_______For Such A Time As This*

12:09:00 AM

9 Mar

Today marks history in the entire of my company. Some elated, some disappointed.

Contentment and joy vs bitterness and resentment.

It doesn't take a fool to point out which path to take, yet sometimes the latter seems to be the pit that more fall into.

Appreciation seems like something that is quite lacking in our society. The reality of this world is harsh. I'm learning, albeit a hard way.

4:04:00 PM

Jan 17

17 days into the new year. It's been somewhat a tiring journey physically cos I've been coughing really badly for the past 3 wks since end Dec. During these 3 wks, my body had endless supply of medications from liang teh to tablets and cough syrups to pi pa gao and durians.

Apart from being thankful to God for friends out there who sms me to send their well wishes and pray for me (even branches officers who call and shower their concern, thank you, I was really touched last wk...), I'm absolutely thankful for durians.

For the uninitiated, there happens to be 2 different kinds of cough - namely the heaty kind or the cooling kind, and I happen to be suffering from the latter. 2.5 bottles of cough syrup from my panel's clinic didn't seem to improve my situation. I was seriously quite dismayed. I had interupted sleep at night and felt grumpy at work cos of the lack of sleep.

On Fri, out of the blue, I just had a craving for durians. The thought of having durians just came into my mind. Madness, some would have say, since I was coughing to this extent. But I was thinking, why not? My lovely parents who were almost on their way home made a detour to get durians for me, they were oh-so-good. 6 seeds were all I had. That night, it was the bestest night of rest I've had in 3 wks. My cough improved tremendously the next day I woke up.

Why thankful for durians? It's heaty and I was suffering from cooling cough, so that 6 seeds of durians helped regain internal balance. (or whatever you call it.) I've never been so thankful for durians... Which really make me thank God that He created durians as a fruit with its own unique purposes and nutrients, and for placing that thought in my head on Fri night to have some durians. Thank you Jesus. No more cough syrups or pi pa gao, I still have a wee bit of cough left, but it's definitely much more bearable than the previous 3 wks. :)

Enough about the topic of durians. These months, the notion on jobs has been at the back of my head. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I think I silently know it within me that it's not the season to move, that I should stay on. I really love today's worship. Sharing 2 songs that comforted me.

Be Still My Soul.. Esp the last 2 lines of the first stanza.

Be still my soul, the Lord is on thy side
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain
Leave to thy God to order and provide
In every change He faithful will remain
Be still my soul, thy best, thy heavenly friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end

When I Don't Know What To Do

Verse 1
Lord I surrender all to Your strong and faithful hand
In everything I will give thanks to You
I'll just trust Your perfect plan

Chorus
When I don't know what to do
I'll lift my hands
When I don't know what to say
I'll speak Your praise
When I don't know where to go
I'll run to Your throne
When I don't know what to think
I'll stand on Your truth
When I don't know what to do

Verse 2
Lord I surrender all
Though I'll never understand
All the mysteries around me
I'll just trust your perfect plan

Bridge
As I bow my knee
Send Your perfect peace
Send Your perfect peace Lord
As I lift my hands
Let Your healing come
Let Your healing come to me

(You can listen to the song at http://www.karmyntyler.net/whattodo.html)

May you be greatly blessed by these songs, just as I have been blessed :)

2:29:00 PM

9 days into the new year, I finally got down to salvaging my blog. Blessed 2010!

I'm still down with a bad cough. So bad till my throat and lungs hurt just from coughing. People around me have been asking me to drink liang teh or to visit a chinese physician, thank you for your lil' way of showing concern, it's appreciated.

Apart from falling sick, 2010 starts on a relatively good note. I've been ending work earlier, 7-ish this week. Feels liberating to step out of the office at 730pm, not 945pm. I've stepped off ministry for a while, just taking things at a slower pace, to just wait upon the Lord for this new year. Let's see how things work out in time to come.

I pray this 2010 will be a year of abundant blessings for all of you! :)

8:59:00 PM

Need a lil' dose of cheering on; the journey ahead seems blur and tough.

12:14:00 PM

I'm back and down with a flu, much to my dislike.

Popped over to one of the panel's clinics last night after work. Thankful this one is near my house and opens till 11pm! (I ended work at 935pm and most clinics would have been closed by then...) The doctor on duty was really funny. Cos I really don't like visiting doctors and I rarely visit them for instances like flu. I attempted to describe my current condition and emphasised I came back from a hol. The doctor commented that I looked absolutely fine and proceeded to prescribe some medication for flu and MC for today.

The consultation of 5 mins ended up with a conversation on holidays. So coincidental that the doctor was going to visit Hokkaido next week and we ended up exchanging a few sentences, which is absolutely rare. Maybe that's cos it's late at night and nearing their closing time. It's nice to meet such doctors once in a while :)

Hokkaido was alright though I didn't really like the tour guide. Good break though it wasn't a good thing to my pockets. I shopped against the odds... so now it's back to saving mode for my year end trip (gasp!) to the land of shopping wonders. Photos on f.b, check it out!

These aside... Strangely enough, I'm feeling joyful despite the current situation at work. God's peace and joy is sustaining me; just how I really need it. The amazing and comforting presence of God in my life is awesome, and it's just sufficient to know that He is with me, and that's all that matters in terms of my future and my job, and I''m absolutely thankful for it. I pray this remains with me always.

7:08:00 PM

On MC today -- think I needed the rest. Spent the day partially packing for my trip -- jackets and all. But it's back to work tmr. I've got my monthly report to update before going on leave..

I'm totally hyped up now.. the countdown - TWO. I think I'll be seeing snow. The weather forecast is zero. I love snow. :) And well, my mum's caught up with my hype too. She finally said.. "I'm getting excited about our trip!"

Now to clear my camera pics, ensure everything is charged and packed, and I'm all set to go!

1:49:00 PM

I really love Pastor Malcom's sermon on Phil 4 today. Think it was really apt for me, which brings me to my point that God is awesome, He knows exactly when we need that divine touch from Him. And that's just how He works each time. I pray His peace floods my life daily, for that will be my strength and joy to pull me through life's challenges.

The countdown begins: 19. ( I doubt I'll ever update this page that frequently.. Haha. Maybe the next time it'll be 1. Or maybe 0. Time flies.)