So we just haven't put anything at all on the blog since before closing on the house. A couple of things have happened since then.
First off, if there's still anyone who cares who doesn't know, we have moved back into an apartment. My hours at work got slashed. Ironically, my hours got cut because business picked up, not because business was lousy. Instead of running 2 shifts for 10 hours per day, we started running 3 shifts for 8 hours per day. When we first started up 3rd shift, we didn't even have to work any Saturdays for a while, so we weren't getting any overtime at all. I went from working 55 hours per week on average to 40 hours per week. On overtime, I get paid nearly $30 per hour, so after taxes and everything my pay got cut by over $1,200 per month. This was added to our utilities costing us much more than we anticipated. Suddenly, the fact that we were living beyond our means was glaringly obvious.
I'm actually not angry, despite my deserved reputation of having a short temper. Seriously. I'm not angry at my employer for cutting my hours. I'm not angry at the bank for foreclosing on us. I'm not angry at the credit card companies. I'm not even angry at the utility companies charging more than we were prepared for. In the end, none of them were the root cause that lead us to this point. The root cause was that we were spending too much money and not saving enough. It has taken me some time, but I have actually reached the point where I'm grateful for the lessons learned. Would I have preferred to learn these lessons in a less-personally-painful way? Yeah. Anyone who says they prefer to learn in the most painful way possible is lying. Nevertheless, we have learned a lot, and if we decide to buy another house in the future we will be better prepared for the entire experience.
On a happier note, it seems almost ludicrous to me that we haven't made one single blog post since Joseph was born. Yes, Joseph will turn one year old in less than two (2) weeks. We're having a party and everything. We are getting professional pictures like we did with Julian, even using the same photographer. So in a couple of weeks we might post a couple of pictures of Baby Joe. Unless we end up going for another year and a half without posting anything.
The Blurbs
Monday, March 17, 2014
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Health, Houses and Heirs
What we have here is a perfectly healthy little boy in our future living room. We had the opportunity to get out of bed at 7:00 am (in the morning) so we could make it to Little Rock for Julian's latest doctor appointment and tests. The bad news is that Julian had to get a catheter, and to get the catheter in just right he had to be held down with sandbags on his arms and legs. The doctors even used masking tape on his legs to keep him from kicking and possibly causing himself even more pain.
The good news is that Julian has no kidney reflux anymore! He doesn't need to take the daily antibiotics or anything. His kidneys are functioning perfectly normally! He will have another ultrasound on them in 3 months just to make sure, but that should be the last of it.
Speaking of the future living room, things seem to be proceeding in terms of us buying the house. We rather hope that it works out because homelessness really doesn't sound very appealing to any of us. We have asked the sellers if we can move in before closing happens, explaining our situation to them, but we probably won't hear back from them until tomorrow (Wednesday) at the earliest, which doesn't leave a lot of time before we become homeless, but as long as they aren't evil then things can still work out favorably.
Honestly, limiting our daily stress intake is probably a good idea right now anyway, what with Julian scheduled to become a big brother sometime between late March and mid April. Granted, that means that I'll get to do the vast majority of the heavy lifting in this move again, but it seems like a reasonable tradeoff.
The good news is that Julian has no kidney reflux anymore! He doesn't need to take the daily antibiotics or anything. His kidneys are functioning perfectly normally! He will have another ultrasound on them in 3 months just to make sure, but that should be the last of it.
Speaking of the future living room, things seem to be proceeding in terms of us buying the house. We rather hope that it works out because homelessness really doesn't sound very appealing to any of us. We have asked the sellers if we can move in before closing happens, explaining our situation to them, but we probably won't hear back from them until tomorrow (Wednesday) at the earliest, which doesn't leave a lot of time before we become homeless, but as long as they aren't evil then things can still work out favorably.
