brings me into a world only I can imagine and feel.

It as an ingenious way of storytelling. I have to admit I love music even more than film.

I have decided to take up a course on song writing. I may go for a sketching course too. I have always wanted draw nice pictures.

I want to master 'The Game'

Finally, I would really want to improve on my chinese.

PS: I really wanna play soccer this week!!!

my life.

Finally i have some time, strength and motivation to update this site. i am currently still adapting to army life even after 6 months. been sleeping late and waking up late for work every day. my vocation in the army is a supply assistant therefore im a 8 to 5 guy. I've been awarded 3 extra duties by the SSM (School Sergeant Major) for coming late. I've been spending 400 a month takin taxi to camp all the time and im fricking broke.

You could say I am unrepentant. I say I cherish my own time more. =)