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Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 5:51 PM

Holiday started!! ^^ happy cause at last can rest le, but life at home every day sure will be bored. Thinking of buying track shoes then go for jogging few times a week ba. Also not too sure which brand the shoes better, haha..

This holiday may spent a lot of money sia, finding job but didn't find one that I like, so give up.
Just try to spent less ba..

^^ Just come home from a badminton game with Jun Hao kor & Anwar bro.
Fun wor, thanks to them, my starting of holiday not so bored le ^^

That's all for 2dae, won't be posting so much during holiday le,
unless got event or stuff to say.

Everyone enjoy the holiday ya, also must tc & stay happy ^^

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Thursday, May 28, 2009 @ 9:13 PM

Emo-ing.. Start to lost control of my own emotions already.. Why? Dunno..
Thinking too much? Dun think so..
2dae was feeling so dead.. Mind empty, soul lost, nothing in my brain..
Haix.. I need to stay relax ba..
Want to find someone to chat but no one seem to understand..
Nvm, just continue to emo..

A lot of people care but they dun understand so I think no point talking about it to them..
Silent night, lost soul.. Haix...

That's all ba,
sorry about it as I really dun have the mood 2dae..

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Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 11:03 PM

Just finished my project module report, feeling tired but much happier than before ^^
Can play badminton again le, gd news hor ^^ for me only, lol..
Everything will be fine soon cause I say so, lol..

Morning went for lesson as usual, nothing much happened.
After that, lunch, a bit emo ba..
Badminton time ^^
Went home by bus, tired..
Reached home ^^ tired, also sad cause cousin failed her exam. Hopefully she will be fine soon.

---
Thks everyone for the care, I will be fine this time ba, I guess cause I choose a easier way out as to forget him. Hopefully, no more sadness..
Want to restart all over again, hope that everyone will support my choice.
Delete my memories again, this is the last time, hopefully.

Tonight will be the hardest night for me, maybe..
But one thing for sure is that I comfirm will sleep cause I dun wan to be panda tmr.
*tired* maybe tmr will look a bit emo but I am fine so dun worry ba ^^

(Once the stars appear in the dark night, sadness will be gone)

Everyone do tc ya, recently I keep on having cough for awhile then ok,
so quite worry for other who dun tc their own.
To all: do tc a lot, a lot..

Thats all for 2dae,
have a sweet dream & night ^^

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Monday, May 25, 2009 @ 7:42 PM

Going sleep soon le, so tired 2dae... Have been feeling emo deep inside, thks to bro for talking to me, ^^ now I feel better liao... 2 more months to go before things return back... but think will be fine as usual on that day ba...

Yawn... Cannot make it to the night thought liao... Night everyone...
Sotong girl girl going sleep liao ^^ tc everyone & cya soon.
Stay HAPPY always ^^

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Sunday, May 24, 2009 @ 8:53 PM

Hmmm, actually wanted to upload photo but got error so cannot upload.
Life ytd to 2dae wasn't so gd, wanted to give up already, it's so tiring to continue with my life...
Look back at the past photo, everything seem so happy but now nothing's left...
Thinking too much again? maybe...
Tmr morning got nafa test but I cannot take as my right leg not fully recover yet...
Still have to go, dunno for wat sia but Mr Chen call to go so just go lor...

Ytd Eco, didn't go, think teacher will be angry ba.
Not I dun wan to go, is that i woke up in the afternoon, morning totally cannot wake up sia...
It's my fault anyway, if teacher wan to be angry, I also nothing to say...
Tmr got presentation, dun feel like doin but have to, if not will fail my CAD as that CAD project percentage quite high... Hopefully can pass thought ba...
ARR!!! Going MAD soon... Under too much pressure le, there's no one to talk to, no one seem to understand me recently, maybe is I give myself too much stress ba...

Want to be free from work... For the time being only... But life have to carry on ba...
APRIL, CONTINUE TO WORK FOR 1 MORE WEEK & HOLIDAY WILL BE COMING...
SO TIRED ALREADY, CAN I STILL CONTINUE???
Left hand also weird weird de... Think injured it but dunno when...
Hopefully will be fine soon ba...
April is becoming from bad to worse... She really need to calm down le...
Pls rain tonight ba, so that it more cooling for me to calm myself down...

