Monday, October 31, 2005
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debbie out
@ |2:45 PM|
Myth:
You have put in your greatest utmost effort in preparing for the test. Unfortunately, you still find it impossibly difficult. That is when you take great comfort in the moderating prowess of the sonorous bell curve. Your beliefs are further strengthened when everyone around you rants about how sickeningly tough the test is.
Truth:
Homo sapiens will always rant how difficult the test is, regardless of their results.
Myth:
To every cloud, there is a silver lining. Things aren't that bleak after all. In another paper, you found out to your greatest delight, you have scored a commendable 9 out of a possible 12 marks! Give yourself a pat on your shoulder! You have done well.
Truth:
You see one of your best pal in your tutorial group sobbing uncontrollably. Seated at a corner, tears roll down his/her angst filled face, drenching his/her test paper and inevitably threaten to flood the room with her salty discharge. Your heart aches at such a pitiful sight, you know, only you can comfort him/her.
"Everything is going to be fine. It's only a test." You advice in the most sympathetic tone you can envisage.
Suddenly, curiosity takes captive of you. You are suddenly dying to know his/her marks.
"How did you fare? How much did you get for the test? How many marks? How..." Your mind struggles to phrase the sensitive question in the most undamaging way.
As if by telepathy, you hear your best pal rants, *Sob* "Why I only get 9 marks?! This kind of test should get full marks and I so blew my chance..." *Wail*
You calmly retrieve the 6th Edition, Serway - Physics for Scientists and Engineers Textbook from your bag and lift the 5kg hardcover book above your head. With tears streaming down your cheeks, you take aim at your best pal's skull.
Myth:
You can kill your best pal by slamming a really heavy and thick textbook on his/her head.
Truth:
Ironically, you regret not using the Physics Textbook in a more purposeful way (Eg. reading rather than killing).
At that instant, as you take aim with the textbook in your hands, high above your head; you finally comprehend the dangers of high centers of gravity and unstable equilibriums.
Instead of killing your best pal, you succeed in breaking your back.
Myth:
Students from the 2 ancient Asian civilizations are your greatest threat to securing your first class honours.
Truth:
Everyone excluding the person that scares you in the mirror every morning, is a threat.
But then again, you might not be able to see yourself in the mirror if you're hospitalized.
Myth:
Finally, you are inspired by this inane entry to study and mug for your upcoming examinations. You are determined to ace and realize your dream CAP score of "5.0".
Truth:
Your dream CAP score insists on taking permanent residence in your dreams.
Nah... In short,
You're doomed.
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Kelvin Lim out
@ |10:17 PM|
there was a night when i wanted to go to bed, & found a notice stuck outside my mum's bedroom by a rubberband and scotch-tape.
as i got closer, i found some pencil scribblings on it.
I switched on the lights so that i can read better, and to my amusement...the content reads :
I obviously knew who wrote this, cus nobody else posses the skill to master such handwritings at home beside my dear little brother... hahahaha..
but the thing that caused me not jus to roll my eyes but also to roll on the floor with laughters was how this cute little brother of mine signed off his 'warning' message:
*cold sweat*
p.s. special thanks to my beloved dearest little brother Lim Wen Xin.
hahahaha!
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eeynis out
@ |11:01 PM|
My classmate who's in the same placement centre as me wished to fix the date of our halfway evaluation (sort of like a assessment session when your supervisor will grade in front of you and your lecturer) on the coming Friday. It's only week 3 of my attachment thus far and since we have 8 weeks of attachment in total for this placement, halfway evaluation should theoretically be on week 4 right?
But my classmate wanted our lecturer to see her conducting a cooking assesment, which takes place this Friday. Her supervisor was fine with the date.
But my supervisor isn't. He said, "I think it's too early."
My thoughts split 3 ways in attempting to decipher the underlying meaning of "I think it's too early":
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Xiu Juan out
@ |8:37 PM|
Myth:
Study hard for the test and it will be a breeze for you.
Truth:
Study hard for the test and the only breeze you feel will probably come from the furious flipping of your paper.
Myth:
The test consists of 5 questions. Given one hour, you should limit and ration yourself to a luxurious 12 minutes.
Truth:
The 60 minutes still applies but the 5 questions...