Honestly, limiting our daily stress intake is probably a good idea right now anyway, what with Julian scheduled to become a big brother sometime between late March and mid April. Granted, that means that I'll get to do the vast majority of the heavy lifting in this move again, but it seems like a reasonable tradeoff.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Out With the Old, In With the New
In the spirit of spring cleaning, I have finally done something I have been meaning to do for quite some time. No, I'm not referring to shaving my head, though it seems like a more viable option each summer. I'm referring to quitting Facebook. Honestly, I only logged in a couple of times per month, so I just wasn't able to keep up with anything that anyone was posting. Yeah, it was occasionally convenient for something, but overall I have been dissatisfied with Facebook for a long time now, so I decided to finally shut down my account. I haven't noticed any difference in my life yet.
So now that the "old" has been taken out, it's time for the new:

Jacalyn and I saw it looking lonely and depressed and I somehow talked her into letting me have it. It might be that I said Julian would get to ride it someday.

"Srsly, Daddy? How much longer do I have to wait?"
For those that are curious, it is a 2007 Suzuki GSX-R600. It is the same as the 2006 I had a few years ago, except for the colors. It is important that everyone know how similar the bike I used to have and the current bike are.
I can honestly say that going from an inline, four cylinder, 600cc supersport to a retro-standard, single-cylinder 250 was much easier than going from a retro-standard, single-cylinder 250 back to an inline, four cylinder, 600cc supersport. It's not just the fact that I once again have about 100 rear wheel horsepower instead of 15, but also the handling, riding position, clutch feel, better suspension and of course, the whole my-front-brakes-can-easily-launch-me-over-the-handlebars feeling. Surprisingly enough (for me, anyway), I actually stalled the bike in the parking lot when we picked it up. Yes, the clutches and throttles really are that different. I felt more awkward riding it home than I have ever felt on any bike since my first.
I took the new bike for a ride this morning, just to try and clear out some of the mental cobwebs that have set in over the last two years of not owning a sporting motorbike. It felt a bit odd at first, and I freely admit that I haven't really gotten the hang of the new bike yet, which is kind of a surprise, due to the previously mentioned similarity. By the time I came back home, I was feeling a bit more comfortable, though still nowhere near my previous levels of comfort or control. If I had gone to the track riding like I did it would have been embarrassing.
For fun I took the red bike to work today. It could also be because it was out of gas. Once again I was amazed at how stunningly different the two motorbikes are. Apparently while I was reacquainting myself with a supersport I was forgetting how to ride a retro standard. Two years of muscle memory were thoroughly confused in about an hour of riding a different bike. It didn't take nearly as long to get comfortable on the red bike again, but I was still marveling at the differences when I arrived at work.
So there you have it. And now, a parting shot of our current "fleet:"
So now that the "old" has been taken out, it's time for the new:

Jacalyn and I saw it looking lonely and depressed and I somehow talked her into letting me have it. It might be that I said Julian would get to ride it someday.

"Srsly, Daddy? How much longer do I have to wait?"
For those that are curious, it is a 2007 Suzuki GSX-R600. It is the same as the 2006 I had a few years ago, except for the colors. It is important that everyone know how similar the bike I used to have and the current bike are.
I can honestly say that going from an inline, four cylinder, 600cc supersport to a retro-standard, single-cylinder 250 was much easier than going from a retro-standard, single-cylinder 250 back to an inline, four cylinder, 600cc supersport. It's not just the fact that I once again have about 100 rear wheel horsepower instead of 15, but also the handling, riding position, clutch feel, better suspension and of course, the whole my-front-brakes-can-easily-launch-me-over-the-handlebars feeling. Surprisingly enough (for me, anyway), I actually stalled the bike in the parking lot when we picked it up. Yes, the clutches and throttles really are that different. I felt more awkward riding it home than I have ever felt on any bike since my first.
