Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I am so sleepy and lazy to start on the vday gifts.
This year is going to be different, I'll only focus on like a limited amount of people.
Brad Pitt is so hot. I fell asleep a little watching BB! Subway and vivo FTW!
I am going to leave this blog and move:D twilightghosts.lj
I wished I felt that this was more worthless as it seemed.
Wished it wouldn't matter so much to me.
Anyway, yes, here to declare my love for my impudent strumpet for being there the past year, for quarrelling with me and making up the next minute, for distracting me in lessons with her giggles, for buying the same food as me during breaks, for showing me her zooland stickers everyday, just for all the nonsense we do in school. It's funny how we forgot how we met, it's funny why we became closer... yet, I am thankful for this friendship no matter how much you insult me hahahaha. Love how we can give each other looks and then immediately mindread. I will love you more tomorrow I promise. Give you one more sticker!
for you,
IMPUDENT STRUMPET!
hahahaha I deleted everything thanks to Elly's goading. HEN HAO!
Didn't go ZOUK cos I was forbidden and was also too lazy to go and squeeze with the people. Bought three new pretty notebooks from ARTBOX, damn happy! Now I got better motivation to study? hahaha.
OMG THIS IS SUCH A FRIVOLOUS POST ALL OVER AGAIN.
Elly said she's looking forward to school hahaha wth?
I hate it when there's a scar there, so that nothing is ever the same again.
Sometimes we get so concerned with hurting people's feelings that we keep on hiding what we truly feel. I'm never a sucker for confrontations and I'm always afraid of revealing the Truth. Because to me, sometimes the truth is too ugly to be revealed. Sometimes it hurts me if I have to point out something and just to please me, the other party will apologise and do what I dictate which is the exact opposite of the initial thought. I don't want people to have to please me and change their course. Because that wouldn't be what they really mean. Then that would ultimately be totally hollow.
Because of that scar, or that one failure, we take even more efforts to prevent the same thing from happening such that we betray ourselves.
I know what's the problem with me. I don't like to reveal what I truly feel. I think too much before I speak. Too much. It goes through filters after filters. Because I care too much about hurting others. Yet I end up betraying myself.
Since young I've been like this. I'll always tell myself, It's okay Tiffany. You don't have to win this argument, you don't have to be the winner. My sister always wins all the arguments. I accept. Perhaps this is exactly my pitfall for being such an epic failure in everything. I read too much and I care too much.
Moodle is not my friend anymore seriously. I want to disappear from school hee hee. But you know you can't run away forever so I guess I shall just do my work.
Agnes and I had a fun time getting home from Edwin's house today by taking a two hour bus ride home of which we stopped at BUGIS to uhm (whispers: go to the toilet) :DD Wasted my three hours on GG; building on more on my sad life comparing with B&S. They're so free that they can catfight everyday.
I still want to appear at Zouk tmrw hahaha so hello eyebags. It's my own fault for procrastinating. hahahahaha tiffanywong you suck :P
Life is so sad.
/edit; for a moment, I thought of deleting this frivolous blog. It says nothing except how many headaches I'm getting from school etc etc. Frivolous, superficial and a source of escapism. Oh wells, will consider.
Came home and crashed for four hours straight to make up for all the lost sleep over the week. But my headache still didn't go away and in fact, it became worse. And I realize panadols don't work for such headaches. Despite the nap, I still feel like falling apart. I know I should take it easy and relax and stop stressing myself out. But seriously I'm drowning in the weekend's homework. Well, at least I'm trying. I'm trying to convince myself that I should go out and not be guilty instead of shutting myself at home. I will go out and plan my time properly and still finish all my work, I hope? Okay, I don't know.
I have a problem with going to sleep before midnight.
Ah it's so upsetting how I'm unable to follow through lessons these days cos I'm busy trying to entertain myself so that I wouldn't fall asleep. I will start failing all my tests I swear.
Nishy's birthday celebration today! Des is the ultimate cake smasher :S
SMASHED!
