The things I will never say..

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Getting all so sick and tired of this project,

and supposedly it's the end of the VPP.

Which I thought is time for RELAXATION.

BUT, in this case, NOT for me.

WHY?

Because I'm down for make up session.

WHY?

Because my name was highlighted thoughout the whole 5 weeks program.

WHY?

Because I'm late every single day.

WHY?

Because I'm all so tired after 1 full day of school and work. Hence, overslept.

and the WHYs goes on forever...

Anyway, a good news.

It's a sure CONFIRMATION that my project is being picked out to compete in this,

" TAN KAH KEE, Young Inventors Award".

Out of the hundreds or thousands of projects, of which 8 are being selected.

Yep, my is ONE of them (:

But,

the irony is, the project is "CRAP"

I don't see the potential of this project at this rate my group is going.

Anyway, still, I see it as an opportunity.

I'm going for it.

i'll show you a place.

11:25 PM

Initially, I wasn't very excited about the outcome of the NAPHA test.

There, my friends were so happy, rejoicing over their pathetic results =S

Out of boredom, I logged into my NPAL and to my surprise,

I'm awarded with GOLD!!

BUT,

looking at a particular score, I crossed the window with a BIG SIGH!

i'll show you a place.

4:27 AM

Friday, September 19, 2008

NAPHA test was a nightmare.

The most fightening nightmare ever in my entire life.

I have never ran a 2.4KM with a timing of more than 10min before,

and this is the VERY FIRST time.

All my stations I did exceedingly well scoring all 5 points.

But but

2.4 was super duper uber upsetting ):

I scared D for 2.4 CAN.

WHAT A DISGRACE!!

NOT FOR THAT LOR MEE..

NOT FOR THAT LOR MEE..

I would have pulled through to the very last.

I was so close to sub 8 AT LEAST.

LOR MEE! WHY DO THIS TO ME??????

Tell me how?

Tell how to answer to my parents?

It's such a shame.

My total score: 26

BIG BIG sigh!!

What the chinese call it " SHI BAI"

i'll show you a place.

2:49 PM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Days are long and draggy.

Time is ticking yet every moment is so crucial.

School is such a dread yet compulsory.

FYP is such a bore but can't be helped.

3 weeks had passed yet nothing seems to be changing.

People change, some just suck yet they don't change.

People are generally selfish but why do i keep giving?

I give thanks and appreciate for those who has blessed me.

Work has never been enjoying ever since bitches just cant stop barking.

You attached to a master and slaved like a dog.

I am just not contented with the way I am NOW.

It's just so depressing.

Thought of the days I used to lead,

Thought of the fun I used to have,

Thought of the glorious days I used to shine,

Thought of friends I used to be with,

Thought of these and that......

ARE ALL LEFT TO PASS.

It's so YESTERDAY.

What's left are just fragmented pieces of memories.

Nothing seem to be brightening up my life.

Everything is just so grey.

Everything is just yesterday.

i'll show you a place.

1:44 PM

Friday, September 05, 2008

So caught up by so many things in my life at the moment.

Haven been having a time of my own and with my friends lately.

Yes, life has been moving very quickly even during my vocation.

I'm still building this stupid machine which takes up 80% of my time,

and I'm often caught in my project room playing with it.

It's not fun at all I tell you.

All You see are images which are not interesting at all,

which my supervisor claims they are.

Images that doesn't even look like they are from space.

Project seems to be an attraction to a particular group and hence,

they are gonna photo shoot it and publish it? NO IDEA.

In any case, I feel I had done something productive during this vocation program.

Hopefully I'm gonna be inside these pictures (:

Student of the year from School of Engineering =/

or maybe, a GOLD MEDALIST.

Like what my dad said,

"If You put everything into the race and come out with something that is not GOLD,

then there is nothing more you could have done"

GOING FOR GOLD

To Jocelyn, Ben Tan, Joshua:

Just want to apologise to you guys for not being able to avail myself to spend time together.

You guys are so understanding and not complaining. I know my absence has been really a big problem. I hope you guys still remember me. HAHAHAHA. Seriously, I miss you guys. As for Joshua, NS is drawing nearer as each day passes. I just wanna give you a TREAT before you enlist. 3 more weeks guys, JUST 3 MORE before we break loose (:

By then Josh is absent.

SIGH SIGH SIGH!!!

Anyway, this is what I have been busy with:

A life of an inventor.

At 0 degree: A RED FULL MOON

then, the moon is being rotated 45 degree

at 90 degree: No change, just that they are crescent shape. Pretty isn't it?

at 135 degree: No stars though

Conclusion: It might be a failed results. Week 2, still NO RESULTS ):

i'll show you a place.

1:26 AM

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

We have been friends for quite some time, not just an ordinary friend.

I've gained a lot from from you.

I have learnt so much from you.

I have no idea why but I'm really saddened lately.

It's no longer how it was suppose to be.

Sometimes,

or many of the times, I always have objections in whatever you have to say to me.

But I just have to listen and accept.

I couldn't and I don't want to argue, because I know I cant outtalk you.

Deep down inside I really dislike it.

I din want to share this, because it will goes one forever.

If two people can't come down to an agreement,

one have to give in, in order for both parties to be happy.

I have to give in, because I know I am no body compare to you.

For the first time, I actually dislike you.

For the firt time, you were kind of selfish.

That is what I feel, if you don't I don't blame you.

I'm sorry,

But everything will be fine (:

Because I will always make people around me happy.

I'm so depressed, I'm storing all these..

SHRUGS..

i'll show you a place.

11:31 PM

It's the start of the second week of my "Holidays"
I guessed everything is good.
At least my project is on the move, and results seem to be promising.
Schedule is still as hectic as ever.
Nothing to complain for I'm contented and blessed in anyways god has put me in.

Was caught on surprised when I was informed that we're having a MOCK NAPHA today.
I wasn't in my proper attire and I was in my VANS sneakers which is used for skateboarding,
NOT running.
So yeah, din't perform well ):
So upset, did not exceed expectations.

Anyway, work was never fun unless your friends visit you.

It was really really hilarious cum stupid.

Sara, JiaZheng and Kenneth came to visit me.

I was caught on surprise when Sara HIT me when i walked passed her.

I wouldn't have realise if she did not hit me =/

hahaha.

Anyway, they ordered the HUGE Mango Snow Ice.

It was really very tempting and I thought,

so nice of them to actually fed me with a spoonful of Mango Ice.

But, I WAS CAUGHT by my MANAGER at my second attempt.

I was SOOOooo SHOCKED.

Goodness me..

i'll show you a place.

1:18 AM