one more day before going to school ( 3more days before school reopen)

yesterday , as usual i went for my CCA and we ned to prepare for de CCA fair and we ned to sing song to promote our CCA. den our instructor asked us wad do we want and i suggested ''love song'' by sara barellies btw recently i love da song veri much even my friend who dun know this song , start to knows this song as because i alwayz sing da song almost everytime i met them =) but de instructor in de end chose songs da i really dun know la!!! wtf la!!! and i gonna sing one chinese song called 小酒窝 with someone called SEE MUN ,SHE IS A VERI IRRITATING CRAZY MOOD CHANGING FREAK!!!!!! I WAS SO CONCERN WAS BCAUSE EVERYONE IN DE CCA KEEP ON SAYING BOUT ME N SEE MUN DIAOZZZ =.= so bo liao lorz lame people i really dun wanna sing da song sia wtf zzzzz den i ask de instructor can sing ''love song'' anot den he say they dunno de song cannot....den later on i told him da i dun de 小酒窝 song den he said da ''dunno den learn lorz'' den i was like '' den love song they dunno also can learn ma'' den in de end no use lorz hai i hav to sing de song with DA SEE MUN!!!! wtf!!!!!!!haizzzzz dame irritated ....den go home i go my instructor's blog and i ''go on strike'' !!! but dunno wad is de result ..... stay tune =)

problem day

my hair sux like shit sia T.T ..... haizzz kinda ugly sia.....(before da....)


2day i went to school to buy school uniform with my friendsss(sam,zs,jw) when we reached de school. wa lao so many people lorz. haizz but i dun really mind much la cause is like so normal lorz but jw mind quite alot as he dun hav any money and he wanted to buy some other day but none of us agreed of course.....we waited veri long long long..........so sianz lorz. as i was lining up at de queue , zs suddenly came and say ''wa lao they cut queue u also dun noe ar?'' den i was like dun care him as i thought da he is talkin about someone else and that someone else did not cut queue den i thought he misunderstood lorz. inside de hot crowd feeling veri irritating, when again zs came and told me da someone cut queue again!!! den i was really piss ,ignoring de crowd i say kinda loud '' NO LA THEY NVER CUT QUEUE.....'' and this sentence brings me a embarrass
atmosphere as the FAMILY in front of me suddenly stared at me with scary eyes!....they actually thought that i was saying them cuting de queue....haizzz how dumb can i be...SERIOUSLY!!!!haizzzz den after da we went to de nearby shopping centre to eat and den we go to zs house to slack and durin de slacking period, we watch a show called zohan. not bad sia de show veri ''hornet''

den after da we go home liaoz lorz....when finally i was back home, i min i open de door i felt kinda weird........everyone go out liaoz!!!haizzz i quickly call my parent ask them where r they. n they say they at jurong point now.... dame unlucky lorz jus come back still ned go out again....den when i reached de bus stop alot alot of dame people was there sia....got 2 or 3 bus can go jurong point wan but i did not get up as IT WAS HELL FULL.....finally i reached jurong point and i hav ANOTHER PROB... i dun hav a handphone and i only hav $10 note nia and i dun hav any coin to use public phone...in de end using my intelligent brain ^.^ (*laughing) i use my 10 bucks to change into small change. but when i go into de shop(*MR BEAN) de person helped me change....10 one dollar coin... so diao lorz ''(=.=) den i go other shop to change my one dollar coin into even small change ( 50 cents) den i go other shop to change my 50 cents into even small change( one 10 cents two 20cents) den i go other shop.....no la dun hav liaoz la. den i try call my parent lorz den got ANOTHER PROBLEM ..... de reception at de jurong point really sucks like hell .....i called them many many times in order to reached them haizzzzz.!!!! den when i wan go to de restaurant alot of fking people keep on blocking my way lorz den got one baby annoying sia walk so slow like...no worst den snail i should say(almost kick de baby)....when i finally reached de restaurant i hav a dame delicious meal!!!! so nice. so nice de xiao long bao( chinese dumpling)
jus when i thought nothing bad will happen...and in de end a final blow....zzzz.. den after de meal my parent and i went pass a barber shop.. den my mom force me go in cut and in de end my hair sux like shit sia T.T ..... haizzz kinda ugly sia. dunno how am i gonna face jw and all my friends on monday during CCA haizz!!!!!! =.= indeed a problem day