I took the new bike for a ride this morning, just to try and clear out some of the mental cobwebs that have set in over the last two years of not owning a sporting motorbike. It felt a bit odd at first, and I freely admit that I haven't really gotten the hang of the new bike yet, which is kind of a surprise, due to the previously mentioned similarity. By the time I came back home, I was feeling a bit more comfortable, though still nowhere near my previous levels of comfort or control. If I had gone to the track riding like I did it would have been embarrassing.
For fun I took the red bike to work today. It could also be because it was out of gas. Once again I was amazed at how stunningly different the two motorbikes are. Apparently while I was reacquainting myself with a supersport I was forgetting how to ride a retro standard. Two years of muscle memory were thoroughly confused in about an hour of riding a different bike. It didn't take nearly as long to get comfortable on the red bike again, but I was still marveling at the differences when I arrived at work.
So there you have it. And now, a parting shot of our current "fleet:"
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Pros and Cons
Pro - We all seem to be feeling better.
Con - We were all sick this week.
Pro - I am riding my bicycle again.
Con - I haven't ridden it for more than half a mile in something like two years and I can feel it.
Pro - I enjoyed a short work week this week.
Con - I won't get paid very much next week.
Pro - We have finished moving out of the last apartment completely.
Con - We moved into the last apartment a year ago.
Pro - We love our new apartment.
Con - We really do need to finish unpacking and getting everything put away for real this time.
Pro - Julian is still a little cutie.
Con - He won't let me say that about him forever.
Pro - Several friends are at the track today, riding motorcycles as enthusiastically as little kids.
Con - I'm not playing today because I'm not sure I'm not still contagious.
Pro - Due to all of our different options for the day begin cancelled in one form or another, we have all day to spend together.
Con - We were all sick this week.
Pro - I am riding my bicycle again.
Con - I haven't ridden it for more than half a mile in something like two years and I can feel it.
Pro - I enjoyed a short work week this week.
Con - I won't get paid very much next week.
Pro - We have finished moving out of the last apartment completely.
Con - We moved into the last apartment a year ago.
Pro - We love our new apartment.
Con - We really do need to finish unpacking and getting everything put away for real this time.
Pro - Julian is still a little cutie.
Con - He won't let me say that about him forever.
Pro - Several friends are at the track today, riding motorcycles as enthusiastically as little kids.
Con - I'm not playing today because I'm not sure I'm not still contagious.
Pro - Due to all of our different options for the day begin cancelled in one form or another, we have all day to spend together.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Long Time, No See!
I completely forgot about the blog at the end of my pregnancy...you can tell this because Julian is almost 7 1/2 weeks old now!
I created a private blog about him, so I don't know what I'm going to do with this blog yet. I'll try to update it from time to time, but I want to control who can see pictures of Julian online, ergo the private blog. If you'd like to be invited to read it, email me at savvyclaire21 [at] gmail [dot] com and tell me why!
I created a private blog about him, so I don't know what I'm going to do with this blog yet. I'll try to update it from time to time, but I want to control who can see pictures of Julian online, ergo the private blog. If you'd like to be invited to read it, email me at savvyclaire21 [at] gmail [dot] com and tell me why!
Monday, February 21, 2011
The Happy Post
There are a LOT of things I've been happy about lately! I'm feeling the need to document them (more :)
1. THE WEATHER!! I can't tell you how much I'm adoring the weather! It's probably one of the biggest factors in my huge mood improvement, which is kind of surprising to me. It's been cloudy and windy the last few days and I STILL love it! I seriously need to live in a place with weather like this year round!
2. I can still sleep at night. I have many, many pregnant friends who are already having sleep problems. Most of them are due around the same time as me and they just can't get comfortable or the kid is moving in such a way that it prevents them from sleeping. This is not happening to me, for which I'm eternally grateful. His movements still aren't painful or uncomfortable either (unless he's playing with my belly button from the inside, which is another story). I'm still getting all the benefits of him moving around with few of the downsides!
