Wednesday, October 22, 2008
i moved~
your love is like a shadow at 8:32 AM
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Tuesday, October 21, 2008
confused
maybe....
sigh
i will win her over!
no matter how long it takes..
no matter...
sigh depressin
haha
but always a smile
for her
always
but she would love it more
if i had give up on her..
sigh
sigh
i will win her over!
no matter how long it takes..
no matter...
sigh depressin
haha
but always a smile
for her
always
but she would love it more
if i had give up on her..
sigh
your love is like a shadow at 8:43 AM
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Monday, October 20, 2008
the 3 D
the 3 D difference distance Dave
today was wreckin..
i kinda regret taking 52.
i was shoving ppl off the seats till her stop.
but then some guy set beside me b4 her.
i wanted to kill him and i wanted to cry.
then he moved another guy came and sit.
fate wasnt realli for me i guess.
was crying openly in the bus. i don know how dumb i looked
then i realise
she could have stand instead of sitting even if i had space
so i was just wrecking myself instead
my eyes were puffy and red when i reached sch.
i ddnt want to alight tgt with her
took off at SIM
keep going to wash my face
kinda tired
i don know
but i saw her today
its enough for me i guess
i don think i shld be even hopin for anything
her glancing at me is arldy. good enuff
nvm there is still 14 weeks of monday i could see her.
i hope
someday
she could give me 1 more chance
for now.
all i can is to sit at the distance
unable to reach
in class in bus
i am sepearated
sigh
3 time i cried this year.
i never cried for so long.
i don know wad is happening to me anymore
i could give wadeva she wans.
sliently\
today was wreckin..
i kinda regret taking 52.
i was shoving ppl off the seats till her stop.
but then some guy set beside me b4 her.
i wanted to kill him and i wanted to cry.
then he moved another guy came and sit.
fate wasnt realli for me i guess.
was crying openly in the bus. i don know how dumb i looked
then i realise
she could have stand instead of sitting even if i had space
so i was just wrecking myself instead
my eyes were puffy and red when i reached sch.
i ddnt want to alight tgt with her
took off at SIM
keep going to wash my face
kinda tired
i don know
but i saw her today
its enough for me i guess
i don think i shld be even hopin for anything
her glancing at me is arldy. good enuff
nvm there is still 14 weeks of monday i could see her.
i hope
someday
she could give me 1 more chance
for now.
all i can is to sit at the distance
unable to reach
in class in bus
i am sepearated
sigh
3 time i cried this year.
i never cried for so long.
i don know wad is happening to me anymore
i could give wadeva she wans.
sliently\
your love is like a shadow at 3:20 AM
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Sunday, October 19, 2008
Rain
I woke up late today again. so i couldnt gym
my body ache all over yet it doesnt hurt that way
i couldnt sleep at all recently
i spend the whole day at my bed.
onli went out to have lunch
i saw a cute baby though
had let him play with my keys
his mum is quite nice letting me fool ard i guess
i was on the way back listening to my music
when it rained
it didnt rain i mean
water literally fall onto the groud
cold cruel lashes of slivers
and i just got off the bus
the wind was swirling around me
rain pattering here there
my music was 'take a bow'
i don know been tuning it to that song alot
and i was climbing up the stairs of the overhead bridge
it was sheltered
and not completed.
it was bare at the end
exposed to the rain
the ground feel soft
i kept thinking of her
i stood at the edge of the shelter.
its like a line
between friends and lovers.
sheltered and rain
someone who could brave the rain
and seriously i felt God was near me
he made the rain even heavier just for that 5mins for me
i
stepped out
my phone
my mp3
friends psp
my wallet
my book
my heat
i got drenched right away
i did not run
blind
deaf
the rain is cold condesending
harsh and tearing
my body feel so good under it
it melted my thots away
it took all my longings for her away even for the moment
i saw nothing
no troubles
in the rain
i just felt peaceful
every step and every beat of the music linked
if its the closest i felt i wanted to kill myself
it is
i realise i made peace with myself
for that moment.
i felt i could have walked infront of a car smiling
i hated that.
how rain makes me weak
i walked back slowly to my house
i sms her i hoped she wasnt out
i thot her sms. 1 a day 2 a day 3 or 4 or any
would substain me
till the end
i hope she could stand in the rain with me
but i know no one will
cause in the rain
all my mask are gone
washed away
i feel alone
nothingness
sucidal
is it realli me?
i don know
i don want to know anymore
i don know how i can look at her anymore
she wants me to give up..
i don know
hope
will
never die
.
onli in the rain
those words shall break me
my body ache all over yet it doesnt hurt that way
i couldnt sleep at all recently
i spend the whole day at my bed.
onli went out to have lunch
i saw a cute baby though
had let him play with my keys
his mum is quite nice letting me fool ard i guess
i was on the way back listening to my music
when it rained
it didnt rain i mean
water literally fall onto the groud
cold cruel lashes of slivers
and i just got off the bus
the wind was swirling around me
rain pattering here there
my music was 'take a bow'
i don know been tuning it to that song alot
and i was climbing up the stairs of the overhead bridge
it was sheltered
and not completed.
