Tuesday, October 29, 2013 @ 4:38 PM
This place is nothing more than what it means to be.
Like I said before, all our life have been a lie by the adults. They keep asking us to live in peace with others, yet they ague within themselves. (Either behind or in front of us.) Sick & tired of it. Why cannot they just learn from the kids? At least, the kids know how to different between right or wrong.
Tired of not being able to be myself. Everything that I have tried so hard on for the past 22 years are nothing to everyone around me. It's like I am not thinking about them when I made a decision, yet everything went so wrong. I can't blame anyone about it anyway, it's me who are at fault for not being able to be a little bit for selfish.
There's it goes again. Dear life, how much more long did you want to play the game with me? I am at my limit, trying not to do anything harmful to anyone. So take it as I am begging you, stop making me to do anything that will hurts anyone. I am tired about it myself.
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Thursday, October 24, 2013 @ 2:59 PM
You'll never know how it's like to be me..
It's Thursday once again. Here I am getting all emotional over everything. It's always one after another, yet to get a proper rest then something happen again. Feel as if my life is cursed with all kinds of bad stuff. *Sigh*
Getting used to being quiet, it's seem difficult to open up to anyone now. There's no point in talking anyway if no one will understand.
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Don't complain about life being unfair because life come with a price. When it give you something, it'll get something back from you in return. That's how it have been all along.
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Tuesday, October 8, 2013 @ 10:56 AM
最熟悉的陌生人
(The most familiar stranger)
What a statement to start the post but it just trigger my mind. The person who are stranger to you today, might be your friend tomorrow. The person who are your best friend today, might become stranger to you one day. That's how life is all along, we're just following the flow & moving on. No one come into your life forever. People who don't even know you today, might just happened to be the one that understand you in the future.
The feeling you get when you walk past someone who you used to know, that's what we're called the most familiar stranger. It isn't a nice feeling as memory always hit back on you hard when this happened, unless you're a cold-blooded monster.
(You're the reason behind who I am today)
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Monday, October 7, 2013 @ 11:29 AM
Nothing seem to be on the right path anymore.
I have tried to ignore the fact that I still care but it seem harder as each day passed. I know that I shouldn't give up on things that I wish for a change on, but this time I really don't wish to let the unhappiness continue around me. Although I know that I am not happy with this decision but I am still going to try. At least move on and get over with it.
Every day seem the same to me now. Waking up, going to work, at work, back from work, sleeping etc. During my off day, I am still doing things that isn't really relaxing. It seem like I am getting more & more unlike myself. No matter how much I wish to be myself, reality is going to pull me back.
Past are memories that shouldn't be touch, future are still a long way ahead, currently life just seem so difficult to move on. Everything is on the path of changing, I know that the change is necessary but it's moving towards a path that I dislike the most. That's the reason why life is getting stressful compare to the past,
isn't it?
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Saturday, October 5, 2013 @ 7:02 PM
No one is perfect, that's why we're learning.
For the past one week, life have been a nightmare for me but whatever happened is already over. Trying to move on now, although it's not as easy as it seem. Starting all over again might be difficult but it's better than making it end.
I am not someone who can ignore what others have to say. I am listening to everyone advice but the choice is still mine, I might not make the best choice but I hope that at least I am not avoiding myself. I am tired of explaining every single things that I want to do to everyone around me, that's why this is the better way of solving the problem now.
I have already try whatever I can do. Although it didn't turn out to be the way I want it to be, but it already enough. I don't wish to see anyone in difficult position because of me. I might not be happy with the decision that I made, but I can make it a learning process since life is all about learning.
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I am not avoiding anyone/anything, I just wish to have some alone time.
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Thursday, October 3, 2013 @ 1:09 PM
“ 在你的身後 時間把過去都帶走
時間把鏡頭帶走不假思索 回憶不放手
好想再跟妳牽著手 牽著妳給我的溫柔
哭過以後眼淚還是不停的流 ”
Listening to music seem to be the only thing that can calm me down recently. Sick & tired of this world and how it function. No one truly understand anything that I have been doing, they just keep voicing out what they are thinking. I am not someone that act selfishly, that's why I have been thinking for others. Sigh! If only I can act a little more selfish and think for myself more. Feeling exhausted with reasoning. No matter how much I explain and said about it, people just don't understand. Is it this world or me at fault now?
Have been telling myself that it's okay, but everything just didn't seem right. Sigh! Really under a situation whereby there's nothing but stress and tiredness.
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Wednesday, August 14, 2013 @ 7:21 PM
Life haven't been good recently. Start working on 1st of July and before I know, it's already 14th of Aug (which is today). Have been thinking a lot lately, don't even know why do I come for this job. Maybe it's by chance or maybe I am here to learn something. Who knows? ...
Sometimes, I really wish life could be much simple than it is now. All the time that I have been trying not to think about anything that will make me break down but I always fail by the end of the day. Maybe this is just me.
Tired of being like this. Not able to talk to anyone about the things that is going on in my mind. If only someone really understand me, then I won't be who I am today.
Ending here. See you all soon when I feel like blogging again.
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