failure

who can be of more of a failure than i am. i cant believe i lose my class tee. it is like so depressing when i realised i cant find it. and my father is like rubbing salt onto the wound with all his crappy comments. well our house is small and things cant be gone, but there is still a possibility of it dropping off the drying pole right. dont have to admit that you are careless, but you dont have to make so much comment as well. im so pissed that i have no mood for dinner jus now.
well, emotions seem to be overwhelming today. no idea why. perhaps it is just wat makes a lady. was listening to some music that i used to like, and my mind went wandering off to nowhere. if it were positive emotions, i will not mind, but most of them were negative one. some one teach me how to control them.

today went to the Panasonic factory. we finally succeeded in going for the factory tour. but alvin did not get to enter as he was in his NCC uniform, which make them think he is an army boy. how wierd can adult thinking be. learnt abt how the factory work and it is pretty interesting as it is the first time. plus that i did not know the factory is so big, as i always thought bedok cant hold such big factories. just a misconception i guess.

(.") hoping the tee can be found. teach me how. teach me now. (".)

12.12.05

Yeah. Im so great right. Updating at this time of the day.. should be morning I think. Wee hours of the day and im not sleeping instead. Tomorrow still have to work and im still not sure why I landed at bedok south sec instead of Temasek. Still prefer Temasek, perhaps I should tell auntie ivy that.

I had done another emaths paper and also did half of the X’mas presents. Told ya im great. LoL enough of promoting myself. But nth else to say, so byeS!
(.") is it true that fear takes avway every potential in you? hoping for nothin', wishing for more. (".)

review

Well, it had been long since I last blog. It is very obvious, from the previous post. okay, Im now trying hard to make my blog sound less slinglish. Okay, nowadays have very little time to myself. I now know why es wants to quit. It is like no life.

But what to do if I need to have money. Now work already, but have no idea how to tell the auntie ivy to give me my nov pay first, or else how am I gonna to survive for dec. she said she will give me on sat, but who knows if it is true.

And I cant believe myself tat I actually said I going to huamin on saturdae. Bet im outta my mind then. Well..just slog my guts out on that day for the sake of the money. Hope it is worth it.

Yesterday did bio mcq. Think I need to have a show at night before I can get some homework done. But at least I did some, and not rush them all out in the end. end up today nearly overslept. Yesterday slept at 1 plus. Read The OC. It is pretty nice. Or should it be interesting, it is like a story about teenagers like us, just that we are not as open-minded as them.

told him everything, tks for the urge. well, now everything is supposedly cleared, but heart still aches. may i be able to forget about it soon... ...

tomorrow going to Sentosa. hopes everything is fun, and make it a worth it break.

(.'') "sometimes i feel that it is good to let it out," he said that to me. (''.)

wishlist 3

birthdae in less than 2 months time.. waited so long for it.. happy, but it also meant sch reopening... sobx

new updated one...! u can get me any of tis stuff... haha. but money which is not included can be give too... wakakAs...!

>-)))-'} i wish for a fairyland, where the word "unhappy" don't exist.
>-)))-'} time
>-)))-'} fun
>-)))-'} a new cam phone
>-)))-'} side bag[perhaps 1 from bloodbros...?] \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} sneakers/shoes \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} the surfer paradise shirt \\new!!\\
>-)))-'} someone whom i can confide in
>-)))-'} board for my study table.. for putting notices.. \\new!!\\
haVe maNy wiShes, but jusT wriTe thEm down foR Fun..howEvEr, iF yOu waNnA gIve mE anY oF thoSe, iT is sErioUslY fInE.. gEees ("_)

hols....!

wow.. now then i realise it had been dunno when i last blogged. well, think this blog is rotting away soon.. did not have the mood and privacy to blog. hols is nearly half gone and im finally working... hees, tks est. todae first dae onli.. now really noe money doesnt come easy. only half dae and im nearly dead. lols. i had completed my summaries, left the cutting and pasting.. weee!! sounds so great, but if i list out all my other undone homework, all the happiness will be smashed to pieces. well nth much to write also. jus wan to update. many things had happened and cant record all down.. lazy to do it. well.. should i go and watch the exorcism of emily rose? same said boring, some said scary.. but im afraid that i might jus waste my money to get scare stiff, since im that kind of person who dun watch ghost movie.. but it seems interesting to me..someone tell me how... okies.. nth much already.. will update as soon as possible.. byeS!!

a sunday

well.. todae was pretty okay.. woke up early jus to see wat is the ingredients required for the making of tang yuan for our chinese pro. mum wanted to buy for sis wedding, so i went with her so that will know wat to buy when doing project.. so thoughtful of me yeah. den came home and did some house cleaning.. scrubbed and washed the kitchen floor for abt one hour and then bathed and got ready for our project meeting.