Once again, I lost my way in the path of life...
Hope to be back to normal by tmr...

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Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 9:26 PM

Have make myself disappear for about half a day already, maybe will continue to disapppear until the day, I feel like appearing again... Don't know why, just don't feel like appearing to the outside world... Trying to be avoid the reality? Maybe...

Woke up for about 5 mins during 6am then back to sleep (cause of tired-ness)
Woke up for about 3 hrs during 1pm then back to bed again...
6pm, the final time that I woke up until now...

Been think too much ytd, maybe trying to give up already... Life is so tiring... Stressful...
Dun understand wat have happened before then... Just tired & sick of living...
Keep on sleeping 2dae, hoping to sleep until dead, maybe...

Ending here,
hope to have a chance to see rainbow, seaview or sit down at the river side again...

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Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 10:37 PM

^^ today school's life was normal, morning reached school quite on time ba.
After lesson went to school's canteen sit until next lesson start.
Lesson started, do job sheet 7, then class ended.
Went to took bus 106, then went to Joanne jie house do report for CAD project.
Haha, jie so funny wor, cause she keep joking about the chocolate in the lift and other thing.
^^ Jie, continue stay happy ba, haha...
Reached home at 8pm+ so late sia, feeling tired but life 2dae is fun ^^
Took my bath, then use com until now.
Just finished watching bleach 220, so nice wor ^^
Thats all for 2dae ^^

---
Thks to u for lying to me, now then I know the true. Everything that happened before is that u are acting ba, I guess... I dun wan to say anything until the day u told me the true urself.
I can't lie to anyone cause I am not so cold-hearted. I can just say anything I want but I didn't cause I dun wan any bad thing is happen anymore, it's so tiring to keep everything to myself...
I have tried talking to some people about my problems but it just won't go away so it's better to keep it to myself ba, I guess...

Lastly, forget all unhappy problems, then try to live happily for myself ^^
I guess I just have to try then everything will be fine. Sooner or later, one day it will.
^^ Count to three, then delete the memories.
Hope that thing still can be save & it's not too late to save.

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Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 6:45 PM

Just reached home, havin headache sia... OMG!!!
Tired, angry, emo, sian, all the emotions mixed up...
Wanted to bath de but kor kor need to go for work so let him bath 1st...
Don't really have mood 2dae, thks to the stupid thing that happened in school...
APRIL!!! COME BACK TO URSELF AS IT'S ALREADY OVER...

Just bought a pack of noodles home to eat ^^ After eating feel better but havin headache sia...
Want to sleep early 2dae or don't sleep??? Don't know wor...
Goin bath soon le ^^ loves bathing because it will bath off my problem, unhappiness & stressfulness...

Thats all ba, cya soon...
Will upload some pictures soon ^^

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Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 10:50 PM

^^ Feeling better now, why? cause the emo April disappeared... Lol...
Morning was still emo after wat happened ytd... Didn't sleep ba, also not too sure...
Cause only remember that part when I was looking at the wall...
Got chat with a few friends about wat happened, they only take it as I am thinking too much, so they ask me to cheer up...
In the afternoon, still feeling emo & tired, didn't eat my lunch cause don't feel like eating...
After that lesson was at the most emo point... Cause don't know how to do report & no one was free to let me ask... Got try to ask teacher but... Haix...

After lesson, went home alone in bus 174 then 154... Emo-ing... Thinking thing ba...
Reached home le, so hungry sia... So went to kitchen to find food...
After eating, feel better... As in, I a bit not feeling well...
Then switch on the com, do report... Presentation will be done by Joanne jie ba...
Thks jie for helping me up when I am down ^^

---
Words for someone:
Thks so much that u have chat with me recently when I am down, at least I know that someone is still there for me... Trying hard to bring myself up & help others around...
But everytime become others help me... Feeling so upset... It seem like I am becoming more useless le ba... Will be fine soon ba, after all rainbow will appear after rain, happiness will appear after emo ^^ Ur words keep me alive once again, over & over again... I think I own u a lot...
All I could say u only thks ba... If u have any problem that want to find someone share, I hope that I will be the one who can help... No other meaning, only pure helping...

