photopost

since i cant sleep,
i shall do some photo post=))
my fun days after the BIG A's!

went back for OGL camp=))

missyBITES!

missing quekish and me=))


syc gathering. ehh, i look lost..

the three goddess=)) the days we've spent shopping for prom stuffs=))


spending time to catch up with jo! from brunei=)



sending her off... =((
camwhoring continues...

xmas eve steamboat! missing ah bee and may=((


my xmas prezzies from them!
wl's bday treat! by the wonderful chefS!





yum seng!! cheers!
our homecook treat!my first clubbing experience, zouk=))

dearest girl who accompanied me=))
class=y gathering=))
goshhh, my eye bags!! !@$$#@!
those who went! dumb dumb HaHa's look!
oooopps! my hand blocked your face!


the censored words! lol!!
ice cream chef! after the super long walk from astons!

sunrise!! after sleepover at jon's place.. the uncompleted movie!!
background is nice, but we're abit dark yeahh...
tilt your head or tilt your com! =P
mahjong session at py's place
the super spastic shots! ROUND ONE!


on the way to singing after shopping at vivo=) ROUND TWO!!!








taaddaaaass..!
that's all for today..
this is just a SUMMARY=))
i shall go sleep before i go out for the awaiting of the next year to come!
yesshh, and it's countdown at my workplace again!

ps: feel free to grab these pretty pics=) cos i realised i didnt send some of them!

my work

it's gonna be a new year soon..
and i think im not the type of person who will keep to my new year resolutions,
so better save my brain juice to create them=))

my new working life has just begun
and i think i've enjoyed myself so far..
the process of being a "junior",
picking up skills and knowledge,
knowing more friends
and many more..
of course there's like tonnes of bad things too
irregular sleeping hours, meal times are constantly changing everyday, having my dinner at like 10plusplus, eye bags and so many more..
told ya it tonnes alr=)
tried the closing hours alr!
it's rather fun yet mundane!
cos need to wipe like every single thing..

i think my bday will be alright after all,
a dear friend of mine changed her shifts with mine=))
thanks, girl! [it's keechen, in case you're abit slow..]
but then...
i need to think how to work till 4am the day before and reach there 12 the next day..
hmm.. that's a difficult task...

my dearest bday

last year my bday eve that night was spent at rach's house
preparing for 3rd day of orientation
always remember that surprise,
when someone cheated me to bathe and sleep first!
and the actual day was at white sands macs
eating our super late dinner/supper
spent with my friends

this year,
mine will be spent at my new workplace.
different styles every year,
not bad if i were to be more optimistic.
budden...
my friends cant celebrate it with me le..
never mind,
i shall be a big adult!
hahaas,
my dearest bday shall be like any other normal day!

complain and complain..
and the day will never end!

ps: all along, when my fonts are purple,
those will be my thoughts.
if it's black,
then i'm really telling you what had happened blah blah blah..

emotions and smileys

my life has been busy for the past few days.
worked for a really short while,
3 days job and i quitted
sound really like a loser.
but anyway,
gotten another one.
though not my desired sort of job
but i dont have much choice right?
not it's the jobs that are choosing the owners
and not the other way round

my life just revolves around
people people and more people.
i dont exactly dislike this fact.
but i dislike the fact that human beings are just plain
confusing and complicated.

i just started reading a book about a guy who has some syndrome
and he dont exactly understands how human emotions work.
maybe i will soon be like him.
and in my own word,
i will only have that few smileys to represent the many emotions
life would then be pretty much easier=)

i dont like all the sweet talkings.
i dont like all the "i knows..."
i dont like everything that is "oh, it's so REAL!!"
and it's even more difficult to know how your decades-long friends are feeling,
cos she will know better how to hide it from you.
and i think i'm getting tired of it..
now i truly understand, "Absence makes the heart fonder.."

