tired out

IM BACK FROM KOREA!!!
i'm sick.
i'm deadbeat.[though i slept for 12 hours last night]
and i'm working early in the morning tomorrow.
okay, i shall blog about my trip soon.

ps: i really enjoyed the snow, though it's only for a day!!

-making new friends amidst the fun, looking at guys during the chat...-

dearies

I just have a sudden urge to give a BIG HUG to all my dearies.
my dearest family:
my dad, mom, karen, kat, kris, karolyn AND kaiser!
and of course to my dearest friends:
kc, bs, wl, bz, py.
*HUGZ!!!*

smart-looking dad enjoying the family portraits..



pretty mom alert!!!


we with the flamboyant sunflowers.


the zhu sistas unite!!


















mom & dad -to-be, with my unseen nephew

















trying to pose with some renowned people huh..?



















the three young ones















MR AH-DOG DOG preparing for shower time!!!
















[will try to post the real family portrait soon...]




FUN-LOVING AND 'CHANTEK' GALS ON THE LOOSE!!!
trying to save space, yeahh??

having a crazy photoshoot. oops! we "are not" supposed to be studying...

ps: sorry for not getting you guys' permission to show these photos, cos you all are too irresistable... =P

[i had no idea how to do the headings properly.. just match them yourself..]

-the love i get from them is forever...-

preparation

recently i just do no have much mood to blog.
thanks to a blur sis of mine,
who accidentally switched off the whole computer.
and for the past half an hour the blog that i typed vanished.
YES, into thin air...
that was a couple of days back.
it just took my mood away.

been preparing myself for the trip.
i had also helped kc and bz.
ain't i sweet.
helped them fold and roll their clothes like some mummy out there.
well, that's what friends are for. yeahh??

i now have 10 strawberries on both my hands.
they are on my nails.
apparently to my sis they do not look nice.
cos they are supposed to look cute la..
it looks rather bright and outstanding
but it's alright.
b'cos im gonna wear gloves in KOREA.
and all will be covered up.

next 8 days:
going to KOREA, south korea.
yeah, i just cant rest down.
too excited about the trip.
may we have lots of fun and
of course safe return! =))
[promise i will at least blog a lil about the trip]

now for the past:
in my deleted blog I'm supposed to write about Kynan.
kynan is the "it".
yeahh. Isn't it great??
i went with my sis for her checkup,
and i also saw her doing the ultrasound.
it was such a sweet-tingling feeling
when i saw the heart thumping away.
i now really feel him,
coming into my hands in a few more months to come.
I'm definitely waiting for that day to come.
After the checkup,
we went shopping at Orchard.
it was surely a fun trip
der, cos i bought my school bag.
it' a sling one.
my present from my sis.
so sweet yeah, my mom-to-be sis.
hehe...
at least now her blood glucose level is fine,
what a relief...

-a fun and enriching journey of my life...-

PAE

i had already done the admission for the three-month course.
finally put the mind-boggling stuff down.
had been wondering if i should put mjc or tjc first,
guess what is the outcome?
i put tjc first!
it was kinda risky cos i have no idea how i will fare in my O's.
i might get kick out if i did badly for O's.
but if i were to put mjc first,
they have high retain rates,
vice versa, it's still bad.

with all the different influence,
i think there are more ppl for tjc.
just heck care
the most i cant get into tjc and mjc,
i will jus end up in tpjc, hopefully...
jus give me some schools in the east and i'll be rather please.
but definitly no VJC, for no particular reason.

here are my choices:
1st Temasek
2nd Meridian
3rd Tampines
4th Anderson
5th St Andrews
the last two is placed jus to fill up the space =))

-hopes are high, and may not dashed will they be...-

shopping day 2

today went for another whole day of shopping
after yesterday's short one.
bought loads of stuff,
preparing myself for the flight to Korea.
therefore bought the necessities to be used there.
ranging from lip care to many others.
also, i bought a pair of ladies slippers and shoes to be shared with sis.
there after, we went for V8 for dinner and they were really sumptuous.

i had never appreciate my sistas more than ever.
today 1 gave me advice on travelling,
another on fashion.
they had really contributed to the depth in me
im not complimenting myself, but them.
really great thanks to them =))
and of course,
to mum. for making all these possible.