(The words is still inside me & I will never say out until the day u tell me that there's a chance)
Will try to keep the promise that I have made with u, hope that u will too...
I will smile when I am walking along the roadside cause that's the time, u told me everything will be fine if I could think positive. Will look at the sky when I miss u cause u told me sky is as pure as the colour white. All the words u said, have fill up my mind, so now I only can return it with a smile ^^

April will be back to normal soon cause sad face aren't everything left...
There's still thing that need to be done before it end...
Dreaming maybe meaningless but there's still chance for it to appear in life...

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@ 12:44 AM

Emo is back, thks to my stupid aunt... No need to sleep tonight le ba...
The smile on my face only last about 4 days ba, I guess...
Sian, why it is everytime like that??? Why can't the time just stop at the happy???
Haix... Just like wat my friends told me, I am back to the emo me...
I am sorry, trying hard to keep the smile but it seem to be getting away...

Darkness have fall more into the sky... Just can't smile anymore...
Hope that I will be fine tmr ba... Getting more & more moodless le...
Only if someone is there to chat with me... But most of the people already sleep...

Hoping to play badminton on coming Wed to destress... But I don't think so cause my leg haven't recover yet... Haix... Cannot use com le, cause my family member still need to sleep...
That's all ba, wat a emo night...

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Saturday, May 16, 2009 @ 9:33 PM

^^ so happy recently, also not too sure why... Maybe think too much happy things le =P
2dae wake up le, straight go wash up. After that check circuit for Jun Hao kor & Van mei,
finished checking le, took quite long as I do something stupid lols =D cannot say here, if not later kor & mei will kill me lols... Hope that the circuit can work during the coming Mon ^^

Now doing nothing much, online msn (almost for whole day le), then don't know want to play game or read manga or watch anime (don't think have any to watch, lols...)

Next wed, cannot play badminton le cause leg still haven't recover, I want my leg back... lols, like that say, leg also won't come back de... Hmmm, hope to play next Fri the match but don't think can le... Anyway, all the best to my classmates who are playing match for soccer, basketball or badminton ^^

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Words to someone:
Thks to u, I have been quite happy recently. Don't know is it that I totally forget wat happened in the past or I don't want to care about it anymore but anyway can be happy is really a very, very good thing ^^
Happy even if I am tired, sian, stress... Too HIGH liao ^^ bwahahahaha...

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Have a same dream recently, think is about 3 days le. Hope to have the same dream tonight also ^^ In the dream, I will always be with the same few friends, then someone will talk to me about the happy or sad thing. As usual, I will talk to 'someone' & help to solve the sad problems.
As for the happy, we will share with each other ^^

Thats all for 2dae ba, chatting with Ke Er half way then she disappeared le.
Still waiting for her to online lols... Penguin faster come back from north pole ba =P

(Everyone can be happy if he/she wants to, so let's smile at least once everyday ^^)

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Friday, May 15, 2009 @ 11:49 PM

Today was a boring day, morning went to school. Reached school, test & pass up the circuit. Sit down do nothing all the way until 12noon. Took bus, reached Clementi, eat lunch, went home, reached home, bath, then use com, half way fall asleep. All the way until 7pm, woke up, reply msn message, then sit in front to com do sewing... Lol... Still feeling tired but can't sleep sia... Think afternoon sleep too much liao, maybe will online until quite late if can...

This 3 days, feeling tired but happy ^^ don't know why... Lol... Maybe just happy ba ^^
Long, long time didn't smile for so long le. So must continue smile until when got too much stress then stop smiling =P jk only, will continue to smile 4ever if possible ^^
Even if for the time being, the blog name still called 4ever emo...

Thats all, hope to have a better tmr.
Anyway, will be at home tmr as there is no other event plus will be checking circuit, doing project. Still got reports & presentation... APRIL!!! MUST JIA YOU!!! anyway, holiday is coming on the way ^^ after that can rest a lot & slack a lot liao... lol...

