Who are we without Innovations?

After years of my life on Earth...I always wonder, what will happen if the world stood still?
What i really mean is, what if human never progress this fast?

Even from the Birth Death ratio....Mathematicians have calculated that in every second,

there is 4 new births and less then 2 deaths.

So simple maths, our world is reproducing 1.5 Human beings every second.|
Today, the world is said to have 7.079Billion pple. http://www.worldometers.info/

And wat if there is no 0.5% Geniuses tat brings new innovations to this Dumb world?

Thats not the whole point.

what i'm planning to post today is more to what things have been invented for the pass 20+ years that had made a difference in this world.
I'm amazed by my findings. and i wish to share this to you.

1st. B-2 Bomber 1988.
Warplane of the generation.
aka Invisible bomber plane.
more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Northrop_Grumman_B-2_Spirit

2nd. Seedless Watermelon 1988.
Yes, weird but true. Without this, u wont even have agricultural engineering today.
and u will still be eating seeds from grapes, oranges, bananas and other fruits.

3rd. ABS system. 1990
ABS=anti breaking system.
Applied to cars to increase safety. without it, = more deaths = less cars.
and you wont even know about torque if weren't because of it.

4th. Kodak "Digital" camera. 1991.
1st digital camera ever created.
without this..u'll still be using your old flim camera and gets dissapointed if the film comes out blurry.
and without this, NO PHONE CAMERA! OMG!

5th. Compact fluorescent 1991.
the lights u are using today is thankfully because of this.
LED is the new bulb today, but if Fluorescent wasn't created, there wont even be flat screen LCDs.

6th. Mosaic XS web browser, 1994.
U have to be a geek to know wats this.
Its basically a browser tat displays images with text.
Before this, u only can view text on a single page. and to view a picture, u have to open a new tab.
this has change the internet today with interesting pic and text all over.

7th. Plus Spy Drone 1995
U will be wondering, how is this so awesome?
Its js a mini air plane right?
NO. With the creation of Spy drones in the air,
warheads weapons can be launched more precisely and accurately. no more atom bomb flying to Nagasaki and Hiroshima villages when the target is at town.
this drone is also use for UAV and useful for 3D and real time scouting.

8th. Hybrid toyota Prius 1997
1st every on road hybrid car.
who every tot of using electricity to replace fuel?
when fuel depletes...it will cause much havoc.
and Electricity will be the next energy source pple will find for their cars
This invention was one of the future changing things that scientist are still working with.

9th. Stem cells 1999
With the ability to induce a stem cell, the cells from which everything in the human body grows, to grow into new body parts can change how we think about transplants entirely.
Stem cell method have save million of lives and is continuing doing its thing.

10th. WIFI, IEEE 802.11g 2003.
Hi WiFi. U been good to me all this while.
:D Yea INTERNETZZZ @
EASY, WIRELESS, CHEAP, EVERYWHERE
Need me say more about wifi?

11th. Genome Sequencer 20 2005

Dr. Jonathan Rothberg is an awesome feller that made doctors life easy pizy.
with the genome project, diagnostic is done on sick pple easy and quick.
DNA SAMPLES ALL OVER THE WORLD!
wat we can expect after this? Organ cloning!
wait...tat already happen :)

12th. Google Maps 2005.
Be thankful tat u have a map in your phone today.
U cant get lost anymore. and with GPS, ur life on earth is made so much easier.
what can we expect from this in the future?
Self driving cars!...No accident ! Time awaits.





13th. Apple Iphone 2007.
Huh? wats this got to do with world changing?
Apple were the ones tat created TOUCHSCREEN!
it have change how we look at technology today.
smartphones are born.
Touch screen displays for TVs, Electronics and even your tablets.

14th. LHC (Large Hadron Collider) 2008
if u dont know this....erm...sad to say, u dont love science.
its a HUGE TUBE!
SMASH tiny THINGS!
ok u dont get it....
lazy explain.
more info here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Large_Hadron_Collider

15th. Burj Khalifa 2010
a building at 2716feet.
world tallest now.
This have change how the world view Engineering
and how buildings are made.
no more 4 columns...1 slab...4 columns...1 slab.
Its a tripod based structure that is more stable and able to withstand more force.
and talk about hexagonal core foundation :D
APA TU?
blur? see this la
http://www.burjkhalifa.ae/

That ends this nonsense...
I have no idea y i posted this also...
anyway...dont want to make all my effort wasted...