song. favorite . history

this song has a history behind it>>>>>
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the history
during pri 6 my school hav an end year concert and pupils from different classes all wanted to perform on da memorable day. since i was young i was inspired to be singer(as everyone know it) and of course i participated too. but before any group went up to de stage to perform on de actual day mus go thru an audition. my group , i hav my bestfriend with me, ahmala

ahmala>>>>>SHE is a veri nice funny interesting caring person and she also hav de same dream as me too! i met her when i was in pri 6. seriously i was really grateful to her as she changed my life and if without her i will not be able to be in pri 6 da smoothly as really bad things happened to me...........overall she is a wonderful person.


back to my history, and i form a group with her. and we practice bfore de actual day start. and it was really a fun time during our practice .... so much laughter .... and of course de song we selected was de song i place inside my blog. we had so much fun. during de actual day of actual day of audition . she said da she did not wan to participate anymore. but luckily there is a sec round of audition and i manage to convinced her. but here comes another problem... de CD i bring was not working and we hav to sing without de music and it really sound weird......and de people also commented da my voice sux and told me not to sing anymore. a really big scar in my life but i somehow recovered better now despite de failure recently.....

and so, whenever i hear da song it makes my heart feel a chill as i hav so much flashbacks in my mind.....sad ones....funny ones.....regretful ones......

stay tune to the next ''song. favorite . history part 2''

my thoughts ....

recently i been watching people on youtube singing songs and i noticed da some people really do have wonderful voice and i am now having de urge or feeling to do this too but i felt kinda afraid sia scarly not nice den everyone put terrible comments about me den it is really over for my dream liaoz lor...but i really wanted to giv it a try but i got alot of things da i am worry about .....

and also i been seeing alot of advertisement and magazine da is about de CSS thingy and whenever i saw it i kinda feel veri.......aiya dunno how to explain la is jus da when i saw de advertisement on da i will either walk away or change de channel....haizzzzzz so sad.........

friend? enemy? stranger?

about de incident about roy and me , as well as de incident at de escape and de betraying part , i dunno wad to do....firstly, he told me da i was wrong about betraying part . yesterday he was at de msn and he started to talk to me den i was really pissed off and started to shouting him words back. and den he said da he did not gave my web add to his friend as i told him not to and he said da de name at my C BOX was him, he wrote his name there and wanted to c how i react when i see it. on da moment many ..no ..alot ...no .... million ... no ... uncountable thought was crossing my mind . one of it was '' why he want to do da? wad is de point?'' and '' should i TRUST him? how am i supposed to believe?'' den when i said my thoughts to him he was kinda pissed and said stuff like ''if u dun believed den fine lorz dun be friend lorz'' i dunno.... i really dunno wad to do .. trust him? forgiv him?? to be friend? enemy? or a pathetic stranger?

at de bbq...

de bbq was quite a enjoyable wan and nothing bad happened.. before de bbq i went to jw's(one of my situ member and aka friend) house before we meet them at de interchange at 5:45 . at his house , i saw his neighbour was at his house with him at de computer desk playing computer games(grandchase) when i saw da i was stunned and afraid by one second as because of da incident at de escape about people da u dunno . i sort of hav a phobia or something. but in de end jw's neighbour was quite a fun person to talk to and i hav no worries talking to him too. after about half an hour i was kinda sianzz liaoz as during da time i was looking at de computer screen seeing and hearing them talking about de game.... and inside my mind was this >>>??????( alot of it) den i ask him : '' u ask me so early come ur house 4 wad? see u play com ar =.='' originally we wanted to go gek poh shopping centre to buy some ''cash'' for de game but las min he said he dun wan liaoz . as i knew his personality i sort of knew da he will change his mind last minute and he did =.=