^^ Happy is the beginning of everything good.

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Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 8:54 PM

Haix... This morning walk to bus stop like walking to hell sia, distance seem so long, maybe is because of my injured leg =( reached school at 9am sia, was late for half an hour. OMG!! but Mr Teo didn't say anything, maybe its because of my slow walk that show my leg was injured.
Hmmm, still trying out the remote desktop control for the project. Was quite sian at 1st cause after ytd night, I told mama about my leg, she look worry & angry. Sorry for injuring my leg =(

Hmmm, during lunch was fun but bored, lol... After that went to took attendance for afternoon lesson. Then attendance taken, Mdm Joyce let group 2 go home as we have already finish our test for CAD. Took bus 174 to Boon Lay interchange to take bus 154 home. During the trip in bus 174, was thinking about things ^^ then the trip in bus 154 was also thinking things ^^
Even if leg injured also can be happy ^^ why wor? dunno, lol... ^^

Reached home, mama straight bring me go see chinese doctor to 'fix' my leg.
After that went home with my leg wrapped sia, sian...
The doctor told me not to let the leg get water for 1 day, then don't drink water for few days.
The very big problem is that she told me not to do sport for 2 weeks. WTH!!
Nvm, just let the leg be cure 1st ba... Haix...

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2dae have become a bit more happy than before, maybe it's someone ba ^^
listen to music also happy, not like ytd so sian like that.
Tmr need to reach school at 8.30am, hopefully will sleep early tonight ba ^^

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 10:21 PM

Morning class was normal.
After class went to eat lunch with jie, kor, di, mei, bro.
After lunch, took bus to badminton court at Jurong East sport hall.
Training as usual, only 2dae train until injured my right leg... Sian...

That's all ba cause don't really have mood 2dae...

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@ 12:01 AM

Back to blog, haix... moodless... why? cause of tiredness or think too much?
Dunno, just very sian... Trying to act happy in some ways ba...

Haven't sleep but going soon...
Still playing psp, want to finish my school works faster so that holiday also can faster come...
Want to have a super long rest ba, I guess...

Later still got morning class, after that need to go badminton training.
Hmmm, ytd class test for CAD was fine ba, hopefully can pass...
Getting more stressful & tired nowaday...

After ytd, 2dae will be better ba, hope so...
As in nothing give me the feeling of getting better...
Night faster come cause got bleach 219 for me to watch... Lols...
That's all ba, hope everything will go well...

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Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 8:45 PM

Super mood-less 2dae, haix... SO SIAN!!!
In the morning, still okay de. All the way until afternoon lesson, become super no mood.
Don't feel like studying anymore, school life was getting from bad to worse.
Haix... Can anyone bring back to old April? She only like to study, play game, watch anime, read comics, other than that nothing more she cares.
APRIL!!! PLS RETURN BA...

Getting more & more useless, hopeless, helpless...
Hoping someone is there to talk to me, or even call me back to my usual self...
But nothing good happen that make me want to return,
thing is getting from bad to worse, now even my thinking too...
Haix, hoping to get a super good rest but...

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gei ta de hua:
wanted to talk to u so much, but don't want why u just don't listen.
u may think that wat I say is all craps but I just need someone to talk to.
only if u are there to care, now life is like ending, no one know wat is happening to me.
not because I didn't show out how I feel, is that people around me is too busy with their stuff that they left me out?
Am I in darkness that cannot be help? Idk, just want to find someone to talk to.
---

Will life get better tmr? Haix...
(more hopeless tmr, I think...)

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Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ 11:48 PM

2dae sian sia, wake up at 12noon, sleep at wat time ytd? also don't know cause use com half-way fall asleep, lol... After that, switch on the com, read bleach comics online, all the way until now, in between got do other things also. About 7pm went out to buy cake for mother's day ^^

Now, still reading bleach comics online but taking a break ba cause eyes quite tired already.