Is there God?

 

This post have been drafted years ago.
Even before I created this blog, this question on Who God really is? was in my head.

but I finally decided to tell the world my little bit of knowledge on God's existence for this 20 years of my life.

Thinking always starts with questioning.

I have been living all my life with reasoning and questions.
One way is good, another way is bad.

The advantages in this is I mature in thinking faster then others. That's the way I see it.

On the other hand, the disadvantageous of thinking too much is contradiction of answered question in the past.

As a little boy, I started to believe in the existence of God through a miracle.

then it questions me, is this really a miracle or js a coincidence?

Reading through the Bible, I found answers that a miracle is something extraordinary that only

"Special pple". It was not something awesome that happen in our life.
That's wat i thought and believe in all this while. till i got a knock in my head again.

The Christian society says tat Prayers makes miracles. Fine.
I did pray a couple of times and "miracles" happened.
Example, I prayed for the rain to stop, and it did.
SO QUESTION TIME!
is that coincidence or a miracle?
this contradicts to wat i have believed and experience in.
as time goes by, answers could not be found. so i basically js left it hanging.

Then came another Big Question. Even scientist and Spiritual leaders question this.

How old is Earth?
Christian-4000 years.
Scientist - 7billion years.

Reasoning behind this are logical. but another question arise.
If the world was 4000 years old. so Adam and Eve was created 4000 years ago?
and if that is so....how do they know that? the calender wasn't even created that time. all they knew was Day and Night. Darkness and Light as stated in the Bible.

On the other side. If 7 Billion years was real. How do u know tat too?
Carbon dating on rocks? if tats true...then How carbon existed? Hydrogen helium giants js BOOM! Carbon?
Asteroids? when space is always expending?

Carbon = basic unit of life.
so must be something living before rocks, sun, rain!

Logic?

So this things give way to Science and reasoning to get their answers.
then came another Question.
If Religion is by Faith and Believe.

and Science is about Evidence.
Which should I choose?

Time passes. I was at the fence of both theories.

Both histories. Both believes and reasoning.

I got frustrated. I js want to know all this answers.
but by finding all this, smaller questions pops out.

So till now, I am still weighing between God and Evidence of Science.
Not saying tat Science is against God.

or God is against Science. God Created Science..and Science proves God's existence.

ALL THIS QUESTIONS!
As time passes, Science is being more avialable on earth.
religious teaching starts to make no sense at times.

But anyhow, the world still needs Religion and Science.
without any of the 2, the world will have no peace.
Religion to me is js a group of pple coming together to feel belong, having the same faith, teaching, understanding and constantly learning and advancing in life.
Science to me is a study on history, present and future. 

To understand how things works around us and to constantly advance ourselves in life.

I am a Christian because I believe Jesus Christ, the son of God came to die for my sins so that i may receive salvation to go to heaven after i Die.
I am a Science student because I have a goal in life, to achieve my dream and to constantly adept myself in this hash world that i live in.

IF u were to ask me the purpose of life. My simple answer would be Adaptation.
My ideology might be different than many others out there, but i believe one day I will find my answers to my questions.

I have no interest to be like Hitler, wiping out a race,

Einstein, wiping out stupid pple,

or inventors that make a difference for the future.
I was not born genius. I am not ahead in generations.
I'm js someone normal trying to make life worth living.

Everything was done so You would come.

Joseph.
Techflow Musical Play 2012.

Remembering the very first day when the committee decided to make a musical play again.
Choosing people to take up respective post for Musical committee.
And the time when Barry approached me to tell me that i was in charge of Marketing and Publicity.

At first, I tot I had nth to do with the theme of this play.
but as days and days goes by....Challenges in life takes over.
I was beginning to hate people around me.
I was beginning to get fire up easily over small problems.
I was also very emotional.

