Thursday, April 30, 2009 @ 6:43 PM
Tmr is a public holiday, so no need to go school. Think will be at home resting ba.
This morning went to school by bus 189, reach class then found that Van mei, Sheng di reached class already (so early wor) but I reach at 8.30am (the time lesson start).
Lesson end at 12noon, then took bus 174 went JP walk-walk awhile, took bus 154 home after that.
Reach home rest awhile then use com watch anime until now.
Still feeling a bit unwell (maybe sickness not recover yet).
Thats all, will online again soon ^^
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Thinking back about u, maybe is just because of wat they said recently.
(or is it that I haven't forget?)
Anyway, everything is over already.
Just want to keep myself calm.
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Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 9:48 PM
2dae didn't go to his celebration as it start quite late,
also I not feeling well. Just come back home from clinic,
having fever, cough and cold (wat the hell) so sian now.
The doctor ask me cannot eat fried food, fruits (more sian).
Friday blue? Lol... Maybe is because of sickness ba...
Need to rest at home le, feeling super sick like that time de 2 weeks MC like that.
Hope to recover soon.
Will be watching anime, play game ba,
life is stressful recently, so more project to do... Lol...
Just finished my circuit maker & planning but because it's group work
so still need Joanne jie the circuit maker & planning (she done her circuit maker already ^^)
Must jia you for the coming everything!!! Let hope that I can do it!!! ^^
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009 @ 10:52 PM
This year birthday was counted okay ba...
Big THANKS to everyone who wish me happy birthday.
There are Joanne, Vanessa, TiHow, JunHao, Anwar, ZuPeng, YuSheng, ChuanLiang, ChinKiat, Shirley, Joey, Joash, Normil, PuXiu, my cousins, my kor kor & many more.
(May miss out some names cause too many people already,
if I spell ur name wrongly, I am sorry.)
Morning:
Was feeling emo & angry as the stupid bus so long also haven't come,
ended up took MRT to school and was late for class.
Lesson:
Reach school then straight do CAD project circuit & planning
(planning not yet finish).
Break-time:
Didn't went for break as I was too tired & trying hard to finish my work.
After school:
Went to JP the KFC for lunch with JunHao kor, ZuPeng di, Anwar Bro & Van mei.
(Quite nice as long time didn't eat already.)
About 4.30pm:
Meet with kor, di, jie, mei & friends to celebrate.
(Got some accident happened, ended up quite upset in the end.)
Sorry people, I was trying to keep my smile but it's seem hard to.
Reach home, feeling tired, happy? donno...
After bathing, online to blog, listen music & emo? donno...
Hp going for repair already, only took it for about 6 days then accident happened.
(Is it trying to tell me something?)
Haix... Everyday past becoming more meaningless,
no more path for me to walk on anymore.
Life become nothing to me, loneliness fill up the air,
it have become harder for me to breathe.
No one know it, even if someone know, wat can he/she do? (Nothing, I guess.)
Helpless-ness is filling up within me, wat can I still do? Idk...
Everything mean nothing now, filling up myself with helpless-ness.
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 8:36 PM
Having bad headache, didn't rest well the previous night.
At school, cannot do my work well cause head like very heavy.
-Today-
Morning went school by MRT cause Clementi Road having traffic jam,
so more is the road that the bus I usual take will travel.
Reach BB MRT station then alight, who know got one people bang me but it's ok
(only like half-sian).
Reach classroom, teacher just nice going out buy thing (a bit later, he return to class).
Lesson beginning, after that end. Nothing much happened, only Mdm Joyce told us that there will be project in group of 2.
I was like wat the hell, sian...
During lunch time was more relax & fun ^^
kor, di & brothers was keep on joking.
Then back to class for another tired lesson.
After school went to take bus 106 home,
before going to the bus stop got shocked by Si Cong ah gong
cause he took my thumbdrive & went to work
(I was like scared me, thought I lost my thumbdrive).
That's all for today, now only using com doing something
(maybe later watching anime).
-Tmr-
^^ My Bday! Maybe will not online tmr cause will be going out
(if not too late reach home will online).
Bday wish is... shh... It's a secret so cannot tell =P
^^ Ending here...
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Sunday, April 19, 2009 @ 7:24 PM
Morning, woke up at 12pm+ (so late!) then do nothing until afternoon, went to sleep again.
Woke up at about 5pm+ (think so).
Now using com watch anime ^^ feeling more relax le but tmr got school at 9am (hopefully can make it on time).
