hmmm..

hey there world!.. i feel like talking to the sky and am wondering if anybody's listening...anyhoots, things have been going really well for me and her...and the idea of getting marry is begining to materialise slowly before..and now i feel thats not gonna happen..you see, her mom hates me..For what reason you might ask?..ill ask the same question to myself.. She doesnt know me and she's saying like "..i have a bad feeling about him.."....wow.....wonder what happen to that feeling when you daughter was being two timed by your "favourite" choice..All i ask is to get to know me than judge...well..different people different style eh?..

Pls pray for me and her.. i dont wanna go back to the same place that i left so long ago...but i think im gonna lose her again..sigh

That matter aside.. i got a New job now doing animation at SStar.yeay. I really enjoy the company there oppose to the fish tank designership.Leaving that place is like getting out of prison man..so stressful having to work alone...but im gonna miss tony thou..i hope he succeed in his entrepenuership of mirror defogging gadgets.

Sweet

Hey there,

Life these past months took a turn for the ..well worse AND Best. Faith has its way of making things fall into pieces i suppose. Me and dee are officially over. She stopped calling me for a few months and i didnt call back either. I guess thats the glitch for me to move on with my life here. I went out clubbing and chilling with a couple of my close pals.They were there when i was down and hope i could be of the same assistance. I went out on dates, movies and dinner with different people and was actually enjoyin it...I mentioned earlier that faith had a way of revealing itself?..hmm well i kinda like checked my friendster and was like going thru my friends list when i realise that this month was Nana's birthday month. so i messaged her a very innocent birthday wish. and she responded back asking fer my number.hmm..we exchanged nos and now im attched with her back again. I've always believed in the saying of " when one door closes, another one opens"..didnt expect that the door that closed on me a while back had open by itself again..boy oh boy ..talking bout old flames eh? dunno how it ended up like this but what dee said was thru thou"..i figured you never really gotten over her.." Thanks dee and i guess it was true but i was lying to myself and you..im sorry but i didnt wanna see you cry when im having the relationship with you. Well whatever it was its over now. Planning to get married 3 years from now..hehe didnt actually thought id use the phrase "get married "..well hashim now is happily married and i guess its gonna be my turn soon. But first i need to quit my job cause the pay sucks and i need saving to propose to her. :P

sigh.

Just talked to dee just now on msn. Was sooo good to see her again on the webby.I think i finally said what i had stored in my heart for so long.about how i felt for her and acknowledging that her for the crap that she took for these past few years.Also told her how i dont condone that she's getting a pr there but ultimately its her happiness that im after.well you cant have two things at once right?Looking back at the neo prints that we took togerther just flashes back so many memories of us. I told her that i was the luckiest person to have such a wonderful girlfriend that was supportive and faithful not to mentioned gorgeous. She asked me to join her there and that set me thinking..................but what about my mom?and my sis?..
i know my mom is depending on me to take care of them both.I guess Allah has bigger agenda for me.This is another situation where you can have one but not the other...but leaving my mom is not an option.have to think of another alternative then. Maybe just working there i suppose...i dunno im still thinking cause this is my life.sigh. but i think i already know where this leads to.but maybe some surprises in my life right now might just be a good thing.i love her..Remember that fendi.
sigh.

Woah

Its been over a year since i last posted..Damn..well i guess thats what blogs are for.Update on my life

-Was working for advance handlers in the import section of Exel warehouse for a good 7 months
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My boo left me for Nz to get her PR (hope she doesnt get it)keke so she can come back homelah...sigh miss her again..

-I visted her on 11/ 9/06 to see how she's doing.Dood pls note(her BIL is an ass man..two face mother fucker.i know im not the best boyfriend in the world but nobody deserves to be treated like how she was treated.Not my dee.Just gimme a reason to find fault with him...pls

-Sometimes i wish i had the guts to say marry me b.She knows that i love her.I regret not saying yes to her hinting questions but probably i'll ask her.I wanna take care of her..wanna be her knight in shining armour who rescues her..but im afraid that i wont be up to the challenge.i dont want her to be disappointed ..Checked her mail the other day and saw her messaging this some other guy..was sooooo pissed off.i admit that after that incident i started to miss her and feel all mushy..why am i like this?..i guess i'm afraid to loose her and have been treated her for granted.Yes i admit that.IM SORRY BUT IM SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO YOU!and i swear that i dont go finding one night stand.Im a strict one woman man.I hate to be deceived by my best friend and i dont want to be doing that to you cause the feelings fucktup...sigh..

well got a job as a graphic designer now..somehow feel that my brain juice is nt flowing..dunno why..i wanna tell this to my best friend but ...i dont want to bother her about my topsy turvy world.I think she already has her hands full.i'll spare you the worry honey.

Ok mosh gtg. Have to finish a namecard design by tommorrow.Hope she calls me tomorrow.i'll be so happy!..but ofcourse must maintain..guy mah!ahaks

Just like in this pic..im a figure that needs to be there but nobody remembers..I guess i like it sometimes.did i toldcha' i didnt like being in the spot light?..i guess its easier to run away cause no one cares.They know something is missing but doesnt do a rat's ass about it..and im loving it! 

well this whole week was a total waste of time and petrol commin back to camp!..The fucker actuallly tasked me to to fucking 3 shit while they are out on field camp!..what the fuck?..does he think that he still doing bacinet?its freaking 3 whole days and 2 nites!..There's no one to help me and no freaking resources and material to get from anywhere and he fucking it to be more kilat than Bravo?..Suddenly the 3 bars on the freaking shoulders made his brain too tired to think about all this shit!..NOT ONLY THAT!..he still tasked me some more shit to do!..IM A FUCKING MAGICIAN I TELL YOU!..you see there comes to a point in my life where the turning point of being told what to do becomes painstakingly difficult!..Im no regiment man i'll tell you that straight up!!Some more these fucking Section Commanders suddenly think that im no longer a part of their clan..fuck nak main bola pon kena halau ceebai peh jantan!..Ko ingat mentang mentang aku duduk kat office aku besarkan buah kepe?..ah kepala buto!aku berani cakap kalau aku takde korang mampuslah!..the fucking trashbag pun tak tau kat maner nak step commander konon!..mari isap konek aku mari!pukimek korang!Aku mintak duit untuk encik korang buat muka jantan sundal macam aku yang mintak charity!pegi mampus lah ngan korang!..JANGAN INGAT AKU LUPE PASAL NIE!Si pantat tu ingat aku nak balik nak tengok muke dier kat COC..Lu relek sua beb!Gua datang nak abis kan keja lu jadi lu blah blah tak kacau gua laggik paham? 

if i was an ape..hhmmm hensem tak?
Pics that tell a thousand lies

if i was an ape this is how i'll be smiling!
Pics that tell a thousand lies

No more Soc 1 more ippt today is my zouk out day daa daa doo daa dae!

Wohoo..i think i've tasted my last Soc for the rest of my friggin soljers lifey!i hope soo woooo.Damn shit! the damn AXn Machine ate my damn card yesterday..i knew i shoulnt have put on too much scotch tape on the darn card hahahahaha!but on a lighter note i wont be using the card anytime soon rite?..I think i was being an idiot yesterday..hhmm im sorry.. you call the shots aight?..wont do anything that you dunn wanna.Yeah i think its a double wammy fer me today, i passed my abovementioned and celebrating it at Zouk tonight!..OK AKU NAK TIDO!!MALAM!!! :)