Wednesday, May 30, 2007

- if u read the title sms me! -

- My life -

yah today i woke up late, been sleeping late, my bodys fine, but my minds numb, tired sigh. I ponned th morning 8am IS or Pw. it sucked i guess, then i was late for the stupid class, the teacher who ever she is, always bitches about me, i guess i am rude maybe, but she have no rite to make chris stand there and fail his assigement.

Shit he got cooking, and teacher refuse to change for him, i know he is fooling but seriously i think he has no idea, felt bad, he even talked about me in cookin. like ' Dave the cook, who cooks super dishes like cookin maggie noodle' aww thx chris, but shit teacher didnt think it was funny. made chris angry by tell him he failed. And i made him go ouch ouch by pokin his knees..

Well at least i managed to cheer him up in Thermo pract, but guess again, i think he is dam cheerful. he wont be sad for long.yah... i finish class alone

called da jie, crashed her course, saw zension du lan me, and i wasted time in there, pei my Da Jie, yarh then had to rush off again to go home to put my bad, and meet another person, promised to study with her but i was late.

cause i hurt my leg,
i chased after a bus, so afraid i late.
that stupid bus made me run from 1 bus stop to the other,
end up i was panting..

yah i ended up late and did not chance on her, feel bad, promise study study always end up didnt. i whipped some stufff for myself, and ate dinner.

wasted time again, didnt study, did test for eileen, got 60% , that totally sucked.. sigh i wished i didnt do it, now i look bad ... haha yarh she made me think think think, so i created a test for others to make them think think think too.. yarh the result was ok

so far i told 3 ppl, i gonna ask more, if they would actually do it. yarhs kinda touch man, ppl got so nice one. i don know if i should waste their time on this... sigh
Thx my 'sisters'.. they doing it too
wa haha, i think i shld get Chris do, he will go laugh and luagh haah.

yarh my days over..

let me think wad i am thinkin now..

sometime i wonder,
things that makes me notice will make me hurt.
cause i know somethings are always there
like stars, so beautiful yet unreachable
...

some times, when i caught one, i would give it to someone else
wad a dumb guy u are dave.
yarh i am i guess.
doing my own test, realise
how stupid my questions was...
sigh.

i wonder if anyone in this world would rmb me when i pass on, maybe there is
maybe...

nvm i am just deprived of the warm fuzzy feeling.

sigh thx for doing the tests! go sleep haha

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/470615

for those interested,
thx ppl
u make my day

[ random thots]
- He loves you -
- I love you-
- But he loves u more -
- So you should love him-
- Happier you are with him -
- Happier i am from distance -
- Watchin but never have the guts to grab on -
- Cause it pains to end a glowing star -
- Like you -

your love is like a shadow at 9:50 AM
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

- Typical day in sch -

Had IPC. made a mess, irriated people, and ya fooled like a nut as usual, tied brian hair, got pissed again by samantha, man she gets on my nerve haha,nah maybe i don know her well or i am just fucking sensitive, but shes a girl.... well you know a girl, girl always win ; 3, got to my usual high...
lol. I bulied the kampong girl lol( i still don know her name, i mean spell it out la), made her accidently fall down, feel so bad, then the other guys (erm the dudes) went to SIM food court and eat. haha
it was just not worth remembering wad happen, besides me eating the same food everyday when i go there, Brian swore when the uncle saw me and say * same one again har * haha yah, sigh.

Then i saw the girls in the mega bites, then Da jie tell me wait outside, i like gonna wait there, saw the girl looking at me, then sian haha she didnt tell me she inside, i like blur blur toot,.
went in for a min then i wanted to pon maths, sigh but hor i promise eileen i will go de haha, end up waste time there, helping her, and see vincent make fun of her haha, very funny... kinda jealous, how innocent and carefeel one can look.
all i can say shes a blur blur queen, but nice lol
Then we were talking and laughing, me sarah vincent and her eileen, yah we went to the bus stop, send them home.