Everything seems to be Failing.
Quackathon was under expectation.
I got stressed. I got pissed. I got the feeling of giving up.
But God told me to persevere. and so i did.

Climax point was right after Quackathon 2012.
I felt that a whole box full of 2000+ yellow rubber ducks are js thrown off my shoulders into the pool.
The feeling was good. The effort paid off.
And i tot it was all over. but it was not.

A week b4 the Musical, I was having a lot of energy to waste to make this musical happen.
The feeling of wanting to get everything done was there.
Nights of staying up late.
finishing Props, sounds and Deco's.
Even though so many are already tired and stressed, I believe that words of encouragement will help them do better.

And then came the day,
The excitement fills the cup and prayers was done.
4 months of preparation, 3 weeks of intensiveness.
and WALAH! JOSEPH, a story of perseverance and forgiveness.

when people start filling the hall.
It was like deja vu.
flashbacks of the previous musical play kicks in.
Friends greet me. wishing me all the best.
It was like the best moment. but ....
the best is save for last.

after many many panics, miscommunication, tension and stress.
I can say tat this Musical was the best I have ever seen.
Like always, I had fun at the back knowing everything that was going on.
Laughter's, emo times, and even WTPharaoh times.

At the end of the day. Its all over.
Friends taps my shoulder saying the musical was better then movies.
some even wish me well done.
Emotions filled my heart.
I can feel it in other crews hearts too.

I cant believe its all over now. and PMS will continue for quite some time.
I cant believe that all this was done in just a short timing.
Best part is, the message of Forgiveness and Perseverance really spoke loudly.
I saw relationships renewed.
miracles happened.
and Forgiveness all over.

Till next Year. All glory to God.

When everything seems to be over

10/11/12 Good day to write.

Just got done with Quackathon last Wednesday 10/10/2012.
I can say it was a successful event, but i can see that it could have been done better.
owh well, its over now.

thinking again, it's not.
Musical is less then 5 days away.
final preparation or should i say last minute preparation is killing everyone.

But the funny thing is...It's not killing me. I'm done with Quackathon.
and all i have to do now is Lights.
then i ponder and started to think.
No, its not over yet.

shits arise, problems fills the air in the meeting room.
And worse of all, Stupid pple conquer the highest post.
Yes...when i say stupid...I really mean stupid.

I dont mind if u are joking with your ideas, but when it comes to seriousness, and giving such dumb, immature and freaking brainless ideas, it really pisses me off.

talking about going around the bush for 1 hour and getting back to square one.
talking about deciding on something that you dont even need it to be discuss.
and u cant even make a final discussion as a leader.

Is it just me?
or is this world so hard to live in?
I tot evolution makes humans smarter.
Y are so many still so immature at their ages?

Owh well, i could not bother more.
all i worry now is Techflow Committee and how it will be in the future.
Head is not being head, tail not being tail.
and high expectation on the body to link both together.

These things has been going thru my mind for a very long time.
whether to continue to serve as a committee in techflow or serving Him in other ways.
I prayed, and i js hope things will get better as days goes by.
I hope God will give me an answer.
I js hope pple will be able to think well.

I do not wish that conflicts continue to occur.
More misunderstanding arise
and problems getting in the way.

I hope all is well..and my days will be joyful.

Phone...I need U!

Samsung Galaxy Note II N7100

General	2G Network	GSM 850 / 900 / 1800 / 1900
	3G Network	HSDPA 850 / 900 / 1900 / 2100
	4G Network	LTE 700 MHz Class 17 / 2100 - N7105
	Announced	2012, August
	Status	Available. Released 2012, September

Body	Dimensions	151.1 x 80.5 x 9.4 mm
	Weight	183 g
		- Touch-sensitive controls - S Pen stylus

Display	Type	Super AMOLED capacitive touchscreen, 16M colors
	Size	720 x 1280 pixels, 5.5 inches (~267 ppi pixel density)
	Multitouch	Yes
	Protection	Corning Gorilla Glass 2
		- TouchWiz UI

