P-R-I-D-E

Today's CG, we talked about pride. how apt. I have been very proud in the many things that I do, the many people I encounter. I knew it was not good to be proud, that it was not a fruit of the Spirit, but I had not known that it was so bad that it stops me from glorifying God.

Pride is viscious. It destroys ministries, marriages, friendships, jobs, character. (as the books says)

We discussed so many things that are related to pride. such human nature. we may never be able to really be humble, yet we must continue to work at it. it may be tiring. but we must continue trying, and praying for one another.

I will try to be humble. Remind me please, but also, please do it gently.

quotes from other people's blogs...

"Our closeness in marriage is really because of our freedom in sharing how we feel towards each other not just in good times, but in bad times as well. We are all not perfect and make mistakes at times. When any party said something that hurts the other, we take active steps to voice it out sensitively, apologize, and should that not be enough because the hurt is deep, we would try our best to make restitution for the other. Such an apology shows our sincerity, and our love that is willing to take a sacrificial role for each other. Both (of us) have both played such a role before, according to our needs at that particular situation. Because of this, conflicts make us stronger. And we get closer along the way."

hmm... something that i have to learn...

"That’s what makes a marriage more alive and fulfilling than short flings, because no one shares that kind of emotional intimacy you can build with your wife, if you devote your heart into your marriage. This intimacy within a trusting, accepting and close person whom you love and share the commitment with, is more freeing, and mutiple times more precious than any other kind of short term intimacy, you can build with anybody."

totally agree! (from my little knowledge on marriage)

"I believe such journeys do usually reflect many guys’ processes of growing up and maturing. From a boy who just wanted love for the sake of self gratification, to a man who knows how to give love, be responsible to make committed decisions, and be a protector to his spouse and family. Along the way, many heartbreaks, many rejections, and moments when you feel whether it will ever be your day. And this is one thing that I always tell guys: 'If you are a good mature guy who knows how to love and communicate with woman, there’s no reason why you can’t find another half.' Woman are simple creatures. They like guys who are genuine, sincere, sweet. A man who knows how to love maturely and communicate sensitively, he will be an attractive man to a grown woman ready to settle down."

hmm... to think this was written by a guy. but i feel it's so true.

"We build our love on basis of commitment and friendship, such that when beauty fades, we have something that will last the test of time. We may be simple, yet very disciplined in love. We have decided to walk in love, beyond just falling in love, and we work hard daily to stay emotionally connected, so that our friendship fire burns brightly."

i think i need to work harder...

wise words from a couple. Sometimes i think our relationship is tested. but i guess what is important is how we resolve issues, and how we react in times of trouble. we're still learning, and still praying together. but we hope one day, we may be able to share our lives together.

it's over!!

camp is over!! now for AAR and claims!!!

felt a load of my back. managed to relax today, after doing some cockpit stuff like remarks and marks for CA1.

thanks for bringing me out to relax and fantasize about living out there in the middle of the sea. haha...

slept 12 hours last night.... napped this afternoon.... going to sleep again.... too old for camps....

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had EIGHT "lo-hei"s for CNY this year... super many lah. haha....

almost there

tomorrow is THE DAY!! camp starts. i hope i have prepared everything that i need. I hope i have packed everything i need. something still tells me that i might have missed out something... hmm...

pray that everything will run smoothly, that i won't fall sick, that no one would get any serious injury, that the students would learn and have fun.

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one thing that keeps me wanting to teach. i was having a one-on-one conversation with a boy on the bus. and when he had to alight, he thanked me and said "cher, very interesting leh"... and i thought all i was talking to him were boring stuff like how he can improve his english and what subjects he should take when he gets to sec 3, etc... but well, it made my day :)

and maybe cos the day had been an emotional one. just before i headed home (when i met the boy on the bus), i was in a parent/principal conference. guardian of my floorball girl ended up crying, the girl was crying, her other auntie was crying, and i was tearing as well. sigh... i hope the meeting was constructive and the girl really learnt. cos i really believe that she can change.

busy busy busy

work has been SUPER hectic. so many things to do in such a short time. nationals and camp taking up most of my time. only breaks are floorball and ultimate during the weekends where i can run away my frustrations at work, and catching movies and dinner chats with jy.

have been coughing since week 2 of school. that's about 2 months now. and today i've been super sick, with terrible headaches.... so bad that i feel dizzy and have to frown to stop the dizziness...

miss b told me to go see a doctor. told her i'll do so after the sec 1 camp. haha. there's so much i still have to do that i can't afford to take MC. i'm not that sick anyway.

it's now i'm at my weakest emotionally and physically. work stress is piling up. i'm more short tempered. my headaches do not help improve my condition. and it is also at this point i was left alone to struggle. my only trustable support turned away. sigh. humans are so temporary. God is more permanent.

2 more weeks... i need a break. i need to rest. terribly...

God please help me to hang in there.

my brother is TWENTY!!!!!!!

the last time i counted, he was only TEN! haha... he sure grows up FAST.....

this post is a little late... he's actually... twenty, and 5 days old!

which also means..... i'm getting OOOOLLLLDDDDDDDDD.......

NYE to THE new year!

NYE was spent in school.... doing work.... preparing for lessons for next year.... and who should I see in school? ALL were chemistry teachers! J commented that something was wrong. why are the other teachers not back? why were there only chemistry teachers. hmm... we didn't get to a conclusion. hee.... anyway, I was probably doing work until about 4pm.

then we hopped over to JP, me and JY, to get working clothes for him. G2000 was having this mega sale, plus citibank cards have 15% off the sale price! very worth it lah.

and then we watched treasure hunter. i'm not a fan of chinese movies. but JY likes it, so there we are, watching the show. and it doesn't change my impression of watching chinese shows at the cinema. waste of money. haha. but doesn't matter, cos he paid for the show anyway. haha...:p

then we went back to his house for him to rest a while, then headed for our countdown place! it was a last minute decision. plan was just to spend the time together, to be with each other when the new year passes. then halfway through the movie, i remembered that he'd wanted to bring me to ECP for some "flare"-shooting by the ships.... it only happened during newyear, so off we went!

ECP was crowded. but it's a big place, so we still managed to have a little BK picnic on the beach. super high tide, the sand path leading to the water breakers were underwater. if u wanted to go to the breakers, u had to wade in the water. we of course stayed on shore. an it was funny how everyone had a different watch. cos when my handphone showed 11:52pm, people were already screaming "Happy New Year!"

and that was roughly when it started. the ships have different timings too. they started shooting flares up into the sky. according to JY, the flares are going to expire, so they have to get rid of them, so they use it as a celebration for the newyear since all the sailors are away from their families.

it was a pretty sight. one by one, the ships shot flares up into the sky. 2 particular ships let of fireworks!! some flares remained in the sky for some time, others drop down very fast. but there were many of them! people on the shore were definitely enjoying the sight! and the ships also blasted their horns. to mark the new year. :)

home sweet home after that. i'll still prefer fireworks. but the fact that we don't have to squeeze, we have cool sea breeze and sand below our feet makes it all worthwhile.

thank you :)

blessed new year to everyone!