-you will never know what a person is thinking deep down inside...-

sometimes getting frustrated doesn't help.
so what's the point of doing so?
i just cant comprehend what you are doing..
i wont be irritated so easily.

kc-mama

KEECHEN-mama gonna be back sooonnn!!
lols..
i miss you alright!
after seeing you on consecutive days for 2 weeks plus before prom
and after which not a single day=((
you must be so honoured!
cos im stuck in deciding some stuffs, and would gladly need some of you assistance=))
anyways, that lucky girl must be enjoying herself in HK!!
while we are all stuck here in the warm and stuffy or rainy and gloomy SG=((

argghh..
my class-y friends are on the way to bedok again..
not gonna be late AGAIN!!
gosshhhh!!!

shin pao mian with egg

im so full..
ate my "shin pao mian jia dan"=)) [watch goong and you will know what i mean]
my fave korean noodle during exam period
when im in love with cooking up my own lunch.
i ate lots of the noodle,
finished up all,
cos i threw 1/3 of them before cooking it!
hahaa.. still alot to me
cos it's like 2/3 down my stomach
now stomach feel so bloated that i cant bathe!
and im gonna be late for the vivo trip with pohpoh=((

i think i can really eat alot now.
like my appetite is alot bigger!
rather than exam weeks,
when i felt so sick eating.
or should i say the energy wasted to chew the food.
but now...
im eating lotsa unhealthy stuff!
enough of my nonsense=))

had s205 bbq at sean's place ytd.
was pretty fun,
cos most of the people im alright being around with are around
plus i started the fire! with help from old man tan! [dont's say i didnt mention!]
lol..
and ah wong didn't come!!!! =(((
he lousy lousy pok..
hehee, kidding..
cos he's busy..
not like us=))

arggg..!!
late le late le..
to be continued!!
plus photos alright!

old granny story

boo!!
im finally alone at home on a weekday afternoon!
it had been awhile since i've accompanied kai for half the day=)
cos im going out again later.
for my class bbq.
and im gonna miss my mum's home-cooked dinner!
when im mugging hard, i dread eating her dinner.
but now i wish i could have it..
cos outside food is making me constipated and stuff..
boohooo...!
shall say my old granny story=)))
cos im superBORED at home!
photos next time!

the past few weeks have been fulfilling.
it's like the days that many of us yearn for.
and now we are like a lil sick of these.
had sleepover at py's house, mahjong session as well=))
went back for OGL camp,
bbq with my secondary school peeps,
with a turnout of 8 ppl!
and most of them are from mjc except 2.
wakakaas..
it's still enjoyable nevertheless.
after that bbq, my throat nearly died
and im having another bbq again.
it's not going to help my constipation as well...

oh yeahh,
went to my mum's childcare to help them with the concert!
they are like superduper adorable!!
i sticked to a 3 yr old class.
and there's a girl who's really so pretty with fair skin, big eyes and bangs at the bottom of her hair.
she's so lively and adorable!
remembering all her steps and smiling widely..
hopes BIGBOYkynan will have his concert too!
and he shall be dancing in the first row too!

im now kynan's BESTfriend when he's at our place.
hahaas, next best choice after his mummy-ia..
that's how he calls her.
and we are all his yiyiiii-ia..
im a proud yiyi=))
but tired as well..
lols..

needa go pom pom alr!
tataaass!!

-why is it that it's so much easier to spot a pretty girl than a nice-looking guy???=((-

ps:
- i still dont feel like going for the camp=((

- once i wrote that two alphabet "ps" i still remembered i owe someone a book!
-im now using facebook more ofter=)) after my nearest pohpoh helped me clear the junk! and hopefully it will un-hang it=))

zzZzzz

whhaaaa!!
my legs are on the verge of breaking.
been shopping like non-stop!
yesterday was out with my mum =)
went to city hall and suntec =))
and gotten myself a bag and a pair of cute and sweet shoes!
shopped till my bones nearly cracked.

today continued my shopping expedition.
today was with KC and WL, and also grace and jw [unexpectedly *winks!!*]
walked like the entire bugis thrice!
bugis junction, bugis street, HAJI LANE, OG
and we covered some places like many MANY times!

haji lane was horrible.
cos we were like walking under the sweltering hot sun
and half way through me and wl could not stand it and we applied sun block in the middle out of no where.
firstly, we missed the entire Haji Lane.
but we managed to chance onto some customes shop!
tell you, those shops actually exist!
there's like millions of customes in one of the shop!
we had lots of fun there!
cos it's really unbelievable, all the things you find there!
some are like fairytales and blah blah blahh...
but for our prom.... ehhh, like a no link nehh!