The picture of the cake I bought, hope that mama will like it ^^
Happy Mother's Day to mama ^^

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Friday, May 8, 2009 @ 8:05 PM

Hmmm, life 2dae was wat the hell... Early in the morning, wake up at 7am (previous night sleep at 2am, so late wor) straight went wash up, after that sit down awhile at the sofa near the living room door. About 8am went out of house to go bus stop at mrt station there to go school, can't remember is bus 189 or 106 but I think is 189 ba. Reach classroom as usual at 8.30am, only different is that recently my mei & di(s) all come earlier than me sia... (sian, when did I become later reach school de? also dunno, lol...)
Lesson start at 8.30am, end at 12noon. In between the lesson got break, so as usual went to 7-11 to buy drink then go back class again.
^^ happy? maybe cause circuit for the project, my friend (Mark) help me test then he said can work wor, thks a lot for helping out. Thks to Jun Hao kor also as he went to next room help me take supply to test my circuit, only thing is that he like not too sure how to test, then scared me as he told me my circuit cannot work. =D lucky the circuit work if not, can get a lot of problem from it. Congrat to other who have their circuit 1st ^^ lol...

After lesson went to take bus go JP, to eat lunch with PuXiu.
When reach there I was like shock as XiWen, TiHow's nui er, JianMin also there (so many people, omg...) but still ok as I quite weird 2dae, so feeling quite ok to talk to other ^^
After eating, walk around JP with them, still got Shirley, Joanne jie, Van mei...
Finished walking, took bus 154 home. Reach home, took shower than went out again to buy stuff.
Reach home at about 7pm, eat my dinner then now using com.
Happy outing 2dae ^^ only unhappy thing was that in the morning got a bit emo &
saw until Mdm Yap mama angry cause of the 1st year 'C' class.
They darm childish de lor, haix... make a gd teacher angry. If they don't want to study, must as well let Mdm Yap mama teach our class, our class at least will listen to mama more than other class do, then she won't be so angry 2dae already.

Later maybe only online Facebook to play game ba.
Got a lot of things to do but too tired already so rest 1st for 2dae ba ^^

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Words to Mdm Yap:
Don't care about the class students too much until u so angry,
must take care urself if not 'L' class & me will be sad.
Do take care & jia you for the coming teaching,
u are still the best teacher to me ^^ so don't make me see u angry,
if not, I will worry wor. ^^

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gei ta de hua:
jing tian kan dao u hen kuai le, wo yue hen kai xin ^^
got few days didn't see u so happy already.
jia you in ur studies, I believe u can do it de.
As for me, I am sorry. Maybe is give up le ba casue studies look hard for me recently.
Trying hard not to give up like u told me, but got that feeling this time round cannot make it.
Won't give up until I see the result ba, wish u all the best.
Hoping to keep up my gd work, if I can keep up, will my wish come ture? lol...
Only I can help myself up like u said, thks to u,
I am able to stay within the correct thinking & paths up to now ^^
jia you until the day come ^^

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Thursday, May 7, 2009 @ 8:12 PM

-Today-
Wake up at 7am, feeling so so so tired 2dae!!! washing up myself...
After that sit at the sofa there awhile, then went to take bus...
Reach bus stop awhile bus come liao (bus 189, so many people sia.)
Reach school at 8.45am, think so ba. Sit awhile then do LKY project.
After that lunch, at canteen with Anwar, Zu Peng, Jun Hao, Khairul, Van.
Didn't eat as very tired & no mood ba (recently didn't eat much as don't feel like eating.)
Went back to class at 1pm, do revision for coming test (Idk that there is still a test sia, 1st time blur until like that... lol...) Comfirm die de cause everything also don't know...
After class, went home straight as too tired already...
Reach home took shower, after that straght use com to watch bleach anime,
then now blog. Think later only listen music ba... Thats all for 2dae, think so ^^