Sound	Alert types	Vibration; MP3, WAV ringtones
	Loudspeaker	Yes
	3.5mm jack	Yes

Memory	Card slot	microSD, up to 64 GB
	Internal	16/32/64 GB storage, 2 GB RAM

Data	GPRS	Yes
	EDGE	Yes
	Speed	HSDPA, 21 Mbps; HSUPA, 5.76 Mbps; LTE, Cat3, 50 Mbps UL, 100 Mbps DL
	WLAN	Wi-Fi 802.11 a/b/g/n, dual-band, DLNA, Wi-Fi Direct, Wi-Fi hotspot
	Bluetooth	Yes, v4.0 with A2DP, LE, EDR
	NFC	Yes
	USB	Yes, microUSB (MHL) v2.0, USB Host support

Camera	Primary	8 MP, 3264x2448 pixels, autofocus, LED flash, check quality
	Features	Geo-tagging, touch focus, face and smile detection, image stabilization
	Video	Yes, 1080p@30fps, check quality
	Secondary	Yes, 1.9 MP

Features	OS	Android OS, v4.1.1 (Jelly Bean)
	Chipset	Exynos 4412 Quad
	CPU	Quad-core 1.6 GHz Cortex-A9
	GPU	Mali-400MP
	Sensors	Accelerometer, gyro, proximity, compass, barometer
	Messaging	SMS(threaded view), MMS, Email, Push Mail, IM, RSS
	Browser	HTML5
	Radio	Stereo FM radio with RDS
	GPS	Yes, with A-GPS support and GLONASS
	Java	Yes, via Java MIDP emulator
	Colors	Titanium Gray, Marble White
		- SNS integration - Active noise cancellation with dedicated mic - Dropbox (50 GB storage) - TV-out (via MHL A/V link) - MP4/DivX/XviD/WMV/H.264/H.263 player - MP3/WAV/eAAC+/AC3/FLAC player - Organizer - Image/video editor - Document editor (Word, Excel, PowerPoint, PDF) - Google Search, Maps, Gmail, YouTube, Calendar, Google Talk, Picasa integration - Voice memo/dial/commands - Predictive text input (Swype)

Battery		Standard battery, Li-Ion 3100 mAh
	Stand-by	Up to 980 h (2G) / Up to 890 h (3G)
	Talk time	Up to 35 h (2G) / Up to 16 h (3G)

More on the Note 2

A whole new 1st Week

Uni life is back.
people are back with more news and stories to tell.
but not for me.

I have been back a week earlier to prepare for Techflow's Musical Play 2012.
Intensive week was indeed intense for most of my friends.
whereas for me, it went on fine.

helping pple in needs, mixing around with new friends and even doing some props.

Things was well till issues starts to kick in.

Friends losing their trust to other friends.
Bigger powers not responsible of their works.
excessive workload on certain groups of pple.
Even issues with communications.

Above all this, I always believe that one day, all this will be over.

relationships renewed like before.

work less study more.

and power to be restored to the rightful owners.

And for the emo part:

I been thinking again this few days.

some questions are hard to explain and answering them is merely impossible.

but one question really bugged me a lot.

Whether to continue serving in Techflow for the following term.

there are a few reasons that i can share freely.1. What will I do for the next term?

2. What position should I take?
3. Should I take the lead or become a follower again?
4. Is God really working in Techflow now?
5. Should there be a change in Techflow?
6. How are the new ones going to learn from the seniors?
7. How will this affect Techflow in the Future?
and so on.

But the worst thing was Continuing serving for 2 terms.
if i take this coming term.
and once all my seniors leave.
there will only be 2 of us left.
and surely one of us must be the President.
and surely both of use will serve the next term.
so in other words, if i take this term...I have to take the other too.

I asked Mr.Mike whether the reelection will be dissolving or adding.
and his ans wasn't surprising.
With the current head of Techflow not going the way the others want,

 I foresee troubles ahead.
I really dont know wat to do now.
I believe that God will make a way.
I indeed Pray.

but things must be done. Things cannot be left hanging there to rot.
but i was afraid.

I js want to be selfish and keep the problems unresolved. 

