My first experience

First time time using my phone to blog. (I know I just came down from some mountain)
First time going to gym! (hope I won't be crushed by e equipments)
And tonight gonna be my first visit to kl!(:
So many firsts today!

Just when e weather is so nice in e morning, when I made a date with nornor to gym. Past few weeks had been raining either at night or im too lazy to get up in e morning:/
Sighs. Gotten fat ever since I came back from my Korea gss. No more stairs to climb, not much distance ive walked each day and I still eat as much when i was in korea.
Not that im weight conscious, but kinda bad that im same weight as my sis who had just given birth right! Lol. Girls are girls, we just love to compare aint we:D but I'm still glad that I'm weight conscious, if not I will just be fatter and fatter without any worries or guilt! And that equates to bad health!

Lalalalala.. BIONG! Hope I will update more frequently in future!(:

fragile

how fragile anything could be.

you could lose whatever you may be holding on very tightly to

in just one second.

actors for life.

"Who’s the better actor? I wonder. The one who puts everything on his face or the one who puts nothing on his face? Now you tell me."

All the world’s a stage,

And all the men and women merely players.

They have their exits and their entrances,

And one man in his time plays many parts.”

– Shakespeare, William. As You Like It.

i'll be backk!

Been neglecting this space mucchh! Many happenings in ma life(: jie gave birth to her adorable princess, KAYLA TEO. and her baby shower is over as well! been going over to her house rather frequently, whenever possible. cos of the dual attraction forces over there. Love carrying baby kayla. esp when she's so small and "soft" heee. and doesnt know when is it a comfortable carry and when its not! [sadly, now she can differentiate):] and she nv fails to cry whenever i carry her. tssskk. her ah mas' arms too cushion-y and snug alrrrr! hope that she will grow up to be one beautiful ladeee! yepp, beautiful both inside and out, alrighty kaylaaa:D

kynan had a rather bad fall recently, and it really reminds me when im young:/ esp when i saw the hole on his cheek. so scary! and the "lou-si-kar" [my nickname when im young, which means legs with screw loose or sth in hokkien?] is in both our genes. i also fell on the escalator. damn emo. not even chasing for the trains, but just walking up. and have to continue my way till i managed to get a seat to clean the wound. sheeshh. super duper embarrassing! think its the insufficient sleep getting to me! and a big PHEW is that i wasnt wearing skirts or dresses! lucky me!

hoping that 21st will pass fast. was really a party kind of person, and dislike going for birthday parties, esp those that im not exceptionally close to. cos i find it a total waste of time, when we cant even have a quality chat, and even had to travel t

o mostly damn ulu places [yesh, all the way into pasir ris is ULU] think my travelling time is always more than the time i spent communicating with others. only parties that ive enjoyed thus far is of cos with W6 and py. cos we never fail to chat and catch up with all that we have missed out in our lives(: but kinda feel for PY. went over to surprise her at 12 mn. hopefully we did not spoil her plans for her exams mugging:/ and she cant appear glamly in those photos [but still pretty alright!] lol.

and finally, MUGGING IN PROGRESS! 2 more weeks or so to my exams! zzzzz. totally lost my mood after coming back from korea, and miss the days there, where we just have to go school daily and participate. and not worry about stress and whats not. plus the travelling around seoul on our own is DA BOMB. is it even possible for our flawed education system to improve till that state? Not like i wasnt paying attention during classes, i was

even busy taking down notes like what i normally do in ntu. who says exams are necessary. maybe the govt can think in a much further hindsight, that they should train future generations not to just do things for the sake of doing, but instead do it cos of the will to learn. hmmm. sounds rather impossible to me right after writing this

down in our realistic sg. was rather amazed when our prof replied to our presentation about the lack of bins in streets of seoul. He said why not think in a perspective that koreans are able to live without excessive bins on the street as they are civic minded enough to hold their rubbish until they see a bin, instead of having so much bins along the streets such that when one doesnt see any bins, they will litter. hmmm. when he said that i was rather dumbfounded. cos throughout the entire project, we didnt even thought of that. i guess we were all reliant at the end of the day.

sighs. back to the point of school. totally love going to school and learning. understanding things makes me feel satisfied:D b

ut exams stress is a boohoo! and it really sucks the life out of people. But i can still do it! cos ive done it for the past 4 sems! THIS IS NOTHING!! hahahaha.. it will be over soon anyways(: GO FIGHT WIN!!!

heee. shall come back to blog more! i hopeee.. anyway, here's our photoshoot! love the nude makeup they put for us!!

more photos on fb(: teeheee! excited for our KL/kc kampong trip on NYE!! finally able to go over and play firecrackers after so many years of tempting by OKC!!!