Your Answer sheet might look like this:
1. (a) ________
1. (b) ________
1. (c) ________
2. (a) (I) (i) _________
2. (a) (I) (ii) ________
2. (a) (I) (iii) ________
2. (a) (II) (i) ________
2. (a) (II) (ii) ________
2. (a) (II) (iii) ________
2. (a) (II) (iv) ________
2. (a) (III) (i) ________
2. (a) (III) (ii) ________
2. (a) (III) (iii) ________
2. (b) (I) (i) ________
2. (b) (I) (ii) ________
2. (b) (I) (iii) ________
2. (b) (I) (iv) ________
2. (b) (I) (v) ________
2. (b) (II) (i) ________
2. (b) (II) (ii) ________
2. (b) (II) (iii) ________
2. (b) (II) (iv) ________
2. (b) (III) (i) ________
2. (b) (III) (ii) ________
2. (c) (I) (i) ________
2. (c) (I) (ii) ________
2. (c) (I) (iii) ________
2. (c) (II) (i) ________
2. (c) (II) (ii) ________
2. (c) (III) ________
3. ________ <--- You scribble either your will or death threat at this point of time.
...
Myth:
During the test, you should not waste too much time on dwelling on a difficult question. Gauge the difficulty and skip it whenever it proves too hard to handle.
Truth:
Q1. Read... Think... Ponder... Try.... Skip.
Q2. Read... Think... Try... Skip.
Q3. Read... Skip
Q4. Skip
Q5. Skip
Q6. Skip
Q7. Skip
Q8. Skip
Q......... Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip Skip skip...
You should consider joining the ISF - International Skipping Federation.
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Kelvin Lim out
@ |12:55 AM|
Dream no. 1 (which occured on thursday night):
It's my halfway evaluation for my clinical attachment. I am with my supervisor and lecturer-in-charge, HB, in an office. My supervisor gives me 4 out of 6 for most of the sections in the evaluation form. I was quite indignant as I felt that I had performed well enough to deserve better grades. But when I voiced out my concerns, both of them FAILED me outright because I dared question their judgement.
Oh my god.
The second dream is a bit less relevant now but still real-to-life:
It's the 'A' levels. I am sitting for the Computing written paper. Halfway through the paper, I decide that there's no point going through with the paper (for reasons I'm not very clear of. Probably because I cannot answer most of the questions) Anyway, I have 3 other 'A' level subjects. That's already enough, right?
So. I coolly walked out of the exam hall without completing the paper. And I waited for my classmates to finish (I can't remember who but most likely the computing people lah). When I'm talking to them, I realise that I have forgotten to sit for 'A' level Chemistry paper 2, which takes up a whopping 30% of the entire grade.
Shit.
The trauma of school - the shocks haunt you later.
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Xiu Juan out
@ |5:24 PM|
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debbie out
@ |11:00 PM|
Anyway a thousand apologies to all of you.. My fingers were a bit itchy so I changed the template for the blog.. and my apologies especially to Debbie because the tagboard has been deleted. Oops. Please insert another tagboard here.
I was quite tempted to change the blogskin to the shocking pink one.. but I don't want to spoil my eyes lah.
So. Let me moan about my life in general.
I think I am born with low EQ and auditory processing deficits. I find it hard to pay attention to what people are saying for more than 15 minutes. I also cannot provide you with an expected sincere response.
As luck would have it, I chose to take up something which requires me to listen empathetically. I'm not that stupid lah so when people talk I will nod my head vigorously in agreement. When I'm in a lousy mood I will even frown to give the impression that I think hard enough to dispute what you say.
I actually think I'm quite good at it. But it's extremely exhausting to try to guess the kind of non-verbal reaction you are looking for. Imagine doing that for 8 hours daily.
So here I am, thinking and rethinking why I am doing this. But it's a bit too late to look back anyway.
Slips do occur here and there, like when my supervisor thanked me for helping out, I said, "No lah. I'm on attachment. If I don't help out, I would have failed already."
And another time when my supervisor gave me an unacceptable grade for one of the components of my attachment evaluation, I said, "I don't think that's very fair .. (pauses to point finger to myself) .. to me" to her face when my lecturer was present as well.
And the time when I typed 'friends' as 'fiends' and I thought it was hysterically funny.
I still find it funny.
