Work For God

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Please let go

I am living in the past and dreaming of the future (this is my present),
because you are afraid to let me go.

I can see the future in my mind, and I will see it with my eyes,
but you are insecure to let me go.

If you cannot help me grow, please, will you just let go.

Disgusted by you

What you do makes me want to puke; it makes me really sick.
You are only saint on one side of your world.

I have no idea how to connect with you anymore.
On one hand, I admire that you put others above yourself, on the other hand, I despise that you are a people-pleaser.
I have no idea how to face you because I am disgusted by your words and deeds.
I think I dislike you more than I like you.
Your weakness is magnified in my eyes, so much more than your goodness.
I can't forget how your people-pleasing attitude has caused so much unhappiness, despite you being a saint to some others. Can you stop making use of some people to curry favour others?

I simply would love to learn how to hide my true feelings towards you and respond in a way that doesn't hurt myself. I know it is very difficult for you to change, so I better learnt it fast and quick, before I get fired or fried.

I am no saint myself, but I am just disgusted by you.

Sic Kan dTi Red

I need some change in my life. I want to come out of this shell and be ME.

I want people to encourage me to do the right thing because they care for me, and not because I should do the right thing (for the benefit of others).
It is not difficult to choose to do the right things. People just don't do it because nobody cares or appreciate it.
I want to give my best because I know it matters. I want to know I matter.

(I don't really care what happens to you (sometimes), because you cannot be bothered about what is going on in my life.. so why the hell should I do the things that benefit you? If I suffer, you are going down together. Why should I give my best when it is not appreciated? Why should I give my best when I am not given credit for it. Sorry.. I am no saint.. there is simply no incentive for being good.
Since you think that you can handle it all.. fine with me. Then do everything yourself. Take all the credit. If you always reject help, don't ask people 'Why am I also doing it alone'. You want to be a super(wo)man.. fine, go ahead.)

You want to go fast, go alone.
You want to go far, go together.

I am not going any further with you, because you have chosen to walk alone.