-Ytd-
Morning, woke up late then usual, also reach school late by 30min (omg! recently keep on like this sia, cannot make it anymore.) Lesson was as usual, was a bit slack ba.
Ending of lesson, then went to took bus 157 to JE there de badminton court to have training for badminton with Jun Hao kor, Zu Peng di, Anwar bro & Van mei (at 1st thought I finish my CAD project, but at the bus trip then I know I forget the speaker sia, half-sian...)
After the so-call training with them take bus 187 to Boon Lay interchange, thought of going home then Penguin call, ended up take bus 174 back school again to another round of badminton.
At 6.30pm, badminton end as there was volleyball training for the school team.
Though can go home rest, who know Chin Kiat kor said want to play badminton outside school,
then took bus 106 to Clementi Ave 2 there the court continue play until 9pm.
After that went to Clementi there the KFC to have so-call dinner (I was like omg again cause in the afternoon already have KFC as lunch with brothers & mei le)
After eating went home, reach home at 10.30pm (so late! also very tired sia)
Took a short shower, lighter my bag for tmr school (looking at the time ~_~)
WTH!!! 11.30pm already, so fast meh... drink some water then went to sleep.

---
Hmmm, well, a bit thinking back ba as on the way to bus stop that time they (Anwar, Jun Hao, Zu Peng, Khairul, Van, Joey) was talking about things.
They suddenly say wat like the life when in Pri. 6, then don't know who say Sec.
I said something like if the whole life also don't like any parts of my life,
then kor suddenly so serious say cannot be, life have up and down, sure got one parts of happy time. I was like half-sian in bus (didn't listen music at that time) after mei alight.
As in, I didn't find any part of my life meaningful, cannot find any happiness in it.
Trying to think back more, nothing gd have happen, there's only sadness?
come up with a dunno answer =( haix...
Now, I become empty, living for the past 18 years without knowing for wat, why...
Never really happy before? don't remember anything.
Where are the memories? gone? DON'T KNOW!!! (got the feeling of falling from the sky...)
Haix... thinking too much again... memories lost? disappeared? deleted?
Empty mind, soul, body... Since when I become like this?
Hollow body left? dunno... Still trying hard to find back myself...

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Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 9:57 PM

Back to change the music, change it to wo nan guo.
bu shi ying wei wo nan guo wor, just change it to this song because...
Just take it as a rewind of old song ba.
Hope everyone enjoy listening to it as u view my blog ^^

Take care & jia you in studies or other things ^^

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@ 8:07 PM

Mood: half-dead, emo.
Reason: today's school work actually I know how to do but thinking other thing that's why become anyhow do, ended up all wrong become more emo...

Morning: went to school for lesson as usual, reach classroom outside take temperature (36.8 degress), then went into class, come out again, go in again, out, in, out, in (lol... keep on walking in and out like in my own house like that...)
After that also get to sit down silently as I was doing my CAD project (almost done, finish soldering & drilling, left checking & testing.)

Lunch time: didn't eat as no mood, just sit down at the canteen with kor, jie, mei, bro, sis (some of them eating, some not), I was drinking water then thinking again (hai... forever everlasting thinking...) Went back to class early as really no mood.

Lesson again, do work all the way until lesson end then went home by 2-ways bus (bus 66 to jurong east, bus 52 to under my house blk the bus stop.)
Reach home, tired & emo so went to bedroom to rest until about 7pm take shower.
Haven't eat my dinner, still no mood ar!!! think about 8pm+ then use com.
2dae won't use com until so late as really no mood, also a bit sick so going rest early.
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Words for myself ?
April ar, don't think so much le. Thinking also have one limit but u are thinking over limit already. Learn to take a break as and when, don't keep thinking of the ending of the world, there's still quite some time before then.
Remember someone's word: past, present, years later.
Forget the past, it will never appear again so its just memories.
Presently, try ur very best in the things u are doing, never have regrat!!!
Years later, sooner or later life will get even harder or easier, just follow the step of time.
Hopefully I can make it ba, but it's hard for a person to keep falling & stand up as nothing happened. So I will just try my best.
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gei ta de hua:
wo xiang wo hai shi mei wang ji ni dui wo shou de hua.
jing tian de wo, hao xiang you yi dian nan guo.
bu zhi dao wei shen me, jiu shi nan guo.
maybe in the 1st place, i didn't even try to forget ba.
hai... hope to return to the beginning when everything look so normal.
wo dui bu qi ni, wat i say over & over again just bring me more down.
hai... wo hui hao hao guo de, qing ni ye yao hao hao guo.