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Xiu Juan out
@ |9:35 PM|
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debbie out
@ |8:43 PM|
i detest having to stay in school until 11pm to discuss projects..
i detest having to DO projects..
i detest having to keep trying to contact my group leader who has her phone switched off the WHOLE day..
i detest having to account to other group members when i am NOT the group leader NOR the assistant group leader..
i detest having to make ppt slides..
i detest presentations..
i detest quizzes and tests..
i detest the fact that everyone likes to put tests and quizzes and deadlines all in one week..
i detest that some lecturers find it amusing to have a mini presentation before the real presentation..
i detest that some lecturers think we are all only taking ONE module..
i detest that even tho my timetable says i have a 3-day week, i am in school practically 7 days a week..
i detest that almost all the people around me are starting to question the existence of weekends (cos we are all STILL doing work)..
i detest that students from other faculties think bizad is a slack fac..come do the projects before stereotyping us of that..
i detest that i have to study..
i detest that i have to sleep at 5 am every day juz to finish my work..
basically i detest everything that is going on in my life now..juz a matter of time before i truly completely break down..
sorry to complain here la..no personal blog la..
ARGH i hate life
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j_foreva out
@ |12:22 AM|
This incident goes to show we are all going to be frogs in the well very very the soon. Also, it suddenly brings back certain memories of when I was in the US. One day at work, this fren of mine was suddenly telling me that he's really proud to be an American becuz America is a free country. Stupid me was like...free country?? So wat? Singapore also free country wat....ok lah, maybe we're not an independent country for as long as US is, but still free mah. Wat is the big deal man? Then I realised that he meant free as in really FREE....freedom of speech, freedom of whatever they wan to do basically. I mean I actually heard that pple there smoke marijiuana, watch porn (not online kind somemore) etc, even heard of illegal immigrants lor. In fact, one woman actually told us that SHE is an illegal immigrant. I almost yundao. For six yrs already somemore. Best lah, think maybe US is too big bah. So even if someone makes a remark, it might take a great ton of effort b4 stirring something real big. N in our case, we are too small to afford any trouble caused by a few miserly remarks. I dunno, but somehow I guess this shld be the main reason bah.
I guess I sort of grew up more in the US, seeing and experiencing stuff that I will nv ever be able to find in small n strict Singapore. Also, I think that the woman who went to complain rite, if she's in the States, she wont only be blacklisted. I guess she'll prob be killed by now. Hahahha... hmmm...I guess I shld end here bah. This seems like a real serious entry, esp when it's coming from me. And my usual entries are fei hua and more fei hua and yah, fei hua. Maybe seeing ah pek's entry inspired me bah, or maybe I'm juz too bored. Hahahaha....
Well, one last thing, my dear husband-to-be and the future kaima of my kids, I seriously dunno wat I wan lah. All I want is a msg to me on my birthday to wish me happy birthday k or a call also can?? AND THIS GOES OUT TO EVERYONE IN S44!!!! Hee, MUST wish me hor? No excuse for forgetting....muahaaahahhhaa....oh no, I must have gotten some ego waves from spider liao...hahahahaha...ok lah, better go n start studying liao. Spent a lot of time typing this. Plus got a stupid bahasa test next wk. Hee.... see some of u'll at the HSBC TTW this sunday!!! *another attempt to help deb advertise*
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snowade out
@ |11:03 PM|
One thing I really been dying to blog was about the stoopid racist blogging incident. I mean, it super paiseh lah, for foreign media such as Associated Press and Reuters to report it. Everyone else in the world is probably laughing their heads off.
Seriously speaking, I almost choked on my lunch when I read that one of the blogger was jailed for one month while another was sentenced to a nominal prison term of one day and fined the maximum S$5000. KNN, what is the world really coming?! Just for a few stoopid mindless comments, their lives are literally ruined. Lucky thing still got the yellow ribbon campaign to fall back on, but still, that is not the whole point.
Then on sunday, the Straits Times interview the irritating intolerant insidious ignoramus insolent person who reported the racist blogger to the police. Wah piang, I almost died of heart attack when the article say that the woman also go report another blogger to the police. Watch guys, for another life destroyed by his blog!
What you all think ah? I personally think that she is taking the issue too far. I agree that racism should never be tolerated esp when you want to preserve racial harmony (or that is what was being drilled to our infantile minds). But treating the police like your mother, every little damn thing also complain, is seriously reflects the imaturity of the society at large.
Here we are, trying to be a global village, but how the hell we survive in the real world if a little bit of comments also cannot tahan? Surely, if that woman live or study overseas, she will probably be blacklisted by the police there for calling them every other day for comments she see on the web.