O's are over and am making new plans for the near future.
the fun holidays will be over before we know.
on monday, we will be getting forms to fill in our decisions for the 3-month
and i'm probably going to change to TJC.
sorry kC and wL for changing my mind.
i assure you tat i will be back there if i really cant take it
and even if we are in different schools,
you guys will definitely be in my heart
not forgetting the other two affectionate friends,
bS and bZ.
you four had definitely brighten up my life!
i hope i had made your lives more enjoyable too.

we had changed from the us[sec 1 i think] in first pic to the ones[sec 4] in the second print.

there are changes in us, but not our friendship.

well, friends are for life!!!

-to soar to greater heights with them...-

de parture

4e1'06 last bbq had jus ended.
joys came, followed by tears.
making new aquantainces and parting with them,
are just part and parcel of life.
just gotta accept it, and move on.
Also, all the best for you peeps, in your future endeavours!!!
REMEMBER!
"We gonna be far apart,
But close at heart."
.Thought by BS.

enough for now,
think you guys can get more about this from kc's blog.

-4e1'06 peeps, you guys will be deeply missed...-

wish and want

FIRSTLY!!!
my wish will soon be fulfilled. just a week, and I'm sure i can survive through it pretty well! =)

SECONDLY!!!
my new want: CREATIVE ZEN V PLUS
loving it more and more... ...

-get it over, get it here...-

it's jus another beginning

i slacked away the afternoon.
yeahh, away from the books.
it had been so long since i saw the crowds and shops,
and yep, im missing all of them.

went to Bedok polyclinic with mum for her checkup
and noticed the change.
it is supposedly to change for the better,
and i guess it did.
in terms of technology, yeahh;
but i dont think it did make it more user-friendly
instead less.
well, most elderlys are illiterate and although it is in our 4 main languages,
some could not read either of them
so what's the point.
you cant possibly write dialects right.
ending it; still takes the stand that the green and red buttons type is still better.

all my friends blogs are about the around-the-corner O's.
some hope it may come fast end fast,
some wish they could have more time to prepare.
i tink im the first type and thinks that just be done with it fast.
Im really getting sick of all those books and the "trillion" facts embedded inside.
so what is the purpose of exams?
to cramp our brain cells with those facts?
to stress us?
to show our potential and weakness?
i have not a slightest idea,
jus know that i have to study.

Forget it, it will be over before i know
and i really wish that in future,
when i look back,
i will smile on my past...

Dedication to all my PALS:
Study hard and you can achieve all your dreamss!!!! so why are you still looking?? GO study! =))

-yes, I can do it, and the millions of things to accomplish after which...-

a tribute

leaving makes people sad,
no matter if you are close or not.
yes, absence does makes one's heart fonder.

tuned to the radio previous night,
heard it is her last show tis morning.
so waking up early in the morn,
to catch her for the last time.

her words and tones always makes one yearn for more.
did not really go and appreciate it in the past,
and now regreting for more.

well, we cant help it but can make do with it.
just wish you all the best for the change.
Will miss the programme tat you always hosted!

-changes are for the better...-

Kim Jeong Hoon

today went bugis with sis and mom,
though for a while, but the short retail therapy is real enjoyable.
Definitely, cos' i'm comparing it to mugging for O's..=)
adding to the joy, i heard half a song sung by Kim Jeong Hoon.
though just half, but it is enough to melt me.
but i did not buy it! many many reasons..
never mind, i will check it out some other places. =P

enough of crap, going back to GOONG!

-it will be over soon, yes it will be...-

1 down

1 down.
and it's only Biology prac.
and there is more to come...
working hard for it
and may i excel in it.

