Sometimes, life just nt wad we expect..

i dunno y, my relationship with my younger bro is drifting.. dough we dun have the same mum, but we do share th same dad. likewise, im treating him as one too. but for him,i feel different.

When mum wasn't around, he listens t my words and everything, but slowly.. things changes. i feel tt he dislike me even if i dun do anything.. but honestly, i do pity them. losing a mum at a young age is wad i once feel.. i wanted to shower them with more love, knowing the feeling of nt having a mum at such a young age..

My sister is fine, the problems just lies with my brother. Can anyone tells me wad i can do? i believe he's gg out of hand. learning all those vulgarities..

I dun get to see them often as im usually staying at hub's place.. will go bck hm once every week.. so usually see them online, i'll pop by to say " Hi! hw're you ". But the reply back from my bro was damn negative n honestly, it hurts.

yes, he's still young, but i just cant stop myself from feeling hurt by his words..
I need some advice.

finally its weekend today, but honestly i seems t hate it.
i dunno why, perhaps bcos baby wont spare most of he's time for me during th weekend.
so ):
or am i thinking too much? HAHA :DD
okays.. i went jurong hill top tgt with my siblings and my god parents,
let th picture do th talking then..

we'll be visiting mum at her new place tgt with bi, daddy and siblings tmr.
den go over t T.P.Y to pray.
i hope god listens t my prayers,
all i wish for nw is to be healthy and hopefully we'll be able to have a adorable kid of ours. that's my only wish for now.
im worried.. sighs..~!

&&&finally my lil wish is coming true after so long,
dad is getting me iphone. hehes,
i plead him for a long time and i need it t kill my boredness while hospitalize..
will be having my operation on the 28th this month,
therefor it's grandma's 2yrs of departure.
missing her so dearly, 2years seems to be like 2days before only.
grandma; i miss you much!


♥♥♥

OMG, im so boring at work~! bored till im falling aslp. GOSH!
hmmm, went jp for racky ytd tgt with baby, saw one that really caught my eyes,
but the price too ex alr.
will be gg lot one this evening t do some more racky before deciding on which wan t buy.
soon.... in another 11 more days we're tighing th knot le, times flies..
we got so much things t prepare, need t search for suitable rings, make some decoration in th hse, prepare food for reletive and all..
though happy but still,
im worried bout my operation..
i wana bear my own healthy kids in future,
will god grant me my wish?

hopefully.......






i hope i'm important to you, like how you're to me (:



ps: someone tagged on be half of me!! the part where "amanda-everyone"

i need a puff!!
,turning insane too due t boredness and thanks t my sickness.
was suppose t meet baby ytd t see our wedding ring,
but ended up staying at home cos he has a last min job which last till this evening.
&he went for dinner tgt with his cousin as one of them enlisting army,
they'll be staying over at his place.

as the days are getting nearer, im getting worrier.
im afraid of gg thru the operation again.
i may seems t be very strong,
but deep inside im nt.
sighs, hw am i suppose t overcome all these?
no one understands what im gg thru.
sighs..

god bless me.

&i really wana thank my precious boy for always being there by my side when im at th lowest point of time in my life. yes! we do have quarrels, but i believe we both dun mean it. will get fcuking pissed off at times but i know you really cared, otherwise you wont have brought forward so many things without hesitation, and make things so real. soon in another 18days, we'll be husband and wife.
i give my hand to you, and i hope each days from then on will be a better one.

thanks love ♥ (: