yesterday some things happened. and they just reiterated my belief that they've given up on me. but i don't really care anymore. because the one whose opinion matters the most will never give up on me, so why should i give up on myself? "Never give up on yourself because God never gives up on you." I will always remember those words.



ok well today was a :/ day.

chinese test was ok.

chem test was quite ok (although i didn't know how to do the last qn...): )

maths was just.... :/ ... as was el oral. <- the topic wasn't hard, i actually guessed the convo qn correctly! but i just kept blabbering on and on and on, i think she was quite bored in the end. oh and i totally daoed the trainee next to her! haha. i greeted both ok! just that afterwards i just focused on the person in front of me!

yeah so haiyo i was quite down after el oral, but thanks to batgirl (spidermandz mass dance partner today!) as well as john terry's supposed ex missus (jennifer) who cheered me up and encouraged me! yes, jennifer, i shall start living life with CONFIDENCE again. yup i dont care about today's tests and whatever anymore, i shall leave my results in God's hands now. :D

i'm so happy that liverpool have signed robbie keane! more eye candy in liverpool now. :)

yay today's problems are over!! now i can look forward to studying bio! hahahaaha, nice relaxation man....hmm...bio bio bio bio bio........LATER! gonna do other more fun things first! :D

ok bye bye!

<3
MANDY :)

Hello:D

Today was pretty fun. What with all the dancing we did and the cool awesome moves we made. HAHA.

Ho hum. Many tests ahead of us this week.. But i know that we'll all pull through:)

Yeah, i agree, old memories do bring back a whole load of emotions. Ahh, i miss those primary school days..

NIGAHIGA ROCKS!!!

LOVES,

tashi.

teehee

Above All

Crucified

Laid behind a stone

You lived to die

Rejected and alone

Like a rose

Trampled on the ground

You took the fall

And thought of me....

Above all

I heard this song (Above All) yesterday at MJ Multimedia Suntec. It was like a throwback to the past, when I was in Primary Sch and we would always sing this for chapel! I just focused on the lyrics and inside me I felt so overwhelmed with emotions. Ok I've decided to save up and buy that CD!! It's called Faith. Above All was simply awesome and the other songs sounded great too. I mean, Boys Like Girls rock, but they can wait. This CD just blew me away!

<3

mandy

Mariah carey-When you believe
Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way clear through the rain
A small, but still, resilient voice
Says help is very near

As it was playing, I saw behind them the clip from Prince of Egypt..how true!

Today was netball clinic!
Heh. Okla(: Bendeemer coach was cute. Hahahaha. Angie says she's hot. But she's wat, same height as the P5 girls? hmmm.
We played dog & bone for warm up..then passes..then STAR. whoo. I got the sec ones to pair with them. Should've gotten the upper sec to do so instead..the sec one's can't even do it properly! heh. Then we played the shooting game!! XD

The only problem i guess was that there was 9 of them? And there was 30 of us.
yeahhh.
so alot of ppl were sittin around doing nth and it looked like chaos when everyone was doing smth else. heh. Haha maybe i had a look of uncertainty? Cos um ppl started huggin me and askin me if i was stressed. um like seniors. hmm. I think their just finding an excuse to hug me lar. XP

After a full game, we got catered lunch! :D
mdm faridah said to only take either 2 slices of pizza or one box of food..so i took one slice and half a box(: shared with sangooster!
While eating nasi lamak and longans and pizza and ice lemon tea, ppl started servin me food from all over the place cos there was too much. Heh. kinda enjoyed it for a while til there was too much food. hmm like quoting someone, she said,"your stomach is an endless pit". ahh. that is to a certain extent ;)
well anyways they had too much so everybody had to bring food home. oh and like 20 over boxes were donated to the CC. Hahaha.

Hm. ET kept smiling at me today. what is his problem? I thought he was angry with me. ahh i guess his pms is over(: whoopee. poony wants to make a date with us on national day eve..to teach us how to PITCH A TENT. I bet she'll date us everyday if she could..heh. Okay la she's not that bad. Just that i can't imagine her in a cinderella costume. OH! Today, when i got to sch, I was gna go shoot hoops cos i was bored when suddenly...The Circle Of Life started playing!!!!!!!!! Whoooooooo!! Then i made a u-turn and sat down to listen to the song :D :D

The firmest friendships have been formed

in mutual adversity as iron is most strongly

welded by the feircest fire.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
All the chains are broken,
I have been set free
Every word You've spoken
is watching over me
So how can I stay silent
when I hear You call my name

Living in Your presence,
I'll never be the same
I've been found in You

On my lips there's a shout of praise
Now I'm gonna dance for all my days
Because I've seen the wonder of Your loving ways

So much joy here in Your embrace
Makes me wanna sing and celebrate
Because I've seen the wonder of amazing grace
Because I've seen the wonder of amazing

I've been found in You
And now I'll sing out Your truth
I've been found in You
And now I'll sing out Your truth

HELLOS(:

Haha sorry I've been BUSYBUSYBUSY D:
Rahh.
monday: Dateline for finding primary school coaches by calling other ppl and asking them if they know any and then getting their number and then asking them if they wna come down for netball clinic.
tuesday: SS GEOG TEST.. D:
wednesday: RUGBY.. :S and mugggggggggggggggggggggg for A math!! (i think i failed it)
Thursday: AMATH TEST.. DD:

Lessons have been boringggggg. Really. I kinda find it hard to amuse myself anymore..oh and i got scolded for talking:P Yupyup our class is like a graveyard so better not wake the dead. or going to be. To tell you the truth, the only lesson i enjoyed was CHINESE. :O
Whoot!
Haha it's the only period I can't stop laughing man(: ...though I had to stand for the whole period, but still! Heh. and lets see what else..oh! PE :D
Next week should be something new..I wonder what we're gna do. Hope not yoga. Do it every trg alr ;)

I liked my new place(:
Had to sit at the back of the class cos of the UK visitors. Didn't get to talk to them much):
Sat next to Fazila and JiaminXD Haha it was fun sitting there..sad i'll have to shift back next week..
Tomorrow's the netball clinic! Not really looking forward though all the hard work..all the schools rejected us only bendeemer pri is coming down. Haiyo. Hahaha but then it's still a good opportunity for us i guess (: nothing goes wasted.

Thunder-Boys Like Girls

Hi!

yes it's me again. so shocking that i'm so actively blogging nowadays. (or at least compared to the two of you bums) i wanna declare my love for boys like girls songs! like the great escape, hero/heroine etc. but today i'm addicted to THUNDER!

THUNDER-BOYS LIKE GIRLS

Today is a winding road

Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Today in the blink of an eye

I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines

I tried to look in your eyes I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside

I gotta find a way out

Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road

Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa

Today I'm on my own

I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass

And longing for the breeze

I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe

I gotta find a way out

Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope

I'm wrapped up in vines

I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time

Strike me down with lightning

Let me feel you in my veins

I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

I don't wanna ever love another

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

And bring on the thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Do you know you're unlike any other?

You'll always be my thunder

So bring on the rain

Oh baby bring on the pain

And listen to the thunder

yay! this song rocks. take a listen : http://youtube.com/watch?v=G5nQOCdo5bk

it grows on you! And, and, when you watch the lead singer (Martin Johnson), he'll melt your heart! REALLY!

<3,

mandy

hello!

you know what, in about 1 and a half hours time, the brazil olympic football team is arriving at changi airport t2 i think!!! so exciting. although i heard that kaka is not going to be there. not sure if ronaldinho is too. ahhhh.....so exciting la! i wanna go and see. you know the match on saturday(i think it's sat) is like $15 for students! but it's just a friendly match so no point going. but i still wanna watch a live match at a stadium! the only other live match i have watched was singapore vs australia friendly in national stadium last year! and i was like sitting at grandstand gallery there ok! only 5 metres away from harry kewell who was stretching and warming up!! so cool man. (btw for all who don't know, harry kewell was a liverpool player at that time, and i am a fan of the best football club in the world...which is....duh liverpool la!)

anyway today was a cold and dark day...at least in the morning. then we had to have assembly in the school hall and our mass dance. which was virtually impossible since i was just about this close to smacking someone in the face when i moved just a bit. then the blazers were supposed to dance together but i was stuck in front and couldnt move to the back! ande and evelyn were also caught in the trap with me.

ok then we had pe, our final mini tennis lesson. actually it's quite fun! esp the tournament style cos we play doubles and got bigger space so balls won't fly all over that easily. ok then the other lessons weren't that memorable, not saying they were boring or horrible, just that i don't wanna bore you out bcos they were just typical lessons.

yup anyway sorry la, gotta go study for a maths.........(last a maths test of the year yay!)

mandy(:

hello!!

yay i feel happy today although i think the 3some undersome peeps are so boring we didn't bother to dress up for racial harmony day today!! we had half day. i think the school expected us to like go straight home and start mugging for tests but nope, i think half the school went out still.

loved our netballers date. so fun to go novena and settle everything in just 3 hours. now we don't have to worry about that matter anymore. and it was so funny cos natasha, sanguu and i noticed that hanis, afiqah and evelyn really looked so down while on the bus there so we decided to...

1) tell evelyn what to do to someone i shall not mention to save my neck

2) cheer hanis up by promising to sell her cookies (although i left early so i don't know if we really did but i doubt it)

3) make afiqah so super happy by buying her the nike coals bottle thing because she lost it today. and she promised to label it with 'This bottle is the property of Afiqah. With Love from the Netballers' ok i don't think she'll REALLY write that but she did laugh when i mentioned it:)

haha haiyo, most credit to natasha, always the sunshine in everyone's life. never fails to brighten up anyone's day. and also to sanguu, who was nice enough to listen to and play along with the nuttypro's crazy ideas.