-may my wishes come through, for all of you too...-

countdown

take a look at the time and it is 3.44am in the wee hours of the morning.
Well, i slept from 2100 to 2300, thus being wide awake right now.
Had a bad cramp in my left calf during my so-called nap,
and it still hurts a lil till now.. no idea why.
btw, there is something real wierd..
Im only wide-awake when I'm in front of the computer screen,
and toh~tally sleepy when I'm doing papers.
think they are just lullabies to me, despite them not singing anything.
Guess this is then called "power".. =D

Study leave is starting soon,
but tomorrow is marking day..
that is why i can still be here..
tomorrow, am going to MJC openhouse,
guess i will enter there after intense consideration
well, choices are limited.
Just provide me the will to endure through this crisis period...

Thoughts for last week;
now sorta undergoing a real pittest-pit-period.
days are lousy, moods as well.
many many different things takes place,
but i have not a single idea why it is happening.
tears brimming when im reading.
it is just too sad to be accepted,
that we are just nothing next to dust..

And for tis week;
someone asked, what in my purpose in life?
i pondered for a while and wondered..
we struggled and hung on,
and all is just for what?
still find no answer to the question.
and just concluded that it is for a better tomorrow.

Some rough countdown;
`4 days to start of practicals.
`3 weeks to start of papers
`5 weeks to completion of papers
`6 weeks to crazy time
`7 weeks and im flying!!!
i only like the last part.. well, who doesn't...

-things will be over before you know it.. and it's great that way..-

beginning of a new ending

a special dedication to none other than YOU:
trying to change myself into a better person
just for you.
but you seem to be doing for the other you

trying hard but
with no success.

will perservere.
provided you don't take me for granted.

not making any complaints
doesn't mean I'm happy.

I just do not wish to
burden you with my woes.
although sometimes i did.

I'm here for what I am
be thankful.
yes, its you.

-give me the chance, real friends do...-

after prelim activities

ytd had a great time
took the last paper and we hit the theatres
caught John Tucker Must Die
which is a pretty great show.
thereafter, went shopping at the same usual TMcumCS.

went home, and carried on another shopping spree.
tis time with mum and it is at Orchard
had bought lotsa of stuff from
inner wear, undergarments, to outer wear, winter jackets
well, i think i spent more than a hundred..
eh, great thanks to mum! =)

took a bus home and slept all the way back
btw, joo chiat area is really brightly lighted
and also bustling with activities.

today was work-out day
woke up early
walked and bathe kaiser,
all single-handedly, and mind you,
it's really tire one out
and after that,
i continue sweeping the whole house
PLUS mopping!

met up with few peeps
and continued with my workout regime
went running.. 3 rounds
followed by swimming,
or should i say dipping in water?

hehe, yeah, i cant swim, and im not at all shameful for tat.
they tried teaching me, but i guess Im just too stiff for it.
but i thot of learning it
and it will be with lotsa of kids,
and it makes me have second thoughts about it
just considering... ...

came home and ate
btw, you guys should
catch Channel 8 9pm every Saturday
I Not Stupid serial..
it is really hilarious and nice!
and im here now..

-had fun, and want more!-

Simply Seven

Simply Seven
tis shall be my new title.
my favourite title and theme combined together. =)
keechen had suggested remaking one,
so i just went along with it since it is already AFTER Prelims.

see tat, it is after
which is to say that a major hurdle is over,
BUT i still had not gotten my results back
im not hoping for much,
cos im not my usual form tis time.
just hoping for the best is all i can do now,
before the terror days come.

O's will be in approx. a months time,
which is not very far away..
and my stress is goona flood back
at ME AGAIN!!
nevertheless, i just want it to happen fast
so that i can carry out those things that i had planned.
im anticipating... ...

-i hoping for no more less than that, fulfil my wishes...-

.once upon a time.

music flooding into me, thoughts flooding through...
true love makes one happy, but fairytales do not exists
so what is the point...

-it's all a silly talk and thought, to think i ever fathom about it...-

.the end.

Did not plan to write anything about it, but just to let some of you know why im absent from school that Tuesday after Youth Day. you can read from my sis blog, http://crankyshopaholic.blogspot.com/2006/07/we-just-got-closer.html
do not wish to dig up the sad stuff, yeahh, so just this for you peeps...