ADIOS! hello books!

WHO AM I?

tomorrow gonna be qinqin's big day! a joyous occasion in the family(: once in a blue moon. not that im feeling very excited, but my body clock cant exactly shut down as i want it to. wait till it approaches 2am then it can(:

flying off to korea thereafter on monday. this is like more exciting/terrifying/whole-new experience for me. flying alone. really mixed feelings inside me. cant help but worry that things will go wrong or whatsoever. packed my luggage for the one whole month. bringing like 8 sets of clothes? heeheee. but my luggage already filled totally!! hope i can find cheap clothes there!! if not, really fall back to my backup plan of gmarket! using domestic address to save the slight shipping fees. hahaha. now my brain is just constantly thinking of what else did i missed out in my packing. but hopefully i didnt! cos my luggage is really already in the expanded state. sheesh.

anyway, went for a nightcycling with some mse friends that nornor introduced. so far, all my night cycling experience had been really good. love the night breeze, the pace that the world passes you, quietly. and of course the presence of people around, yet not into your space (cos everyone cycling in a single file ma!) really like night cycling. only thing that i dislike is the zonking out time at like 5am and the time after breakfast. when you wish your bed will to you instead of you having to travel home. anyway, night cycling is funfunfun! and i need to improve my motor skills! like a bit retarded leh, my reactions! and my coordination is PHAIL! hahahahaaa. no, but i didn't fall(: think its just the fear of falling that making my actions retarded.

needa sleep. if not i will be a zombie in a tutu skirt. hope my muscles stay toned tmr! ahhahaa. am i a task-oriented person? i doubt so. think im more of a stress-oriented person. do things only when needed and when im stressed! hmmmmm...

PIG PIG PIG

gotten back my results. pretty alright. or i should say its the best out of my 4 sems so far. hope it can continue this way in year 3!! and continue to pull up my cgpa, no matter how slow it may be. but at least its pulling it up!

bali trip went and flew past like instantaneously. but really am glad by the 5 ladies in my life(: hope we can have more of such trips in future! that was one of the evening we went to watch sunset. terrifying experience with lots of monkeys around that aint afraid of human at all! and they even attack and snatch things from tourists! more photos on fb. so lazy to write about my holidays. shall keep those experiences close to heart(:

lost my voice suddenly after my jb trip. it was really an awesome go-kart experience! but was superly tired thereafter. and went to jalan kayu for prata. not exactly awesome prata there, but the curry was UPSS. maybe that was the reason why my voice stayed there with the curry and lost her owner! hahahaha.

holidays were rather fulfilling and going to fly to korea for a month! cant wait. yet so lazy to pack my stuff. my room need some tidying up before qinqin's big day!! its in total mess now that i cant even find my own stuff! thats really really bad. cooping up these 2 days to pack up my room, and 2 more weeks before flying. my virgin trip flying alone. egg-cited yet worried! hope all my luggage and i fly there safely! seems like my luggage is gonna explode with the things im bringing over. wonder how am i going to bring them back with all my shopping loot!

neh mind. ponder over those soon. think ive caught up with all those diff clique that i ought to catch up for this hols. enough of gatherings. hahaa. no more reservation of dates for the next 2 weeks! hiak. needa sleep early and wake up early to run! been like a pig! eating without much exercise! GG.

thats a new song. love the contemp dance in the mv. maybe i should take up some dance classes?? heehee..

HOT ISSUE

i think the GE is one really hot issue. as hot as the weather as it can be.

nevertheless, despite being mind over heart or heart over mind. i think there will definitely be many viewpoints in this national issue, which is to decide our government.

so why cant people see other people's viewpoint, instead of discontenting with them straightaway?

never minddd. that's beside the point. now it's harry lee. think the more things he's said to the issue, the more respect i had for him is eroding away. so what about "No one owe singapore a living"? seems like we owe someone a living. for all the effort he had done, we had always been appreciative (from all the one-sided social studies knowledge), but he dont have to put out such threats and statement in our mainstream media. i would have expected more experience and wisdom from him. anyways, just really disappointed i would say. and i think this GE had really proved that GEN Y really dislike this attitude of what the MIW has. the image of them had to definitely change. but i still think that they are doing a good job, just that perhaps with a little less complacency would be better. though its hard, with all the power they had been holding.

im not exactly against them or anything, but through the whole week of GE-related issues, i feel that votes should always maintain a balance between the mainstream media and social media. both are lop-sided in their own ways as many know, and its would definitely make this whole GE less offensive if everyone were to seek that BALANCE! and i really think the loss of GY as a minister is really a pity. seriously hope that his talent will not be wasted!