YAY WE SETTLED OUR PROBLEM TODAY. and cheered others up. or at least i think we did. YAY!! ok enough celebration, i better go off and study for SS test tmr.

love,
mandy:)

Heyhey.

Today I had table tennis for pe.
Had that ytd as well..
HAHAHAHA it was funnnnnn!!! Played with melinda, rachel and jiamin. everybody came to our table to watch us play cos we were the so-called 'sports ppl'..but ended up running away as fast as they could after standing and watching 'one' game. Haha! our ball never touched the table. 4 balls flew out the grills. Um i must say that one was hit out by me:P Oh and my back was facing the grills. yeahhh. now you know how we played like. XD

Chinese class is more entertaining nowadays(:
The new tr aint that bad!! She's quite um..attention catching? Yup, I actually start paying attention(:

hmmm trg was quite okay.
Though a few things did happen. I was quite shocked really..Did she mean me? But if she did, she wouldn't have come up to me just minutes before to speak to me privately, right? I don't understand. But I'll not put to heart what she said. She's just a little girl i guess..I'll have a talk with her(: and soon too.

After trg was quite entertaining(:
Hahaha the band was cool!! If they still were a military band, how cool that would be..Heh. Though I guess we just maluated ourselves infront of our juniors, 40 band ppl who were staring straight at us..and the VICE PRINCIPLE. D: butttttttt, I had FUN dancing with the Blazers! Heh heh we set the floor ablazeeee babeh! Hmm reminds me of the destinee ad me and fi used to mimick:P
Ahh. I appreciated what you guys did. Though it seems like nothing to you..but then you've never offered before (though yes i asked you today) but you agreed to help bring the balls back with me. And I was..um. Shocked. Normally I'd have to drag one of you with me cos i don't have 8 arms to carry all the balls, but yeahh. You all came down today. Hahaha though you rejected helping me to get keys and call mr lim and get the attendance sheets and mark it.. I still appreciate(:
Anddd, I can see that we're all improving together!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Makes me look forward to trgs more(: continue smiling, nehballer blazers!!
MUSTCANWILL.
sssxzszxzsxszxszsxs! "WADDDDDDDDDDDDZ!"

Okay, seeyou! Godbless(:

hey just a side note: i meant to post this on last tues, 15 july but i'm only posting it now cos...my internet suddenly kena cut off when i was halfway blogging. stupid la! anyway, if you don't want to read it's ok, cos this is like old news, gonna blog abt today soon! (posted this on 21 july)

Hello!



Yesterday had a mini date with Kat while everyone else in school was having O level Listening. (we have to take it one year later *smacks head*) Just the Katman out in full force! Haha, but unfortunately, what we planned to do didn't go as well as we wanted to. Quite sad really. I hope our problem can be resolved asap. I left it in God's hands already so I know we've got hope. :D



Today was such a strange day. I kena 'punished' by Mrs Jai haha. Today I was supposed to do duty (sweep floor with Amirah) then because Amirah got the broom first so I didn't bother to go do my duty. Then later Amirah went to sweep my legs. Here's what happened later:



Mrs Jai: Amirah, why are you sweeping other people's legs?

Amirah: What? Mandy don't want to do her duty!

Me: Hey! There's only 1 broom, I can't hold hands with her on the broom and sweep right?

MJ: Mandy, go borrow a broom from another class!

Me: Can I sweep later instead?

MJ: Alright, you sweep later during recess. After recess, I'm gonna come round to the class again and check if it's clean. If the class is not clean, Mandy, I hold you responsible!

Whole Class: AHahahahahahaha wah cheyyyy

Me: Ok....huh...no wait.....what!!

MJ: (Repeats herself again)

Me: Noooooo (silently to myself)



Later on during her lesson, she was like " Remember ah Mandy, you better make sure the class is clean after recess!" Then I was like, 'Yes, yes (groaning)" I spent like 5 mins plus of my recess today sweeping the class. Although my partner Miaoz helped me for 2 mins or something when I needed to go pee. Thanks Miao Miao!! And now my class is so super clean!! At least much cleaner than Sanguu's class when I went in for Chinese. Yay! (no offence to 3P, direct offence to Sanguu, hahaha, ok sorry then!)



Then we had study skills workship. Our coach/instructor/whatever you call her was so hilarious! it's like her style of talking and everything is so friendly and her laughter is like the uncontrolled type so it's really funny to hear her laugh. one of her colleagues walked by our class and stared inside then she was like ," Yes hi darling!! (smiles widely)" haha so funny right, haiyo!