I merely was absent for a tuesday lesson, and im like really lagging behind in lessons.. I just felt too tired to learn, and frustrated at times. Having mood swings cum the family probs are also one of the contributing factors to the lag in me. nevertheless, i can feel myself picking the trail of pieces up slowly, which is rather fulfilling, so i'll just let this pace increase by itself..

i will not be blogging that often now, and i think i really mean it this time.. so please don't expect too much from this blog.. it is going haywire too, and i'm just not bothered to do anything to it..

-save the tears for i know it will be useless; save the sorrows for i know she will be happier that way... ...-

.new environment.

yeahss... im right now blogging at my sis' hse.. new environ rite? never the mind, im just being lame. hahaas. having a bbq at the void deck here tomorrow night. it had been so long since i last went for a bbq. think the last one is last year end hols.
i'm right now enjoying the last few peaceful days of mine after the past few days of "chionging" my hols assignment.. I know of quite a number of people who are already starting to revise for their prelims, and know i should do like wise, budden... my inner self just refuse to do. what can i do. mum alreadi asking me why i have not start revising... well, to answer you frankly, im just too lazy... [im not blaming her for stressing me, sometimes tat little bit of pressure works for me.. im not insane, seriously..] Let me enjoy the last few days before i begin preparing for my exam battle, i've alreadi promised myself i will... really..
Talking about battle, recently read on the newspaper about the nuclear thingi that korea is about to test or something. Im really getting curious what will happen if it really happens. I just know that i will not be good. War is never good, there will always be bloodshed... so never start them please... ...
okie dokie! going to watch show. so tata for now. i will not be blogging that often now.. so sorry peeps.. =P
-getting myself into the mood, please grant me the mood...-

.laze.

look at the time i'm blogging... yeah. it is 4 whole hours past midnight, and im still fully awake, with no mood to sleep. Must be the doing of the caffeine in the tea[from Cameron Highlands, yum yum!] that i had taken few hours back then. it takes awhile before it activates... So now, peeps, you know what to do when you guys wants to stay up late..

i managed to complete my geog articles and i found like 25 since there are so many disasters going on, and i just pasted all on blank papers and completed summaries. think im just gonna give ms koh those extras bahs. make these her farewell gift.. hahaas. I've been at this for the past 3 hours plus, and this time can be used to do my A math hw. im like left with so many other hw not like py who can really enjoy her hols. so much of me saying i do not like doing homework for the whole day in my previous entry. now im just being envy of people, forgive me peeps..

Today sis and mh came over. in the end we did not bring kai for his grooming thanks to who's ever silly mistake. No one's fault actually, just some misunderstanding and forgetfulness. so next week then he will be fur-less. muahahaa!!! [i sounds so evil... *evil grin*] i did practically nothing in the afternoon, yeah, practically nothing, oh! i slept.. hahaa...

-lazing around may be relaxing now, but not in the next few weeks...-

.happy day.

Today was a nice and fun day. I was jolted awake at precisely 1021, cos' i had forgotten to set my alarm to wake up at 10 to watch the repeat of Superband. In the end i missed the first two bands which i yearned to watch. who would not want to watch Snoopy and their extraordinary performance and also Brods with their powerful vocals. But Brods seems to prove me wrong with their 2nd lowest marks. Anyway, there is something to rejoice for which is the team that lotsa my friends and i want it to get out is finally OUT!!

Had to continue with my newspaper cutting, which my mum had helped me to collect the daily newspapers during my geog trip. By the way, the geog trip was fun man. Just that we had missed quite a lot of case studies which i really wish we could do, and also the Mega Mall shopping which i bet everyboby must be harping about it now, and thus i did not buy much stuff, still saded over it... Nevertheless, the long bus rides was quite worthwhile, it had really helped me to understand some of my friends and teachers better. But i seemed to missed out another fun at est's bbq...