3. I got TWO new pairs of maternity jeans from the huge tub of clothes given to me from the woman at church. Most of it doesn't fit and even more of it is dressy work type maternity clothes, which I really don't need, so I'm going to pass them on to someone who will benefit more from them. ALL of the maternity jeans I have were given to me, for which I'm also eternally grateful, since that has saved us SO much money! Most of them don't fit quite right, but get the job done and they were free, so no complaining here.
4. I had to take my wedding rings off a few weeks ago, but my Mom found one of my grandma's old rings that is big enough probably to get me through the end, so I don't have to go buy some cheapie ring either! I don't know how many people really understand how much I hated the idea of taking off my wedding rings but I didn't want to have them cut off later if I have too much swelling, so I did it anyway. I really don't want to look like I'm 17 and pregnant, so at least having a ring on shows I'm at least married.
5. This one is possibly the biggest and most exciting :)
Friday, we drove up to Alma and spent the night with my parents after Adam got off work. At the buttcrack of dawn Saturday morning, we got up and drove to Oklahoma City to SEE DAVE RAMSEY LIVE! WOOOOOHOOOOOO!! OKC and Nashville were the two closest events and the Nashville event was already sold out when I heard about them, but OKC wasn't. To make things even better, Adam found a coupon and we saved $25 on tickets! I love love love his books and the radio show and the live event was like combining all of them! It lasted 5 hours and he went over just about everything under the sun! SO motivating! We've started this business twice and then quit for no good reason, but now we're back on, this time for good. It's going to suck and be amazing all at the same time!
I am definitely enjoying the overall good mood. Pregnancy hormones see to it that it doesn't last every single second (I average crying over something once a day or so!) but I feel like I'm so much better off than I've been the last four or five months. I hope the trend continues the closer we get to May!
1. THE WEATHER!! I can't tell you how much I'm adoring the weather! It's probably one of the biggest factors in my huge mood improvement, which is kind of surprising to me. It's been cloudy and windy the last few days and I STILL love it! I seriously need to live in a place with weather like this year round!
2. I can still sleep at night. I have many, many pregnant friends who are already having sleep problems. Most of them are due around the same time as me and they just can't get comfortable or the kid is moving in such a way that it prevents them from sleeping. This is not happening to me, for which I'm eternally grateful. His movements still aren't painful or uncomfortable either (unless he's playing with my belly button from the inside, which is another story). I'm still getting all the benefits of him moving around with few of the downsides!
3. I got TWO new pairs of maternity jeans from the huge tub of clothes given to me from the woman at church. Most of it doesn't fit and even more of it is dressy work type maternity clothes, which I really don't need, so I'm going to pass them on to someone who will benefit more from them. ALL of the maternity jeans I have were given to me, for which I'm also eternally grateful, since that has saved us SO much money! Most of them don't fit quite right, but get the job done and they were free, so no complaining here.
4. I had to take my wedding rings off a few weeks ago, but my Mom found one of my grandma's old rings that is big enough probably to get me through the end, so I don't have to go buy some cheapie ring either! I don't know how many people really understand how much I hated the idea of taking off my wedding rings but I didn't want to have them cut off later if I have too much swelling, so I did it anyway. I really don't want to look like I'm 17 and pregnant, so at least having a ring on shows I'm at least married.
5. This one is possibly the biggest and most exciting :)
Friday, we drove up to Alma and spent the night with my parents after Adam got off work. At the buttcrack of dawn Saturday morning, we got up and drove to Oklahoma City to SEE DAVE RAMSEY LIVE! WOOOOOHOOOOOO!! OKC and Nashville were the two closest events and the Nashville event was already sold out when I heard about them, but OKC wasn't. To make things even better, Adam found a coupon and we saved $25 on tickets! I love love love his books and the radio show and the live event was like combining all of them! It lasted 5 hours and he went over just about everything under the sun! SO motivating! We've started this business twice and then quit for no good reason, but now we're back on, this time for good. It's going to suck and be amazing all at the same time!