wisen up friends, offend less people. make your stand, but make it politely and at least substantiate your viewpoint well, so that you have more weight on your view!

lol. im missing GP so muccchhh): engineer course cant help me seek a balance in my usage of language and all the theoretical stuff): and thats really bad. i dont wish to be dumb in anyway, cos i believe that the less you use something, the worse it gets. and my language not any better to start with!

im like half way through my exams, and im blogging about this kinda non-related stuff(though you would not want me to blog abt anything related to my studies!) sighs. Mechanics of Materials. why do i have to deal with you. seriously, sometimes i question myself. why am i here. actually, i seriously dont know even. but i could say that I'm glad that i chose MSE cos at least it is an engine course that is the least demanding. looking at the amount of syllabus i'm covering as compared to other engine friends, i can say that i'm really thankful. sighs. just hope that this doesnt undermine the degree that i'm gonna get. anyway, i though employer only care about the school and class of degree? hahaha. hope NTU don fall too much in the ranking then!

really long post i had! better hit my MOM past year papers naaaaooooo. I LOVE MOM. LIKE really really alot. *psychoing in progress* lol.. needa do well for this paper, to make up for my laziness for my today's paper! damn irritating can, the only derivation i didnt memorize, it came out for like 15 marks!! and at the end of the paper, you had to endure the tiongs saying how "JIAN DAN" this paper can be! seriously. i feel like going up to them and scratch their facessss! rarrrr. angst la. anyway, let them top the cohort, its alright. FOREIGN TALENT rocks my socks! hahaaha! i cant wait for those primary school kids that ST interviewed, and how they adore FOREIGN TALENTS now. think they gonna wait till they come ntu, the suicide rate wont be once a year. maybe like how many times more??!

aish. wasted 1 hour, and a really long post in the end=X ooops.

-why start when you cant sustain?-

gimme something to believe

and i keep telling myself this is nothing.

only 2 days had passed. this is nothing right.

gimme something to believe, at least.

yeppp!

tmr the 1st paper! kinda excited! not sure if its in a good or bad way, but i hope the prof will not be so creative this time round! and lemme get my A pleasssee! really put in alot of effort for this mod. let me reap what i sow, pretty pleassee(: dont wanna disappoint my peer tutor, he kinda expect us to get A, but not sure if there's some element of joke inside or what. hahaha. yet, don wanna expect too much and bring my hopes up!

aiya, seriously dislike these kinda mind games. wanna do well, yet don wanna bring my hopes up, for fear of disappointment. disssslike! its making my poor spongebob overwork for nothinggg! hahahaha.

i can smell the scent of holidays! cant wait cant wait! how i wish i have a pet doreamon or maybe a fastforward button for me to press! nay, its alright! kelly can do it! gogogogo! think after this sat paper is the real headache! 2 that i need to memorize like crazy. imagine memorizing science. sheeesh. and another one had to do with calculations): sadly, my math level is only excellent as of secondary 4! hahha! thereafter, "it going down dowwnnn!"

adios. wish me lots of luck peeps!

-life's a struggle, so as to let you enjoy what you deserve better!(:

i wanna get away, LIKE RIGHT NOW.

ikr. i dont know what am i doing with my life as well.

my second year in uni seems to flew past. Now its already approaching our study break, and exams here they come! so amazing how time flies. and sadly how people grow old and wiser as each day passes.

you found your priorities in your life, and sometimes you wish that you do not take them as seriously. cos priorities really suck the life outta you. but too bad, you cant change that fact yeah. just got to accept the fact and hope that you get your life back real soon!

now i am seriously looking forward to Bali trip with my dear girls, the beach (not a fan of the sun though a lil wont kill!:D) and of course away from the country and leaving everything behind. the fast lifestyle that we have, the 8am to 2am mugging cycles and the vicious paper chase. shooo and bygones! i'm getting a break from all of these for 2 months plus!

i really wanna lie down on the sand and and just melt into them. and hopefully i will disappear too! hahaha! nono! wanna go for my korea exchange as well((: smell the fresh air, and leave the sweltering hot summer in singapore for a month! swweeett!!

-you do not give up now, cos you dont wanna have your past effort down the drain.-

vrooom vrooom.

but sadly, i ususally cant remember my dreams neither do i daydream much):

i just zonk out. instantly.

needa get everything in place.

havent get myself started ever since the hectic week of tests ended. and was just kept busy with projects and trying to catch up on the tutorials that i've missed. wanna get back my 6 hours of sleep, at least for now.. cant believe exams in like 1 month time! and hence, i will not get enough sleep by then!

get your engine revved up, kelly!!! *vroooomvrooomm!*

wonder when will i get my life back and stop blogging about such boring stuff!