Went out with mum and kat for the whole afternoon to Parkway. We shopped and the whole shopping centre was really bustling with business with the sale on and all those stuff, but i did not buy much though, jus too tired to buy.. just bought one pair of shorts and some hair stuff. We went to Jack's Place for dinner, i had salmon, and i still preferred Fish & Co. instead. We did not try the steak either, quite idiot right, since that is usually what people will order... but me and my sis went crazy over her newly-bought digi cam. we were snapping away of ourselves, posing like some bimbos. yeahs, went home after a while more of shopping of kaiser's food, it really weigh a tonne to me.. but i still managed to lug it back home.

yepp, now i had finished cutting my articles and was doing the summaries until my head was nodding away. i had only managed to complete 7, and have more than half left, and tomorrow i'm bringing kai for grooming, which also meant i do not have the whole day to do my hw. But i still prefer this type of holidays, enjoying myself in the day and doing homework at night, It just seems more paced out, more like a holiday to me. I doubt i will also spend the whole day doing my homework, might as well relax myself, before the next battle...

-let me stay in this mood, cos i'm just loving the feel of it...-

.state of loss.

I have not a single idea where I'm standing. In me, i feel so stranded by myself.. I can really feel the importance of friends and I definitly appreciate them standing by me in those times of desperation. I would hereby present my utmost sincere thanks to KC and BS for all the support that you both had rendered to me. Thanks!

Once, i felt so charged, so sure of where I'm going. I really like those times and i know it really work things out. But now, I'm total opposite. I'm feeling lost again. Lost in the busy world comprise of the so many people in it. At these times, i really wish someone would offer a hand and lead me... Just the someone... Went to the Bedok "Kbox" on Thursday.. I was like happily enjoying myself when i all a sudden, while listening to a particular song. I felt so 'emo' and all those feelings came flooding back, making my eyes brimmed with tears... I guess it was all a mistake in the beginning and I should not have repeated the mistake that day again.. I've no idea why Im feeling that way, but it just came and go, leaving me helpless all over again...

In approx 2 days time, i will be away in Malaysia, for the geog trip.. I was quite looking forward to it and hope my excitement will be paid off. Yep, i believe it will...

-I wish i knew where i can escape to, escape from all these hell... Someone, tell me all these is just a disguise...-

.Absence.

yeAhsss~~ exams are nearly over, which also meant that the stress is depleting. guess it will build up again when we are getting out results back. but never the mind, let us be more optimistic.

During the Exam period: fallen sick abt 3 days before the exams, what can be more dreadful than that. during exam period is sick cum recovering, but still manage to get myself to revise. well, surprisingly, i can do the Chem paper! Which i usually am clueless about what it is talking about for all the past papers. but tink it is easy, so on a average, it does not make much difference. English is quite a killer, physics nv expect it to have so much on sec 3 topics, so not very prepared for tat paper. tink bio is sorta wasting our time. well, genetics taken me one of the longest time to study, and all that come out is in Paper 1. Furthermore, there is less than 5 qn on tat. I had enough time for chinese paper...! but results-wise, no gurantee.. hahaAs.. E maths P2 was not as difficult as i thought it will be. i thought it will be the type of paper like the-yr-before paper, but came out quite oRrrrhhh~kay lars... as for geog and ss, not really confident... just pray tat wont fail. think that about summarises for the exam period.

Now for the after exams part...

We are having a long weekend tis week and on monday had to go back to school for approx 3 hours, but main objective is the last 1 hr paper, a lil dUH right. cant help it. after which the saga of mid year exams will be OVER!!! and we will have a marking day and the day after is also a school holiday for us, cos of the Elections holiday postponed to then.. another Hurray for that. have quite a number of things on my mind that i want to do. Wish to:
(i) go cycling[best is night cycling, but tat seems impossible.so had to settle on sth simple. main wish..hmm...]
(ii) watch The Da Vinci Code movie and Aquamarine [no other movies, peeps, no point persuading me.. heEs..]
(iii) watch those DVDs that had been piling up long since before MYE [heard tat some seems very gross, so having second thoughts..]
(iv) mayb have another SPL gathering?? camp?? Nostalgic over the good old days..
(vi) Going back to the shopping craze that i had gotten into before exams, gotta control though...
(vii) sweating it out. but how to??
(viii...) many others which i cant think of right now...

to conclude... i think i put in my best efforts and i ought to reward myself for that, and perhaps regret only after getting the results... PREPAING TO UNWOUND!!!
I Believe In Reaping What I Had Sowed...