Heh mandy, you are a funny bird(:

God walks with us... He scoops us up in His
arms or simply sits with us in silent strength
until we cannot avoid the awesome recognition
that yes, even now, He is here.
~GLORIA GAITHER

The world is so beautiful:)
Take a look.

hey this is just a short short post in direct response to kat's most recent post. (my post for today is the one directly below this btw)

firstly, i'm not a strange bird! haha there's nothing wrong with finding enjoyment in everything you do. yes, that's hard sometimes but it's a great feeling to put your all into something you feel passionately about. you end up emotionally drained and sometimes you get hurt but hey, that's the only way to live life to the max!

'Don't cry because it's over, laugh because it happened'

Don't you just love this quote?

i think that in life, we always wait for the one perfect moment, that one perfect time to do something, in all honesty, if you just take the time to see things from different angles, it's not all that hard to find joy in the stuff you dread doing sometimes. it's the tiny little things others do for you that make you happy, not those big fantastic moments of glory you crave. ( which never happen until you least expect it or when you learn to enjoy life the way it is, not always roses and wine, but nevertheless, an enjoyable roller coaster ride, when you learn how to manage your emotions and adjust your attitude after a horrifying nerve wrecking fall, to rise from the ashes over and over again)

i dunno where i saw this quote, could have been on this very blog alone or on someone else's or maybe in a book or newspaper but it said that "Nothing is a waste of time if you use that experience wisely." indeed how true.

oh and my friend screamed in my ear cos she's always super hyper for her cca, her friends or i dunno, she just felt high maybe? no she didnt see natasha doing the crazy stuff (not sure if she knows natasha) i'm the one who spotted natasha doing silly actions on stage, and natasha was like mouthing to me, 'hey i see mandy' up on stage. at least i think she was talking to me, haha, cos we had eye contact and then i waved to her after she mouthed those words.

yeah i think that's all yeah? ok maybe this post was not that 'short short' after all. haha, got carried away sorry!

mandy:)

today i feel so slack. haiyo, cos like this week got no test and my parents are not going for meet the parents on friday.



today was just like a normal school day, kena the subject of rumours and getting dao-ed again by kat in favour of her love! haha. hmmm, you know today during chem, i thought ms chng was joking when she said she wanted to do a lesson study on how good cedarians memory was. i don't think having this test was an accurate representation of anyone's memory. if you revise your work regularly, you can still do well even if you don't look at the text again. so to test people's memory, should play memory games!! haha ok but then i bet i would probs suck at them.


anyway, just wanna wish my big bro aka korkor a happy happy 18th Birthday! pls start acting your age ok? and my wish for you is to become a better brother to me!! haha just kidding la. i know you're not gonna see this but still, yay! 18 is a HUGE milestone. hope you achieve your dreams whatever they are and be happy in life! and also more appreciative of what your younger sister does for you! tee hee :D



sometimes i wonder why people refuse to give others a second chance. i look around me and i realise a lot of people just refuse to change their original opinions of others regardless of how or what the person does. i can see this in almost every aspect of my life in the people i come across. i think it's really sad when people do this. esp when people try their hardest but others don't wanna give them a second chance. as a result, these people start giving up.

i feel like saying to them, ' don't give up on yourselves, cos God never gives up on you, his beloved child'

Even if it seems as if everyone has given up on you...just go to him, he is there for you.

btw, that phrase(in quotation marks about God not giving up on us) was once spoken by tricia in sec 1, i've remembered it ever since :)

mandy:)

HELLO(:

Firstly, I want to say,

WELL DONE CEDAR SYMPHONIC BAND!!!!!!!

YOU GUYS RULED THE STAGE!!!

Yup, getting a GOLD WITH DISTINCTION is definately something to be proud of!! And I'm so glad I could be there to watch you guys get that. First in division too!! WOW. :D

What I really admired most about the whole thing was..the teamwork.

they all put in their 110% in it..and look at the results.

Ofc before all this, tough work had to be put in..

but they all strived for one purpose.

Why cant we be like that too?

If just one person had not put in the best,,could they achieve this?

If only we could have the same passion..we'd be more than champions!

MUST~CAN~WILL.

I won't give up.

The fireworks was pretty(:

I met Gabriella on the way out! Haha lucky them, had free show of the ndp! XD

Well, I had a great dinner too..though somehow rachel and i are being backnabbed. rahh D:

Hahaha I hadn't laughed so much in ages.

Hmm I was thinking while i watched ytd..

There was a sitch..didn't watch the conductor and went wrong.

The conductor controls what happens in the play..

Fast or slow, loud or soft..as long as you keep ur eyes on him (/her)

you won't go wrong.

Dear Father! You are my conductor(:

My life is lead by Your hands..

May my eyes never leave You, that i may do what You guide me to do!

Hmm Mandy ah mandy..