-when you know the way to excel, will you give it up?

even if it meant you need to give up your life?-

POSITIVE VIBES

The worst thing about a marathon is when you've run half the distance, and all worn out and breathless. And yet you are struggling to finish the run, so that your effort from earlier on are not wasted.

somehow, im feeling like this these few days. 1st round of mid-terms are over, and now somewhat starting the new round mugging seems so tough. the inertia to do it seems so strong.

on a positive note, think i did pretty well in the first round of mid-terms so far(: above the average for both tests! hee. press on! and make this an awesome sem! and enjoy the deserving holidays that are planned out! yeahh! love how a demoralised post can turn out so chirpy and positive!

i <3 positive vibes! let them stay around me!

All's well ends well! i hope it meant for everything in life now(:

OF SMILES AND RAINBOWS

just 2 mid terms over. but why do i feel so tired? so relieved that another one had passed, but yet not motivated for the 3rd well. been rather lucky to have a really resourceful coursemate who managed to dig out some past year CAs and managed to help me a lil. and i find peer tutoring really good!

this semester seems to be my get-to-know-ATs sem! my tech comm project have 1 PRC, my peer tutor is 1 too! really amazed by them and how they work. think they're just really really intelligent. think my peer tutor is like less mugger than me, watches english sitcoms like HIMYM but his gpa is 4.9? mad insane i could say. how i wish i have half his smarty brains. the good thing about these tutors is that they simplify those knowledge that the PROF made it so complicated. though im learning quantum in a mixture of chinese and english, but at least i can picture it so much better! sooooo, kelly, u must be nicer to PRCs! hahahaa!! stop stereotyping! lol.

anyways, cannot be lazy anymoreeee!! 2 months to hols! hope our bali trip will be fine! pray hard. plate tectonics. please take a break from your tectonic dance! and stop causing more destruction on earth! bali and korea! cant wait for all these to be over. i must make it a well-deserved break and really work hard now!
gogogo!!

missed kynan boy last sunday, and ytd spent the whole night with him! so envious of him. with everything that we've wanted in the past. think thats what all parents do now, is to provide them with what we cant have in the past. esp those lego sets! last time we need to cry so hard to have just 1 box of plain looking lego blocks. and those little flowers in the box will look so attractive. how papa psycho us to drink barley water to get our tamagochi. hahaha. those funny memories. now.. in his lego set there's animals, helicopter, fire engines! wooww. how can i not be jealous! lol. lets him he will grow up to be a fine gentleman and not be spoilt! nevertheless, he's still as cheeky and lovable as he can be!

-love seeing those smiles, and i want more of them-

come what may.

i was taught to be thankful for whatever i have

i was also taught to not to be complacent, and always try for the best.

how conflicting things can me.

one thing that made it this way: MANKIND.

How amusing how we tried to improve our life, to only end up complicating it.

How amazing how a little dot in the ultrasound photo, can become a full grown kid/adult in years to come. (yesh jie, from your blog!)

How uncool, how i am going on and on, without knowing what i'm talking about.

think i just wanna get away from my notes, though i've not covered much of it! tests, deadlines, project meetings coming up. less sleep, more coffee, more tea, more stress!

come what may, test my limits. i've always got one mentality. its just how hardworking you are in uni, how sociable you're = how many seniors' notes/past CAs you can get, how distracted you are, how much time you are willing to part with the "life" that you've wanted and sink them into mugging. all these simply makes up your GPA. sucha easy theory right! doing it the right way is another thing.

my v funny/bimbotic elective lecturer, was like commenting how "meritocratic" we are. whenever the guest lecturer is speaking(non-examinable), we just dont pay attention. but once she start going through about the marking scheme and whats not, everyone is quiet and paying 101% attention. LKY must be so happy in training us to be a meritocratic nation. KUDOS!

teared while reading my bestie blog (plus your v v emo bg music!), how much she is undergoing, how much i've missed her, how much i've whined and complained, and overlooking how hard she is trying. Well, i believe things will be better for her soon!

dearest kc,

I've got through Council life(though not with v good results, hee),

you will get through your JCRC term too!((:

AJA AJA HWAITING, kc-sshi! <3

Sarcasm muchh.

johngeremy:

I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,

“If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours, but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers, but text instead of call because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u.” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear to care, but not too much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. There is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s car.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: you are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored? Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see. But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal, deliberate, and means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most importantly, it’s flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say,

“This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

-- Ashton Kutcher

Chanced upon it while blog-hopping, always felt this way about how improvement in technology has done to us, but i doubt i can ever put it in such nice text. really made so much sense.