.My Life.

Blogging seems tiring to me now, i had lost the fire to blog. Perhaps it is because that my life had became stagnant with nothing much to blog. Reading blogs is much more better. Advantages being: 1) Can know ppl better. 2) Realise that there are more things happening. Disadvantage: 1 and only) very strenous, esp when you start reading from the very beginning...

My Stagnant Life: Nothing much happen for the past few weeks, except for things that i dont think is worth blogging down like boring stuff and unpleasant stuff.

yeaS~~ stepping down already, but it seemed to me i did not hand over very properly, or is it the teacher's fault again, since the teacher is the middleman. Heard all these from my juniors when we went out for lunch at Pizza Hut...Really pity them fro having to tolerate HIM for another year... nvm, going back on monday to see see them and maybe to settle those problems, since the teacher dont seem to be very trustworthy.

Managed to come across many pictures from our class chalet. Well, the sense of nostalgia is flooding back again, as usual. I'm really missing those 3 days, 2 nights. Deeply etched in my memories... The sunrise is extremely nice in the photos, dont seem like the one we saw in realistic, or issit photography skills??
i miss you... ...

-those feeling will always be hidden, no other than that...-

.nothing is what it seems in this realistic world of ours.

What a nice holidays indeed. Yeah, nice... Hope you can sense that im sorta being sarcastic. How great can a hols be with as little sleep as normal days, a lot more hw, same amount of problems bugging me, blah blah blah... Well, most of it is what I caused myself to have one. Anyway having any regrets will help nothing, no point crying over split milk.

Got my progress report out. Doesnt look as good as i thought. thanks to some NICE grades i have which i had forgotten. Guess my memory has great filtration skills, making the happy one vivid, and hiding the bad one.... Rememering only the impressive ones and not the others. I had failed 2 tests, and one of them being english, the other was expected, chem. Average percentage wasn't any better.

Performing for speech day and guess what, we had to wear ethnic costume. How crappy can it get... Just shit the teacher to hell for the damn great suggestion. You really have great ideas. Well, sometimes when you want to lie, can you please tell some believeable one and not one which makes us question the credibility. Anyway, i really dread going for CCAs now, having to see the great teacher, and best of all talk to him makes me wanna feel like puking. I really wish i had not taken up this position in the comittee, just because of of this, im obliged to make so much commitments. Tks for the tempting CCA points...

Perhaps as what py had mentioned in her blog, we cant have everything. I really love any other thing about choir except the teacher. My juniors are really a great bunch of ppl, instructor was good, other teachers in charge is okay, well, except that one who can really spoil my mood. Was so the pissed and angry this afternoon. My mood really plunged to the lowest of the pit today. what great fashion sense does he have, well, quit bullshitting to me, im no kid! What The Hell...

-i cant be what i want right, you force me to be one...-

.dang!.

Had been neglecting this blog of mine lately, but i think tis may happen quite often in future. Because ive been very lazy to switch on the computer just to blog, i had lost my interest in almost everything...

Went to watch Disney on Ice yesterday. It was great, except that the things there can really be expensive. Imagine a small ice ball [like traditional ice kachang, except tat it is smaller] with a disney mug cost 14 dollars, a packet of candy floss with a mickey crown cost 12 dollars and a large packet of popcorn in a Disney bucket cost 16 dollars. Well, imagine...

no matter wat, the show is relatively nice, but not nice till WOW type... after the show we went really crazy, taking photographs like we just knew the squarish gadget can draw pictures of us in it. der... we just went over the moon. Had a great lots of fun at Kallang River, and also had problem going home cos' we were sort of lost in our small island and unable to get a cab... This is something I know i should be shameful of. Still managed to get home though. Reached home really wiped out and just bathed and slept.