I am definitely enjoying the overall good mood. Pregnancy hormones see to it that it doesn't last every single second (I average crying over something once a day or so!) but I feel like I'm so much better off than I've been the last four or five months. I hope the trend continues the closer we get to May!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Things I've Discovered About Pregnancy
The last time I posted, I thought pregnancy would NEVER get any better...but surprise! It has! It is by no means my favorite cup of tea; I'm never going to be one of those women who could be pregnant all the time. I still have plenty of crappy symptoms, but I've happily traded in the nausea and vomiting for a killer backache (in ONE spot where my hip and spine meet) and MIND NUMBING FATIGUE. I'll take the backache and the fatigue over the nausea and vomiting ANY day! :)
A few other nifty discoveries:
*Standing up straight means I can no longer see my feet!
*I outgrew Adam's jeans. I knew I'd outgrow mine and I swear that I don't think of Adam as the size of a pregnant woman (I love you honey!) but it never occurred to me that I'd outgrow HIS jeans! Wow!
*Those stretchy bands on maternity jeans are SO worth it! Those and yoga pants!!
* I'm not complaining about my waistline though, since it's now rounded out and I FINALLY look pregnant, instead of like I'm having an affair with Ben and Jerry's!
*I can technically snap my own shoes, but it's much more convenient for Adam to snap my shoes for me. It's kindergarten all over again!
* You should never tell a pregnant woman who could technically be feeling her kid moving around that when she does eventually feel said kid that she'll wish she didn't. That was seriously the most annoying thing people told me! I'm FINALLY feeling him move around and despite when he plays with my belly button (Trippy, people! TRIPPY!) I LOVE LOVE LOVE feeling him moving around. It's kind of familiar in an other-worldly kind of way (it'll never make sense if I attempt explaining it) and it's so entertaining! Too bad you can't feel them from the very beginning.
*I took my wedding rings off Sunday morning and you can still see the indention where they were. Adam also suspects that my feet are swelling. My obsession with salty food must now end. :(
*Cooking or baking feels like running a marathon now. We all know I suck at doing anything productive in the kitchen, but now it's exhausting too!
I could probably go on more, but I think I'll leave it at this for now. Maybe I should start updating more frequently, since that seems more of a possibility than it has. Part of me feels bad that I haven't documented more of my pregnancy, but at the same time, I promised myself I wouldn't use the blog for whining, so I just decided not to say anything at all. I can say that I love this kid and I can't wait for him to get here (well, when I'm not busy being terrified of having a newborn, hahahaha!)
Hurry up May!! :-D
A few other nifty discoveries:
*Standing up straight means I can no longer see my feet!
*I outgrew Adam's jeans. I knew I'd outgrow mine and I swear that I don't think of Adam as the size of a pregnant woman (I love you honey!) but it never occurred to me that I'd outgrow HIS jeans! Wow!
*Those stretchy bands on maternity jeans are SO worth it! Those and yoga pants!!
* I'm not complaining about my waistline though, since it's now rounded out and I FINALLY look pregnant, instead of like I'm having an affair with Ben and Jerry's!
*I can technically snap my own shoes, but it's much more convenient for Adam to snap my shoes for me. It's kindergarten all over again!
* You should never tell a pregnant woman who could technically be feeling her kid moving around that when she does eventually feel said kid that she'll wish she didn't. That was seriously the most annoying thing people told me! I'm FINALLY feeling him move around and despite when he plays with my belly button (Trippy, people! TRIPPY!) I LOVE LOVE LOVE feeling him moving around. It's kind of familiar in an other-worldly kind of way (it'll never make sense if I attempt explaining it) and it's so entertaining! Too bad you can't feel them from the very beginning.
*I took my wedding rings off Sunday morning and you can still see the indention where they were. Adam also suspects that my feet are swelling. My obsession with salty food must now end. :(
*Cooking or baking feels like running a marathon now. We all know I suck at doing anything productive in the kitchen, but now it's exhausting too!