I look horrible. But this was how I felt for the whole day HAHAHA. The expression says it alll.
AGNES SO HAPPY FOR WHAT!
Elly trying hard at her dimple-therapy! :O
Sherms ugly face! HAHAHA.
I need to stop feeling so irritated and inactive and stop being such a whiny annoying bitch . I'm sorry for putting you guys out there through all my depressing posts.The world is against me and I am against the world.
School was a fight/struggle in keeping my eyes open and following the lessons; as well as keeping my emotions from fluctuating too much.You know it's pretty heartwarming to see the whole class suffering together with you because you know you are not in this battle alone. Before every lit tutorial, everyone would be online chionging tutorials and the next day, we arrive as sleepy robots in school and fight to keep awake in lessons. There's a sense of unity somewhere which I don't know how to describe hee hee. Not forgetting how class conversations are filled with random quotes from BNW lol.
Highlight or rather the rejuvenating point was when the GC got together once again to have a major juicy sharing session :DD As usual, the powerful lit lecture led to another migraine at the end; but for a good cause because it opened more windows.
I'm still having thoughts to skip school tmrw but I wouldn't because Elly gave me a reason to appear in school.
Very soon, I'll collapse.
Many things happened coupled with the things I'm hearing led me to wonder about the fragility of relationships. One would also wonder of the screwed up world we are living in so I never liked to grow up, or I would rather like to live in disillusionment like the citizens of World State. The vapour or bubble of happiness and joy to mask the ugliness of certain situations. Superficiality as a facade; hypocrisy as a cover. Ignorance is bliss. I would want my childhood innocence back again.
At this rate, I'm going to fall into a hole.
Ah fuck.
I'm beyond drained. The BNW tutorial is staring at me. I'm really falling asleep. Vernon camp run was pretty, I enjoyed the scenery and sensation of running in the rain.
): Aiyah, all my fault I know. I'm sorry for being a bitch.
In all honesty, if this is how you want to put it. I'm speechless.
I am so sleepy and lazy to start on the vday gifts.
This year is going to be different, I'll only focus on like a limited amount of people.
Brad Pitt is so hot. I fell asleep a little watching BB! Subway and vivo FTW!
I am going to leave this blog and move:D twilightghosts.lj
I wished I felt that this was more worthless as it seemed.
Wished it wouldn't matter so much to me.
Anyway, yes, here to declare my love for my impudent strumpet for being there the past year, for quarrelling with me and making up the next minute, for distracting me in lessons with her giggles, for buying the same food as me during breaks, for showing me her zooland stickers everyday, just for all the nonsense we do in school. It's funny how we forgot how we met, it's funny why we became closer... yet, I am thankful for this friendship no matter how much you insult me hahahaha. Love how we can give each other looks and then immediately mindread. I will love you more tomorrow I promise. Give you one more sticker!
for you,
IMPUDENT STRUMPET!
hahahaha I deleted everything thanks to Elly's goading. HEN HAO!
Didn't go ZOUK cos I was forbidden and was also too lazy to go and squeeze with the people. Bought three new pretty notebooks from ARTBOX, damn happy! Now I got better motivation to study? hahaha.
OMG THIS IS SUCH A FRIVOLOUS POST ALL OVER AGAIN.
Elly said she's looking forward to school hahaha wth?
I hate it when there's a scar there, so that nothing is ever the same again.
Sometimes we get so concerned with hurting people's feelings that we keep on hiding what we truly feel. I'm never a sucker for confrontations and I'm always afraid of revealing the Truth. Because to me, sometimes the truth is too ugly to be revealed. Sometimes it hurts me if I have to point out something and just to please me, the other party will apologise and do what I dictate which is the exact opposite of the initial thought. I don't want people to have to please me and change their course. Because that wouldn't be what they really mean. Then that would ultimately be totally hollow.
Because of that scar, or that one failure, we take even more efforts to prevent the same thing from happening such that we betray ourselves.