"Why should we stain our hands with blood"
Things are not the way I like it anymore.
democracy is js a word used to keep hearts calm.
Humans evolves everyday, becoming smarter and more cunning.
We js have to outsmart pple around us to stay strong.

Musical is js around 2 weeks more.
Preparations have been made this far.
Lots more of stuff have to be done.
Quackathon will be held this coming Wednesday 5/5/2012.
and I'm like the PIC for tat event.
Hard to say but I have no high expectation on this event.
All i know is just to do it for the sake of doing it.

I dont know why things are going off course.
is it the 20 in my age that causes God to test me once again?
If it is so...I hope i have the strength to go thru.
Perseverance and Forgiveness.
Easy said, Difficult to be done.

Yesterday, I have some time with friends eating. 

Somehow my brains remembered all my happy childhood stories.
and I shared it openly.
I regretted actually. but it was done.
I went back after tat because of an upset stomach.
I wanted to take a rest but all i can do was remembering all my

parents did to me when i was a small kid.
I couldn't sleep.
I have no appetite for dinner.
and my heart cries loud.

Things are not the same anymore.
Sem is different.
Subjects gets harder.
Knowing pple deeper withing.
being closer to those i haven be talking to.
even getting myself stuck in a weird situation.

all i can say now is this is a test.
The cake is not a Lie.
there will be something at the end of this road.
or even better, there wont be an end to the road i have chosen.
I js hope the best of my life.
Same goes for you.

Girl Cries

I dont know about you ,
I'm kinda sensitive to cries...
especially girl cries.

This week have been a very moody week for many of my friends including myself.
exam week does not feel like exam week but more to like a emotional week

relationships broken.
relationships renewed.
but things are not the same anymore.

today, she called.
I was reluctant at first to pick up..but i did it anyway
thinking tat she took the effort to call
So if not answering would be rude and bad.
anyway...I did told her tat I wanted to talk to her.

the conversation started awkward,
fixing a lock and remembering me>....
OMG...seriously?

but then it went pretty normal...
but at one point...We got back to the story
I know I was wrong...and I said sorry again.

she's fine there, making new friend already
having to start her class next week...I js have tons of advice to tell her...
but I didnt want to go lengthy
wanted to know about her more.

then she suddenly went into tears. D:
I panicked. I always fear cries...
it brings back old nighmares
it brings back pain in the scars i have

I tried to comfort her but i really dont know how to.
so i js decided to js wait and listen to her cries.
so painful.

after we hang off,
I begin to get emotional myself.
thinking back the times of sadness.
every moment tat my i shed tears..
even rmbering my grandmother. :'(

even recently my friend is having her problem of relationships of her own.
and she cried telling me everything..
I did listen...but then it became something that I dont really want to bring up again.
but  still did lend a hearing ear.

2 hours passed, and I'm still thinking about it...
really affects me...
I js cant stand girls cries.
I really want to call her back...but i am really afraid..
I dont know wat to say..Dont know wat to do..
i am scare it will hurt her more.
Howwwwwww?

i send her some messages and there was no reply.
this is worrying me...
i dont feel man enuf to handle this problems
i seriously dont and cant.

so to my dear friend.
I hope i will nvr do anything tat can make you cry.
i really dont like to see pple cry.
I feel bad..I feel terrible.

Pls teach me how to overcome this.
teach me how to comfort someone tat starts crying
teach me not to cry myself.

Best Friends to Rivals

Been doing a lot of reading lately...
I got to admit...my childhood defect is killing me this pass few days...
its a gain..and also a disadvantage...
I nvr really talk about it...
and i dont feel like it now...

I was searching for stuff to do online until
i saw these few blogs...
it strikes me...

2 girls...formally good friends...
are now rivals...
I dont want to go into much detail because i myself dont really know the inner part of the story between them both and dont want to hurt any feeling but
i had to write this because it reminds me of my past experiences...

