bAtTeReD

tis is gonna be a sad and boring post. so no point reading it... i jus had too many things on my mind.. Im jus too tired out, and stupid feelings and thoughts are all coming to my mind, driving me crazy. How i wish i could have someone to talk to, to confide to, and let all those stuff tat is making me delirious out. They're really stinking up my mind!

Have a long week, and i guess another is coming soon.. what can i do except take it day by day.. think it is all not on purpose, jus that everyone is so closed together, and just took it for granted and heck care about it. but who would like feeling so left out and down. what else can i blame except of the me in me...

the school is like so shitty to me these few days, and just get the thought that school is fun. it is getting worst as the days pass.. and there is not at all any single thing that i can find to make me happy anymore.. im just a pissed off, down and rejected person sitting in a corner of nowhere.. im so sick of it and cannot take it anymore.. jus need to let it all out before continuing with my life. how i wish everyone can take off the big fat masks off their faces, and may there be truthness in the world. wont tat make everything easier and more happy. im a person too, think of my feelings, i need accompaniement as well, give me some... im so sick and tired alreadi...

tink i jus wanna end here, and hope i had not saded you as well.. so sorry for pouring out all my woes to u guys out there. but i need to do it.

(_")wE aRe beaUtiFul, nO matTer wHat thEy saY, worDs caNt brIng uS doWn...

PUSH THOSE THOUGHTS OUT!!!("_)

wishlist

deCidEd yo maKe a wiShlist, buT laZy to pUt iT in tHe blOg itsElf, sO jUst maKe tiS simPle one.

>-)))-'} i wish for a fairyland, where the word "unhappy" don't exist.

>-)))-'} time

>-)))-'} peace

>-)))-'} fun

>-)))-'} new me

>-)))-'} contact lens

>-)))-'} a new cam phone

>-)))-'} bag

(_") haVe maNy wiShes, but jusT wriTe thEm down foR Fun..howEvEr, iF yOu waNnA gIve mE anY oF thoSe, iT is sErioUslY fInE.. gEees ("_)

it's all over...

the whole ndp had ended but the tinge of sadness still had not left me. feeling down, cos need to leave some fun and cute ppl tat we had met during the long and tedious process.. nevertheless, can meet them online lar.. but the especially cute one seems hopeless.. onli got photos as memories and next to nothing besides dat.. nvm.. i can get back to my main subject.. haHa..! ytd took lotsa photos, but need to see when then can develop them. wan them asap.. the ndp ytd seems the same, jus abit more fun, cos we force ourselves to make it a last fun one.. there were more fireworks as well and every scream till we are hoarse.. the after parade party oso a short one and we still went back at ard 9 plus, unlike wat gab had said.. 12 plus.. which is also expected lar.. crappy.. tink i will really miss my past few hectic weeks..

on mon after the sch celebration, the spls went to pulau ubin.. everything actually went quite nicely, until the ending, when i fell, with some minor scratches and bleeding. something worst happen down the way.. and the details seems very longwinded to explain, so no explanation here... =) dats abt it alreadi.. and now had to rush the homework.. got lotsa A math qns to complete.. but luckily dere's no test tmr.. *phew*kkz, gonna miss u guys all... and.........got to rush off............*ZOOOOM!!*

(_")bringing my focus back to you, which hurts as much too...("_)

afresh

shit! i did a stupid thing...! actually finish typing the whole load of crap, and i changed everything to a single 'n' when im trying to change the colour. arrggg.. so frustrating.! long time no blog le, so got lotsa stuff to sae but had forgotten a whole lot as well... now jus say the main points liao.. cos it is like so early in the morn wif me not bathed yet. next week is gonna be a great or a horrible one... on mon goin to perform in sch. and it is like kinda wierd to have the choir doin some steps tat have the mass effect. and even wierd with a small number of ppl doin. and in addition, i oso did the steps so horribly wierd, so i tink i will spoil the whole thing... on tue is the big and the LAST day.. it is really very saddening... we are all gonna leave the whole thing. being involved in it is so over troublesome, but having it to be over seems very empty. how to get the best out of the both worlds. it seems impossible. mon oso doin racking on pulau ubin. tink i will fall down the bike lor.. haha.. dun care. fun can liao..

last week had been returning very late, cos of the hall deco.. now is a shimmering and starry hall... which looks really great. todae went out with mAma... cos todae no rehearsal.. den went to the same old tampines. mama bought me a 3 quarters... which really like it. den oso saw a pendent which is in the shape of the slipper.. cute ritex... but nv buy, cos tink not worth dat much, and now im regretting.. lol. tink i will still go and get it.

tink i had nth much to add except tat, i really tried to forget abt all those crappy feelings, but it jus wont go. obasan seems to be having the same problem as well.. lol. nvm will try harder... kkz, tink will see ya in a few weeks to go since always have such taxing load. always sleeping so late and waking up so early. really tiring, but i will persevere! i can do it... kkz, now goin to bathe, den gonna attack my high pile of homework... tataZ..!

(_") always thinkng of u in my heart, and it is also always bleeding hard... ("_)