Sigh. With a government that promotes intolerance to every little shit, the citizens of this island state will sooner or later become some frog in the well.
I think I will rewrite this post. So 乱. I don't even sound coherant.
Ha.
Chinese are as dirty as the yellow river.
Malays blend in the mud.
And Indians hide in the dark.
Would that get me into jail? C'mon I successfully insulted the 3 major races in Singapore! Bwahahaha. Sue me!
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Kelvin Lim out
@ |12:40 AM|
I like old people, but they don't like me!!
Huh. Why ah? Don't I come across as a good and nice person? They don't want someone to sound encouraging while they are doing passive stretching meh? They would rather have other therapists who make fun of them....hmm.
Hai. Sian. My interactive reasoning has a long way to go. Sometimes it's not about giving the most politically correct and empathetic response. It's about making the other party feel challenged. Arrgh. I shall cease to be so accomodative. I shall be A BIT MEAN!! BWAHAHAHAHA!
But my first day is actually much better than I expected. The therapists in my setting are actually quite friendly and nice. And I suspect my supervisor also has the same kind of 'heh heh' (which you ignorant fools have labelled thus lame) humour.I realised that all my supervisors, past and present, have such nice and eternally youthful hands! This reminds me of a physiotherapist in my last placement who mentioned that hands are therapists' bread-and-butter. Oh no. My hands already look quite aged. Hmm. I must have nice hands too, for the sake of my career. That way, when my patients see my hands, they will go, "Wah, that hand therapist has such nice hands. I feel secure leaving my hands in her hands. My severed flexor tendon (or whichever hand condition you may have) will return to function in no time!"
Hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo! That's exactly the kind of career satisfaction I crave. I will start taking good care of my hands.
Debbie's right. Aquarians are quite crappy.
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Xiu Juan out
@ |8:41 PM|
and there is NOTHING to look forward to!!! i wanna go abroad laaaaaa..let me out of singapore please...
i am starting to be pretty amazed at the times i slept..the other day i slept at 7am..juz in time to see the beautiful sun rise and everyone's alarm clock go off before falling into a coma..saturday i slept at 5..to wake up at 9 to eat the delifrance breakfast buffet (only available at delifrance bistro i think)..not bad ah..the things i do for food..hahahah..but it was actually not THAT good and the service sucked..where got people give coffee and dun give sugar/milk/creamer/spoon one?? not going back man..
i saw my primary school bookshop auntie on sunday..she immediately recognized me and said "ahhhh u neva change at all!!" this goes to show 3 things:
- i used to hang out ard the bookshop so much that the auntie blacklisted me..
- i neva age at all =D
- i am still as fat as when i was in pri school (i was in TAF club..shows how fat i was..or am still am..=()
anyway..meeting her made me think of my primary school's lovely bookshop..actually not that lovely la..all it sold were stationery..but i loved to go in and juz squeeze with everybody to see the usual stuff that was being sold day in day out..haha
anyway,if ur daughter left u a message in the middle of the nite saying "hey mum, i slept rather late so may not be able to wake up in time for breakfast..if you can't wake me up then dun die oso drag me out of bed k? sorry.." , how would you interpret the messsage?
a) dun even wake the daughter up cos she wants to sleep instead of going to eat an insignificant breakfast with you
b) try to wake the daughter up as u understand that she wants to go but she is afraid she wun be able to wake up
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OF COS IS (B) LA
and if u chose (a), you can go be good frens with my dad..cos u have the same illogical thinking as him...chose to argue with me in delifrance when all i wanted to do was to have a nice breakfast (which is a meal i haven't had in ages bcos of my weird sleeping hours)..PISSED MAN..*fuming*
oh well..is over..i needa go do my OB stuff le..die la...my present to my fren haven't make finish...die die die..
speaking of presents..
my dear wife-to-be and the mother of the children who will make me a kaima..wat do u wan for ur birthday har?
=) take care to all..and HANG IN THERE!!!
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j_foreva out
@ |4:49 PM|
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debbie out
@ |1:53 AM|
Anyway, let me commence on another self-absorbed soliloquy:
All goods things must come to an end.
Argh crap. Why can't I have a week of holidays before attachment starts?!
