it's been a while since i last blogged. can't believe we are already into March. but yet i reckon that it passed at a comfortable pace. i think this is how it feels when you take life as it comes; a day at a time. no matter what, time passes. the longer you stay in one moment, the longer the hurt lingers, and the more you feel you have to catch up when you finally decide to move on.

i'm happy with how i've progressed. it certainly required a lot of discipline and determination. there have been certain days where i let negativity take hold of my thoughts. but i learnt something very important - when you stop believing in something, it is so much easier to let it go.

it is perfectly ok to feel and experience emotions. we feel because we're alive. so never let anyone tell you that feeling a certain way is wrong. perhaps we can try to minimise the negative and toxic emotions. but if you don't let them run through your veins once in a while, how can you say you truly lived as a human?

on a lighter note, it's been a month since we've moved to the new apartment. sometimes it is amazing how things can surprise you. i initially didn't quite like the new apartment, and was afraid of missing the old one, but realised that if you give anything a chance and make the most out of it, it'll soon start to grow on you. nothing stays the same and the more you resist, it'll only cause you unnecessary stress.

i'm also looking forward to starting my sewing classes! will begin end of march. really hoping to nurture my creative side more from now on. finally bought my camera too! decided on the olympus ep-l2. i'm hoping that exploring my creative side will provide me with an avenue to express myself, and give me something to keep marching on. will be starting a new creative blog soon which will feature some of my attempts :)

also, i know i keep saying this but i really wanna travel anywhere apart from Australia and Singapore! but i know given my circumstances, i shouldn't be harping on having that happening any time soon. focus on what you have and not what you don't.

alrighty, think i've overdosed on the quotes and sayings. but as someone who likes to think, analyse and reason, these quotes and sayings keep me grounded.

one more to end it off - never self-pity!

xo
sarah

it's the second day of the new year. somehow 2010 seemed to pass by too quickly for my liking. however, despite it going by so fast, a lot of things happened in 2010, and it is certainly a year i would like to remember.

though i wish i could have change some things, i don't regret anything. we learn something every day. perhaps, yes, if i acted in a certain manner things would have been better. but with that said, i'm not taking into account of my circumstances then; i have to cut myself some slack. i like to believe that everything happens for a reason (as everyone likes to say).

i learnt a lot about myself the past 2 months, and that i feel is more important than anything else. but i can't deny that i'm still hurting. but life only moves in one direction - forward. i can't change the past. but i can change the present, and to a certain extent exert some control over the future; though this does not mean that i can predict it.

i may have lost a sense of a direction in life last year, but at least i now acknowledge that life is a journey and that i should take it one step at a time.

cheers to a new year :)

xo
sarah

the past few months for me has so far been the most trying time of my life. there was so much going on (though most of it was due to how i perceived things) and i just kept swimming in my own mess. i was really on the verge of a breakdown. the two weeks back to Singapore allowed me to take a breather, and step out of it entirely.

and i'm glad it made me realise TWO things.

1. Patience. One step at a time.

i've been rushing my life too much this year. i have to slow down and remember that life is a journey. why rush to the finish line? take things one step at a time.


2. You're responsible for your own happiness.

no matter how hard the people around you try to make you happy, if you still choose to be unhappy, you will be. i'm responsible for my own happiness. i should have never, ever (and i really regret this) made anyone feel responsible for my happiness. it's undue pressure. and for that, i'm truly sorry. and i'm sorry for dragging you down too.


with the above in mind, i hope to start 2011 right.

but i won't wait till then to start; i'll start right now.

xo
sarah

i realised i have broken my sunday blogging tradition. but why be so uptight about things? right? :)

anyways, something hit me today. it's making me think hard on what i've become.

read on here.

xo
sarah

there's you here, but they are there.

you make me very happy and i want to be with you, but my life here just doesn't feel quite right.

i don't know where i'd rather be.