I always cherish friendships
To be honest, i nvr had any enemies in life..nor lost any friendship...
most js die down because i lost contact with them....
but nvr did i lose a friend

till recently, one of my good friend left me
reading those blogs really hurts my heart.
i'm not really that sensitive but this really pierce me...
the saying goes...
When u dislike someone....everyone around him/her
is your enemy too..
Yes..its very true...

I lost a good friend not long b4 my exams started..
it was a great lost...
Is so hard to forgive myself for wat i did...
I was so sorry for her and myself..
I nvr wanted it to happen like this
but it came to past...
A lost friend...
my 1st lost friend...
thinking about it as i write is really saddening...
I dont know how to re approach her again...
I dont know wat to say...
what she will say back to me?
so many questions in my head...

It came to the point that i decided to think again like i did 10 years ago
the crucial point in life where your age increases...
28 Oct will be my next bench mark..
and i got a lot of things to figure out
so much things that actually causes me to be stress out and lead me into depression.

Life is js a way...a road...a path to take where tons of other pple are on the same path.
so complicated...so cruel..so selfish...
all fighting to survive...
I dont get Life sometimes...
Y God ceated us.
Y are we here...wats our purpose?

Questions...More Questions...
Who am I?

Even my spiritual faith is dropping...
I'm backsliding and i know it...
I want answers to life and i cant find them.

How did i get here...
back to friendships

It's funny how things like friendship can end so fast...
even marriage...
js 6 months?..and a divorce can happen
Is there more to life then this?

Husbands and Wifes going againsts each other?
best friends denying each other friendships?
parents not caring for their child...

all this..js makes my eye waters.
Alex...Life with God...
even my blog title means a thousand meanings..
God is so real in my Life...
I face challenges....and He helps me...

Why do i still doubt him?
What is there for me to do?
Is this all a joke?
Is this all fake?
or is this a trial like what they all says.

I really hope tat my relationship with friends...with family...with God
does not fade so easily...
I already lost my grandparents...
I lost a friend...
what more for me to lose then my own faith for years.

Help me Lord.
I need you in this time of need.

and as for my friends...
I wish they are back together
wounds should heal...
scars will remind them of what they have gone thru...and taking tat as a lesson in life.

I Pray that my Faith will be restored.
I Pray that everything is taken over by you and u control everything.
I also Pray for forgiveness....as I have sinned...and fallen short in your eyes.

I hope all is well..
Take care.

The ugly truth of life

 

It kicks me again today.
it started of last night, when i was js randomly browsing the net right after my tech com paper.
then something caught my attention...
a all you can learn about cult site.
and guess wat...
there are so many links to cults and y are they considered as cults.
so i began with those i know
looking at some..i kinda agree tat some teaches tat and does tat.
then i came across denominations.
y are there denominations?
y pple have different thinking in life?
and y is there like a few major religious group and other minors?
and the smaller minors....y are they considered as cults?
is it js because that they are less viral...less complete...younger?

From this reading and research...i found out tat the 10 commandments are taken differently at different era.
i found out tat wat and why cults are called cults and y are their teaching wrong.
i found out tat not all the denomination that i firstly tot was right was actually right.
and i found some answers to life.

so how did spain became from a muslim nation to a christian nation?
y are Catholics worshiping the pope instead of Jesus/God
y mary the virgin and sinless?
y Muhammad?
y buddha?
and y cows and elephant and snakes....

i found ans to noah ark animals that corrected my view on tat story for 15 years.
i found ans to y the disciples of Jesus did not actually wrote everything they know about Jesus.
y is the bible and quran made.

all this question....answered using logical science and theories.
so came the big question...
Science vs Religion.

then i began to ponder...
y is there actually religion on earth?
Yes i believe there is this Son of God name JESUS tat came to die for my sins
Yes i believe tat he say there is a God in heaven
I also believe tat i have receive his salvation.
Thank you Jesus.
but then...
Y religion?
whats the purpose of religion back in those days?

is it some sort of group that humans go to when they have a problem?
a group to bond with to help strengthen their so called spiritual life?
a group named to attack and defend against other groups of similar standards?
Y the war between Muslims and Jews?
y is there a religious war?
aren't all religion suppose to be Good?
some say...its js some extremist...
other says is those that are not in religion using the name of religion.