I know what's the problem with me. I don't like to reveal what I truly feel. I think too much before I speak. Too much. It goes through filters after filters. Because I care too much about hurting others. Yet I end up betraying myself.
Since young I've been like this. I'll always tell myself, It's okay Tiffany. You don't have to win this argument, you don't have to be the winner. My sister always wins all the arguments. I accept. Perhaps this is exactly my pitfall for being such an epic failure in everything. I read too much and I care too much.
Moodle is not my friend anymore seriously. I want to disappear from school hee hee. But you know you can't run away forever so I guess I shall just do my work.
Agnes and I had a fun time getting home from Edwin's house today by taking a two hour bus ride home of which we stopped at BUGIS to uhm (whispers: go to the toilet) :DD Wasted my three hours on GG; building on more on my sad life comparing with B&S. They're so free that they can catfight everyday.
I still want to appear at Zouk tmrw hahaha so hello eyebags. It's my own fault for procrastinating. hahahahaha tiffanywong you suck :P
Life is so sad.
/edit; for a moment, I thought of deleting this frivolous blog. It says nothing except how many headaches I'm getting from school etc etc. Frivolous, superficial and a source of escapism. Oh wells, will consider.
Came home and crashed for four hours straight to make up for all the lost sleep over the week. But my headache still didn't go away and in fact, it became worse. And I realize panadols don't work for such headaches. Despite the nap, I still feel like falling apart. I know I should take it easy and relax and stop stressing myself out. But seriously I'm drowning in the weekend's homework. Well, at least I'm trying. I'm trying to convince myself that I should go out and not be guilty instead of shutting myself at home. I will go out and plan my time properly and still finish all my work, I hope? Okay, I don't know.
I have a problem with going to sleep before midnight.
Ah it's so upsetting how I'm unable to follow through lessons these days cos I'm busy trying to entertain myself so that I wouldn't fall asleep. I will start failing all my tests I swear.
Nishy's birthday celebration today! Des is the ultimate cake smasher :S
SMASHED!
I look horrible. But this was how I felt for the whole day HAHAHA. The expression says it alll.
AGNES SO HAPPY FOR WHAT!
Elly trying hard at her dimple-therapy! :O
Sherms ugly face! HAHAHA.I need to stop feeling so irritated and inactive and stop being such a whiny annoying bitch . I'm sorry for putting you guys out there through all my depressing posts.The world is against me and I am against the world.
School was a fight/struggle in keeping my eyes open and following the lessons; as well as keeping my emotions from fluctuating too much.You know it's pretty heartwarming to see the whole class suffering together with you because you know you are not in this battle alone. Before every lit tutorial, everyone would be online chionging tutorials and the next day, we arrive as sleepy robots in school and fight to keep awake in lessons. There's a sense of unity somewhere which I don't know how to describe hee hee. Not forgetting how class conversations are filled with random quotes from BNW lol.
Highlight or rather the rejuvenating point was when the GC got together once again to have a major juicy sharing session :DD As usual, the powerful lit lecture led to another migraine at the end; but for a good cause because it opened more windows.
I'm still having thoughts to skip school tmrw but I wouldn't because Elly gave me a reason to appear in school.
Very soon, I'll collapse.
Many things happened coupled with the things I'm hearing led me to wonder about the fragility of relationships. One would also wonder of the screwed up world we are living in so I never liked to grow up, or I would rather like to live in disillusionment like the citizens of World State. The vapour or bubble of happiness and joy to mask the ugliness of certain situations. Superficiality as a facade; hypocrisy as a cover. Ignorance is bliss. I would want my childhood innocence back again.
At this rate, I'm going to fall into a hole.
I'm beyond drained. The BNW tutorial is staring at me. I'm really falling asleep. Vernon camp run was pretty, I enjoyed the scenery and sensation of running in the rain.
): Aiyah, all my fault I know. I'm sorry for being a bitch.
In all honesty, if this is how you want to put it. I'm speechless.