we were supposed to meet 1300 at bedok inter alighting pt.. well, haoyan, alvin and gerald all forgot and we had to call them and wait for them.. wat a nice start rite.. den the rest went pretty well though.. we went to the library in search for some information, but could not find any.. when we left the lib, hao yan was with us already.[funny thing is that at that time, all 5 of us were wearing all black tops although we did not say anything before hand.] then went back to the alighting pt to look for gerald seeing if he is also wearing a black one, but saw him with a pure white tee instead.. kc and me then had our lunch while waiting for alvin at the hawker centre.. he came after we finished eating, and we went to the desserts stall to order tang yuan.. the uncle was friendly..and give us great help.. after which we went to eat the hot and cold desserts in another stall.. and tis time we were not so fortunate.. almost all the dessert that we bought from that particular stall did not taste as wat we had expected. it is like a little tasteless or wierd tastes. now i noe why my family trusts and always buy from hollywood.. it is really nice..

after eating and taking many many photos, we went to fairprice to buy the ingredients. bought them and went to burger king to discuss the dates for our projects. there were no available seats, so we went to the library suggested by kc. we went to the third storey which we thought we could have more freedom in discuss and making noise.. But Noooooooooo[py's fave phrase..], it did not turn out as expected. we were fooling around and kc took out her cam wanting to take a photo of the beautiful planet scene, but a libraian saying that there are signages when we did not even see any single one, that we are not supposed to use cameras and that they will be confiscated. well.. after all those crap, she got nastier jus because bs joked with her, and her attitude turn from bad to worst and she threaten that she will report us to our sch if we continue being a fool in the library and that there are many cameras ard the lib, where we will all be closely scruntinised.. yeah we were SOOO scared that we left the lib, not wanting to create trouble. after tis experience.. im beginning to wonder why all libraians are so nasty and are they paid to chase ppl out of the library jus because they misbehaved. i know that the lib should be kept quiet, but do they have to threaten us, or issit they hate teenagers like so many other places.. well, i seriously have no idea wat stuff is in the brains of those ppl.. i had met not one but many other times abt ppl having problems with teenagers and not other ppl of another age group.. jus my luck i tink.. came home with nth to do, so slept till dinner and after dinner watched tv and continue sleeping. therefore im now past midnight and im still wide awake.. tink my body clock is going off timing.. [i finally gave u guys a break from my problems.. ]

(.") things happen for a reason, but i dont understand why is this thing happening.. (".)

burst open

todae out came everything.. quarreled, screamed and cried my heart out tis morning.. but felt so much better now.. cried myself to sleep after tat and slept until 3 plus during which im so pissed off by the so many phone calls.. then woke up with a hungry stomach and a splitting headache.. wat a bad day rite.. den went to visit my gran in ICU.. she's okay after another op. and hope tis will be de last.. 1st time cleaning dentures.. at first it seems very disgusting, but after rinsing many times, it is okie.. den went out for dinner with aunt, sis and mum.. dinner was quite nice and went home after tat...
well.. quite apologetic towards my sis for the sudden outburst of emotions.. though they were not totally innocent, but the extreme outburst is also due to other pressing problems.. jus have to one to break the whole thing, and thus end up screaming and crying at her.. quite an ugly sight though.. tink im quite foolish after giving it some thought.. now everything is back to normal... normal bad i mean.. but get on with life no matter wat.. okies.. tats all i got to say.. jus forgive me if i all a sudden give u a black face.. i apologise in advance.. there is too much things happening that im not sure what im doing some times.. so sorry.
(.") tks for the chat ytd, hao.. really appreciated.. really want future ones.. get well soon gran.. get it over! (".)

may e peace be with me

exams over.. everything seems empty, but still got some stuff freaking me out.. or issit me myself freaking myself. not sure either. jus cant get it clear why some teacher still need to go through some topics even it if straight after our BIG exams. it is like we still cant remember them when sch reopens next yr, so wats e pt. now troubled by some prob.. all is for the hols the.. need to make plannings and some is like the always problems. jus cant get them solved, so now kept being pestered by it... firstly is the choir camp.. not sure if they wanna have it.. but still need to think out some things for choir, which is like so slack... tink all our voices all going off tuned liao... next thing is the sleepover lor.. everybody not sure of their timing.. so how to get the days rite.. trying to get tat settled.. now is the most irritating prob.. been with it since before the exams.. so dun even noe the root of the prob, how to solve it.. yeah.... so THINK....! just crapping around... and tat is how i live... full of quarrels and bickers.. can i get used to them?? i dun tink so.. sch betta break as fast as possible.. kill everything!!!

