Sunday, March 23, 2008
Lead time
ok, got over my emotional fit, depression seem so far away now.
haha
well still alive working hard at tako pachi flipping the balls~
kinda sick,
was running in the rain recently,
ran to j8 once to catch rykiel but couldnt meet up.
then i was walking to work three times i got caught in rain
finally the sickness got me,
dam it i have a cold and i don know why i have a sore throat too
was asked to drink this white flower snake grass water ( translated directly from chinese)
taste lik * shundders* kinda zzz even with so much salt it still taste so so .. ahhhh
walked home today was thinking alot of stuff
then my sis mp3 started to play this song WhaT i need from deepside
wow i was like hmm relavtion
sometimes
one person in life
chases what he wants
he goes on and on
never knowing that even though what he wants
will never compare
to waht he needs and usually wad ones need is always around him
yet he is so blind chasing stars lol
ahh sian so bored
luke going back to indo
no chance to go out with him cause sick and working
hate having no money its like
i am negative now
i started borrowing again wtf
i just cleared my debt and i just borrowed again lol
hope wont reach 600 dollar debt like last time
just realise when i woke up after a god dam long blur
i realise how foolish i was,
i realli was so immersed that i never learn to look at different direction
the situation was alrdy hopelesss
i was out of date and slow
outcasted and judgemental
woot shld grow out
out of this patch.
its like i slowly not looking back
slowly removing them from my memories
was like everyday i would check thier blogs and talk to them
realise i am just a watcher
lala
don idea wad i am saying to u i guess
this is where i spam lame stuff
maybe u will understand if u are them
ahh alrigh sigh sleep liao loh
life is just the beginning of death~
haha
well still alive working hard at tako pachi flipping the balls~
kinda sick,
was running in the rain recently,
ran to j8 once to catch rykiel but couldnt meet up.
then i was walking to work three times i got caught in rain
finally the sickness got me,
dam it i have a cold and i don know why i have a sore throat too
was asked to drink this white flower snake grass water ( translated directly from chinese)
taste lik * shundders* kinda zzz even with so much salt it still taste so so .. ahhhh
walked home today was thinking alot of stuff
then my sis mp3 started to play this song WhaT i need from deepside
wow i was like hmm relavtion
sometimes
one person in life
chases what he wants
he goes on and on
never knowing that even though what he wants
will never compare
to waht he needs and usually wad ones need is always around him
yet he is so blind chasing stars lol
ahh sian so bored
luke going back to indo
no chance to go out with him cause sick and working
hate having no money its like
i am negative now
i started borrowing again wtf
i just cleared my debt and i just borrowed again lol
hope wont reach 600 dollar debt like last time
just realise when i woke up after a god dam long blur
i realise how foolish i was,
i realli was so immersed that i never learn to look at different direction
the situation was alrdy hopelesss
i was out of date and slow
outcasted and judgemental
woot shld grow out
out of this patch.
its like i slowly not looking back
slowly removing them from my memories
was like everyday i would check thier blogs and talk to them
realise i am just a watcher
lala
don idea wad i am saying to u i guess
this is where i spam lame stuff
maybe u will understand if u are them
ahh alrigh sigh sleep liao loh
life is just the beginning of death~
your love is like a shadow at 10:50 AM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Flavored icecream, i onli have one.
Makes me feel worse, if u arent angry with me
sometimes i wonder this ugly rear side of me always come to spoil thing,
maybe its just fate i am messsing up.
maybe its just i am not suppose to be like this huh.
ah well this is not killing me
but killing our friendship.
sordid feelings overwhelm me,
tasteless feelings that lasted seconds
on the train on the bus.
waited at the swings today,
did some swinging
it was a fine day
went to find wu chong father (a doctor) today with hai hong
we were messing ard
i feel dam broke
fucking no money
i cant even fin dmoney to buy newspaper soon
we took like a helluva of time to reach his dad place
which was beside beauty world.
and it took 10 min for hh to see his sickness.
went back to the swings and longed
i wished i had someone like you.
Run dave run, sticks and stones
never hurt you, guys and girls words
don taunt you, but slience of hers
huant you.
will you run and hide
will you run and hide?
or learn from the fall
or learn from the fall?
taste the blood of your mind
tastless reek of jealously
green eye monster lurks and murks
fast it ate you cant you see
cabbage rice lay unforgotten
hunger to love loses aim
dave dave
u mistep
run fool run...
WhY ShouLD I...
but see she don like u green eye monster
no she don, she likes a guy who stands and smile
no jealousy no love just a best friend forever,
I CAN I CAN.
but why but why
i agree but why but why u dave must mess it up
NO I DIDNT.. DID I...
cause you love her dave.
regardless of lies and spittles u froth
u know deep within u will not relinquish this girl
BUT SHES NOT EVEN MINE.
u treat her like she is
thats why thats why
fool fool.
you should run
you should run
dave everyone is replacable,
cant you see
dave dave
ure out of date.