Hahaha you always were a funny strange bird. Haiyo! Had fun arguing eh? hmm I know the saying that we should find enjoyment in whatever we do so that we may do it well..but i don't really think that applies to arguing..

And I don't think the song makes you old!! HAHA tsk.

Why did your fren scream in ur ear? Because she spotted nat doing funny things on stage?? Do they know each other? Hahaha ldrs invest was quite fun! (only the actual one. The prac ones were tiringgggggggg) And yes, since ur so interested, I did do a superman strip outside the hall to get my jersey out..I was sweating like a potato!! I got (unwanted) help from somebody to take off my (sch) skirt cos I think she was very kanchiong. haha! She almost pulled down my jersey skirt along with it.

Eh! and i did the monitress dance too!! Ohman. Paiseh! hahaha aiya but i don't really care about my face though..like how i maluated myself infront of ALOT of ppl a few days ago..during math test!! heh just remembered what my friend told me.."you don't care about face?? Excuse me, if you didn't realise, your face is now the face of an OAI, a monitress and a cca ldr.." Ohwells. I still don't bother..

I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint.

~JEREMIAH 31:25

For my Blazers(: Don't let others get you down! I'll be there whenever you need me.

I just realised, He wants the same too..to cast your burdens on him, and run into His arms! Like a lost child going back to his Father. And I know, nothing you do will ever stop Him from loving you and waiting at the door of your heart for you to come back home. (: PRAISE THE LORD!

Hold on, little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up, little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's Through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on Baby, come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone
When we can be together, baby
You can make my life worthwhile
I can make you start to smile

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside, I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Just to be the next to be with you

"Anyone who says 'sunshine brings happiness' has never danced in the rain." XD

Hello:)


MANDZ. I was NOT doing weird things on stage!!
hahaha. Well today was fun fun. If you really like the song, go listen to it at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6O-yohHK25g
THIS IS WHAT WE DREAM ABOUT.. lalala. Can't get that silly song outta my head:(


AHH. I have severe butt-leg ache/ leg-butt ache:( Save meeee!!!!!!


tata for now~

















TASHI.

hi!!

got nothing much to say actually. except today during ss, mr chai had a VP in class observing. yeah so he did some sort of debate on the most effective way of deterrence for singapore. like a SEQ judgemental question. dunno why but my group was the one that kena hardest hit by all corners. wah!! then later on in concluding round, we only had 1 min to rebut everything so we all went up and started fighting back all the assumptions they made about our point. haha. then people were like, wow mandy wanna fight huh? haha, ok i admit i was a bit intense but yeah i think i got some of that intensity from RMUN. surprising isn't it? didnt know RMUN would have such an impact. i didn't care what anyone thought of me, (even though VP was there haha) i just wanted to fight for my side. i guess now it's over, it's quite silly to get so pissed over a small debate like that haha. i don't reallly care if we win or not actually. i know i had fun fighting back haha.

i'm turning out to be nick hornby, taking things too seriously. ( for you info, our latest el summary test was a passage from nick hornby, yes the one about football...awesome article, although i'm not an arsenal fan :D)

i'm currently addicted to david cook's time of my life. (no its not a song that makes you grow old, kat) it makes me wanna appreciate the present and also look forward to the future.

And I'll taste every moment and live it out loud
I know this is the time; this is the time to be
More than a name or face in the crowd
I know this is the time; this is the time of my life
The time of my life

oh yes, then there was leaders invest. haha spotted nat doing crazy stuff on stage. and miaoz almost screamed my ear deaf. gosh, she can scream in every sense of that word. and the Do I Make You Proud song was great! :D so kat, did you do your superman act? like tear off your blouse and skirt and inside is the jersey?

mandy(:

hello

im in a rush to blog bcos i wanna go sleep.

so tired today....we had el summary test, then we had e maths ct and then they gave back a maths ct and i had training....oh man tired la!

nothing much happened today except the above. except i feel happier today than i felt last week. yay! i think its bcos of the watching of my pastor's video on the Feeding of the Five Thousand yest, even though there were so many tests today and how we can always trust in God, etc. i dont view it exactly in the same year kat does, but still i know he's always there for me. i know his favour is on me! after he gave me such good results for a maths, results i know deep down i never thought i could get ON MY OWN ABILITY and laziness and discontentment and lack of faith thus far. it's not that type of wow i got 30 plus marks i'm a genius kind of feeling like sanguu, its just being grateful and contented with what the Lord has given to me. (and no, i didnt get 30 plus marks, i dont care if you think im lousy, but im happy and grateful to the Lord for what i did get)

i am happy that most people in my class improved, but sad that some did not. i dunno how to console them. i just hope that people in my class dont give up hope and continue on the hard work they are putting in and keep on plugging away at it. we will get there!

hmmph....so yeah thats all i gotta say today. i really hope we get our tshirt up and running in time for national day!

mandy(:

HEY JOJO. This SPECIALLY for you:D

maths test tmr. then trg. Then straight after is Ldrs invest full-dress rehearsal from 5-7??
whoa. the nehballers going are gna be sticky heehee. well they had better be. XD

Ahh congrats Poot for getting full marks in math you silly poot. what else can i say. Hahaha you funny lousy poot la you darn always winning me. Rahh!!! Hahaha be my physics, math and chinese tutor lah you, top in CSP sommore!!