Despite the insuffiecient sleep over the past few days, i still managed to crawl out of my sleeping territory and get my ass to school for the dreadful choir practice. Not really that dreadful after all, just that I did not went out for lunch with my juniors and others after the practice, and i turned down pohyu because of this. I then realised I am gonna be stuck at home alone, but I went to my mum's the childcare instead and slacked there playing with a small children's toy vehicle, which I am clueless what is it called. I just had to turn the handle and it moves without me using my legs to push, amazing right? Okay, it's just a kiddish toy and i shouldn't get so fasinated over it. Then went home and slept till dinner time. Great time management huh. I did not complete my hw as planned, well, plans for and by my usually go awry... This is why it makes life more "exciting"...

-noted that now most children sleeps lying flat down in their face...-

.Down.

I wanna cry I wanna scream till my lungs tear I wanna pummel myself

I just want hide in the small corner of my own.
I just want to be a stalwart girl.

-Is it too much...?-

.slacked off.

Well, as the title suggests, im just slacking my minutes, hours days and weeks away.. My slack is really lazing around, and not doing anything. It seems that other classes are all so stressed up and me so relaxed. i actually spent my whole night lying on the cold and icy floor, just listening to the radio and staring blankly in the ceiling. Do not like the feel of that although i should be enjoying while it lasts. Ironic.

Perhaps all come from a single root of cause, which is all my feelings bottled up in me, making me a wierdo. I've not any slightest idea what is happening in me. I could sense a change in my thoughts and ME...

- i want back my fulfilled life with accomplishments, i do not like the feeling of nothingless. as i said in my previous entry...-

.blah blah blah.

Did nothing much today.

Just woke up, rushed through morning routine, went to sch, underwent approx. 2 hrs of boring SS, lunch, BOUGHT JJ's CD!!, went home, slept, went to CGH in the evening, dinner, and home.

Really nothing much. So nothing much here as well...

-Feeling nothinglessness is bad... Real bad...-

.review.

This is a new blogskin, and i finally got it done, although it took me ages. Nevertheless, i think it looked alright.

Many things had happened in my life these past few months and i guess words just aren't enough to explain all that had happened.

I will just try to let bygones be bygones and carry on this crappy life of mine.

There are times when i really appreciate the creation of the water heater, as i difinitely like the feeling of the warm water flowing from my head till the last strand of my hair. Taking away with it the worries, problems and the so many other things and having it all gushed into the drain.

If things were that simple, I would not have that much problems. But i certainly like the feeling of being cleansed.

I am beginning to see the irony of life, and how complicated it can be. People maybe all hiding behind their own masks and portraying what they want others to depict them to be. This reminds me of the movie "Memoirs of Geisha", where behind the beautiful, thick, white makeup lies all the lines of ambiguity.

How ironic is it when we always grumble about people faking, and yet we will still say when they are being their true self.

I think i had changed a great deal, and perhaps i had been too stressed up in the past few weeks. i just want to put in my best effort and not regret like what i did in pri 6. Thus, i'll also take this opportunity to apologise to those people who i had hurt in either ways, i had never meant to be like that...

-seeing him no longer makes my heart jumps, it just makes my heart ache...-
Listening to some songs can really make me tear... i have not the slightest idea why they have such huge hidden power in them to be able to move me...

testing 1, 2, 3.

just a test. tis isnt a proper entry.

new year!

well... it's a new year now. wish everybody a happy new year.

with regards to the "supposedly" lost class tee, i had found it already. perhaps im too stressed out with some other stuff, tat i start blaming other people without any real reasons. sorrie guys...

need not work now, as sch is reopening. well, tis working experience may be tiring, but it is the first time i worked on a job for so long [the 1st is flyers, and it is only 3 days, but it is the ppl im hanging out with tat counts..>.< ] it is also the first time i workedtill 3 plus in the morning, on my last day. cool right..

now waiting to get pay, and also preparing for camp. have to spend my brithday in a camp, should i be happy or sad... haha.. im not sure abt it either.

okie dokie.. gotta sleep now. or i cant wake up tmr alreadi.

(.") hoping everything goes well, and ends well. wishing for the best. (".)