Then i went to buy some nice nice pan cakes for Da Jie!!! and yah, Jy haven finish class. so i met Da jie, she is like so at home on the LSCT block stage haha. yah, we were bored, so we went to sit bus ard Np then we went to play ground.... we talked about life, feel so comfortable, so sleepy that time haha, sigh i like wish she was beside me so i can lean on her ....

yah we talked talked, she was itchy on her arms lol, don know why, we just wasted time haha...
then we took back to NP i went J8 to watch movie with old friends.. yah watch the POTC it was nice, though bit lame some part. then tired tired went home sleep...

yah i miss everyone

- Down in my little soul..

shit i cant find the YEP form!

your love is like a shadow at 7:37 AM
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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Ahh when i told myself to study, i did my EM1 thats all lol

tomorrow the biomol quiz, sian sigh, nth happen tday beside when plaza sing to buy bicycles..
u shld see my dad, he was cycling in the carefour. had a video lol..
yah thats my so bored weekend, i guess schs better lol

erm nothing to blog so i got this from friendster,..
bit sweet and nice..
yah today feeling nice haha.. ; 3

can sleep tight today, no depressin talk or stufff
da jie er jie very hyper today
Isabel crapped alot
Zension yelled and tried hackin
old friends talk to me and wanna see potc.
a girl broken hearted yelled at me.
yah so on,
also Girl sms me today haha, hey girl if u seeing this go see a doctor, u hands need to heal!.

- dudes out there do this... to ur gf.. -
if i had one ya, lol i added somemy own, sounded sweet..

WHEN SHE ACTS SHY-SAY I LOVE YOU

WHEN SHE RUNS AWAY FROM YOU- CHASE HER

WHEN SHE PUTS HER FACE NEAR YOURS- KISS HER

WHEN SHE KICKS & PUNCHES- HOLD HER TIGHT

WHEN SHE IS SILENT- SHE'S THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVEYOU

WHEN SHE IS SCREAMING STOP STOP-DON'T.

WHEN YOU HUG HER-HUG HER SOFTLY

WHEN SHE IGNORES YOU- SHE WANTS ALL YOUR ATTENTION!

WHEN SHE PULLS AWAY- GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LETGO

WHEN SHE FEELS SICK-COMFORT HER!

WHEN SHE WALKS TOWARD YOU-DON'T JUST HUG HER PAY ATTENTION TOHER!

WHEN YOU SEE HER AT HER WORST- TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL!*

WHEN SHE SCREAMS AT YOU- TELL HER YOU LOVE HER BUT MEAN IT

WHEN YOU SEE HER WALKING-SNEAK UP BEHIND HER GRAB HER BY THEWAIST AND GIVE HER A KISS

WHEN SHE'S SCARED!!!!!!!!!-HOLD HER AND TELL HER EVERYTHING WILLBE OK CAUSE SHE'S WITH YOU

WHEN SHE LOOKS LIKE SOMETHINGS THEMATTER- KISS HER AND TELL HER NOT TO WORRY

WHILE SHE HOLDS YOUR HANDS- PLAY WITH HER FINGERS

ya, changed the starting part of my blog too
i know its short.

anyway, anyone know how to link my old posts?
they kinda disappear...
thx

byes

-like lonely stars-
-You shine to me-
-Please lead me to sleep-

your love is like a shadow at 8:00 AM
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Saturday, May 26, 2007

I think i am going crazy.

[c=46]'[K!tyiN™]= [/c] »-(¯`v´¯)-» em0 fr3ak~ *Ares*Aero*Brownies*Sniper says:
u cant help every1 in this world u knw
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
ya
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
but if i tried
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
some ppl life could change
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
if everyong helps abit
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
everyone would be helped
[c=46]'[K!tyiN™]= [/c] »-(¯`v´¯)-» em0 fr3ak~ *Ares*Aero*Brownies*Sniper says:
ha....ha...
[c=46]'[K!tyiN™]= [/c] »-(¯`v´¯)-» em0 fr3ak~ *Ares*Aero*Brownies*Sniper says:
u tink wad...solving maths equation ah
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
nah
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
its life.
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
wad we do echos into eternal time
[c=46]'[K!tyiN™]= [/c] »-(¯`v´¯)-» em0 fr3ak~ *Ares*Aero*Brownies*Sniper says:
dun need tok to me in such chim terMs yar?
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
lol
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
i feeling chim now
[c=46]'[K!tyiN™]= [/c] »-(¯`v´¯)-» em0 fr3ak~ *Ares*Aero*Brownies*Sniper says:
blink* too much conselling le ah
=IcE= -innocent idiot air catcherr- i wanna see ur back says:
lol