den after we buy de ''cash'' we set off to de interchange to meet them. (at de interchange)
we saw quite alot of people had already reached there. about five minute ++ see mun( one of my situ member and aka friend) came and she asked me for money . see mun <<< time =".="">> first: open de security door to take de lift(veri smelly)
second: take de lift to de FIRST FLOOR
when he opened de door of his house everyone rushed in like wanna see got any mistress with ur husband anot. i quickly rushed into his room and see if there is any'' weird weird stuff '' lol and in de end i saw it!!!! i saw five magazine at his shelf and on de cover page of de magazine was a woman wearing veri sexy-ly . lol see mun got took photo of de magazine lol...so funny . after taking de things we needed, we go back to de bbq place ( at night already). den behind de bbq pit we suddenly heard sound ... it was not ordinary sound.... it was sound da see mun will be terrified or should i say petrified. IT WAS A SOUND OF A !!!!!!!!! cat..................( * see mun scared of every animal) so look closely towards de bush and jw and i saw a kitten at de bush so ka-wa-yi(cute) lorz i thought it needed help and i moved forward and wanted to grabbed de kitten but it seemed to be afraid and it does not wants any1 to touched it and after half an hour of catching de cat we decide to giv up , take a sit , hav a drink and to be waited to be served by de pathetic girls ( jk) at first we were not allow to eat as because we did not contribute but later on because de food too much den de stupid girls cannot eat too much den let us be de ''vacuums cleaner'' to swallowed everything. at first we wanted to show our attitude da we dun wan to eat but later we cannot stand liaoz den we started eating like hell btw comments about de chicken wing....... 1st : hot like hell!!!
2nd: taste ok ok only
3rd: NOT COOKED!!
although de comments i made was not good but i still ate quite alot lol :P ...
when we were eating we saw de kitten again this time it is with its mom , so da explained y de kitten reacted da way lorz. den after it was all over we separated our way and go home!!! (*i still got enough money to take a bus home)

two choice.....

every wednesday will be my mom''s off day at work and is de only day in de week she could go enjoy herself if i dun go she will like feel kinda lonely in some ways. yesterday my friend asked me if i wanna go to my friend's house to play but now da is de prob lorz i dunno should i accompany my mom or go my friend's house da y i in super dilemma lorz haizz den in de end i go accompany my mom lorz(p.s veri guilty and sad not going my friend's house)

de place i am going with my mom was JB !!!! really long long time nver go liaoz sia like about 2 years? or more? aiya dunno la . i was kinda irritated at first but slowly i start to enjoy myself but when i reached de malaysia's NEW checkpoint i was really: 1st = shocked ,2nd = retarded
question: y do i feel shocked?
ans : de checkpoint was really big!!!

question : y i felt retarded when i reached there?
ans : de checkpoint was really high high above like going genting like da ned go round round n round and de checkpoint was so big da !!!!!!! it hav nothing inside but jus a checkpoint to check passport =.= . and de person da check de passport was so dame slow like snail ....as if one person ned 10min+ .....


dame wu liaoz lorz build so big n huge n tall like giant den nothing inside =.= air-con also like not switched on ... dunno wad is de prob....aiya forget about this lorz . move on to wad i ate for lunch!!! for lunch we ate KENNY ROGER( a restaurant) i like it so much( de food nia) BUT de service was really terrible =.=.............. in da big restaurant only two person to service you .... we sat on de dame dirty table n they ned to called to clean our table sia and when we call them they ned to spent about 5 min+ to come here ........ so much time and cleaning liaoz.. nonetheless de food .... we were like soo hungry n it came after dunnno how many min..haizzzzzz
when we finally ate finish i realized da there are more than four tables not clean and de people had already left more than 10min already liaoz...and when we called for de bill , it came as fast as lightning den i was like 0(=.=)0 <<< my face


den we start to shop!!! long time nver go overseas liaoz den when i saw de price i was dame shocked lorz .... i saw one shirt da cause $100 + but 1sec later( c i so smart) den i realized da it was half de price in sing dollars =.= ...later on we walked into one shop den i mom buy for me a nice jacket and a shirt so nice (^.^) den i saw something like sales or something den when i walked in ... it was paradise sia(0.0)!!!!!!!! inside it sell branded bag and shoes omg i really wanna buy everything!!!!! BUT everything looks dame ugly (=.=) later on i came across one pencil box and i really love it ( cause i dun hav one)!!! but it was kinda expensive den my mom dun allow me buy.. haizz so sad.... but nvm lorz....

