im so down

yes, i've gotten back almost all my results. yes i did improved, but it seems so far far away from my final targets. with only less than 2 months to go, and the many many hours spent on sleeping, eating, slacking...... BISH kelly!

ms tan did mentioned many things.
she's not bad a teacher, except when she screws us up when we did not do proper CONCEPT CLARIFICATION. she mentioned about how people sees you differently when you have an A for GP. yeah, it's sorta even more impossible than A's in those "practise-hard" subjects. but she certainly does make some sense. and now, i think it's either lowering my expectations or working harder. i shall be greedy and go for both=) not only that, she's nice in a way that she's willing to sacrifice her time for us. that seperates her from SOME of my teachers.

im glad school coming to an end now, though it also meant being on our own. my i hate those feeling when tension starts building up. cant help but feel those politics-stuff. it's really hateful. even more hateful when those around you are not sensitive. okay, it's just me being over-sensitive. sometimes i think our SGC is describing us way too good. so our future employers, dont believe every single bit in our SGC, especially those characteristic that is superbly inflated. again... what's the point of doing things when the purpose is so off.
oh wells, i cant comment anything right..
i hate to be influenced by others. i dislike having my opinions changed because of others.
but who to blame except for myself in having such fickle mind?
so i shall only learn from the positives.

yeah, smiles bring sunshine to my life.
i shall start living a solitude one.
"...i agree largely that solitude is not as enjoyable but could be beneficial..."
cos of those around me...

the world of relativities:
being with the worse off makes you the better off...
and the fun just marks the full-stop...

go girly!

DEDICATED TO: the special ladies in my life
here's on special post for you girls.
you totally rawks my life :))

amidst our busy schedules...

KC's BDAY!

AH BEE's BDAY!!

our starry starry night...

go girly POWER!!
jia you in whatever you guys are doing:)
future nurse, lawyer, journalist, CSI, teacher, doctor/dentist!
[no fighting, it's in alphabetical order!]
ps: occupations may change, due to future unpredictability.. :)

-SMILES ALWAYS, for those smiles will chase you frowns away...-
-your lovely dearestKelly-

nostalgia

.NOSTALGIA.

had been watching those youtube videos of the FIVES.
yeahh:)
the investiture when we are invested in,
the investiture when we danced..
so nice.
the sweet fuzzy feeling..
it still bring laughter to me,
[esp the invest video with the breakdown of the bus.. the source of the breakdown is.....???]
this made so much sense that when things end, it will become better:)

plus all those random and silly videos of what we did..
the numerous nights when we did the last minute prep for our events
the projectCIRCLE we had.
the joy, fun, tears, sweat and HUGS that we shared.

THANKS PEEPS for those.. !
you guys should go and look at them once more..
it feels good reminiscing..
FOR ALL TIME..



ps: will we ever have the chance to take the FULL council photo??

IMAGINE

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

yeahh, new playlist :)
remember the girl who sang the Somewhere over the Rainbow??
love her songs, especially the one "Imagine"
the sweet innocence.
the lyrics picture such a peaceful scene.
but it seems so impossible.
yeahh, in my dreams..
im shall be a dreamer too.. :)

Prelims more than halfway through.
it hurts the most when it's killing you, but not instantly.
i've suffered numerous panic attacks.
but slacked lots still... :P

i think it's almost attempt-able if i were to study harder. [duhh~ who doesn't say this..]
"harder" in a sense REMEMBERING better for the answers for the revision packages.
all subjects gave us revision packages.
you name me one subject and i can find the REALLY similar question for you..
and i did READ them..
and memorized SOME only.
those answers could probably have saved me for failing so BADLY.
so those jc1 peeps out there,
know what you are supposed to do.

i remember last year, around this time,
one of my senior, julian, said the same things too.
"those revision packages are there for a purpose..."
so the notes???
so plainly dumb - exams.
but we prefer it this way don't we?
though we know it wont be good for us in future, but who cares right,
the present matters the most.
human complicates everything..

the worst thing is that we cant say anything about this superb education system we are under.
cos it's all MERITOCRACY.
and those who cant think of a better idea than this shall keep their mouth shut.
i shall continue to be my "dreamer"...

.my utopia.my rainbows.my merry-go-rounds.my twinkling stars.
.my long-gone sweet innocence.

gogogo girly!

i embrace the noise around me AS PEACE
i embrace the stress level in me AS HAPPINESS
i embrace my weaknesses AS MY IMPERFECTIONS
im not mad
im not insane.
i just had been studying GP for the past half a day.
with the presence of my mum and her oldies.
thunder and the drilling outside.
perhaps im nuts...?

im happy for the presence of my many many sisters
because they allow me to compare and know which lifestyle i want to be in the future.
influence of friends.
good to a CERTAIN extent.
and the extent is unmeasurable because of the different types of people you deem as friends.
sometimes i cant stand the presence of her and her nonsense.
it irritates me and my other sis.
but we cant control her right.
yeahh..
this remind me of my da jie in the past use to tell me and karolyn
"don't be like qinqin, if not i dont dote you..."
now i change the person i do not wish to follow.
yeahh.. =))

i feeling afraid when i dont feel nervous for prelims
BUT A's
this is horrible.
i know im totally not prepared for prelims.
but where's the fear and anxiety that i need to push me?
it's all gone...
but for A's,
it's indescribable.

some nice girl randomly messaged me this morning.
about how her friends and her compared this year teachers' day to last.
it's so sweet with the words she used..
"they thought it is an MJ tradition.... but it's you and mars who left a legend...."
something along this line.
sweet yeahh.
it makes my regrets in joining council when i see my lousy grades worthwhile after all.
now im striking a balance
i've achieved the much mentioned "JC experience"
now it's time for my good grades!!!!

gogogo, GIRLY POWER!
nothing brings you down!
those girly-friends around me too!
nothing can bring you GIRLS down too:))
PS: those guys who also wish to be motivated can regard yourself as a girl too! lol.. =))

not forgetting!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAROLYN AND JIEJIE!!!
nooo.. they are 2 different sisters
noooo.. they are not twins!
yeahh! i think the last nice nice bdae cake that i remember is my pink, heart shape one!
and that's like when im a single digit age!
it had been so long in my family since we really really celebrated one!
you two better do something nice for me arhh!
i want a BIG BIG, HAND MADE CARD!
double or triple or even BIGGER than the ones i made for you two!!!