Thursday, March 01, 2012


“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...”

 ― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Sunday, February 26, 2012

In the words of Audrey Hepburn





"Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you."



Sunday, June 05, 2011

“I can’t help it because this is the way I am” should not be an excuse for not trying. That whole thing about “who you are” is only good as far as differentiating your uniqueness, but does not render you a free pass of exemption from self-improvement. - Paucis Verbis

Monday, April 04, 2011

Segregation from the world

Don't you think it's a bit too early in the morning to be feeling eccentric? I do.

It's 3 in the morning and I'm struggling to get myself to sleep. That unresolved feelings lurks right back in, keeping me awake with all sorts of things in my head. Even with my lids shut, I can see graphic images that doesn't make sense. Most of them at least. Some are just terrifying which is worst.

I questioned myself unceasingly. The same damn questions. Sadly, I've never found the right answers to any of it or probably they're just not the kind of answers that I'm looking for.

Odd. 



Tuesday, March 22, 2011

A little

There's always a little truth behind every 'just kidding'.

A little knowledge behind every 'I don't know'.

A little emotion behind every 'I don't care'.

A little love behind every 'I hate you'.

A little uneasiness behind every 'I'm okay'.

A little pain behind every 'forget it'.

A little fear behind every ' leave me alone'.

A little hope behind every 'goodbye'

And a little 'something' behind every 'nothing'.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

p.s: Thank you, Lord

"I've never expected life to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I have ever hoped. Most of the time, it just happened to me without my ever seeking it." - Audrey Hepburn

Friday, February 25, 2011

similar but never accurate. finally.

For once I found one that matches me the most

Capricorn-Aquarius Cusp (January 15 to January 22)
Capricorn-Aquarius enjoys healthy competition. They like to be social, and love a good intellectual discussion. They can set goals for themselves and keep their nose to the grindstone until they achieve what they want. This ambition gives them a great deal of drive. They can often get away with breaking the rules in order to bring something new to light. They are hard workers and very innovative. 

Capricorn-Aquarius must enjoy learning to avoid being thrown out of balance by life's unexpected challenges. If they learn to recognize the benefit even in negative experiences, they will go far. They feel a need for security, but at the same time they relish freedom. They need to find the right balance. 

The Cusp of Mystery and Imagination is known to be disciplined, patient, traditional, ambitious, offbeat, progressive, cautious, practical, friendly, realistic, curious, stable, funny, confident, unique, attractive, competitive and multi-talented. They may also be rebellious, narrow-minded, cold, harsh, depressed, stubborn, secretive, aloof and over-critical. 

They are good at business of any kind. They are methodical, exacting and can manage well. Capricorn steadies Aquarius' volatility, while Aquarius lends Capricorn some originality and fun. While Capricorn likes to establish and take stock of things, Aquarius likes to throw them around and see where they fall. They may be great philanthropists, or they may be selfish. They enjoy talking and entertaining. 

Individuals born on the Capricorn-Aquarius cusp are proud of their triumphs in social and intellectual circles. They are good at earning a living. They are not so talented at maintaining personal relationships and may suffer difficulties in this area. They can be very perceptive and intuitive if they let themselves develop this talent.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

a curse she cannot win

the way you look at me. the things you say and talk to me about. your "jokes". your questions. your smile. the way you behave when you have me all to yourself. the way you touch me. the hugs. It's obvious, really. It gives away the fact that you miss me. 

But I clearly, choose to be oblivious to your actions and how you feel. I admit, I really miss how things used to be. But I can also admit, that I’ve accepted the fact that things changed. Or changing at least. 

You can still keep your dead dog. You'll get used to it eventually.

xx


You see the problem with getting too attached with someone is when they leave, you feel lost.  So might as well break the bad habits before they become necessities.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

the twenty third on the twentieth

My 23rd birthday wish is to have ONLY 23 people wishing me Happy Birthday on my birthday.


So what I did was, I hid my birthday on facebook. This way I don't have people spamming my wall with birthday wishes and also have more than TWENTY THREE people wishing me.