Taking technical communtications tis sem. effective comm, tech comm and prof comm are just pain-in-e-ass mods that poor engineers like us have to take in ntu. stupid logic in trying to improve engineers' proficiency in english, when we are listening to such awesome foreign lecturers with their thick accent and broken sentences. This simply proved that having the brains is sufficient, without the language, isnt it? since they can command such high positions in the sacred and pathetic 3 unis in sg. hahha. sarcasm much, kelly.

im just being idiotic here, but i really miss writing GP essays sometimes): and not some reports that have no relation to my life.

my conflicting thoughts.

the new sem has started long ago, and it's like the 3rd week. I oughta start doing some work, cos beginning to feel the lag and the guilt piling up. had so much to do, school work, biz mag shit, making appointment for my dental. andddd. errrhh. i think not really alot! hee. think im just lazy and more lazy. always complaining that im so bored, no shows for me to watch, having no life at all. in fact i think my work can really make me occupied if i were to participate in all.

supposed to go for some Openhouse Ambassador interview for our Union canvassing event. buttttt. i ponned, as usual. sorry. i just dislike making the extra effort to be enthu in stuff. you can call me slack or irresponsible. but you think i really care? heee. not exactly. think its harder for me to do things without a reason. seeing how my friends sell their lives to hall. just for a stay the next year. im sorry, i cant understand why people will do it. wonder where this cold attitude of mine come from. im now just happy with the friends that i've got in my life. enjoy my school life with my crazy coursemates, going home to slack all i want. this is a real pain when you start thinking for the future instead of the present. when people tells you that it's pointless to have abundance of friends and gatherings now, cos in future, you wont really keep much contact with them since all that's important is just the few good ones. im seriously hating those conflicting thoughts in my mind. the realistic side of me, or i should just go for the experience and so called "Living my life to the fullest."

so long since i last blogged, and here i am whining my mind away. feeling so boggled down with these nonsensical thoughts. not sure if it's just those darn hormones making me pms or is it really me that is going mad with too much free time. aisshh. another issue is if i should go for the Global Summer School. feels so tempted to go. it's again the conflict between Experience vs Reality. "Will there be any more chance when you can go overseas and stay for a month, and with friends around you, in future?" VS "Is it needed to spend like 6-7K for the one month just to clear my electives? should i waste all my savings on this?" "but money can be earned back in future right, but the experience cant!" another tempting factor is..... Cos it will be Korea if im going!! heeheee. sounds so exciting at the thought of Lotte World and all the travelling and new culture that i can adapt to! ohh mannnn. ottoke!??? sigghss. think to make some decisions before the date to apply. hope someone will really help me to come to a decision. or maybe lemme have a dream and convince me what i should do. else i would really flip the coin, and use the psychological methodology thereafter!

ps: think im pretty awesome at deceiving myself.

-what you want versus what you can achieve.-

imma arts student! (should be)

got my results back.

not very awesome, but im still happy for my grades((:

got my 1st A in the my past 3 sems!

my essays mods grades are like way better than my engine mods!

like totally wth.

A and 2A- VS B+, B and C.

and C is for blooodayyy MATH!

arrrgghh.

i think im in a wrong course. hahahaahaa.

maybe cos im essay skills are better than the majority in the engine.

but if i were to be in the arts sch, my essays will be worst off.

heeee.

blessing in disguise perhaps, to be in an engine school?

at least, somewhat felt that the efforts pay off. pray hard that i can maintain my gpa for the 5 more sems to go! wonder how lost i will feel when i graduate and all. What i should do for the next phase of life, what i want and all.

my 21st had passed. did not have any party, though i think it will be an unforgettable one if i were to have. no regrets though, since i save myself from alot of trouble. nevertheless, had many enjoyable celebrations with the different clique of friends. but birthdays are becoming a normal thing for me as i grow older. it just becomes a chance for me to have m wishlist fulfilled! heheee.

thats all folks. school starting next week. oh mans. needa start the crazy life again! but the holidays after this sem will be sweeter! cos we're planning for a bali trip with my girlies! wheeee! and i needa save up! alot alot! no more online shopping, dearieKelly!

who wanna be my kind sponsors?? any amount of monetary donations are welcomed((:

-I give my thanks, for my wellbeing and all that i've asked for.-