NO NO NO NO!...
love is torment within sugar
Love is bitter within kiss
Love is sadness
Love you cant have
Is not love,
NO NO NO!...
you fear you fear,
deep in the morning u awake,
nothing but her.
have you grown weak dave
dave
have such feebleness tangled you
are u so soft?
NO NO !... I CANT BE, I LOVE HER.
fool fool
u lust u lust,
shes not ures shes not ures,
shes beautiful
shes beautiful
yah i agree dear
shes pretty shes pretty
cant u see, shes too good for us
for you
cut ureself
slice yourself
thirst for the blood
yes drink it my dear.
you are nothing
fool u are nothing u are nothing
but a guy whose dream
why never come,
once or twice... it will never
BUT NO, NO... I WAITED, I WAITED...
FOOL FOOL FOOL.
Waiting shall never be ures.
she will be loved by all
by none,
u can wait there
stare all you wan
but u shall not know
fear is wad makes u weak
u fear shes gone
yes you fear she will disappear
yes my dear i agree, u fear change
you fear changes,
don lie
don lye
kiss sorrow,
embrace hurt.
shes too good for u
shes smart
shes popular
shes nice
forget her my son my son
yes forget her mi child mi child
she belongs to another world
no foolish dear, she does not
it is you dave
u don belong
don belong
hurt and all
i still love her
my muscle will tear
my brain will melt
my legs will break
my hands will burn
my soul will die
laugh she can
i feel peace
sadness is why i endure.
hurt
pain
torment
resentment
jealous
suffer
grief
angony
aguish
woe
i don know,
angel of white
angel of black
peace my heart.
let me sleep till she smiles and loves
...
like swings,
how hard u push
it will always come back
sometimes i wonder this ugly rear side of me always come to spoil thing,
maybe its just fate i am messsing up.
maybe its just i am not suppose to be like this huh.
ah well this is not killing me
but killing our friendship.
sordid feelings overwhelm me,
tasteless feelings that lasted seconds
on the train on the bus.
waited at the swings today,
did some swinging
it was a fine day
went to find wu chong father (a doctor) today with hai hong
we were messing ard
i feel dam broke
fucking no money
i cant even fin dmoney to buy newspaper soon
we took like a helluva of time to reach his dad place
which was beside beauty world.
and it took 10 min for hh to see his sickness.
went back to the swings and longed
i wished i had someone like you.
Run dave run, sticks and stones
never hurt you, guys and girls words
don taunt you, but slience of hers
huant you.
will you run and hide
will you run and hide?
or learn from the fall
or learn from the fall?
taste the blood of your mind
tastless reek of jealously
green eye monster lurks and murks
fast it ate you cant you see
cabbage rice lay unforgotten
hunger to love loses aim
dave dave
u mistep
run fool run...
WhY ShouLD I...
but see she don like u green eye monster
no she don, she likes a guy who stands and smile
no jealousy no love just a best friend forever,
I CAN I CAN.
but why but why
i agree but why but why u dave must mess it up
NO I DIDNT.. DID I...
cause you love her dave.
regardless of lies and spittles u froth
u know deep within u will not relinquish this girl
BUT SHES NOT EVEN MINE.
u treat her like she is
thats why thats why
fool fool.
you should run
you should run
dave everyone is replacable,
cant you see
dave dave
ure out of date.
NO NO NO NO!...
love is torment within sugar
Love is bitter within kiss
Love is sadness
Love you cant have
Is not love,
NO NO NO!...
you fear you fear,
deep in the morning u awake,
nothing but her.
have you grown weak dave
dave
have such feebleness tangled you
are u so soft?
NO NO !... I CANT BE, I LOVE HER.
fool fool
u lust u lust,
shes not ures shes not ures,
shes beautiful
shes beautiful
yah i agree dear
shes pretty shes pretty
cant u see, shes too good for us
for you
cut ureself
slice yourself
thirst for the blood
yes drink it my dear.
you are nothing
fool u are nothing u are nothing
but a guy whose dream
why never come,
once or twice... it will never
BUT NO, NO... I WAITED, I WAITED...
FOOL FOOL FOOL.
Waiting shall never be ures.
she will be loved by all
by none,
u can wait there
stare all you wan
but u shall not know
fear is wad makes u weak
u fear shes gone
yes you fear she will disappear
yes my dear i agree, u fear change
you fear changes,
don lie
don lye
kiss sorrow,
embrace hurt.
shes too good for u
shes smart
shes popular
shes nice
forget her my son my son
yes forget her mi child mi child
she belongs to another world
no foolish dear, she does not
it is you dave
u don belong
don belong
hurt and all
i still love her
my muscle will tear
my brain will melt
my legs will break
my hands will burn
my soul will die
laugh she can
i feel peace
sadness is why i endure.
hurt
pain
torment
resentment
jealous
suffer
grief
angony
aguish
woe
i don know,
angel of white
angel of black
peace my heart.
let me sleep till she smiles and loves
...
like swings,
how hard u push
it will always come back
your love is like a shadow at 7:11 AM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together