about 6+ going to 7:00 we go back home .. and we ned to go de retarded checkpoint again..haizz den my mom say '' y they build so high?'' den i say '' cause got dengue fever ma like da mosquitoes cannot go up lorz and de mosquitoes will also die of exhaustion half way go up, like da also can decrease de case of dengue fever!! wad a smart creation''!!!! (=.=) << my face again

finally go home lorz!!! den i check my mom's hp den i saw jw call den i called him back immediately. den jw told me da he hav fun at zs house and secret about ''someone'' haha cannot tell lol. den i seemun called me n told me about de BBQ tomorrow !!! (kinda afraid da something bad might happened ...wish me good luck lorz hope next post will not b a sad wan =) )

do i have any true friends around me?

''DO I HAVE ANY TRUE FRIENDS AROUND ME''? this sentence has been echoing in my mind for quite a long time .....but till now i haven searched for de answer yet instead i felt da finding a true friend is even harder den it seems and something really happened to me as a real life example.

people who read my blog know wad happen at escape right? during da escape outing i tolerated HIM(roy) . i cared for his feelings n i did not say my feeling to him during de escape in front of his friend until when i was home and wrote that post. after i wrote finish, i told him my website address n i warned him about telling this to his friend i really TRUSTED HIM in de end he told him de website to his friend n his friend like kinda .....haizzz nvm . dame idiot sia i trusted him n he did da to me .....so much for a more den 8 years friendship.... haizz.. aiya really made me speechless this time round........

everyone will think da this thing will be ended jus when he apologized to me right? but what worst is da after he read da post he seemed to felt da i was a unreasonable person and alwayz like to complain and haven talked to me since so this thing really not jus having one person apologizing is enough..... i treasured this friendship alot. n during escape when i hav finally hav time with him alone 2gether i told him da i was really happy with all de outing we had together compared to my sec friends but now i start to think da i was wrong really really wrong to tell him this ... such a fool.....

a lesson: not to go out with people u are not familiar/not close

regarding de ticket we picked up during de train. we used it on thesday (11th dec) . my friend(roy bestfriend and neighbour) and i decide to meet at his house's void deck at 8:00AM . when i reached there i was kinda shock and disappointed , my friend bring his friend and his bro there and I DUN EVEN KNOW HIS FRIEND AT ALL!!!! i hav a super bad feeling about this but i jus ignored it and get rdy to go to escape. de 气氛(atmosphere) was really embarrass i hav nothing to say to his friend n i dun even know wad to do n on de way to MRT roy's bro was so dame annoying n irritating sia . he kept on 鬧脾氣 example: dun wan walk, feeling tired, wan bro to 牵手 and stuff like da . feel like slapping him lorz...

IN DE TRAIN
as usual roy''s bro is as irritating . when we were inside de train there was alot people inside n there was no seat n WE ALL have to stand. den guess wad , roy's bro start complain like hell sia in de end i hav to do de job to entertain him n roy jus talk to his own friend like his bro was mine starting i was really angry but i jus let it go n bottled it in my heart. during de journey to pasir ris he said one sentence n everyone MUS remember this. he said '' later in de escape theme park we TAKE TURN to take care of my bro'' n i believed him

SKIP~~~ AT ESCAPE
when we finally reached there we quickly took out our ticket n get in . i was really happy at my first sight i wanted to play everything in de park n i believed da i will hav a good time there.slowly roy's bro start to be close with me n roy started to talk to his friend n ignore me liaoz. we played de first game which is called superman flying game . u ned to lie down n grabbed to handle in front n u will fly like a superman. den we decide to play de haunted house but when i get in , it was so dame dark den i start to be scared den everyone decide to come out from de haunted house house from de entrance dame paisei sia lol...... n after this roy n his friend wan to play de goal cart but here comes de problem.....his bro wasn't tall enough to play it n during da moment no one wan to giv up his chance of playing to take care of roy's bro not even his own big brother in de end i 好心 volunteered to take care of his bro while HE WAS HAVING FUN WITH HIS FRIEND!!!! i was kinda regret . regret of being so kind . regret of being so dumb!!! den i have to spent my time with da monster(roy's bro) playing all sort of lame stuff n talk in baby language( example'' kor kor cannot play play this game cause i scared scared'' etc) dame disgusting lorz!!!!da monster was seriously a pain to me ned cheer him up n stuff or else he will feel lonely den will throw 鬧脾氣 .... i remembered wad he said earlier in de train about taking turn n da was y i jus take it lightly n jus think da is ok. after they were done playing goal cart we decide to take a meal first n come back later on. during our lunch roy and his friend COMPLETELY ignored me n kept on discussing about wad happen when they play de goal cart and of course his bro was left for me to take care once again!!!! now i start to get little bit angry but i tried to tolerate n wanted to talk to him when we go home as i dun wan to make him feel paisei n make him in a difficult situation in front of his friend.