Had the focus discussion thing today. Uhhh not very productive this time with so many ppl.
Haha i was thinking to myself..not the first time but yeah. The one thing that i enjoyed most being a monitress..hmmm.
Not that hard to come up with an answer:P Well I think the only thing i enjoyed with this position, is that I had so much fun doing silly bum stuff with the other sec 3 monitresses!! Cos we had so many things to do, but i guess we always found ourselves havin sososososo much fun together as well. I would never had survived monitress life without the other unfortunate ones. XP
Haha esp PootPoot, vice president BurpBurp and last but not least, our president WeeWeeeeeee(:
Gosh you guys definately know how to give that innocent unsuspecting good girl look man. Who knew who knew you were such a craaaaaaaaaazy bunch! Full of dung beetles.

ahh I like a few of the nehball pics we took ytd! Why you didn't post them here nat! haha i shall help you(:

PYRAMID!! Haha it was quite a "messy"process..Hanis can't bear the pain no more!


This one has all 10 of us!! Yeahhhhh!!


Yo dudes yo, wassup! Sorry i only realised that was the theme after it was taken:P


Don't mess with the Blazers.


Uhuh. long-legged ppl showin off the legs at the back, while the short ones are hiding them. tsk! XD


okay off to study math now..gotta beat poot in this one! haha and i need my rest too..rahh its not nice being sick D:

seeya, and God bless!

Love means to love that which is unlovable
or it is no virtue at all; forgiving means to pardon
all which is unpardonable, or it is no virtue
at all - and to hope means hoping when things
are hopeless, or it is no virtue at all.
~G. K. CHESTERTON

Hahaha I had a VERY BUSY day but weird as well!!
Just got home from trg(:
hmmm I had 2 huge urges today. XD

okok the first was during SEL.
Mr Tan was talking about 'dating'..then he was saying what do you think it's right to start so early or blahblah.
Then I suddenly had this crazy urge to say "I'M IN LOVE!!!!" to anybody who was sitting close by.
HAHAHAHA!!! I mean serious!! I've just fallen so deep in love with the Lord! :D :D

hmmm the second one was different. In a way that i did it.
I was on the bus on the way home..it was peak so bus was jammed pack. Then my legs were about to give way cos I was exhausted and sick. But the Lord gave me strength! And I continued standing:P
I was standing at the corner behind the seats for the weaker people. I'm quite disappointed at the ppl who sit there though their perfectly fine and there are so many other needy ppl standing around! But I shall continue my story(:
I was there when the bus reached a stop. Then this man boarded..I had seen him before!!
This frail old man carrying shopping bags had boarded, and stood there in front of me. I remember the other time i saw him I had this thing set in my mind that if the bus ever jerked or suddenly stopped, I'll catch this guy and hold him and make sure he doesn't fall. Crazy!! But then I don't know why, I just had that strong feeling of sadness for him. He had that sad look in his eyes..
Well this time round, he still had the same look on his face! Then I was wondering whether I should switch places with him, cos all he had was a bar to hold, but I had a railing. But I guess my danzi tai xiao:P So then it went on..and all the time i'd see him trying to catch his balance so he would not fall onto other ppl as it was crowded.
But this time I saw that he was having a very bad running nose. I mean i could hear him sniffing with my earplugs on! Then I put my hand in my bag and searched for tissue. Then i remembered i forgot to bring today..so had to borrow from the toilet to blow my nose cos i had flu:P But I felt like i needed to do smth for him..so you know what the person with the xiao danzi did?? I took out my earplugs, bent over to the 2 young ladies sitting on the green chair with huge expensive bags and said,"excuse me, do you have tissue paper?"
Hahahaha I cannot believe i did that! Well one of them gave a packet to me and I thanked her. I took one out and returned her the packet. Then I looked at the man and said "uncle, zhe ge tissue gei nin". (err of course my chi was pronounced very horribly though XP)

Then he looked at me, with that shocked big-eyed expression, and he was still shaking cos he couldn't stand very balanced, and he was like,"bu yao,bu yao" but in the end he took it(: And then he said,"xie xie, xie xie"... The way he said it, it was like he really did appreciate wat i did, though of course i felt bad for borrowing from somebody else. So then I asked him if he would want to switch places. And he SMILED(:
Though he got off 2 stops after, I couldn't help feeling that I've made someone feel loved today! And he made me feel appreciated by just saying "thank you". After he left though, I felt that regret not to have told him as well,"ye shu ai ni!"

