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Tuesday, March 20, 2012 @ 10:58 PM

Finally, today is coming to an end soon. Somehow my day wasn't as smooth as I hope it was. Have been thinking a lot since ytd. Wondering why there's so much changes in my life so sudden and what are the reasons behind it. Yet I couldn't find any ans to it. As least for now, I think I am still able to do something that I think is right.

Sigh, the month of April is coming. Yet I wasn't looking forward for it at all. This year I wasn't able to celebrate my birthday at home. (Well, my wish wasn't grant as usual. Life is always so unfair.)

Feeling so confused and lost, yet I dunno who to turn to for a talking session. Maybe I should just cry out and start my day all over again tmr.

3 weeks have passed since then. For all the words that I have said and things that I haven't done, I am going to live with regret now. Until now, that day still seem to be very clear in my mind.

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Wednesday, March 7, 2012 @ 12:16 AM

Back to blog.

I guess life is always unfair to me. Let's talk about the selfish wish in my previous post. Well, my wish wasn't grant and I didn't get the chance to celebrate my 21st birthday with grandpa. How sad it is when I thought things will turn out smoothly soon and it just end so suddenly. I really wish to go back to when everything was right, really tired to see things turning out this way.

Have been thinking since morning to now, what is the reason for me to be living until now? Just couldn't find any reason. Somehow, I really wish that time could go back. I know it's impossible, yet I just wish to talk to grandpa again.

Today is my 2nd day at work. When I reached home, I was hoping grandpa is still there for me. I know that I shouldn't be acting like this but I really miss him.

At least, I shouldn't fall sick now. As grandma still need all of us. Somehow I have to stay strong.

{Fate and Life have been playing games with me, how long more do they want to continue this. I could only wait and see.}

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