Ok fine...
so...Y religion?
y not js faith?
y must there be so many religion having diff teachings?
y are humans constantly finding answers to religion?
y are some not believing in any?

ans is simple.
humans have a tendency to seek help in times of need...
when they are sick...
when old...
when poor
when in trouble...
when there is no one for them to look up to...

there is tat group called religion.
which accepts them for who they are...and what they do... no matter what it is...
ok...so there is this group...there is this teaching...
and there is God...there this awesome son of God, Jesus.

and yet y no 1 wants to believe in the same thing?
because...everyone wants to adept...
they want to survive...
they want to be with the majority...
they dont want to be alone.

looking back at how the earth have evolve...
humans adept themselves to the condition of the surroundings..
thats y humans are the most on earth now..
and smartest to adept...|
we are more superior then other animals....

that wat brought us here...
i do not disagree that there is such thing as evolution
yes there is...and without it...everyone would be the same..and die long ago...
evolution helps us adept to the new world...where there's danger...climate...problems...

the number of pple increases as the way to adept is shared among everyone...
then came the system that whoever is stronger is at the top..and
weaker at the bottom...
This is taken cared of with money...
money controls Power...and power controls life now...
everyday...new life is being born...
new babies , new species...new immunity...

thats how the world is...
everyone trying to adept in life...being stronger...being better...
competition....
and when someone takes the shortcut in life..its called CRIME..cos its unfair...
the smartest excels over the foolish....
the rich over the poor...
the powerful over the week...
thats Life...

All that brings us to the next Question...
so if I say...Life is all about being to adept..and being stronger...
continuing the inheritance and species of your genes...
wats the purpose of life?

Make money and being on top others?
being powerful to survive?

WHATS THE POINT?

I'm still seeking answers like everyone else...
if there was a clear answer....i bet no one is fighting now...
no one is crazy over money and power now...

This is Life....
full of sufferings....
power thirsting...
money making...
shortcuts Crimes...
assholes and idiots...
foolish and stupid...

You just got to adept...
the WEEK Dies and STRONG Lives...
we are all equal is....a lie.

The days ended

Cant imagine me posting here again so soon.

I just want to remember this day that i actually lost a friend.
a friend that have been with me for 2.5 years now...
and just because we cant meet up one day, is like the bonds between us is gone.
There is this strange feeling after this happens.
Its hard to explain...
its neither a sad or happy one..
but its emotional.
I really cant believe that I actually lost a friend in life due to selfishness between both of us.
the understanding between us js cracked and it went crashing down.

I dont have much to say about this or my friend anymore.
I can say i actually gave up being the bone of this relationship
its not working and i'm lying to myself day by day.
things changes, i know, but never expect that it happens so fast
Maybe its true from the saying that, the hardest thing in life is not making money or fame...
its about keeping a good relationship with everyone.
its not an easy task.
and it does not work one way.

I feel very sorry for my friend as i feel sorry for myself.
both of us will lose a very good friend soon..and there is no holes for this to be right again.
I dont think that things can be change back where it started.
life have to go on...and its best if we both stop hurting ourselves as we hurt each other.

having so many friends in life is a good thing...but maintaining it is no easy task.
i do respect those that actually have "best" friends that never forsake them in any way.
and yes...I agree that I been a bad friend to u.
I'm sorry for it.
I'm also sorry for going against you, sry for hurting you, sry for talking bad about u, sry about not having to spend more time with u.
I am indeed very sorry.

I always tot time will resolve things, but i was wrong...it heals wounds but leave scars.
scars that will be seen by others and yourself whole life.
I dont know wat to do now besides continuing my life studying as a student.
gaining more knowledge for my future.
This have been a very meaningful event to me.
I learn a lesson. A few actually.
I tot i was smart enuf, but i wasn't.
This is still more to learn about relationships with pple.
more to unfold.
more to experience.
and more to learn from.

I js want to wish you my friend,
all the best in your future,
in ur studies,
in your relationships with pple
in your new life

Have a save journey...
Take Care
and Goodbye.

signing off
-Alex N-