yeah.. almost forgot to mention yi hao.. according to him, he say he is the nicest man on earth.. very bu yao lian hor.. haha.. ~i mention u liao ah.. u nv specify how i can mention u.. heehee...~
(,")may the peace be with me...(",)

taste of peace

it had been how long since my last entry? not sure either, but it really seems months, exams are so taxing.. and i had finally got the load off me! on thur did sth very rediculous... actually having meeting with PLs dey all, den end up cancelled.. which should be a good thing since we were planning to go out if not for the meeting.. with the meeting cancelled, we went to safra with the guys frm my class, inteding to bowl, as wat is said.. but still tis plan did not go well too. the bowling center got some tornament stuff going on, so decided to go to TM *yeah.. there again...*in fact is walk there.. we walk and run instead.. which is not really wat we expected and wanted.. we girls dunno the way very well, so have to depend on the tampiness kids, de guys, and they tink it is really fun to run, we jus chase after them, for dunno how far.. until we noe the way already, den went to TM ourselves while they went the other way.. which also meant we seperated lar.. lol. we went to the basement in search for stuff to fill our tummies.. i bought the 1A sadine puff, which is like scalded my tongue dunno how many times.. and they bought the fried chicken.. yi hao and solomon got some heart, and came down to the basement to find us while the other two creeps, stay upstairs giggling... *guys giggle as well... betta not mention their names if not i will be dead..* haha.... but we jus scarcastically said sth.. and they went up as well... well.. tis is how the afternoon of after exam went.. since no entertainment value at TM and CS, we called gao and asked him where is his hse, and went over.. you should try clearing ur hse up.. although it will take long.. den went to see how they guys play bb.. try hard man, kelvin.. tks for the lollipop and the drink too.. then went home and went to kimage to cut my hair.. dinner out too.. my hair... erm.. dunno how to describe it, it jus feel wierd.. see alreadi den u will noe..

fri is marking dae, so whole dae out.. went to kbox at marine parade, with abt the same ppl.. and sang like some crazy ppl out from IMH.. went into the building with the bright glistening sun and came out with the silent moon and stars in the skies.. went for dinner, which is like 7 ppl squeezing in a small rectangle hawker centre table.. pro rite.. but had a hilarious dinner.. had a embarrassing trip back top bedok on 197, with us making a whole lot of noises among the rest of the quiet ppl.. we were like all laming ard lor.. den reach inter and went home..

yeah.. todea sat... did nth much other than slacking.. 1st thing in the morn is alreadi bathing for kai.. den slept again and clear up my desk, and the battle area during the past few weeks.. the destructions took me a whole afternoon to clear... *bad destruction rite...* swept and mop the whole hse and then settled for a nice harry potter.. who knows my vcd player is so cranky in the hot afternoon, and kept replaying and playing.. i like saw abt 5 to 6 times harry and hagrid in the bank.. as well as harry at the wand shop... got fed up and after the 1st cd i gave up and went to on the com and carried on with my fan fic.. offed the com at ard 7 and ate dinner, den now seeing that the telly nth much to watch, back here typing tis ultra long blog.. 3 daes tog.. not much cut leh.. so nice of me to write so long rite, gao... haha

(,") everything is peaceful and may it remain like that... give me the pleasures...(",)

again and aGain... ...

dreads.. jus feeling lousy... dunno for watsoever reason.. they are bad.. issit frm the exam stress.. is like im jus me, and i jus cant change myself. nobody is perfect and i dun tink u are too.. i jus have my faults and i jus live with it and if u wanna be frens, den cant u jus live with it... it seems like some kiddish stuff but it is getting worst as the days passes. it is getting worst and i feel so lousy everytime im in sch. its jus horrible, and i bet you will definitely not enjoy the feeling.. if u are the one. cant elaborate much here.. everything jus stinks..
now tat exams are around the corner, everyone is so stressed up and things start bitching abt.. shall jus get over wif it, nicely, and its to the last lap of secondary life.. isnt it great.. but it takes a lot to get over everything nicely..i will try my best, but definitely no promises tat i can really do it.. how i wish i can jus sleep and not wake up anymore.. the test tat i took todae isnt gonna turn out well.. as like wat they had all said.. im jus over special in my thinking.. i may jus flunk it.. well, best of luck to me.. they are rite.. im wrong.. way wrong.. \everything is my thinking.. none of their fault... `yeah rite!`\ kkZ. enough for todae.. no more brain juices..
(,") im not a thing.. even if i am, u cant jus use me and treat me like shit.. (",)

aRrgGghhhZ

arRggGhhhZ.. school reopening in about 6++ hours to go.. which is like- uRrMph.. while im still here typing away.. so short hols. but quite fun.... nth to write now.. so lets recap on my hols..

`camp until mon. den amath lesson after tat.

`tue peeSICs lesson.. late for it.. but it is alrite.. u noe why if u noe whose the teacher... den kc and bs came over to my hse.. bought lots of junk food to replace my previous dae dinner, tat dae breakfast and lunch.. den watch SUPERSTAR! till 1900.. den dey went back.. and i cleared up and ate dinner... which i had totally lost my apettite alreadi.. lols

`wed slept slept and slept.. den 2 plus went to kc hse.. supposedly to do homework.. but did a lil, den ended up doin her jigsaw puSSle... den went home.. did hw late at nite, and sleep...