I could probably go on more, but I think I'll leave it at this for now. Maybe I should start updating more frequently, since that seems more of a possibility than it has. Part of me feels bad that I haven't documented more of my pregnancy, but at the same time, I promised myself I wouldn't use the blog for whining, so I just decided not to say anything at all. I can say that I love this kid and I can't wait for him to get here (well, when I'm not busy being terrified of having a newborn, hahahaha!)
Hurry up May!! :-D
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Sunday, January 16, 2011
New Stuff
So it's getting to be time to start being serious about this baby business I guess...
We did buy ourselves an infant carrier/car seat last night. As with most of our purchases it was on an impulse. When we left White Hall to come back to Conway last night, I asked Jax if she was willing to go to Wendy's or some other such place to have a milkshake. We decided to go to the store and buy ice cream and make out own milkshakes instead. While we were there we decided to look at car seats, just to see what they had available.
We found the one true car seat at Wal Mart in Pine Bluff while visiting my parents, but they were out of stock of the particular design we wanted. We weren't too upset about it since we still have about 4 months before we need one, but it did spark an interest. Anyway, since we went to Wal Mart to get ice cream anyway, we decided to check on stock levels in Conway, just to look.
At "Old Wal Mart" in Conway they only had the display again, but we learned something interesting nonetheless. Each Wal Mart sets its own prices on stuff. The Pine Bluff store had the car seat listed at $57.50 while Old Wal Mart in Conway had them listed for $49.50. Surprise! Just for fun we decided to go to New Wal Mart and see if they had any in stock. To our surprise, they did have them in stock! Also to our chagrin they had them listed at $54.50, or five (5) dollars more than the store that is five (5) miles away... But we decided to go ahead and get it, just because. So now we have a car seat/infant carrier. Hooray!
So here's a picture since everyone is just dying to know what it looks like:
We did buy ourselves an infant carrier/car seat last night. As with most of our purchases it was on an impulse. When we left White Hall to come back to Conway last night, I asked Jax if she was willing to go to Wendy's or some other such place to have a milkshake. We decided to go to the store and buy ice cream and make out own milkshakes instead. While we were there we decided to look at car seats, just to see what they had available.
We found the one true car seat at Wal Mart in Pine Bluff while visiting my parents, but they were out of stock of the particular design we wanted. We weren't too upset about it since we still have about 4 months before we need one, but it did spark an interest. Anyway, since we went to Wal Mart to get ice cream anyway, we decided to check on stock levels in Conway, just to look.
At "Old Wal Mart" in Conway they only had the display again, but we learned something interesting nonetheless. Each Wal Mart sets its own prices on stuff. The Pine Bluff store had the car seat listed at $57.50 while Old Wal Mart in Conway had them listed for $49.50. Surprise! Just for fun we decided to go to New Wal Mart and see if they had any in stock. To our surprise, they did have them in stock! Also to our chagrin they had them listed at $54.50, or five (5) dollars more than the store that is five (5) miles away... But we decided to go ahead and get it, just because. So now we have a car seat/infant carrier. Hooray!
So here's a picture since everyone is just dying to know what it looks like:
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sunshine and Roses
I feel really bad about never updating this blog. I have a list of blogs that I follow regularly, and it drives me up a freaking wall when people don't update. One person hasn't updated her blog in 18 months! Why even have a blog?! Now, I'm one of those people who never updates!
It's been really hard coming to terms with the fact that pregnancy isn't all sunshine and roses for everyone. I assumed that since I wanted it so badly, and waited so long, that I would automatically love it. I've watched people get pregnant and have no idea what loss feels like; I've watched them take it all for granted and complain until the world looked level. I swore every which way that I would never, EVER be one of those people. An Infertile just knows not to take it for granted, and I generally consider myself to be of the Infertile frame of mind, even though I've never participated in the (huge) blogosphere there is for infertility. I knew that when it was finally my turn (this is yet something else that I still feel guilty about, but that's an entirely separate post), I would enjoy every second and it would be perfect and I would be different.