One of my lecturers was giving us some kind of last minute psych-boost before packing us off to the longest attachment in our academic career (yah I know, 2 months is considered quite short for some of you). He commented that all of us look quite jaded. He then went on the recount another story in which 2 of his students also appeared disillusioned. He remediated that by bringing them to see an "inspirational" sunset. According to him, we should try to remember the reason we chose to be in the "helping" profession.
I agree with one of my classmates. I get pretty disturbed when people use adjectives such as 'caring', 'helping'/'helpful', 'noble' etc etc to describe doctors (to a lesser degree), nurses (to a great degree) and therapists (to some degree). Because when I ask myself very frankly my reasons for choosing OT, my reasons are usually self-centred rather than positive:
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Xiu Juan out
@ |9:49 PM|
Oh I think I'm really hooked onto the Korean wave now, albeit a bit late. Or maybe it was just escapism kicking in for the exams and attachment? Nevertheless, I'm glad that I have some kind of 精神寄托 for the busy times ahead. I'm continually amazed by how good-looking the actors and actresses are and how well they can act (again, it could be biasness on my part, but who cares?!). Am watching Full House so I'm very very impressed by Song Hye Gyo. Somemore she's so incredibly pretty.. which was a bit of a distraction from her acting lah haha.
Oh man. I'm so incredibly shallow. I have ceased to ponder over matters. Notice how I never ask how the rest of you guys are doing. Nothing is important except me me ME! *chokes happily on own egocentricity*
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Xiu Juan out
@ |11:49 PM|
My papers are over as of 10.00 am today!! I am officially free.. for the next 3 days, that is. Attachment starts next week and lasts until December.
Nevertheless, I am under the grand delusion of invincibility! Let me read Bobath and I will recite to you the principles of Neurodevelopmental Theory! Give me 10 stroke patients and I will sucessfully rehabilitate them to their maximal functional capabilities! Give me a dementia patient and I will make sure that he/she achieves the highest quality of life ever since her diagnosis! I love the elderly! Let me work with old people!
Oh-ho am feeling extremely high now. Shall go and watch more Korean drama.
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Xiu Juan out
@ |9:36 PM|
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debbie out
@ |12:03 AM|
Its finally here.. the end of semester..
Hihi.. after disappearing for near 2 weeks.. im here again..
Hee.. yep yep.. as the title says.. i've offically come to an end of the semester.. Just handed in the final report due.. which marks the start of my hols le! hee.. sorta la.. stil got a paper next thurs.. but that doesnt count to my grades.. heehee.. yep yep.. so its unofficial hols liao..
I guess by now many of u will be going like *bish bish bish* on me.. hee.. paiseh la... not trying to spite anyone lah.. im just being happy mah.. To all those still biah-ing exams, reports, presentations, blah blah.. All the Best eh.. esp to nana.. think u are the first in this circle to have paper bah.. Ganbate ne!
Hmmz.. back to myself.. hee.. gonna spend time sorting out my comp.. lotsa rubbish in My Documents.. haha.. was looking thru the fotos too.. haiz.. i miss the days in hong kong.. i think its the same for ade who misses US la hor.. haiz..
Hee.. yep yep.. as the title says.. i've offically come to an end of the semester.. Just handed in the final report due.. which marks the start of my hols le! hee.. sorta la.. stil got a paper next thurs.. but that doesnt count to my grades.. heehee.. yep yep.. so its unofficial hols liao..
I guess by now many of u will be going like *bish bish bish* on me.. hee.. paiseh la... not trying to spite anyone lah.. im just being happy mah.. To all those still biah-ing exams, reports, presentations, blah blah.. All the Best eh.. esp to nana.. think u are the first in this circle to have paper bah.. Ganbate ne!
Hmmz.. back to myself.. hee.. gonna spend time sorting out my comp.. lotsa rubbish in My Documents.. haha.. was looking thru the fotos too.. haiz.. i miss the days in hong kong.. i think its the same for ade who misses US la hor.. haiz..
(this 2nd part is continued 7 hours later.. so maybe abit incoherent..)
Oh its already Deepavali.. 12.40am now.. Happy Deepavali pple! Hee.. enjoy the hols..
ok my brain is not functioning that well at this hour le.. maybe i shld juz continue again some other time..
Meanwhile.. just some pictures to put your eyes to test.. hee
debbie out
@ |2:45 PM|
Testy Times 2
Yawn... I am really not thinking straight now. Don't blame me for posting such a wierd followup entry. Heh.