when we finally found your beloved haji lane.
it's those shop houses where you need to climb stairs up to the shop itself.
annndddd... my legs are........
PLUS the things are like super overpriced.
not that the quality are fantastic either..
not sure why either??
tourists places of interest of is it the rentals?
anyway, it's just not suitable for students like us..

now i have like super-well toned legs..
my butt muscles ache all the way down to the bones.
sobbss..
but all these beats studying!
so im continuing my spree with lil kynan boy, jie jie and mummy tmr!
whhheeee!!
which means im training my arm muscles tomorrow too!!
by carrying the cute lil boy,
who's really a big boy!
im gonna be his best friend again this weekend!
lol!

tata!
shall go oink oink..
and recuperate some energy for my first yoga lesson!
with kc and wl!
whheeeee!!!

-and the day pass like any other...-

rewind

REWIND:
actually i've been playing since after chem.
naughty me..
hahaa,
i was like stuck on my fanatic craze on taylor swift.
saw her Lovestory music video on my friend's bloggie.
i dont even know it's her,
until kc told me.
and i just thought she's pretty in there.
real pretty, with her hair and gown.
and i just started that craze..
somemore, this was the day before chem paper 1..
after the paper, i began looking for her videos!
blah blah blahhh...
she looks the best in the lovestory mv i think
cos i still like the princess-y look.
shall have that style for prom..!
whahahaaa...
im nutss..

and the following saturday,
i went to tamp to shop and dinner with my mum.
and.......
i bought my prom dress!
i was very extremely fickle minded.
went into the shop thrice
dragging my mum and out newly bought HUMONGOUS pillows
and i finally bought it
after the assurance from my dearest wl and kc!

just cross my fingers and pray that no other of my schoolmates gonna buy that
cos i bought it from our school's frequent hangout shopping mall, tm :((
didnt expect myself to get anything from there
but still...
expect the unexpected, i guess
and you feel double the joy!

-im still waiting for more of such unexpected-ness...-

here's the video!

post exam day 1

whheeeee!!
back here officially!
my post exam activities started off with eating and shopping.
and it nearly killed my slender long legs and back!
whaaa..

went out with my class girls.
pretty sweet time out,
cos it's my first time with so many of the girls!
9 of us tog..
hahaas.
anyways, cher recommended us a shop selling beads and handicraft stuff.
i didn't know of it's existence all along!
it's brilliant!
and im off with my artistic flair!!

BEFORE: a typical head band

AFTER: with the beads, amethyst and black:)

UP CLOSE: too bad my "good hp cam" is super duper clear!
duhhh!!

went off to the library with jia wen to look at more of the handicrafts book.
and we've got more and more ideas and went to got more materials.
starting my artistic project no II.
i love this type of day!
but my savings running out... :((
no money no shopping no going out no FUN no JOY!!!

it's alright,
shall spend wisely...
bless me with the skills please...!

-i went pass that very place with the great sense of nostalgic...-

chem

Lonely fear lights up the sky
Can't help but wonder why
You're so far away

There you had to take a stand
In someone else's land
Life can be so strange

I wish we never had to choose,
To either win or lose,
That we could find a way
(We could find a way)
But I won't turn my back again,
(Turn my back again)
Your honor I'll defend
So hurry home and till then

Stand tall, stand proud
Voices that care are crying out loud
And when you close your eyes tonight,
Feel in your heart how our love burns bright

I'm not here to justify the cause
Or to count all the loss
That's all been done before.

