I have been very emotional since yesterday. Sitting by the side of my bed, hoping that you'll just drop by to give me a hug... but i guess... sometimes. u just dun bother as much as before..... words without actions is useless....

today i had a long day chatting with my dear friend Marv and also singing  karaoke with him for 3 hours. Its nice chatting with him because he always make things sound so simple and uncomplicated.Straight into my face and always telling me whats right and wrong. I really appreciate it friend.

Few hours before typing this entry, I found out that my ex ex has found a new girlfriend. Though he should have gotten a new girlfriend long long long ago, since I've long moved on also... but.. somehow, although i always tell myself that one day, when he finds himself a cute girlfriend, that will be the day that i can sincerely be friends with him once again.however....at that instant when I found out that he has a new girlfriend....I did not feel as happy as i thought i would be... 

I am happy for him because he has definitely found himself a more suitable girlfriend than I am. But I kinda feel sad also... because... I also know that now......... haix nvm.

Its just so amazing, how a girl can have a love one in mind yet like having in mind that there is just this guy, somewhere out there that still loves her deeply and is waiting there for her... even though she do not have feelings for that guy anymore... but its just...a sudden moment of emptiness that she feels.....when she knows that... now.. no one is waiting....

To ex ex: Glad to know that you have a new girlfriend. Hope that life can be better for you and really I wish you all the best in your future endeavor. Really want to thank you for once being part of my life. Thank you for waiting... sorry I did not turn back because.... somehow.. we are just too different....

People with different dreams cannot walk in the same path. Even though  our path has met at a certain place, for a certain time, but when people take different lengths of stride, somehow they walk a different path in life all together..... It sucks.. but thats life. =D

i really hate u for spoiling my 1st day of cny. All guys are the same. really. I really want to have a guy who will always be there for me when i need him. Who will always think of me and wan me to be there with him whenever he goes out.... Not leave me out on festive seasons like this when i work so hard to do my dissertation for the whole day and in the end, things turn out like this on the 1st day of my chinese new year. Last year, I was pang seh, this year was no different. Y do i always have to have shitty feelings on this day...... 

this phrase is really true, a guy will treat u the best when he is chasing u... when he's got u... hmm... things change. haix.

Suck balls man. I'll finish up my dissertation and score well for it coz... this is my only hope now......