`went to sch to clear up PL room.. and of course kc late again.. went up to her hse and waited for her.. the room is cleared, and new fengshui as well.. and than i realised my umbrella is lost,, i got feelings for it one leh... at nite chiong homework again.. at the end left onli a math and map reading

`fri slept till late, den went out wif jie jie and mama.. saw est and yol at the train.. den later meet up wif the rest of all my sis.. saw cheyl oso.. my choir senior.. bought clothes for jie jie wedding dae... quite nice lar... but now having prob matching a bottom with the top.. went home den did map reading... so now left wif am..

`sat went out with kc, bs, wl and bz... went till late late.. den go home. went kbox, den bugis..

`and todae.. sun.. went to jie jie's new hse at Bt Gombak.. far like one end from another lors... on the way there read harry potter.. den way back home slept on the train den now neck aching... den saw kelvin when im half asleep and at my most hagged state after dunno how many hours of clearing away dusts... did am hw after dinner, which is my last one... and im DONE!! now laming wif my 'seniors' of out special club at our special session.. tis is how i spend my hols lor.. simple rite.. haha.. kkz.. will try to blog asap.. but no promises.. since the term is reopening... so fast...! kkz.. nitey! [or issit early morning??] =)

a change

term 3 is over, camp is over, the feelings fading, but more and more mixed up, but is this the new me tat ive been asking for.. if tis is really the one, im a lil regretful... blogging in the wee hours of the dae, cos im rushing homework.. and jus happen tat my hand click and saw tat some anonymous doggie ask for an update.. so, im here updating..

the camp was fun.. except for the cooking part which is so troublsome... someone, please make cooking hassle-free. knew more ppl, all the exco ppl are all out.. no more camps alreadi.. sobz... really gain a great number of great frens through peer leaders thingi.. and though we may all from different class, hope tat we can all stay in contact and mayb return as alumni when we are old.... ermmm.. quite a good idea.. now im missing camp life.. bet some others also too.. it is like everybody is so close together, chatting, gossiping, joking and of course poming tog... but we did not do it tis camp... wasted..

presently, i seems to have spend a lot of time doing my hols assignment, but they still did not seem to be touched.. the days are flying and i do not want to go into the dreaded term 4.. which will then lead to the even more hated sec 4 life.. everything is like so fast... old alreadi.. tired alreadi.. i had lived another year one earth, which also meant that i knew a year worth of things more.. can i grow younger and be a child again and not older... being a child is so easy.. as compared to now..

detest all those dumb feelings stuff... got them off my mind during camp, but they all came back after camp.. wat the hell.. jus scram! gotta go it not i will be typing my head off again...

(,")wish for a fairyland.. can i get one? its all over alreadi.. which is great.. but it's getting boring.. can i have a great yet exciting life??(",)

bAtTeReD

tis is gonna be a sad and boring post. so no point reading it... i jus had too many things on my mind.. Im jus too tired out, and stupid feelings and thoughts are all coming to my mind, driving me crazy. How i wish i could have someone to talk to, to confide to, and let all those stuff tat is making me delirious out. They're really stinking up my mind!

Have a long week, and i guess another is coming soon.. what can i do except take it day by day.. think it is all not on purpose, jus that everyone is so closed together, and just took it for granted and heck care about it. but who would like feeling so left out and down. what else can i blame except of the me in me...

the school is like so shitty to me these few days, and just get the thought that school is fun. it is getting worst as the days pass.. and there is not at all any single thing that i can find to make me happy anymore.. im just a pissed off, down and rejected person sitting in a corner of nowhere.. im so sick of it and cannot take it anymore.. jus need to let it all out before continuing with my life. how i wish everyone can take off the big fat masks off their faces, and may there be truthness in the world. wont tat make everything easier and more happy. im a person too, think of my feelings, i need accompaniement as well, give me some... im so sick and tired alreadi...

tink i jus wanna end here, and hope i had not saded you as well.. so sorry for pouring out all my woes to u guys out there. but i need to do it.

(_")wE aRe beaUtiFul, nO matTer wHat thEy saY, worDs caNt brIng uS doWn...

PUSH THOSE THOUGHTS OUT!!!("_)

wishlist

deCidEd yo maKe a wiShlist, buT laZy to pUt iT in tHe blOg itsElf, sO jUst maKe tiS simPle one.

>-)))-'} i wish for a fairyland, where the word "unhappy" don't exist.

>-)))-'} time

>-)))-'} peace

>-)))-'} fun

>-)))-'} new me

>-)))-'} contact lens

>-)))-'} a new cam phone

>-)))-'} bag

(_") haVe maNy wiShes, but jusT wriTe thEm down foR Fun..howEvEr, iF yOu waNnA gIve mE anY oF thoSe, iT is sErioUslY fInE.. gEees ("_)

it's all over...