ya...lol nite

your love is like a shadow at 9:47 AM
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- Fade -

- I had a blank day today -

I felt nothing, I was just nothing today.
realise i was so lonely.
Even with people walking and talking ard me
i feel tired.
i feel heavy
i just wanna have someone to lean on
and fall asleep.

just hope someday
somehow
i would find someone
who could be just as loney
yet have no desire for crowds
and let us stay there.
looking at the stars...
wishin it never ends.

_bleah_
thats so fuck off..
like hell to happy endings

your love is like a shadow at 6:55 AM
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Friday, May 25, 2007

- pooh -

i got this poem somewhere... long time ago
- had nth to post-
- played too much coins today. -
- feel ... -

nvm

here goes

Just Friends
by Diane Blue

We enjoy each others company
but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.
We're just friends.

Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.
We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,
and always have a good excuse for doing so.

Do friends need an excuse?
You remind me that "We must be careful",
"We can't go there", you say.
The rules have been set,
and we live by them.

We sit and talk for hours,
two sets of black eyes interlocked and neither turns away.
I hang on your every word.
Your simple presence in a room, gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile, and I melt away.
The thought of you touching me makes my body scream out with yearning.
But we're just friends, right?

Why do I feel it's more?
Are we in self-inflicted denial?
Our past hurts have made us so afraid,
We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.
Or it was only me feeling that.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chance

To be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do, but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it real and you'd run away and hide from me.
So I'll try and keep the flood gates closed and be content that you let me be,
Just your friend.

yah. Pls respect her work, her poem touch my heart alot.
it happened nearly 2 years alrd.
i still feel for this poem...

chillz.

cause i gonna catch air
for u
till all my love becomes vapor

your love is like a shadow at 6:33 AM
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- do do do i i i -

Ya, on high, bored with life,
ct in weeks, others holiday.
hate science.
hate maths
i wanna draw,
i wanna create
i don wan see boring maths and culation
i just wan to fly fly ffly

lalala... sigh

down i drop.

Potassium and Silver
Blood and Liver
Will flow Like the River
cause i wanna leave.

your love is like a shadow at 1:40 AM
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Thursday, May 24, 2007

- i ceased to exist my social part of my mind -
- i ceased to love hate and argue -
- i ceased to hold on to past -
- i ceased to reach out and touch -
- i ceased to dream -

- i start to remember -
- i start to seperate -
- i start to move -
- i start to live -
- i start to know its not how i should be -

- I will lift this mask i wore -
- To heal ur woulds i would -
- I still remember last 2 years -
- I will not reach to touch -
- I will dissolve in memory --

just crappin, my pills high and souls low

your love is like a shadow at 9:31 AM
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-shit ur bull-

- yah 2nd post of today -

finish my maths and had to go to IPC, crapped alot in there i forget wad i did in there laio, oh yah sam and sarah kept copying my notes lol, thats all i rmb, sam very auto one. but sia, cant point her, she help our class with lots of stuff and is top scorer ! i think lol. [ yah thats her ]

then Hope wanna see the show.. i like wth, she after this show alot. Maybe i send it to her next time. yah had lunch with them, it was a quiet affair, all like have little talk. stil don feel i can gel yet, maybe when i am high, like in Thermo....

