1 month plus ago, we went to Marina to play catch soft toy game. First time spent $3 to catch one Forever Friend bear. I am so happy, hugging it in my arm. We looking around to catch another, then suddenly a girl walked towards us. Stood beside me and never say any word, took the bear from my hand.
Then she say, "this bear is for display only, cannot take, will get new one for you but this design no more."
I point at another design of the bear. She say, “Think this also no more." Few second later, another girl came with a ladder, try to help me find the second choice bear that I have choose. She found it and passes it to me.
Now then i know, cannot take the display one and may not get what the design you catch. Really like this????

是每一句“对不起”，都能换来一句“没关系”。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。

可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。


—— “对不起”的快乐 。


大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。

女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。

终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。

那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？” 于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。


—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。


婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。

女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”


—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。


渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。

从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。


—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。

那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。

女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。

终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。

那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟 声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。

可女孩，转身离开了。

男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。

女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。


—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。

这一等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。


“我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。

我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。

我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。

对不起，我想我是真的累了。”


男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——

是女孩的遗像。

女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。


—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。


那一年，男孩疯了。


每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起......


多陪陪该珍惜的。生命诚可贵，有情价更高。



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Today, i am so happy, my common tests get the grade of A+ and my pratical test also get a A+. I went to BP Plaza to eat Pizza Hut with Edwin.

Every year, my birthday have different surprise. This year, really very surprise, happy and touch.
On 9 June, i went to Vivo City to meet my poly friends to have dinner as to celebrate my birthday. We have dinner at Hong Kong restaurant, then we went to hospital visit ShiXiang. After that we went to Holland road to sit down and chat till 11 plus, going to 12am.
When i walking towards my lift, Edwin called me, he told me to look at right side, then i realise he is waiting for me, by that time already past 12am, is my birthday. So surprising that, he is there. He bought 2 mini cake for me and a box that contain 6 gifts. He sang birthday song for me.......
On 12 June, celebrating with my secondary sch friends.

sorry, pic will be uploading next time, got trouble of uploading.

I was really very upset about all the things happen recently. Thursday evening, I went to visit my friend in hospital, I wanted to tell him a lot of things, but words just cannot come out from my mouth. Saw him in this state, my heart is aching, that why I cried. Then I decided to go for a run, meet my poly friend at Bukit Batok. I message him about it, he was angry with me, because I choose to go running than study for next day common test. I thought it will be fine after that but I was wrong. I only ran for 3 round, due to whole day never eat, I start to feel dizzy, so I told my friend, I not feeling well, next time then run again. So I went to buy food to go home eat. Normally, he will ensure me that I have reach home safety, but that day he never, I was quite upset. Next day, when I wake up, still no message from him, keep waiting for him to message me and wish me good luck for my test before I sit for test, but still don’t have, that moment I felt sadder. After my test, I receive message from my friends that say my close friend, shixiang have passed away. I was really sad, that moment I wish that he is there for me to comfort me, so I called him, but I felt even more sadder, his tone was like not really willing to talk to me. On the way to my ex-colleague’s house, my mind keep flash back to the old time when my friend is still lively jumping and laughing around, my tears flow non-stop. I message him, told him about my friend passed away, thought he will called me but never, just a reply ok. He ask me to join him to go to his friend BBQ party, then I told him that thought I have already told you that I finish my thing around 8 plus or 9 plus, then he say he was disappointed with me and so on. I was like, I already in a bad mood, you still want to quarrel with me, so upset. When I reach home, I make a phone call to him, his tone was like don’t bother want to talk to me, this time I really really really really very SAD. So this is what you say, won’t make me sad again. Really thank you, give me such a great birthday present.
We have been same class since sec 1, we started to know each other at the start of sec 3? No no no, think is sec 2, because I remember start of sec 3, I have chicken box, can’t go school for first 2 week. That 2 week, I keep called him to chat. Then he starts to call me ‘xiao ting jie jie’. Now so miss him calling me this. After graduated from secondary school, we enrolled into same poly, we meet and go school together if our schooling time is same. I remember I always late due to overslept, after that he will morning call me to wake me up. But I still late, think I really bath very slow. Always caused he late for lesson, but he always smile smile and say ‘never mind, never late more than 15 minutes and the teacher won’t care, still will let me sign attendance.’ He really is such a good brother, always help me to carry books or laptop for me. We also meet go home together, sometime, he really so good till accompany me to buy food and send me home, even send me till my door, every time my dog saw him will bake at him, and I say ‘ you got the bad people look that why my dog bake at you.’. But I also a bad sister as I did walked with him home sometime. I remember, one day he told me that his classmate thought I am his GF, I told him, go tell them, ‘ if she is my GF, how come I never wait for her to dismiss but go home alone.’. This continues till finish year 2. For Year 3, we not able to meet because his first half year is attachment the next half schooling, we are opposite. School start around a month, he talked to me in MSN, asking me how am I and so on, few more days later, he talked to me in MSN again saying that he fall sick recently and is on and go. After another few more days, he was lying in hospital with such terrible and sudden condition. When my friend informed me about him, I really don’t believe it, thought is April Fool Day. Now, 11 June 2010, he really left us. I really feel so unbelievable. Am I dreaming? My naughty little brother who behave like a monkey really left the world? I really feel like scolding him for never keep his words, he have promise me lot of thing and have not done.

To my dearest brother shixiang,
So miss the day we spent. I hope to call your name once again, but I can’t anymore. So regret, the last time saw you still calling you ‘monkey’, you always smile smile and say I bully you by calling you ‘monkey’. I really angry with you, make everyone so upset, why so silly, when unwell should approach doctor, now let everyone cry. So hate you, thought you say, you never break promises. You promise me will play revesi with me again, thought you say, you will tell me the girl that you like, thought you say will attend my future wedding, thought you say will find more nice songs for me, thought you say whenever I want to watch show can ask you to find for me, thought you say whenever I got problems can find you, now I really got problem, how? I lost my friend, called shixiang, can help me find him?