the whole ndp had ended but the tinge of sadness still had not left me. feeling down, cos need to leave some fun and cute ppl tat we had met during the long and tedious process.. nevertheless, can meet them online lar.. but the especially cute one seems hopeless.. onli got photos as memories and next to nothing besides dat.. nvm.. i can get back to my main subject.. haHa..! ytd took lotsa photos, but need to see when then can develop them. wan them asap.. the ndp ytd seems the same, jus abit more fun, cos we force ourselves to make it a last fun one.. there were more fireworks as well and every scream till we are hoarse.. the after parade party oso a short one and we still went back at ard 9 plus, unlike wat gab had said.. 12 plus.. which is also expected lar.. crappy.. tink i will really miss my past few hectic weeks..

on mon after the sch celebration, the spls went to pulau ubin.. everything actually went quite nicely, until the ending, when i fell, with some minor scratches and bleeding. something worst happen down the way.. and the details seems very longwinded to explain, so no explanation here... =) dats abt it alreadi.. and now had to rush the homework.. got lotsa A math qns to complete.. but luckily dere's no test tmr.. *phew*kkz, gonna miss u guys all... and.........got to rush off............*ZOOOOM!!*

(_")bringing my focus back to you, which hurts as much too...("_)

afresh

shit! i did a stupid thing...! actually finish typing the whole load of crap, and i changed everything to a single 'n' when im trying to change the colour. arrggg.. so frustrating.! long time no blog le, so got lotsa stuff to sae but had forgotten a whole lot as well... now jus say the main points liao.. cos it is like so early in the morn wif me not bathed yet. next week is gonna be a great or a horrible one... on mon goin to perform in sch. and it is like kinda wierd to have the choir doin some steps tat have the mass effect. and even wierd with a small number of ppl doin. and in addition, i oso did the steps so horribly wierd, so i tink i will spoil the whole thing... on tue is the big and the LAST day.. it is really very saddening... we are all gonna leave the whole thing. being involved in it is so over troublesome, but having it to be over seems very empty. how to get the best out of the both worlds. it seems impossible. mon oso doin racking on pulau ubin. tink i will fall down the bike lor.. haha.. dun care. fun can liao..

last week had been returning very late, cos of the hall deco.. now is a shimmering and starry hall... which looks really great. todae went out with mAma... cos todae no rehearsal.. den went to the same old tampines. mama bought me a 3 quarters... which really like it. den oso saw a pendent which is in the shape of the slipper.. cute ritex... but nv buy, cos tink not worth dat much, and now im regretting.. lol. tink i will still go and get it.

tink i had nth much to add except tat, i really tried to forget abt all those crappy feelings, but it jus wont go. obasan seems to be having the same problem as well.. lol. nvm will try harder... kkz, tink will see ya in a few weeks to go since always have such taxing load. always sleeping so late and waking up so early. really tiring, but i will persevere! i can do it... kkz, now goin to bathe, den gonna attack my high pile of homework... tataZ..!

(_") always thinkng of u in my heart, and it is also always bleeding hard... ("_)

RANT!!

now im really ranting.. tis is MY blog and i have the right to write what ever i want, and there is FREEDOM OF SPEECH here... wanna scream my head off abt a stupid idiotic person who is totally ignorant of anything tat is happening yet made lots of crappy comments.. a total crappy monkey with stinky odour and rotten mouth! she is jus not happy she not leader and tat we have PREVILEGES lor.. since u are so good i step down den see who will cooperate wif u lor.. i will make sure tat i rebel till the whole world is upset down. u are not a good leader and u are jus a councillor jus because of teeny weeny bit of hypocritical luck and tat u noe how to act cute and attract attention.. although u are not cute and u dun have any assets to fluant so tat can attract attention. u are jus wearing a thick fake armour tat is so hideous, but u still amke full use of it. u are ACTUALLY not busy, jus tat u are extra and NOT needed in some stuff, yet u still use ur thick fat skin and force urself thru.. heard tat u EXTRA BITCH!! anyway.. ur english suz, and it is not at all cool to write broken SINGLISH which is so horribly written and difficult to read. noe tat is ur monkey language, but we are not ur fellow sickening monkey frens... kkx.. tat is enough for now... poor other readers.. sorry.. jus venting my anger.. but not on u guys kkz..

okies.. now back to my normal old self.. had been a long time since i last blog and tis is wat u guys saw.. really apologetic for it.. but jus cannot control and i must let it out... if not no more kelly liao... me onli slightly explosive... cos not much explosive powder in me alreadi, after the previous explosion. wonder how to treat her tmr lor.. been trying hard to convince myself not to be unfair to her. but now, its like no point trying so hard.

a loooonnnggg two weeks had passed, and so many things had happened. is like still same boring one lor. den now having lotsa tests.. all piling up and suffocating me.. me started reading Harry Potter.. found it pretty nice, and interesting.... wan to continue till i read all... heeheez.. went o a SS stuff todae.. quite interesting... and oso saw him.. but now wish tat i dun have the feelings in the past ine the first place. now is like so painful... wan to forget but how nehX? is like really wan to kill off the feelings.. noe tat is totally hopeless.. but really trying hard... give me time and i can do it! enough liao lar.. no more ling gan... see ya..

may tat bitch be minced, chopped and DEAD!!