Yah , they persuade me go down use my com see 200 pound beauty again... so i went and show then, but carrot talking to me, i like wan talk, stupid ben will say ' oi don block us seeing the movie la'...

then see finish samanta ( i don know how spell) teach me thermo abit, Hope ask for songs here there, very auto de, i useful for first time lol. wth. then spam massage to ppl. Isabel( spell correct?) brian, so on lol.

IsaBel funny sia, talk crap and spam with me, dam funny, gave her my blog, cause she like omg piss off, i poke fun of kampong girl and so on. Melon bully me too T_T. yah wadeva got lots of stuff happening, but the spam was so funny, its like children. sad i didnt save lol...

went to emart,
felt so alone, played DOTA with ppl,
wiped their face on floor. (joking)
then look on, ppl gathering and laughing.
i hate crowds.

then went home, cooked dinner and ate and slept and talked. lol. heres da Isabel chat. Like every girl and guy talks so differently, need suit them haha.

=IcE= -catching air- says:
yah harry potty sis
[c=45][b]Isabel[/b][/c] says:
[c=45][b]Isabel[/b][/c] says:
harry potty sis
[c=45][b]Isabel[/b][/c] says:
on the first look
[c=45][b]Isabel[/b][/c] says:
i read horny potty sis
[c=45][b]Isabel[/b][/c] says:
-.-
=IcE= -catching air- says:
haha
=IcE= -catching air- says:
u can be horny potter sis then!

yah and then alot more just lazy to put, talked to some people, yah
sigh friends got problem, imature talks, slient and empty talks, half hearted talks, tired talks.
yah alot of stuff.

sigh i so wish i could turn back time
or maybe i could travel forward.

sigh, tired, depress again, all my happy pill went out and used.
i feel like a void, taking in feelings to feel meaningful.
sigh. i wish i could just float away,
thx for tying me down, for those who read thx.

bleah em0 ..

- Like the stars above
- My bloods bleeds below
- All to my beloved
- To stop feeling low.

Yah sigh, hope u are alrite with u injuires girl.

your love is like a shadow at 7:09 AM
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

-bleah-

Having IPC lecture now, getting bored to death by all the modules.
I am an art student! dude. it getting hectic,
common test in 2 weeks.
Feels like JC I hate JC.
wth stupid project work
stupid here there.

nvm, ppl guessing my blog,
they will get it soon or then
so i would say a nice hi
-welcome to my depression blog-

Haha,
yah smth like that
If u have problems and wanna yell at someone
Uncle agony

- Cause when u are low
- Time would just slow
- For me to show
- How u gonna go on

don link
cause u would blink

your love is like a shadow at 7:33 PM
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- untitled -

If joy were hers->
yah. today went to Com ToolKIt,
it was entirely rotting waste of time.
The teacher on a roll again, today my bus 74 traffic jam,
so lucky i am on an early bus made it on time,
but the others didnt
and she was saying here there everywhere!
like ' Ok u all just come in one all absent, '
Then we would like yah ' all can go home liao'
Also she is like... wth we check with everyones result
the highest she gave was B and she could just give everyone 1 more mark and get A
but i guess she don like us haha

yah, then when she is on a roll teachin
i played games here there
sigh
playing games that time
not into it,
was thinking bout my ploy life...

realise no matter how i try, i end up like my past,
same repeating world.
its like a vicious cycle.
always try to just fit in, end up not in it.
My class everyone seems near yet so far,
Just a few friends.

Depression setting in as usual sooner or later
when my results come.
And comes again another who i bled it out
then i just close myself up again

The next step would be anti-socialing
and just work, study, sleep it.
theres no difference no matter how i see.
i always end up at square 1.
looking onli for the few,
or you wouldnt have seen me already.

And when u realise that few also have a life of their own
its just me again and u.
wa ha, we are always beside each other, u looking out for me
When everyone answers in mono sylibic, i talk to you
when i try to talk to everyone, i am irriatable.
So onli in you i would tell.
Cause u never speak
yets knows me well
Cause in my soul you reak.
- Alone yet accompanied-

painted my nails today.
sat together with my sis(gab) and sis(jy)
ate sandwhich and watch why i came here
took some pics, smile i had,
slippers we change
but sweet memories do not last.
hope it lasts.