It's not. I feel like I'm just like the average pregnant woman, taking everything for granted (nothing like compounding the guilt, eh?) because I just want to scream that pregnancy sucks! My nausea not only didn't go away in the 2nd trimester (which has sometimes been referred to as the 'honeymoon' trimester--I'm assuming by some academic somewhere who's never experienced this before), but it's gotten worse!! I am nauseous all the freaking time!! I've vomited more in the last 5 weeks than I did in the entire first 13! It's supposed to be going the other direction! :( Food aversions are a touchy subject. The kitchen is the ground zero of WWIII every single day, when--no matter how full of food it may be--there is nothing that sounds good and I don't know what to eat. My stomach has felt like I've been doing crunches and sit-ups indefinitely for four weeks now and I can't even feel chicken nugget moving around in there to boot!
There is more, but I'll spare you. Suffice it to say that I am not turning out to be one of those women who just loves every second of pregnancy, and this has been a huge shock to my super naive system. I now know that while they still may take everything for granted, all those women who complained before have been way more justified than I ever imagined and I really need to cut them some slack. I am grateful, I really am. I've just been having such a hard time wrapping my brain around the fact that this is for real that I don't know how to feel it or express it and it's been easier not to write anything than to be even more whiny than I already am.
I've heard that your pregnancy will be similar to your mother's, and my mom told me she didn't feel any relief until her 5th month, so if mine is similar in that regard, relief should be on the horizon. They said the 2nd trimester would be better, so I held out. Now I'm holding out for the next few weeks to see if I'm like my mom or if it seems that this will be how it is until May. I just don't know how anything is going to go and I don't like the limbo. If I can think of anything intelligent to say and save enough energy to actually post it, I might start posting more again, but that's just another wait and see situation.
It's been really hard coming to terms with the fact that pregnancy isn't all sunshine and roses for everyone. I assumed that since I wanted it so badly, and waited so long, that I would automatically love it. I've watched people get pregnant and have no idea what loss feels like; I've watched them take it all for granted and complain until the world looked level. I swore every which way that I would never, EVER be one of those people. An Infertile just knows not to take it for granted, and I generally consider myself to be of the Infertile frame of mind, even though I've never participated in the (huge) blogosphere there is for infertility. I knew that when it was finally my turn (this is yet something else that I still feel guilty about, but that's an entirely separate post), I would enjoy every second and it would be perfect and I would be different.
It's not. I feel like I'm just like the average pregnant woman, taking everything for granted (nothing like compounding the guilt, eh?) because I just want to scream that pregnancy sucks! My nausea not only didn't go away in the 2nd trimester (which has sometimes been referred to as the 'honeymoon' trimester--I'm assuming by some academic somewhere who's never experienced this before), but it's gotten worse!! I am nauseous all the freaking time!! I've vomited more in the last 5 weeks than I did in the entire first 13! It's supposed to be going the other direction! :( Food aversions are a touchy subject. The kitchen is the ground zero of WWIII every single day, when--no matter how full of food it may be--there is nothing that sounds good and I don't know what to eat. My stomach has felt like I've been doing crunches and sit-ups indefinitely for four weeks now and I can't even feel chicken nugget moving around in there to boot!
There is more, but I'll spare you. Suffice it to say that I am not turning out to be one of those women who just loves every second of pregnancy, and this has been a huge shock to my super naive system. I now know that while they still may take everything for granted, all those women who complained before have been way more justified than I ever imagined and I really need to cut them some slack. I am grateful, I really am. I've just been having such a hard time wrapping my brain around the fact that this is for real that I don't know how to feel it or express it and it's been easier not to write anything than to be even more whiny than I already am.