Haha you and Eunice look so cute:D
Though I look really really horrible in the pictures):

Ohohoh guess what.
I just heard from my sis that a boy in my ex-pri sch tried to be superman. like seriously! you know what he did??
Man, I've had dreams of doing it before, but this P6 guy totally rocks man. He jumped down from the hall, to the onning below..and then jumped to the 2nd onning! but the 2nd one gave way and he fell down. My sis says that she can see the hole on the onning from her class on the 4th floor..
As in he jumped off the side of the hall!!! whoa. What shocked me was that the boy actually asked for permission to jump from the principle. The principle said that he could 'go and try then break his neck then see whether can or not'. Well i guess he took it literally..
This is one guy with HUGE ambitions!!!!! and right before PSLE. I take my hat off for him, never thought it'd be possible. This goes to show the intellect level in my old school too huh. No wonder i don't miss it:P (oh btw, the boy is in hospital now)

But then I do feel quite..how to say..impressed? envious? wowed by him. Now there's a guy who knows no limits! If only we were to be like him (in a more safer way) in what we do, what goals we can achieve!!!! But then, everybody's just so scared of hitting the floor..no one even tries!
Haha fly!!

Haha. K, just a few random pictures taken on express yourself day:D

This one was taken from the blazers blog:)

WE MISS YOU SCARY!!

Hey! this was at downtown east:)

If you'll still rmb!

HAHA, i know tt this is really late but it's here at last!

Love you guys:)

"People say money is the root of all evil, and actually it's the love of money that's the root of all evil. So there is nothing wrong with money if you use it right."

Haha that is what my fav series writer said(: I thought i finished the series when i completed the 8th book today! but I just found out that there's actually 16 books in total...ahhh! Haha he had another phrase in the book (actually many but there's this nice one) which he said smth like this.. "I've made many mistakes in my life, but i wouldn't change a thing. Because all of them lead to today." whoa. haha okay i changed a few words i think cos i don't want to go flipping through the 500 paged book to find it again:P So it doesn't sound that nice):

Okay I am terribly sick.
My throat is killing me. I cannot breathe in without swallowing saliva cos i can feel the air rush through..but then the water going down just stings!!! Oweeowow.
Just now i was going to cook pasta for myself..I was going into the kitchen then i started coughing. I was out of breath but i still had that feeling like i needed to cough so then, by coughing nothing, i think the force made my whole system jirk. I could feel like my gut going up..and pushing everything ontop upwards as well DX
And i have touch rugby tmr sommore..i can't even breathe properly!

As I saw you, I was reminded..of Last October. Still the same i guess. Seemingly so strong and bold..but inside, you're still a little girl. I don't know if it's me or my psychological side that makes me so 'connected' to ppl's insecure side..I just get so confused sometimes. Lord, show me the way to reach them, just like you've done to me.

Mandy(:
nothing you say is ever gna be too emo for me. You are still the bouncy little girl i'll always know!Haha I might have a few things to say about that. But I shall not get ahead of myself.
What you say is true. well the first part. People put on brave fronts..only the real brave will show their true self.
I am reminded of the time I was like that..that was the time before i 'found' Christ.
It's all down to insecurities..but I learned and found out that, no matter who you are, the Lord loves you, for His love is unconditional(: and so I guess I changed quite a bit! Haha a bit is a little understated.
But look, by saying ppl shouldn't criticize, is like criticizing the criticized..or so to speak. LOVE! :D I find it easier to love anyone, when I feel that never ending love of the Lord and Father. You said it was a chain reaction? So it is. It started from Him, but we did not wholly understand, and went for some other earthly means..but I am free now! And I'll try my very best to spread that around, but then, nothing from this world will ever satisfy our soul as much as He, for His is overflowing(: PRAISE THE LORD!!!

May I never miss a sunset or a rainbow

because I am looking down.

Prayer is kind of like calling home every day.

~BARBARA JOHNSON

gosh i've just read through a lot of emo blogs recently. so excuse me pls if you find that what i'm writing is too emo for you.

in my last post, i said that blogs are not an accurate representation of a person's character or attitude i think. but, i realise people are really good at pretending. you see them at school, they are a certain type of person. then you read their blogs, and you're like WOAHHH this person can actually feel this way or something like that. you know, some people make it seem like they breeze through life without any problems. is that actually true huh? of course not! we all have problems what. so why do people need to pretend? why do people need to put down others just so they feel good about themselves?