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Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 8:48 PM

Back to blog, hmmm, 2dae life was the same as previous few days ba.
Still having cough & headache,

Early in the morning, reach school at actual 9am, take temperature
(record in form is 37.3 degress), enter class then do remote desktop control for adding all software up then control using one computer (hard to do, trying my best to let it work.)
Went for lunch after lesson with the same few person,
(thinking thing as I was drinking & eating. haix...)
Went back for lesson at 1.30pm.
Outside classroom taking temperature again (this time only 36.5 degress, so nice reading)
enter class then slack (bauhahaha, lol... don't feel like doing anything.)
All the way until teacher release us home.

After school, take bus 174 went JP buy thing to hang at my hp.
Then Van mei also want to buy something.
After that take bus 154 home.
Reach home slack also (half-sian... lol...)
After showering, use com (blog, online msn, don't really know what to do...)
Actually still got CAD project need to do but want to rest a bit as don't really have mood.
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gei ta de hua:
jing tian ni kan qi lai hao xiang hen mei xin qing, wo yue you na me yi dian sian.
bu yao xiang tai duo, mei you zai xiang ni, zi shi bu xiang kan dao ni na yang.
bu yao zhei yang mei xin qing, jiu dang zuo shi wo xi wang kan dao ni kuai le.
jia you, wo xiang xing ni hui guo de hen hao de.
jiu suan ni guo de bu hao, wo hai shi xiang xing ni shi zui hao de.
bu yao wang ji, wo yong yuan hui xiang xing ni.

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Sunday, May 3, 2009 @ 10:23 PM

Feeling super tired de, recently almost everyday also felt so tired. Haix...
Tmr lesson start at 9am, Project sia, for sure will be like half-dead again.
Still got about another one more month to do my school work before coming to the one month holiday. So sian, cannot make it already.
Keep on getting cough, cold, fever, headache (sooner or later sure will tired until faint).

2dae morning, wake up quite late, think at 11am+ ba (not too sure also).
Wake up, then wash up, after that do soldering for the CAD Project (counted half done ba).
Haix, tmr need to reach school at 9am, don't know can reach on time ma.

Just now, use com watch anime half-way then don't feel like watching. So so so SIAN!!!
LIFE IS BECOMING LIKE HELL!!!
HOPE TO SEE HELL BUTTERFLY... LOL...

Sian ar... Nothing much to do sia... So sian!!!
Thks Van mei for the smiley face ball (look so cute with the spect.)
When sian, emo or stress that time will playing with it. Lol ^^
but 2dae the whole day also sian so have been playing with it until now ^^
LOL... Think that all for 2dae ba, hoping to have a better tmr ^^
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Wishes:
Hope that everything will goes well tmr, all sickness in the world will be cure.
Don't look so sian when in class doing things.
Be as fine as 2dae as I am still coughing quite badly.
hai you xi wang ta hui guo de hen hao (can ingore this line, lol...)
Biggest wish:
H1N1 virus faster have a cure, so as to have less people having sickness/virus.

JIA YOU everyone for all the coming events!!! ^^
Hope that everyone can reach the target line that have been set in ur heart ^^

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Friday, May 1, 2009 @ 9:17 PM

Haix, feeling unwell again. Trying hard to rest but didn't rest well,
also don't know why. Hmmm, 2dae wake up quite late, then wash up.
After that sit at the floor awhile, went out to Woodlands, Causeway Point the Nokia shop.
Went there to get my N85 fix, sent one time before but it's not fix.
Haix... The person told me that when it's ready for collection, they will phone me.

Reach home then straight take a nap as I was feeling super tired,
after that woke up at about 7pm, took a shower, eat my dinner.
Sit at the chair to rest some more, all the way until now then switch on the com.
Do nothing, only listen to music & watch the tv program.

That's all for 2dae, still quite sick.

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