Myth:
You have put in your greatest utmost effort in preparing for the test. Unfortunately, you still find it impossibly difficult. That is when you take great comfort in the moderating prowess of the sonorous bell curve. Your beliefs are further strengthened when everyone around you rants about how sickeningly tough the test is.
Truth:
Homo sapiens will always rant how difficult the test is, regardless of their results.
Myth:
To every cloud, there is a silver lining. Things aren't that bleak after all. In another paper, you found out to your greatest delight, you have scored a commendable 9 out of a possible 12 marks! Give yourself a pat on your shoulder! You have done well.
Truth:
You see one of your best pal in your tutorial group sobbing uncontrollably. Seated at a corner, tears roll down his/her angst filled face, drenching his/her test paper and inevitably threaten to flood the room with her salty discharge. Your heart aches at such a pitiful sight, you know, only you can comfort him/her.
"Everything is going to be fine. It's only a test." You advice in the most sympathetic tone you can envisage.
Suddenly, curiosity takes captive of you. You are suddenly dying to know his/her marks.
"How did you fare? How much did you get for the test? How many marks? How..." Your mind struggles to phrase the sensitive question in the most undamaging way.
As if by telepathy, you hear your best pal rants, *Sob* "Why I only get 9 marks?! This kind of test should get full marks and I so blew my chance..." *Wail*
You calmly retrieve the 6th Edition, Serway - Physics for Scientists and Engineers Textbook from your bag and lift the 5kg hardcover book above your head. With tears streaming down your cheeks, you take aim at your best pal's skull.
Myth:
You can kill your best pal by slamming a really heavy and thick textbook on his/her head.
Truth:
Ironically, you regret not using the Physics Textbook in a more purposeful way (Eg. reading rather than killing).
At that instant, as you take aim with the textbook in your hands, high above your head; you finally comprehend the dangers of high centers of gravity and unstable equilibriums.
Instead of killing your best pal, you succeed in breaking your back.
Myth:
Students from the 2 ancient Asian civilizations are your greatest threat to securing your first class honours.
Truth:
Everyone excluding the person that scares you in the mirror every morning, is a threat.
But then again, you might not be able to see yourself in the mirror if you're hospitalized.
Myth:
Finally, you are inspired by this inane entry to study and mug for your upcoming examinations. You are determined to ace and realize your dream CAP score of "5.0".
Truth:
Your dream CAP score insists on taking permanent residence in your dreams.
Nah... In short,
You're doomed.
Kelvin Lim out
@ |10:17 PM|
Kids do & say the darnest things sometimes
to prove wat the above title reads..read on!
there was a night when i wanted to go to bed, & found a notice stuck outside my mum's bedroom by a rubberband and scotch-tape.
as i got closer, i found some pencil scribblings on it.
I switched on the lights so that i can read better, and to my amusement...the content reads :
I obviously knew who wrote this, cus nobody else posses the skill to master such handwritings at home beside my dear little brother... hahahaha..
but the thing that caused me not jus to roll my eyes but also to roll on the floor with laughters was how this cute little brother of mine signed off his 'warning' message:
*cold sweat*
p.s. special thanks to my beloved dearest little brother Lim Wen Xin.
hahahaha!
eeynis out
@ |11:01 PM|
I think I'm paranoid
Tell me if I'm thinking too much.
My classmate who's in the same placement centre as me wished to fix the date of our halfway evaluation (sort of like a assessment session when your supervisor will grade in front of you and your lecturer) on the coming Friday. It's only week 3 of my attachment thus far and since we have 8 weeks of attachment in total for this placement, halfway evaluation should theoretically be on week 4 right?
But my classmate wanted our lecturer to see her conducting a cooking assesment, which takes place this Friday. Her supervisor was fine with the date.
But my supervisor isn't. He said, "I think it's too early."
My thoughts split 3 ways in attempting to decipher the underlying meaning of "I think it's too early":
- "Wah lao. I already have so many things to do this week. You still want to to squeeze in your insignificant halfway evaluation when I have more important things to do?"
- "I'm giving you a chance. It's too early to tell if you can pass or not. Be thankful that I'm giving you 1 more week to redeem yourself."
- "It's only week 3. Wait until week 4 lah."
Xiu Juan out
@ |8:37 PM|
Testy Times I
This post is inspired by people still haunted over exams and s44-ians dying in NTU.