(_")peRcePtioNs cAn kiLl!("_)

NDP preview

todae was quite fun... as in overall.. cos there are some bad stuff too.. there was an NDP preview for the pri 5 kids... we went there far early, and were the first to reach there frm 4 blk... and everything is like normal.. slow and laggy... the exciting part came when the whole parade starts.. well.. i was very distracted.. and did many steps wrongly.. which is like very paiseh.. but oso heck care.. lOl..

den the climax is when the second person who parachute down came near us, and im like hoping tat he will come right in front of me when the accident happen... he was very near the ground when he was still moving very fast still... and he tried to slow it down by pulling the two lines, but still..... he could not land properly, and every thing jus took place very quickly... he landed on his side, and he jus laid there motionless, and medics jus came and surrounded... he was then carried away.. and heard frm some marshalls saying that he was "concussed" and jus sent to the hos. and tat mayb he could be paralysed... really sad for him.. but lets all pray all the best for him... accident can really take place very unexpectedly...

okays... anyway.. jus a note to some one whom im alreadi not very fond of, and now the impression of u is even "badder".... tears does not make u a champ, it only make u look like a fool. u are jus a lamer who cries over a lightstix.. okie.. dun wanna spoil my mood... really had fun.. but my voice seems to be flying away frm me once more... tat is real sad and pathetic, everytime i got betta, i got worst very soon.. todae learnt another acronym... UAFO... [u can ask me abt the meaning personally.. dun wanna pollute innocent minds...] quite sth that i would not like to sae, but in front of u irritating bhb creeps, i will OFTEN use it....! actually nth much alreadi... jus complains and whines... den tata for now... see you on KIDS CENTRAL! lol.. me being lamed too much.. =)

(_") swEet feElinGs stIlL stAys iN me...! ("_)

niCe onE!

Okies.. me finally got the mood and time to blog.. lols.. jus lazy to do it for the past few daes.. went to escape on last sun.. really had fun, and for more details can mayb check it out at keechen's blog.. cos or else it will be really long-winded.. jus noe tat I had fun. Cut short.. the whole week was quite boring and tiring.. jus do hw and hw every nite.. which is boring and irritating... how I wish can have a dreamland where homework and stress do not exists... but dat seems a lil childish… dUh...!
Simply like todae best.. I can tell u tat it is simply the best dae since sch reopen... some of u may already noe why.. haha.. really had a fulfilling dae.. had fun and hope tat I can enjoy more of tis day.. but u tink it is possible?? Oso not sure.. jus enjoying the simple sweet experience.. lol.. so candy-like... *crunch* always wanting to sms and tok to u, but jus dun dare and dun wanna risk anything... but todae really had fun playing and toking... tks everyone.. really like it... love ya all lotsa...!!
Tmr is the 1st time the combine sch choir is performing for the public... jus had those type of mixed feelings.. but hope it can be fun.. den gonna to the optometrist[or whatever the spelling... jus the person who makes specs] ask him make my specs “tighter” so dat dun have to fidget so much moving the specs up when it slided down... wish me all the best though! Jus wanna have fun...!

(_") iT wiLl alwAys be etChed in my meMoriEs foRever... ("_)

sChoOLing dAes noW...

now sch reopened, and it is like still the same hols day.. sleep so late, but still need to wake up so early... den need to rush hw somemore.. haha.. almost kanna scolded by teacher cos forgot to do the tb exercise... actually not forgot lor.. is dunno how to do, dun bother to learn and no time and no intention to do... haha.. but nvm.. abt finish rushing the whole thing den now is other hw liao loRs... so boRing..

sch is boring, but at least it gives me many chances to see him... lol.. hope i can change it to a type of platonic friendship and nth else... no other feelings.. kkz.. actually nth much to write oso.. jus abt completing my bio pro, and haven bathe and tired too.. eyes popping out soon le, so i will be going soon..

choir todae.. den oso nth much loRs.. but we at least got some of the worst one to do the steps in front of the rest.. haha. dey dun look happy, but i still like it.. loLs..

kks.. too stressed, den no a sadistic.. tink i betta go bathe, or i dun need to sleep le..

dae at the ECP with SPLx...

surprised to see me blog so fast... haha.. me had lotsa fun todae wat.. so mus all jot down or else forget.. went for the bbq todae, den in the morn woke up quite late laRs.. prepare for the bbq.. the op surf shorts was really too loose, den end up asking mama to sew up.. she did a pretty good job lars... at least cannot see the folds frm outside.. ty ma.. den gave papa his fathers' dae prezzie.. he was quite pleased.. at least it is useful.. but fat fat keep saying the brand never see before one.. sae wat no brand wat.. but noe tat papa wunt mind de.. he dun go for brands lar.. onli the quility and quantity.. cannot last he oso can make it last one.. hahA..