I just can't let you feel alone
When there's so much love at home
We're sending out to you

All the courage that you've known
The bravery you've shown
Clearly lights the way

We pray! To make the future bright
To make the wrong things right
Right or wrong, we're all praying you remain strong
That's why we're all here and singing along

Stand tall, stand proud
Voices that care are crying out loud
And when you close your eyes tonight,
Know in your heart how our love burns bright

Voices that care are crying out loud
And when you close your eyes tonight,
Feel in your heart how our love burns bright

You are the voice
You are the light

Stand tall, stand proud
Voices that care are crying out loud
And when you close your eyes tonight,
Feel in your heart how our love burns bright

Stand tall, stand proud
Voices that care are crying out loud
And when you close your eyes tonight,
Feel in your heart how our love burns bright

You are the voice
And the guiding light
Feel in your heart how our love burns bright

im so touched..
this preferred subject of mine is officially over...
now in me will just be the memories of the "good" failing days which many of us had.
but i think we've finally realised they're all useful...

a d i o s

life had been "wow, so wonderful.."
like certainly wonderful.
living in my lalaLAND for more than 8 hours everyday.
of course it's wonderful.
the guilt after that never fails to last more than 2 hours.
dangg.. bet our dearest ah wong gonna come after me soon.

the journey seems to be really seriously ending soon.
how i wish i can hide myself in my room,
and really study.
but now i can sleep like anywhere..
tables, cold floor...
hate it.

the many regrets doesnt help.
the certs really seem like some shit-paper.
so what it's so nice when my grades are like bleahhh..
enough of complaints.

yesterday was Farewell Assembly.
some really boring parts but some really highly entertaing ones.
i really say BYE to all of you.
wonder what i will turn out to be in these last few weeks of M-I-A.
shall be like that...

A . D . I . O . S

down down down...

tonight my emotions are going haywire.
felt that im super-mean during tuition,
sheez, but that's not my nature kays..
after which it just went down down and way down.
been pretty long since i last felt like this.
having a long bus journey on a single deck doesnt help either
when i dont have any privacy [i know we arent supposed to have privacy on a PUBLIC bus]
dumb emo songs blasting into my ear drums
may someday i will self-disintergrate
and disappear from this world un-noticeably..
no pain for myself and those around me
but it just seems so impossible..
im really thinking too much i guess.
but i just cant help it.
hormones, stress and greater workload...
what else can i do except to let them all out alone on the bus.
da*n the strangers who saw me
was totally disastrous then..
luckily there's no cute guys! LOL..
well, i hate it..
why cant i just do what i think.
life is in a great mess now..

i really wish it would pass quickly
yet i dread this mega huge exams to be here so soon.
dang! what do i really want???

im so down

yes, i've gotten back almost all my results. yes i did improved, but it seems so far far away from my final targets. with only less than 2 months to go, and the many many hours spent on sleeping, eating, slacking...... BISH kelly!

ms tan did mentioned many things.
she's not bad a teacher, except when she screws us up when we did not do proper CONCEPT CLARIFICATION. she mentioned about how people sees you differently when you have an A for GP. yeah, it's sorta even more impossible than A's in those "practise-hard" subjects. but she certainly does make some sense. and now, i think it's either lowering my expectations or working harder. i shall be greedy and go for both=) not only that, she's nice in a way that she's willing to sacrifice her time for us. that seperates her from SOME of my teachers.

im glad school coming to an end now, though it also meant being on our own. my i hate those feeling when tension starts building up. cant help but feel those politics-stuff. it's really hateful. even more hateful when those around you are not sensitive. okay, it's just me being over-sensitive. sometimes i think our SGC is describing us way too good. so our future employers, dont believe every single bit in our SGC, especially those characteristic that is superbly inflated. again... what's the point of doing things when the purpose is so off.
oh wells, i cant comment anything right..
i hate to be influenced by others. i dislike having my opinions changed because of others.
but who to blame except for myself in having such fickle mind?
so i shall only learn from the positives.

yeah, smiles bring sunshine to my life.
i shall start living a solitude one.
"...i agree largely that solitude is not as enjoyable but could be beneficial..."
cos of those around me...

the world of relativities:
being with the worse off makes you the better off...
and the fun just marks the full-stop...

go girly!

DEDICATED TO: the special ladies in my life
here's on special post for you girls.
you totally rawks my life :))

amidst our busy schedules...

KC's BDAY!

AH BEE's BDAY!!

our starry starry night...

go girly POWER!!
jia you in whatever you guys are doing:)
future nurse, lawyer, journalist, CSI, teacher, doctor/dentist!
[no fighting, it's in alphabetical order!]
ps: occupations may change, due to future unpredictability.. :)

-SMILES ALWAYS, for those smiles will chase you frowns away...-
-your lovely dearestKelly-