I've heard that your pregnancy will be similar to your mother's, and my mom told me she didn't feel any relief until her 5th month, so if mine is similar in that regard, relief should be on the horizon. They said the 2nd trimester would be better, so I held out. Now I'm holding out for the next few weeks to see if I'm like my mom or if it seems that this will be how it is until May. I just don't know how anything is going to go and I don't like the limbo. If I can think of anything intelligent to say and save enough energy to actually post it, I might start posting more again, but that's just another wait and see situation.
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Tuesday, November 30, 2010
It's a Boy
So by now most everyone knows it's a boy.
Because I'm a nerd I chose to reveal it to our friends and family in the form of a cake. Naturally, instead of just writing it out plain and simple like normal people would do with frosting, I wanted to do something easier; so I added a heaping gob of blue food coloring to the cake mix. It seemed appropriately silly at the time. Overall, I must admit to being pleased with how it turned out. Everyone was either appropriately surprised or at least had the decency to act surprised. If you would like to see pictures of the cakes we made, you'll just have to wait until Jax gets around to posting them. Sadly, we did not get a picture of the blue guts of the cakes. But rest assured, they were blue.
Until this point we've been a bit indecisive about whether or not to reveal the name we're sort of serious about using for the boy when he gets here in May. Being mean-spirited I was leaning toward not telling anyone until after the birth. Jax thought I was worried that people wouldn't like the name we picked, which may have persuaded her to not tell anyone. But after a brief discussion the other day about her simply going along with what she perceived my wishes to be and me revealing my true reasons, we have decided to start telling people the name we are semi-serious about using for the boy when he gets here in May. So, with just a bit more ado (after all, there are certain conventions that must be followed), here is the name:
Julian Leslie Pearce
We are keen on using Jax's initials, just because. We are also using Leslie, which is Jax's older sister's name. Jax's older sister has been quite keen to have a child named after herself for quite some time. It also works out nicely as a boy's name due to folks like Leslie Nielsen and Gerald Ford (birth name Leslie). As for Julian, well, we just like it. There happen to be a few Julian's in the international motorbike racing community, but it's not like we were watching races trying to pick out names. As for Pearce, well, we're just being a bit traditional with that one. It's a family name. Like Leslie.
Surprise!
Because I'm a nerd I chose to reveal it to our friends and family in the form of a cake. Naturally, instead of just writing it out plain and simple like normal people would do with frosting, I wanted to do something easier; so I added a heaping gob of blue food coloring to the cake mix. It seemed appropriately silly at the time. Overall, I must admit to being pleased with how it turned out. Everyone was either appropriately surprised or at least had the decency to act surprised. If you would like to see pictures of the cakes we made, you'll just have to wait until Jax gets around to posting them. Sadly, we did not get a picture of the blue guts of the cakes. But rest assured, they were blue.
Until this point we've been a bit indecisive about whether or not to reveal the name we're sort of serious about using for the boy when he gets here in May. Being mean-spirited I was leaning toward not telling anyone until after the birth. Jax thought I was worried that people wouldn't like the name we picked, which may have persuaded her to not tell anyone. But after a brief discussion the other day about her simply going along with what she perceived my wishes to be and me revealing my true reasons, we have decided to start telling people the name we are semi-serious about using for the boy when he gets here in May. So, with just a bit more ado (after all, there are certain conventions that must be followed), here is the name:
Julian Leslie Pearce
We are keen on using Jax's initials, just because. We are also using Leslie, which is Jax's older sister's name. Jax's older sister has been quite keen to have a child named after herself for quite some time. It also works out nicely as a boy's name due to folks like Leslie Nielsen and Gerald Ford (birth name Leslie). As for Julian, well, we just like it. There happen to be a few Julian's in the international motorbike racing community, but it's not like we were watching races trying to pick out names. As for Pearce, well, we're just being a bit traditional with that one. It's a family name. Like Leslie.
Surprise!
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