AFTER LUNCH~~
we walked back to escape again and continue to play n my friend wanted to play goal cart again!!! but this time he seems to know how i felt n decide to let me join in n play, while he called his bro to play on himself but of course his bro kept on throwing his tantrum again!!! but this time roy finally did something and managed to convince him to play on his own.....de queue was really really long , we hav to wait quite a long time n de sky doesn't seem good iwas kinda afraid it might rain...... FINALLY is our turn to play , i sat down de car getting rdy to go . once i see de person say GO i quickly step on de gas n ZOOMED off but my friends was oready far far away from me n i keep on crush here crush there wan dame embarrass sia good thing my friend did not saw it. slowly i start to catch up with them n when it was time to stop , i did not press de brake instead i press de gas n i crush on to my friend in front of me(poor thing )!! paisei paisei so paisei
after da it started to rain like hell n we cannot even play anything at all!!!!!!!! dame unlucky lorz... haizz but because of de rain we could get another free ticket from de counter as a pay back. den we hav no choice but to go to de shpping centre near by until it stopped raining.
when it stopped raining we went back to de escape n play again . AGAIN THOSE BUSTARD WAN TO PLAY DE IDIOT GAME!!!!!!!! AND LEFT HIS BRO TO ME FOR ME TO TAKE CARE!!!!!!!! AND PLUS WE HAV TO WAIT EVEN LONGER DEN WE EXPECTED AS THEY NED TO CLEAN DE TRACK BFORE IT IS RDY TO PLAY. so i spent/waste about 1h+++ with de little brat beside me until they are back . i was really piss off half way through when i was waiting n i stormed off to de goal cart queue . i wanted to vent my anger n tell them how i feel n giv them a scolding but when i saw them, i hesitated n in de end i let this matter rest n did not even say how i felt......haizzzzz y am i so good to them...!!!!!!!! so dumb........haizzzzz still say take turn to take care.....after they play de goal cart their releationship like become more close den roy seldom talk to me since lorz.....
UNTIL it was at night roy and his friend spent their las 30 min or 45 min with me until de escape was closed. in de end i barely played anything over there n barely enjoyed myself back there ...on de way home roy n his friend keep on talking to each other lorz den his bro keep on playing with me like as if i am his own flesh n blood bro like da sia.... dame irritating lorz in de end i tell everyone, BETTER DUN GO OUT WITH PEOPLE U DUNNO N WITH KIDS N WITH PEOPLE DA R IRRESPONSIBLE TO THROW HIS OWN BRO TO OTHER PEO TO TAKE CARE LIKE NONE OF HIS BUSINESS!!!! WOOT!!! FEEL MUCH BETTER AFTET SAYING MY THOUGHTS MAN.....SHIOK!!........ (giv ur comment after seeing these ty =)

do any 1 understand me??

i wanna to see if any1 really understand me so.......

Q1)wad do i really wan MOST?
1) friend , friend and more friend
2) hope things goes smoothly without any bad things happen
3) to achieve my dream
4) hope da i will be more intelligent

Q2)wad i wan to be when i grow up
1) physiology
2) unsuccessful singer
3) translator
4) entertainer

Q3) why my psp song list have more happy song than sad song?
ans:________________________________________

Q4) who i like most?
1) kelly clarkson
2) syz(sun yan zi)
3) orihime inoue





overall
1 to 2 Q correct = stranger
2 to 3 Q correct = enemy
3 to 4 Q correct = friend/bestfriend

lucky or unlucky day

yesterday my parent called me to go to tiong baru 2day to collect old textbooks at my primary school. i was happy to go because it has been a veri long time since i came back to my old school but at de same time i was quite irritated as i hav to wake up early in de morning 2day at about 8:00+ so sianz sia. early in de morning my friend Roy (aka neighbour , pri friend , best friend) n i take bus 334 to de interchange n get a train to tiong. when we reached there i was seriously shock and stun as de place had changed quite alot since i came back i was really excited n delighted to go back to school.