cut apples, den dut my hand oso.. twice oso.. y ppl dun wan to make seedless apples arh? loLx.. den wait for keechen lor.. end up not goin to there with dem.. went on ourselves, den meet up wif them.. really had fun.. duH.. we are the fun lots wat.. haha.. so bhb.. den built sandcastle, or should i sae a grave for "humph humph".. den went to cycle for a while onli.. came back and kanna bombed by wei ming.. damn painful loRs.. my arm some more.. left side is sunburnt, den right side is his fault.. so now bathe very pain.. den we ate oso.. bomb liao den all wet le, so might as well go down lor.. all were wet in the end.. but fun laRs..

at nite oso eat dinner, sandwiches and tidbits.. den played wif chips and frisbee to end the dae.. went home with all goin to dif bus stops in all 4 directions... reach home liao le lor... nth else exciting liao...

really had fun wif u guys.. may not seem as fun to outsiders, but to us, i tink all tink it is fun.. tmr still need to go outram.. so troublesome.. hope my spine can be betta, den dun need to go next time liaOs.. tmr got papa to accompany.. cos need parents to go see whether i need the scan anot.. hope not.. okie.. ending here.. the next coming week is gonna be boring for me.. rushing the homework.. and totally nth planned out except the outram thingi, and sat got another rehearsal.. 10 to 10 leh.. tired to hell alreadi.. betta dun give me any prob, or im gonna go crazy and SCREAM at u.. lol.. really want the homework to be done fast so dat at least last sundae of my hols can enjoy.. okie.. see ya as soon as i have sth to write..

(,") did not think of u todae until now.. wishes still twinkling hoping to forget u as fast as possible.. before u leave me, i wan to stop loving ya! but now.. still lovin' ya a bit laRs... (,")

whOle thIrD weEk

so tired.. im burnt.. tired lehx.. but still gonna stay up late to do homework.. perhaps need to get some cheongster power from denver... lols.. he did a lot of hw liao lor.. not like me and kc.. pathetic.. lol.. tmr still goin to beach wif PLs.. betta be fun.. lolx.. but it will surely be fun de lars.. haha.. we are all crazy and out goin ppl wat.. haha. ad vert time.. todae got NDP rehearsal, den really is under the sun lor.. the sun so big above us all..
todae happy thing is the 1st thing i saw when i step out of the hse in the morn is i saw a RAINBOW... a whole rainbow.. so nice leh.. den i "brought" it to sch to show choir pals... lol.. nice one.. but really pissed of by some idiotic choir ppl.. wonder why in the hell am i so sui to have such juniors.. really pissed me off totally lor.. dunno how to listen to eng issit, betta dun wear damai sch shirts to the rehearsals next time.. throw face onli.. me wear same sch de shirt oso pai seh lor.. skin "THIN" like dunnno wat sai.. u not paiseh we paiseh one okay! cant wait to get them out of the whole thing.. troublemakers onli..
past few days all nv blog.. cos too bz and lazy.. haha.. cannot deny.. bz is because me attended a 1st aid course for 1st 4 daes of the week, den fri slack around... 2 happy news!!!
i PASSED the 1st aid course.. now a certified 1st aidder.. who wan to faint??? haha.. den i finally bought the OP shorts.. but a bit big lor.. but wun drop lar.. haha... okay lar.. dat abt summaries the whole week... short and sweet.. need to go liao.. or else sis gonna fight wif me the com soon... LoLx...
(,")still missing u.. but will try to take it easy.. take it easy too kc... must let go liao.. we both will do dat tog, and we can do it one..! GIRLS' POWER!! (",)

2 in 1

lazy to post ytd.. so jus combine two into one.. LOLs.. on sat had a boring start but quite nice ending.. went to retrieve the HI-FI set, den slack for the rest of the morn and afternoon.. went out wif mama and fat fat to suntec and citylink lors.. really unlucky.. went OP to search the nice nice pants, but too unlucky.. no more sizes.. went to BUM and FOX women.. saw sth nice, but is either no feeling for it or no correct sizes.. jus not my dae to buy bottoms.. fat fat bought a ring, den mama bought a pendent. learnt how to test for real diamonds.. and really interesting.. dinner at cafe cartel.. and i ate pork ribs.. real delicious sia.. not fatty one, den really superb.. jus dunno how to describe the taste lors.. but very full lor.. i also had to wait for so long before it is served.. den the day finally ended wif a phone conference wif wl, bz, kc and bs.. discuss abt sun outing lors..//

okie le.. now on sun le.. kanna woken up by mama loud voice.. say nv help her to prepare for the rice dumpling one.. den wake up help lors.. prepare for the spaggetti after tat, and then brought kai out for his grooming.. reached pet safari, den say 2 bulldogs.. real scary lors.. they look at us as if baring their teeth liddat.. but tink actually not so fierce one lar.. den kai was so afraid of it tat need to carry him up.. kai then gave us a very sad look and a whine jus as we were leaving the room.. went to see the doggies on sale de.. got some so big alreadi.. if no one buy den dey how arhX? poor thing lor.. like wan ppl's attention a lot.. tink dey bored liaos lor.. den got free entertainment from 3 huskies.. cute lors.. now puppy still cute, later big liao all fierce fierce..//

