again and aGain... ...

dreads.. jus feeling lousy... dunno for watsoever reason.. they are bad.. issit frm the exam stress.. is like im jus me, and i jus cant change myself. nobody is perfect and i dun tink u are too.. i jus have my faults and i jus live with it and if u wanna be frens, den cant u jus live with it... it seems like some kiddish stuff but it is getting worst as the days passes. it is getting worst and i feel so lousy everytime im in sch. its jus horrible, and i bet you will definitely not enjoy the feeling.. if u are the one. cant elaborate much here.. everything jus stinks..
now tat exams are around the corner, everyone is so stressed up and things start bitching abt.. shall jus get over wif it, nicely, and its to the last lap of secondary life.. isnt it great.. but it takes a lot to get over everything nicely..i will try my best, but definitely no promises tat i can really do it.. how i wish i can jus sleep and not wake up anymore.. the test tat i took todae isnt gonna turn out well.. as like wat they had all said.. im jus over special in my thinking.. i may jus flunk it.. well, best of luck to me.. they are rite.. im wrong.. way wrong.. \everything is my thinking.. none of their fault... `yeah rite!`\ kkZ. enough for todae.. no more brain juices..
(,") im not a thing.. even if i am, u cant jus use me and treat me like shit.. (",)

aRrgGghhhZ

arRggGhhhZ.. school reopening in about 6++ hours to go.. which is like- uRrMph.. while im still here typing away.. so short hols. but quite fun.... nth to write now.. so lets recap on my hols..

`camp until mon. den amath lesson after tat.

`tue peeSICs lesson.. late for it.. but it is alrite.. u noe why if u noe whose the teacher... den kc and bs came over to my hse.. bought lots of junk food to replace my previous dae dinner, tat dae breakfast and lunch.. den watch SUPERSTAR! till 1900.. den dey went back.. and i cleared up and ate dinner... which i had totally lost my apettite alreadi.. lols

`wed slept slept and slept.. den 2 plus went to kc hse.. supposedly to do homework.. but did a lil, den ended up doin her jigsaw puSSle... den went home.. did hw late at nite, and sleep...

`went to sch to clear up PL room.. and of course kc late again.. went up to her hse and waited for her.. the room is cleared, and new fengshui as well.. and than i realised my umbrella is lost,, i got feelings for it one leh... at nite chiong homework again.. at the end left onli a math and map reading

`fri slept till late, den went out wif jie jie and mama.. saw est and yol at the train.. den later meet up wif the rest of all my sis.. saw cheyl oso.. my choir senior.. bought clothes for jie jie wedding dae... quite nice lar... but now having prob matching a bottom with the top.. went home den did map reading... so now left wif am..

`sat went out with kc, bs, wl and bz... went till late late.. den go home. went kbox, den bugis..

`and todae.. sun.. went to jie jie's new hse at Bt Gombak.. far like one end from another lors... on the way there read harry potter.. den way back home slept on the train den now neck aching... den saw kelvin when im half asleep and at my most hagged state after dunno how many hours of clearing away dusts... did am hw after dinner, which is my last one... and im DONE!! now laming wif my 'seniors' of out special club at our special session.. tis is how i spend my hols lor.. simple rite.. haha.. kkz.. will try to blog asap.. but no promises.. since the term is reopening... so fast...! kkz.. nitey! [or issit early morning??] =)

a change

term 3 is over, camp is over, the feelings fading, but more and more mixed up, but is this the new me tat ive been asking for.. if tis is really the one, im a lil regretful... blogging in the wee hours of the dae, cos im rushing homework.. and jus happen tat my hand click and saw tat some anonymous doggie ask for an update.. so, im here updating..

the camp was fun.. except for the cooking part which is so troublsome... someone, please make cooking hassle-free. knew more ppl, all the exco ppl are all out.. no more camps alreadi.. sobz... really gain a great number of great frens through peer leaders thingi.. and though we may all from different class, hope tat we can all stay in contact and mayb return as alumni when we are old.... ermmm.. quite a good idea.. now im missing camp life.. bet some others also too.. it is like everybody is so close together, chatting, gossiping, joking and of course poming tog... but we did not do it tis camp... wasted..

presently, i seems to have spend a lot of time doing my hols assignment, but they still did not seem to be touched.. the days are flying and i do not want to go into the dreaded term 4.. which will then lead to the even more hated sec 4 life.. everything is like so fast... old alreadi.. tired alreadi.. i had lived another year one earth, which also meant that i knew a year worth of things more.. can i grow younger and be a child again and not older... being a child is so easy.. as compared to now..

detest all those dumb feelings stuff... got them off my mind during camp, but they all came back after camp.. wat the hell.. jus scram! gotta go it not i will be typing my head off again...

(,")wish for a fairyland.. can i get one? its all over alreadi.. which is great.. but it's getting boring.. can i have a great yet exciting life??(",)