Here are the list of people who wished me in order since midnight: 
  1. Darian
  2. Devin
  3. Nabilah
  4. Mimie
  5. Kumar
  6. Auntie Nat
  7. Mummy
  8. Dale
  9. Daddy
  10. Zahir
  11. Joyce
  12. Nicole
  13. Jason
  14. Akma
  15. Bing
  16. Siew Tyug
  17. Zoe
  18. Joshua (D's brother)
  19. Auntie Phil (D's mum)
  20. Sheelaa
  21. Arthur
  22. Shahril

    Last but not least and my favourite birthday wish/text
  23. Allen
    His text reads:
    "Hey old lady! Happy Birthday! You know it's still your birthday here for another 8 hours so I'm technically on time! Cheers! Have a blast! (Allen's in Bristol, UK btw) 
Let me summarize my day in pictures. Simply because I do not want to bore you with all the unnecessary details. 
My birthday celebrations were indeed very intimate. 

My birthday lunch at Pavilion after work.
Yes I had work on my birthday despite the fact that it was a public holiday.



Dinner & Dessert with D at Delicious, Duo Residence
MY birthday cake that my brother made for me with my mum's help.
To D, Mimie, Kumar & my family, I'm truly thankful & undoubtly lucky. 
Thank you for making me feel special on MY day.

Monday, January 17, 2011

A place I sometimes call home

On January 8 at about 6.00pm, I became a freeman.
In other words, I was officially unemployed. Not for long of course, just about a week. 8 days to be precise. Initially I wanted to spend 3 out of 8 days being unemployed, baking. However, D had better plans for me. He said he wanted to bring me to an island in Malacca. So I ditched baking for a short getaway.

We left the city for Malacca on late Wednesday morning. I wanted to get use to driving manually. Heh. Well actually I just felt like driving so I asked D if I could drive down. I drove right up from after Kajang toll until after Malacca toll within AN HOUR! D took over the wheel before we got into town for I DO NOT trust myself driving manually in Malacca town. 

D's primary school - SK Datuk Palembang
D took a detour to show me his primary school, tells me stories about his childhood as he took me around his school compound. When we left, we made plans to pay his secondary schools a visit the next day which of course didn't happened because we woke up late the next morning
when the tides were low
Malacca was cold. It was raining every evening throughout my stay. As a result, D couldn't take me to the island as he promised because the weather would get so bad as the sun about to set.
This time around, I didn't do the typical tourist thing to do (Not that I always do). I was actually home most of the time for the first two days because I was feeling unwell. However despite the odd fever and nausea, I manage to gobble down and enjoy the good Malacca food that I can never find in KL/PJ.
I was well enough to go out at night by Friday so I decided to spend my time catch up with best friend, Sheelaa. We talk, talk and talk even more until we were just in time to have chicken rice for supper-eakfast. However Sheelaa decided not to join us because she had workshop at 8 in the morning. 

Now what was suppose to be a three day trip got extended until the weekends, D & I decided to stay for a lil bit longer since both our Saturday plans got cancelled. 

Not wanting to do the tourist thing didn't really worked out because I met up with Nabila & Intan on Saturday evening and we eventually ended up spending a hour or so at Jonker Street, just so that we would get hungry enough to have dinner by 8.
I followed Intan back to Bukit Beruang because I was going to meet up Jason for drinks. Nabila stayed back at kampung because she wants to tagged along with D to Tomas's farewell 'party'. (The guy she's obsessed with at the moment, Miguel is Tomas's friend & happens to be there.)

I didn't realized that I was with Jason for 5 hours until D mentioned it. It was so surreal. In fact to this very moment, it felt like it was just a dream. We haven't spoken nor have we seen each other for 3 long years. It felt really good catching up with our lives, joked disgustingly and laugh insanely like we used to. 

On Sunday night, I left Malacca with such heavy heart. I couldn't hold my tears back when D drove off from Nan's.

This is probably the best and longest trip back to Malacca. 

The perfect getaway I needed before my new job.