confusion

I've been feeling very different with different groups of people.

saturday afternoon, with keechen and pohyu to mas @ bras basah.

it is a conducive place to do tutorials,

as you see so many other people doing so.

practically the whole place is filled with students.

went home for dinner with my family at around 6 plus,

and bathed before leaving for Mac @ airport.

i stayed over there with some other nominess,

and did the sickening math tut for practically the whole night.

special thanks to Miao Ying.. she really rawks..

maybe you want to consider to be a tutor. =)

on sunday.

jie jie finally came over again with kynan.

[me and jie jie and kynan out shopping at Raffles City.]

and we went to Mac @ 539.

in case you still dont get it, im jus trying to stress that i've been to mac for umpteen times,

and the smell of the garlic chilli is driving me bonkers.

gossips and contraversials...

sacrifices: time spent with families and friends

and so many others...

these are all due to a single decision that i had taken.

had i really made a wrong decision??

i seriously have no idea.

i've sticked it through the bad times,

but will there be worst times?

and i believe there will be,

but the real question is will i be able to get over them.

tomorrow the results will be out,

and now, im here having second thoughts.

i serious~lly, tota~lly have no idea what am i doing!

-confusion overwhelmed me...!!! and i hate every second of it.-

exhaust took over me.
i felt so drained,
and there is the SLC for tomorrow morning.
a saturday morning for my sleep just given up like that.
i feel so like skipping it too.
but my conscience wont allow me to.
perhaps i will still pon it anyways.. hahaas

conflicts in the thoughts.

-we will get better...-

thoughts

thoughts and thoughts.

people worrying the same stuff.
friends are made and others may be not
fears and tears...
i know you are trying hard..
i will try hard my best too.

-i hope my worries are unfounded for...-

nahhh lalalala

im tired of my class jokes.
but im getting used to it lahh.
jus because i'm late on the same day as one of my classmate
and everything started from there..
ARRGGHH!

i wont leave you behind, KEECHEN!!
you won't too right..??
nothing will happen, really nothing...
cheeRios!
[aren't you touched.. =)) to have your name on a prestigious site!!]

-all's well, ends well...-

randoms randoms.

im so dumb!
i took the lift and missed the train.
and then... we were late.
i know it's our fault, but the teacher can't help pissing me off,
with her "indescrible-ee~gi~tating" face and voice, yelling away at us.
come on lahh, we are only abt 10 mins late, [pohyu, familiar??]
but because you guys locked us out, thus we were even later...
she made my monday blues come back!!

i cant be so unlucky right...
nothing should be done...
puhh~leease

-wonder if ignorance is bliss or is it the other way round...-

i feel hot..
I'm now having sunburns on my arms, totally burnt.
my face too!
i'm alright with getting darker, but just no extra freckles.
they really s*cks..
i've a feeling maybe i'm burnt in the brain as well.
my thoughts and my actions don't really goes well with one another.

had my burns cos i went wild wild wet today!
the joke of the day is when beesiang tried to enter the male changing room.
it isn't really her fault.
cos from the lockers,
the 1st toilet we saw were for the males,
and there signs were too extra~ordinary..
imagine for males the MUSCLE-bay
females- bikini whatever one..
haha!
but it is really hilarious when keechen and me realised and started screaming for her..
so people, beware when you guys go WWW.

movie marathon was fine.
but they screened the horror movie at the second slot.
so it screwed up my plan.
i thought they will screen it last,
and by then i will be deadbeat,
and in my lala~land.
but when they screened it,
i was like 1st hiding behind keechen,
then when her screams were too much, that they gives me creeps as well,
i went to find becky at the back of the hall.
when we really talk, while the rest of the school scream!
i dont get it, why some people.. especially girls who can watch and not scream,
and also those who wants to watch when they are afraid and they scream.
i seriously don't know what i want..
LOL.

i really hate my messy desk.
and also the person who messed it up.
i think i'm getting up early tomorrow to clear it.
and also a early breakfast, since i missed my dinner.
better grab some sleep before it's time for breakfast!!

sidenotes: -i fear and dread the results!! wishing everybody all the best!!
-PI needs to be up!! arggghhh!!!

-cries of agony, tears of pain. complains of frustrations, how could they...-

AHHHH!

my first ever time after the JAE that i had FUN with my class..
was queueing up for chicken rice alone,
when two guys from my class joined me..
and after a while, 3 more joined the queue by cutting in..
and soon the fun begins..
i realised im the only female amongst the rest of them [after sitting down, then i realised]
and they said i'm a guy too! i'm not that boyish you know..!!!
and they sorta had a rule that the person who finished last puts away all the utensils..
and so being the only girl, i just had to admit defeat..
and all the guys looked at me when i eat.. =)
plus all the jokes during the food makes me eat even slower..
soooo.., next time i know not to sit with them, unless im trained to gobble down my food! =))
me being the sporty me.. went on to put a whole stack of plates back! DANG...!

had a good nap, a long one..
it had been eons since i had one.
think i better enjoy it while i can.
cca starting tomorrow,
so i will know how crappy or nice it will be.

a good warm 45 minutes bath after a nice nap is what i really asked for.
washing away all my fatigue and stress, down into the drain.
it really really feel so good.
plus all the thinking time i have to myself..
when i'm running alone around the tracks as well.
thoughts just come tumbling to me..

perhaps it will be a few decades later when i will ever have a chance to do all those again... ...

ps: i've taken a liking to the word: "eeeyyerr!"

-handling life to the fullest...-

i may be strong

DANG! i just realised and recalled that
there is a consolidation exercise for econs tomorrow
i started it at 10 plus and...
i just went to e-learn it.
should be fine lahh, but i dont really get some parts though.
the lecturer is like chanting, or maybe singing lullabies to get me to sleep.
i survived and here i'm blogging!

i seems strong throughout the whole thing.
but after i came out and when i'm at home,
i pondered if i'm really that strong...
now the worries are onto the results.
that is like so common...

wishing good luck to those who yet to be interviewed, and those who are already waiting for results. =)

-once again i had to believe in you and me...-

council interview.

it is happening in less than a day time,
and all the worries accompanying me will be over.
no matter what the results will be,
i will be strong...

hopes are there for me.
thank you.

anti-climax: belated Happy April's Fool Day!!

-believing in oneself is the power...-