it was bare at the end
exposed to the rain
the ground feel soft
i kept thinking of her
i stood at the edge of the shelter.
its like a line
between friends and lovers.
sheltered and rain
someone who could brave the rain
and seriously i felt God was near me
he made the rain even heavier just for that 5mins for me
i
stepped out
my phone
my mp3
friends psp
my wallet
my book
my heat
i got drenched right away
i did not run
blind
deaf
the rain is cold condesending
harsh and tearing
my body feel so good under it
it melted my thots away
it took all my longings for her away even for the moment
i saw nothing
no troubles
in the rain
i just felt peaceful
every step and every beat of the music linked
if its the closest i felt i wanted to kill myself
it is
i realise i made peace with myself
for that moment.
i felt i could have walked infront of a car smiling
i hated that.
how rain makes me weak
i walked back slowly to my house
i sms her i hoped she wasnt out
i thot her sms. 1 a day 2 a day 3 or 4 or any
would substain me
till the end
i hope she could stand in the rain with me
but i know no one will
cause in the rain
all my mask are gone
washed away
i feel alone
nothingness
sucidal
is it realli me?
i don know
i don want to know anymore
i don know how i can look at her anymore
she wants me to give up..
i don know
hope
will
never die
.
onli in the rain
those words shall break me
your love is like a shadow at 9:14 AM
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Saturday, October 18, 2008
down
lowest point i ever feel. every second i keep thinking
i don know if i got blocked or u decide to stay offline arldy
but i guess at ure side i have become something else
its not the irriatable dave..
ah sigh but there is still 543 days.
everyday without fail i will hope and try
i don wan to stalk someone
i don wan anything
i just feel like dying
sigh depressed
i actually bled today.
cut my hand accidenly..
saw blood.
all i could think was using it to write smth
man i getting sick
i hate myself
for being so weak.
pushing and pulling
undecided
it hurts..
sigh
i hope someday she will forgive me
may it be when she married or not.
just glad i could be just back talking to her
all the Tv shows she told me.
brought back so much things
now it feels empty
i don know how i can go sch anymore
down
i don know if i got blocked or u decide to stay offline arldy
but i guess at ure side i have become something else
its not the irriatable dave..
ah sigh but there is still 543 days.
everyday without fail i will hope and try
i don wan to stalk someone
i don wan anything
i just feel like dying
sigh depressed
i actually bled today.
cut my hand accidenly..
saw blood.
all i could think was using it to write smth
man i getting sick
i hate myself
for being so weak.
pushing and pulling
undecided
it hurts..
sigh
i hope someday she will forgive me
may it be when she married or not.
just glad i could be just back talking to her
all the Tv shows she told me.
brought back so much things
now it feels empty
i don know how i can go sch anymore
down
your love is like a shadow at 7:40 AM
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Friday, October 17, 2008
single
i don know wad happen yesterday or today morning
i think its my fault ow it end up
now i think she is ignoring me. ah
sigh
i don know i tried to do smth today
even eating food
i kept thinking
i tried studying i couldnt
shes always on my mind
but somehow the privilage of talking with her
is over
somehow it should hurt badly
but it didnt.
i realise i alrdy accept that.
i will work on from here i guess
doesnt matter i wont see her for weeks months
i just hope fate let me see and talk to her once more
i will still go on winning her heart
if she don reply.
if she isnt there
i will be still waiting
i hope she is alright
i feel bad
i don have mood to do anything without her..
i just have to hope.
even its too late.
i don mind anymore
any strands of chance
any hopes
not crushed
i will hang on.
i will be a better person for her
so much better.
rain or shine
i wanna be ure official guy
19.5.543 .
543 days.
i think its my fault ow it end up
now i think she is ignoring me. ah
sigh
i don know i tried to do smth today
even eating food
i kept thinking
i tried studying i couldnt
shes always on my mind
but somehow the privilage of talking with her
is over
somehow it should hurt badly
but it didnt.
i realise i alrdy accept that.
i will work on from here i guess
doesnt matter i wont see her for weeks months
i just hope fate let me see and talk to her once more
i will still go on winning her heart
if she don reply.
if she isnt there
i will be still waiting
i hope she is alright
i feel bad
i don have mood to do anything without her..
i just have to hope.
even its too late.
i don mind anymore
any strands of chance
any hopes
not crushed
i will hang on.
i will be a better person for her
so much better.
rain or shine
i wanna be ure official guy
19.5.543 .
543 days.
your love is like a shadow at 11:17 PM
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mind
i thought about her 167 times on seperate occassions.
i actually need a clicker to keep track i guess
hmm today was fine. realli bad at handing things
i guess i shld set this as my offical blog.
oh well
k lets start
hmm schs finally over this week
totally have nth to do on the weekends.
super bored and broke
but i am going to work soon i guess
at my fathers place.
hope its fine.
Today i had 5 hr break.
i went to gym, tore some muscle and strain some
so kinda sore now
was taking bus back waiting for her smses
man i shldnt keeping thinking abt it anymore
i promised
well time to learn how to keep myself always busy
will be a much cleverer and stronger me next time
cheers
stolen kiss
your love is like a shadow at 3:31 AM
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