That's all for today ba, hopefully can online the next few days if not so busy ^^
(Yeah! My bday coming this Wed, hope to have a nice day ^^)
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Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 3:16 PM
Happy 18th Bdae to Jun Hao Kor!!! Must enjoy ur day ^^
Sorry for not going to the celebration as when I wake up having fever & was feeling unwell.
Anyway, hope ur wishes will come true ^^
Now feeling better than in the morning already but still a bit unwell.
That's all for 2dae as I am at home also nothing to write.
Happiness is not to be last forever, it is mean to be know & understand to have it.
It can be long or short but not forever but the shortest it is, the more u will understand life.
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 7:22 PM
2dae life was okay, only a bit emo as I am thinking thing, haix...
Words is better to be keep within heart,
don't want to harm anyone anymore.
It's better to hurt own self than other.
During CAD lesson, at computer lab, Si Cong ah gong asked me why am I emo,
I didn't reply him, so sorry didn't tell u the reason.
Actually, I am thinking something.
(don't feel like explain-ing myself, sorry)
Recently listening quite a lot of old songs ^^
most of them sound nice but also got some emo.
Hmmm, quite a few songs got memories in it but didn't want to think about it,
as I know that being emo wasn't so good.
Words for ytd:
I am sorry about ytd as I wasn't feeling well,
it's true that I am feeling hurt but I shouldn't act weird.
Keeping the laughter isn't a problem,
the problem is when u are smiling but deep within u, u are very hurt & lost.
It may start to bring sadness in too but rainbow will always appear after the rain.
Life isn't that bad after all ^^
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Monday, April 13, 2009 @ 8:10 PM
Feeling tired but school sure was fun.
Teacher also joke quite a lot 2dae ^^
Hmmm, hope that 2moro life also will be ^^
The pain is back, I know the reason but just want to ingore.
Words just don't seem to come out of my mouth,
I could just tell him the true but I can't cause it will be selfish if I do so.
The feeling of hurt, pain, emo is back. There's nothing I can do.
Love is the beginning of pain.
I know the meaning of it already.
I am sorry.
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Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 1:23 AM
Well, maybe thinking too much again.
Words just don't seem to come out from my mouth.
Wat do I mean by "ohh", "like that at".
I don't know, I just don't feel like having comment on recent things happening.
(no comment? it's seem more like I am trying to ingore...)
Reason? no reason...
Feeling empty minded in some ways...
(Maybe someone there will know? not too sure...)
When u tell me the true thinking u are having,
I am happy but in someway I am also hurted.
If only u know, but u don't seem to know anything or are u pretenting that u don't know?
I am not thinking so much about u anymore, since that day I promise myself.
I will be fine, I know I will...
^^ smile will come back after all.
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Monday, April 6, 2009 @ 3:01 AM
Thinking too much again? maybe...
Haix, hiding myself at the same time using laptop...
So late already, don't wan to let my mama know I haven't sleep...
I don't think I can sleep tonight, try to close my eyes but they just can't be close...
Wat the hell is happening to me!?
so tired but just cannot sleep...
listening to music, hoping to fell asleep...
Haix...
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Sunday, April 5, 2009 @ 11:28 PM
Giving up on everything will not help in anyway...
Feeling is the thing that should be given up long time ago...
Living w/o feeling, at least it wouldn't hurt so much...
Living alone w/o anyone around, at least I will be better than wat I am now...
Feeling so hurt...
Can't do anything to it...
Life 2dae was extremely bad, as I was doing a lot of things,
trying to ingore wat is happening around me but I don't think I can...
I am sorry... That don't seem like the usual me...
It was like trying to kill myself in a different way...
Everything seem to be a lie...
Time cannot cure anything or make memory disappear...
Is just that I am foolish to believe that it can...
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Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 10:38 PM
Want to go back school! if not, will go crazy at home ar.
Keep on hearing them nag. Wat the hell is this.
Recently got some people call me which I don't know them then they will tell me:
ur friend give me ur no.
To my that 'friend': PLS STOP PLAYING WITH MY HP/HOME NO.
Haix...
Ytd night sleep very late, at about 3am+ going 4am.
Was thinking thing again, that's why cannot sleep well even after 4am.
Still thinking about that day, which I said I already let go.
Is this call letting go? I don't think so...
I can't keep lying to myself, I know that I haven't let go.
I am only lying to myself in some stupid way by saying I already let go.
1 April 2009, the bad day, I having headache that my cousin play prank joke on me.
Ha... Not funny at all, only feeling sick...
Same as for 2dae, not feeling well but still go out walk walk...
That's all ba, recently don't think can online as my house's internet was spoilt,
in another words no connection.
Now online using my bro's com, hope that the internet will recover soon ba,
if not, at home will from bored become very bored.
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