-a few weeks-
cause i feel like driftin

black my nails
tainted in mind
IcE shall kill
cause this rhyme.

-where kindless does not touch me-

your love is like a shadow at 7:38 AM
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

- Believe in assholes like me-

I did a song long time ago repost it, wonder how i would see it now, when i wrote it in the past.

----- Every Beat -----

A single touch, sparks off sum'thin in my heart.
The thumpin' and pumpin' beat of it
I just wanna wish, you could know how i felt now.
[yet u wouldnt]

So yeah, i tried to move on, a job- Chillin' wit my friends.
The laughin' and runnin' beat of it
I just couldnt stop, faking and looking around
[ For you, yeah u would be there]

(Chrous)
[Oh ya, here goes]
I feel ya in every beat of my heart.
I knew i couldnt walk away.
For all i did was say,
yet i never did anything to please ur heart.
[Please forgive me] x 3 fade-

So i just wanna every beat of my heart,
to beat for you, to let you know i wouldnt be here without you.
I wish you could see how much i love you.
yeah. [just want you to know]

even with my friends round me,
i could still feel the beat of it.
Every little bit of you keeps my heart from stopin',
my heart's every beat that is for you.

(Chrous)
[Oh ya, here goes]
I feel ya in every beat of my heart.
I knew i couldnt walk away.
For all i did was say,
yet i never did anything to please ur heart.
[Please forgive me] x 3 fade-

Yah so we moved on
like pages in life.
but just wanna let u know that
my heart will always beat for you....

-dave-

old thingy written by me, wanted to put in the tunes, but my guitar skill died off, so i couldnt be bother, end up it just look like a bit of this and that.but oh well wrote i for someone long ago. brings back memories huh.

Yah, sigh, don know feel depress suddenly lol
nvm its gonna be well tml

just like the rain that always fall.

Just her tears
Down off here cheeks
wipe off my fears
in my heart it creeps.

Peace out.

your love is like a shadow at 8:43 AM
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- I got cancer-

Dichlomethene - the fume is able to cause cancer.

During IPC prat, erm we did some funny stuff, pouring liquid over liquid then tossing iodine into it.haha, one of the chemical is dangerous lol.

Was so scared i nearly close the hatch of the fume machine with my arm inside lol.Did the practical, and during it, isabel and zensious they all talk alot and me in between blur blur de. so in the end i use a plastic box, wan cover them up tgt sia, in the end i covered myself haha.

then Jy took the pic, ended up with carrothead. haha

yah then i had EM1, just way dam bored. but talked to that blur girl eileen, she look lost lol
haha, beside that i just like rotted my whole day.

when to emart to accompany Gab to wait for jy and zension, in the end i don know how we all end up in library, feel bad, i playing games they all like bored and rotting.. sorrie .

then sms Carrot, she say she not feeling ok. i also don know how to reply, hope shes ok...

yahh i gonna sleep early. tired liao

-- wad we do in life, echos into eternality

bleah i am crazy

your love is like a shadow at 12:08 AM
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Sunday, May 20, 2007

- Shove it -

If people wanna think they know wad i wanna hope for,
how wrong they were.
cause i aint no typical fuck nut.
in this whole fuckin whole.
I just wanna feel happy. i realli do.
an empath with a fuck up mind.

- No reason-

Ooh...Its real tough
that no one understands.
Nothing happens the way i wanna
it be.
Every thing i do, makes me harder
to understand myself.
What i don wanna it be,
it always end up like this.
[ yeah comemon' its like this']

[chrous]
For some reason.
when i feel i am safe,
For no reason,
i would fall from there
I just wanna wish i could sleep
and never wake up...
[never wake up] x3 fade.

Brb-
hope wanna see 200 pound beauty

your love is like a shadow at 6:17 PM
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I cant

I cant remember anything

i cant.
i tried
trying my best
to remember.

i just cant

sorry.

=