only one word for these people: hypocrites. everybody can become a hypocrite at any time. it's actually a chain reaction. WHY? it's because others do it first to them. just like why do people become mean and selfish. because others did it first. you can read a classic example in jodi piccoult's ( did i spell her name right?) nineteen minutes. it contains all the answers for people who were first horrible to another person and then later something big and unexpected happens usually due to the other person, and the same first person turns around and asks, " How could that have happened?" really ironic la.

anyway i just wish that people would stop thinking they are the best people in the world and then go around critisizing others on what they did or didn't do. like hello? you think you know the other person so well, the truth is you don't know and you don't give a shit about them either. you're not even their family, whatever they do in their life is truly none of your business. if people need your help, they can jolly well ask it from you! stop giving critical comments, people don't want or need it. and pls stop pretending to be someone you're not.

mark twain once said, 'if you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.' similarly, if you're yourself all the time, you don't have to act and pretend and feel all lousy and low in confidence because deep down inside, you know people are liking you for the right reasons. and you don't have to scared that they'll ever look through your mask and see you for who you are, because you're always being youself. so please, if people like you, it's because they truly like you for who you are, not who you TRY TO BE.

hey y'all(:

Hahah yes PRAISE GOD!!
Everyday i wake up I always have something to thank Him for(:(:

The Lord longs to be gracious to you;
He rises to show you compassion.
Blessed are all who wait for him!
~ISAIAH 30:18

I'm gna fail math test): hahah but you know smth, I feel very light headed these days.. Somehow I do not care much abt what is happening around me. It is hard to explain. I can know that there is tests or exams the next day but i feel no panic or whatsoever..and i forget that i have a test :P

anyways, GOOD LUCK NAT FOR YOUR ORAL TMR!!! :D

Heya:)

Sorry guys for not updating:( Still recovering from the shock. (getting back into the school routine -- tests & homework and all)

So mandz are you feeling better now? We were wondering where you went!! Did ya leave school early?
Oh and what are you dressing up as on Express Yourself Day?

Hmmm.. well i've been watching So You Think You Can Dance.. it's GOOODD... haha.Go watch ppl!
Kat! i've listened to Summertime:) It's nice but not exactly my favourite:/

Alright then! I'm really tired now.

A MATH TEST ON THURSDAY!!! AHHHHH. Then O Level Oral on Friday... The stress is piling on man.

Good luck to you guys for the tests:D

Btw, can we eat recess tgt more often? I hardly see you ppl anymore:( Which is really sad actually..

LOTSA LOVE,

TASHI.

hello!

well so sorry guys i couldn't go for training today. i had a bad headache and i felt like vomitting during the last period. its like there was something in my throat and i felt like....bleahhh just get it all out pls!

you know, some people think blogs are like personal online diaries. since when man? when you post something online, the whole world can see whatever you feel/think/did. even if you make something private, the hackers can still get in. and you have to be oh-so-careful whatever you post, cos there's always the chance you could get caught for slander or something. maybe that's why i feel that blogs do not represent a person's true thoughts or feelings sometimes. you can't judge anyone from their posts, cos of course they will not be stupid enough to post anything that will get them into trouble.

the point i'm making is, there is just no substitude for a handwritten personal diary sometimes. yes, as ancient as that idea sounds in this day and age, it's still one of the many wonders that ANYONE who can read and write can have access to. besides, don't you agree that sometimes, you don't want ANYONE to know what you really feel deep down inside, so we either write it down or go to God with our problems/thoughts because we all live in a conditional world. and we have our deepest darkest secrets.

ok i dont know why today my post sounds so deep and emo...well, anyway, just the other day, i read on someone's blog the questions, 'Who would you want to be for a day?' My immediate answer was either Maria Sharapova or Ana Ivanovic. I really wanna know what it's like to be a famous tennis star, to be rich, famous, good-looking, great at tennis, young and in their prime all at the same time! i want to play at wimbledon, meet rafael nadal, etc. the experience would just be so surreal(well, it is surreal, to begin with) But then a day isn't enough. At least a week is more realistic. Maybe then I will appreciate what I truly am but also understand hot it feels to be them.

so then back to the question. WHO?? actually i can't think of anymore. maybe being myself isn't that bad after all. sure, my life isn't perfect. my grades, character, looks, friends, family, they are all not perfect. but hey, like ms cheang once said, perfect is boring. i've got a good life, i have received and know God, i've got clothes, food, education, a home, friends, family, plenty of opportunities actually. i'm really blessed by God when you consider half the world lives in poverty. WOW. just thank god so much. so people, when you feel like griping and complaining, just put things into perspective and count your blessings. if not for the grace of god, we could have been living in sichuan, china and in school when the earthquake occurred. i'm just really grateful for everyone and everything. i know this sounds really cliche but that's how i feel. my heart really goes out to those affected by the natural disasters happening in the world today, as well as to those who live in poverty. i pray that God will take good care of you all, and be your stable rock and shepherd always. God bless.

mandy(: