Annual Leave Mode

Today is the official start of my AL. First leave for this yr..woohoo. started work on2nd nov and yay i survived. Nearing to 5 months of hell work. I simply hate my colleague. Though not all...some are ok. Im just not the old me anymore. Dun wan to be the gd person.

Now the aircon peeps are repairing my aircon. Hope it dun cost me a bomb.

Gonna meet up my musketeers later on. Really need a holiday right now. Feel like travelling but i am scared. Hope i can muster my courage to travel alone soon.

Just blogging

Hey....im back. Lots to vent....but kinda bz and lazy...hahhaha. bz with work and more work. Jiayou2 to muah....i can do this. I have to do this...

Wah...its been ages since i last blog here. Lots of happening and stories.....

Life goes on......

Today will be short and sweet...wen i more freer will blog more. 

Read thru my past blog and it reminded me of many things. 

oklah....gonna surf net now...see wat else i can explore and find. hahahhaa

05 Jan 2013

Wow......dah 2013. Banyak yang ingin ku type.....

Okay.....lets start with my dearest mum......
19 Oct 2012....is the date she left all of us. Yup.....mak ku tersayang telah kembali ke TUHAN yg maha esa. Sedih teramat sangat aku dan keluargaku rasai. Apa taknya.....kami kehilagan org yg kami kasihi dan banyak cabaran dan dugaan kami lalui bersama. Banyak kemarahan, kegembiraan yg kami kecapi, lalui bersama.

Ayah org yg paling sedih.....hilang isteri dan tempat mengadu nasib. Ok...tak nak emo....

So far ok......live have to go on......rite

Aku masih kat LNUS. Kerja macam org gila....hahahahaaa

Anak buah ku masih sama........

Aku sangat2 rindu arwah..........terus terang memang aku marah bila arwah masih hidup. Apa tak nya.....asyik aku aja yang dimarahnya. Asyik aku yg dipanggilnya. Asyik2......Edah....kejap2 Edah.....ada kalanya macam nak lari rumah aja. Tapi bila dah tak da.....rindu pula. Memang betul arwah cakap.....nanti bila mak takda kau akan rindu.

Aku kehilangan tempat untuk megadu...tempat untuk bergantung. Aku rindu :-

1. salin pampers arwah
2. mandikan arwah
3. arwah urut/picit badanku pabila aku sakit/pening
4. masakan arwah......kari.....apa2 aja yg arwah masak. arwah pandai masak.....just give her anything and she can whip up a decent, delicious meal
5. arwah menjahit bajuku yg dah koyak
6. arwah lipat bajuku
7. bebual dgn arwah....ya.....sound cliche but memang aku rindu bebual ngan arwah. dia selalu beri nasihat dan akan menolong aku bila perlu......she is always the one i confide in
8. i miss holding her hand......salam arwah bila nak gi keluar/work
9. org yg akan menunggu aku balik rumah...dan yg akan hantar aku di pintu
10. penghibur hatiku

Ya ALLAH........i really miss arwah so much......

Sehingga sekarang almost now and then i cried......i just cant stop remembering her.

Its not easy.....its sound easy but hell no.....As im typing this....my tears dripping.......pwehhhhh. 

I guess its the sweet memories tat makes me sane....and of course doa yg tak akan terputus for arwah.

I dunno where she is now and how she is now but i strongly believe tat she is happier 'there' and terlepas dari seksa yg di alami di dunia. Her life is not the fairytale like....she suffered a lot......

Tahun ni raya berbeza......tanpa arwah. 

Up till now.....i din clear up arwah stuff......to me i rather keep it as it is. I dun wan to clear her things as i am in denial. Yes i am  still in denial. I just cant seem to let go.

Arghhhhh.......this sucks......just sucks.

2nd Feb 2012

Went to Al Majlis @ Arab Street with Thana, Bala, Tracy, Lin Lin, Renuka, Agnes, Kryslyn and Wanxiao today for Tracy farewell treat and Agnes and Renuka advance bday celebration. Was ok lah. Din really like the food. Supposedly ordered beef kebab but at the very last minute they said there is no beef kebab went all the other food order arrived. Was damn pissed but i control my temper.





Company wise was ok except that i do not feel good. Felt giddy after a while. I guess its due to the smoke smell tats y. Wen back with Lin Lin. I took a cab home as i cant stand the giddiness any longer.





Really dunno wat i want in live. I really need to sort out things before i go crazy. Arghhhhhh. Must lose weight......MUST. Back to bedside nursing???????I actually like to do that. Should I????????? Research is ok to me but the amount of time and effort spent is simply not worth it.





Gonna be more pro active this year. I mean in term of personal life. Took up kick boxing early this year. To date have attended 4 session. Another 8 session to go. Ohhhh. Im loving it. ;D

07 Aug 2011

Wah.....Dah lebih 2 tahun seh aku tak blog kat sini. Banyak yang dah berlaku.Cepat seh masa berlalu. Hari ini dah masuk hari yang ke tujuh semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia berpuasa. Alhamdulillah aku dapat menyambut hari pertama puasa. Syukur ke hadrat illahi. Namun aku terpaksa berhenti puasa pada hari keempat disebabkan masalah wanita yang tak dapat dielakkan.

Dah setahun lebih aku bekerja di tempat baru iaitu.....LNUS. Alhamdulillah.....semuanya ok ok aje. Biasalah politiks berada dimana mana saja.

Anak buahku dah bertambah.....best gila.

oklah...tgh penat nie. Lain kali blog lagi. ;D

121209

Dah lama seh tak blog kat sini. In fact dah lama tak blog. Nak cakap sibuk tak. Malah very free sgt sgt...hehhhhheheee. Al maklum lah tak keje. Duduk umah aje. Dah 3 bulan tak keje. Naik lemak dibuatnye.
Hari ni makan luar ngan family+ika n geng. Gi changi village...sempena hari lahir ayah on the 14th. Ika+geng yg belanja. Ayah yg teringin nak makan nasi beriyani kat situ. Ok2 je...as im not a bryani fan. The journey.......pening sebab ada jam. Balik alhamdullilah better.
Banyak yg nak di blog tapi bila dah start cam stuck. Tak tahu nak start. Best seh org dapat $$$$. Kalau masih keje tentu dapat $$$. Sekarang mesti save. Bajet.....hehehehehe.

Byk REGRETs in my mind.......tapi i think its for the best. At least i dun feel sad aite. YA ALLAH maafkan lah hamba mu ini. Kurniakanlah kesejahteraan dan rasa insaf kepadaku. Moga aku dapat TOBAT. Amin.