♥ Story of April ♥

Sunday, April 29, 2012 @ 2:16 AM

Just so not in the mood. Whatever I have done seem to be wrong. What's the point of my life? Trying so hard to do my best with everyone around me saying that I wasn't do it right. Sick and tired of it, yet I dunno who to turn to. Keeping everything within myself, just dunno what to do and how to voice it out. Even if I know how to voice out, I also know that saying out won't solve anything as people won't care about what I think and how I feel.

Just what have I done wrong? Can't seem to voice out like I used to be. Can't seem to cry out like I used to. Everyday is just a fake smile that is used to cover up all the unhappiness. Keeping quiet won't solve the problems but at least I am better off this way. Crying silently at night just seem to be the only way that I am able to smile the next morning.

I guess I am not able to be myself anymore. Reality is just so cruel. How long more before I fully breakdown?

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Monday, April 23, 2012 @ 12:46 AM

No matter how much time have passed, something can never be change. Even if you wish that you can change it, it just won't.

Having too much thought in my mind, dunno what's right or wrong now. Just can't seem to calm down. I wish someone can give me advice, yet I just can't seem to be taking anyone advice in. Why am I becoming like this?

Have been keeping all the unhappiness within myself, just can't seem to be positive at all. I manage to act fine in front of everyone, yet I know that i wasn't fine at all.

Sigh! Going to listen to music until I fall aslp.

Btw, thanks everyone who have celebrated my birthday with me and also to everyone who have wishes me happy birthday! :)

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Sunday, April 22, 2012 @ 2:02 AM

Back to blog!

Went out with frens today. It was fun but I was thinking quite a number of things throughout the trip, so didn't really remember much but I did enjoy myself. Thanks to everyone who have accompany me today! :)

When I was traveling back, I tried not to think about anything as I can't be back home feeling sad. Well, it wasn't to do with anyone. I was just so not in the mood, hopefully will get better soon.
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Have been thinking a lot recently. I guess I just miss the past so much after all. If only time can return to the past.

Going to use pc awhile before I head to slp. Hope everyone have a great day too! :)

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Sunday, April 15, 2012 @ 10:59 PM

It's just going to get better or worse, that's all.
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Going to blog at least once per week if possible. Well, maybe blog-ing can be a hobby for me or it's just another way for me to de-stress using words.

Things wasn't going so well for me. It just keep repeating itself and I can do nothing about it. Well, I should say it this way: I am already too tired to do anything about it. It will always end up the same anyway.

Caring for others and thinking for them, yet no one understand that I also need help once in awhile. *Sigh*

Suddenly remember what I was taught during pri sch: when need help, ask. Yet reality taught me another version of it: the more you ask/say, the more problems you will get. Oh well, this is why some people say: what you learn may not be what will be use in life, then why learn?

I guess it's up to you to continue, I 'don't want to continue it causes it'll be endless if I continue.

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