The main objective of going there is to collect textbooks but when i had reached ,the people suddenly say da they ned a letter n some stuff in order to take de books n during da time my friend n i really dunno wad to do because IT WAS REALLY EARLY!!!! 8:50 like da n shops haven even open yet. after da we went to de mac to have our breadfast (de meal dame shiok sia long time nver eat) despite it was early i still hope to see some familiar faces around like my primary teachers or peers but in de end(dun tell u)..........

after de wonderful breadfast we sat down.....look at each other...... nothing to do.......dame embarrass ..... den i crack my brain n find a fun place to go and i found it!!!!
de place is called the holy moly tiong park(read my previous post to know why i like this place)
dame fun sia .. got sand , swing( ks i know how play a swing 4 ur info) and merry go round. so fun lorz we play n play as if we had time travell back to primary school and during da time i was really happy and i really had a moment of a slight happiness da i had not been enjoying after all these bad n unhappy incident.

we played there about 2 hours+ n den we decide to go back home. on de way home . in de train we found two seat n we sat 2gether. we start to talk about de fun things we hav in primary school when suddenly my friend saw two weird paper on de floor . den he called me to pick it up n it was a voucher for escape, wild wild wet etc.. de voucher say one ticket can bring two people go n my friend n i was veri happy at first but later on we start to talk weird stuff like: '' maybe de god is testing on our integrity and see whether we will be honest to giv up de ticket'' <<>
we talk n talk until we reached de destination n one of de elderly da was looking at us alighted at de same stop as us and i told my friend to follow him ''scarly'' he is really de god going to de heaven den if we follow him we can go heaven also lol.....but in de end( dun tell u)

we took a bus straight home n we haven stop discussing about it n then really something weird happened . got big red ant at beside me at de handle there sia dame weird lorz where got ants wan lol......(in de end u all guess de ending lorz or post comment got 5 comment den i tell finish de story >.<)

a long time ever since i've post......

a long time ever since i have post indeed......after all these much of time i think da my life is much better compared to de past. firstly , relationship between friends is really better now. secondly not much stress now. but many things definitely happened between these time...firstly , friend s's birthday secondly, my dream being smashed .....about my dream , everyone knows that i wan to be a singer , a VERI successful one but it seemed da is really a amusing thing to b a dream. i prepared for more than a year n finally de audition of a singing competition hav finally come . i managed to get in de first audi but during de sec audi i started to fall sick... voice become weird..... n in de end i failed.... it was really devastating for me i dun know how to get over it . after de audi my ''sickness'' became worst every day. i vomit. i can hardly walk. it continued for more 3 weeks ... after i am all right. my friend called me to go K box n i was like thinking '' isn't it trying to add salt to my wound?'' but despite da i felt da i should go as because sooner or later i hav to over come it. n i agreed to go with them. In de K box when i started to sing de first song, 4 some reasons i felt veri sad having a feeling to cry or something. but despite da i know da i should not do da because if i behave like this my friends will not enjoy too n i hold back my feelings till i reached home......beside this incident da made me emotional yesterday(10 dec) we hav a class bbq at east coast. when i reached there i saw some people da always irritated me i knew da i should stay far away from them but still it has really no use at all....they pushed me down de sea n my hp was spoil . sometimes i wonder y incident like this alwayz happen to me even when i do things da r nice, good and nver hurt people's feeling especially friends n my loved ones i will definitely think of my friend n loved ones first whenever i had achieve any thing nice or happy. i will alwayz share my happiness among them. but nothing in return ..... is this part of life? isit? can anyone tell me? i really thought of doing stuff da is really opposite from my principal (something bad*)

lastly i will end it with this....''there are things that are better left forgotten things that you should not take back''........................

a long time since i post.......