rushed home to cook the spaggetti den rushed out again lors.. unlucky is tat my BATA the slippers the strip broke jus as i step out of my blk, den went home to change lor.. karolyn den lend me her sandels.. which is also not in the tip top condition.. but still made do wif it.. reach the bus stop liao and met up wif kc oso alreadi.. told her tat later is sui sui tis one de strap oso break.. reach bedok inter, and my curse is really true.. the strap ard my toe one oso broke.. in the end jus go buy a pair of TRAIL slippers lor.. den went sentosa.. very hungry lor.. but the beach really clean lar.. den stayed in the waters for very long lors.. and did lame lame stuff.. LoLs.. went to bathe then so many ppl lor.. siao one.. q so long.. in the end jus wash up outside, den change clothes in the Handicaps one.. sly hor we all.. bs discovered the great room one.. tyty.. //

went home, which is again draggy.. den went to KFC to pei kc eat her dinner..went home and lucky met fat fat on the bus.. cos dey say ghost stories when eating dinner.. den dun like to go home alone after tat.. den tired liao siao alreadi lor, when reach home.. and slept for a while, den bathe and pack up my bag.. den now here typing away le..//

gonna end here le.. tink im not goin to be so frequent after tis blog.. cos got lotsa things to complete.. still got homework... arRggG!! okie.. enough of craps.. now seriously ending here liao..

(,")everything may seem okay, but perhaps they are not infact.. still missing ya lots.. y still ask abt u, when im trying so hard to forget abt u? ive alreadi told myself tat it is time to give up after the PL june camp, so jus GIVE UP!(",)

pathetic dae..

todae woke up early in the morn for a choir prac. supposed to meet kc at her void deck at 930. i was late, and nevertheless she was later. went up to her hse instead and got a shock to hear frm her mum tat she was still sleeping.. LOLs. tis is mah first time have tis encounter.. tink she over blur liao.. try not too be too sotong in the future kkz.//

reached sch, and had to run ard sch in search for a radio. cannot find any and end up using my discman to play the disc and sing for them. this was quite unuseful, and continue looking for one radio lor.. saw mr fareed and he is also our angel todae. i finally persuaded him to allow us to the com lab, but tks to his helpfulness too.. he got us a radio in the end. which im not sure why the general office had a radio when he asked and not when we students asked. they are quite okay with their steps, but heard frm peiyun and others of their bad dae.. tink we are jus simply unlucky bahs..//

went to tm and cs instead and had a crazy time shopping.. tink dey can really spend their money bahs.. endless flow of cash one dey all.. lols. saw a nice pair of OP pants.. all thot tat it were nice, and now see who go buy lors. on the bus thot of him a little onli lars, cos pass somewhere near his hse.. den end the dae by goin home wif a splitting headache.. jus damn the weather and the bus. feel like puking when i reach home, but still did not.. phew..//

tok tok wif mama and went to supermarket and then went to buy dinner.. watch tv bathe and then type lors.. simple day rite.. but still no mood to do hw.. how to finish up the pro as well? tink jus gonna leave it all undone, but if it is really liddat, i will be the onli one in the class one lors.. went into a TOOO GOODY class alreadi.. which is BORING! okay enough of complaints..//

(_")trying to getting on to the pace of life, and may everything be a precious memories.. let it happen.. please. i really need tat.. ("_)

newbieZ

jus trying out tis interesting thing... all of a sudden have a push for tis.. and now im doin tis.. heehee.. hope im not too crappy or lame here... ...

bZBz beE

now having a busy hols, but dun tink it is very fulfilling.. jus dunno why..just had a camp which is EXTRA long and EXTRA fun.. haha.. my grp won!! tat is the best thing. WANTED, u rawks till the end! had a sore throat after the whole camp.. which last5 days 4 nitez for us leaders.. the 1st nite is really fun chatting with mrs lee.. haha.. cant imagine dat she is oso so chatty.. tink she really trys to understand us students//

the rest of the camp jus follows and im jus tired all throughout it.. Xpression nite is fun and really enjoyed it, except for our SPL dance, which is horrible.. dunno what happen to the damn disc.. the alumini dance was quite nice.. okay lar.. but nth much special.. moi grp one the best.. haha.. all little indians in my grp... cheers to everyone!//

okie.. camp over, so all nice nice stuff all over liao.. now for the bad one.. homework all undone.. how? next week almost fully book alreadi.. how to stuff in days for homework.. jus leave the nights for it, and just hope tat im not too tired for the NICE homework.. wish tat the part time job will be fun, and can bring in money.. dun make me waste my free weekends for nothing..//

gonna make myself or issit force myslef to forget him, if not my torture is gonna be longer.. let tis be a precious memories in me and not a painful experience... enough of all tis sad sad stuff.. see ya soon!

(_")how am i supposed to feel no pain? issit tat no pain means no feelings, which is then meaningless life?("_)