Myth:
Study hard for the test and it will be a breeze for you.
Truth:
Study hard for the test and the only breeze you feel will probably come from the furious flipping of your paper.
Myth:
The test consists of 5 questions. Given one hour, you should limit and ration yourself to a luxurious 12 minutes.
Truth:
The 60 minutes still applies but the 5 questions...
Your Answer sheet might look like this:
1. (a) ________
1. (b) ________
1. (c) ________
2. (a) (I) (i) _________
2. (a) (I) (ii) ________
2. (a) (I) (iii) ________
2. (a) (II) (i) ________
2. (a) (II) (ii) ________
2. (a) (II) (iii) ________
2. (a) (II) (iv) ________
2. (a) (III) (i) ________
2. (a) (III) (ii) ________
2. (a) (III) (iii) ________
2. (b) (I) (i) ________
2. (b) (I) (ii) ________
2. (b) (I) (iii) ________
2. (b) (I) (iv) ________
2. (b) (I) (v) ________
2. (b) (II) (i) ________
2. (b) (II) (ii) ________
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2. (b) (III) (i) ________
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2. (c) (I) (iii) ________
2. (c) (II) (i) ________
2. (c) (II) (ii) ________
2. (c) (III) ________
3. ________ <--- You scribble either your will or death threat at this point of time.
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Myth:
During the test, you should not waste too much time on dwelling on a difficult question. Gauge the difficulty and skip it whenever it proves too hard to handle.
Truth:
Q1. Read... Think... Ponder... Try.... Skip.
Q2. Read... Think... Try... Skip.
Q3. Read... Skip
Q4. Skip
Q5. Skip
Q6. Skip
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You should consider joining the ISF - International Skipping Federation.
Kelvin Lim out
@ |12:55 AM|
&@$!!
Have been plagued by nerve-wrecking dreams for the past 3 days. And both had something to do with school.
Dream no. 1 (which occured on thursday night):
It's my halfway evaluation for my clinical attachment. I am with my supervisor and lecturer-in-charge, HB, in an office. My supervisor gives me 4 out of 6 for most of the sections in the evaluation form. I was quite indignant as I felt that I had performed well enough to deserve better grades. But when I voiced out my concerns, both of them FAILED me outright because I dared question their judgement.
Oh my god.
The second dream is a bit less relevant now but still real-to-life:
It's the 'A' levels. I am sitting for the Computing written paper. Halfway through the paper, I decide that there's no point going through with the paper (for reasons I'm not very clear of. Probably because I cannot answer most of the questions) Anyway, I have 3 other 'A' level subjects. That's already enough, right?
So. I coolly walked out of the exam hall without completing the paper. And I waited for my classmates to finish (I can't remember who but most likely the computing people lah). When I'm talking to them, I realise that I have forgotten to sit for 'A' level Chemistry paper 2, which takes up a whopping 30% of the entire grade.
Shit.
The trauma of school - the shocks haunt you later.
Xiu Juan out
@ |5:24 PM|
HSBC TreeTop Walk..
Ok.. i shall post this entry b4 i go to bed.. hmmz.. in an effort not to bore u with my usual style of grandma writing.. lemme tell u a story.. warning.. this is a long post.. & the many pictures took me long time to load.. and so i think it will be so for ur case.. u can leave this page to load while getting a cup of tea and come back again later.. haha.. here goes..
在一个风和日丽的星期天早上 (Translate: On a fine Sunday morning).. and i reli mean 风和日丽.. Greg, ky, debbie, ade and ade's sister headed to MacRitchie for a nice trek up the hills..
在一个风和日丽的星期天早上 (Translate: On a fine Sunday morning).. and i reli mean 风和日丽.. Greg, ky, debbie, ade and ade's sister headed to MacRitchie for a nice trek up the hills..
It was so nice that even the terrapins decided to come and wish us good luck..
We started off well.. 
& we walked.. and talked.. 
& tried to interact with the flora and fauna around us...
not long before we got alittle tired.. ok not everyone exactly.. but yar.. 
& we were just counting down to the distance that we had left to the final destination. 
oh we tried to interact with the animals ard too.. but there werent many actually.. this was the best la.. haha.. yar.. eunice its for u.. haha...
oh yar.. there were some funny signs along the way.. & i tell u.. this Sime Track ah.. reli dunno wat it is lor.. Si Mi track mah.. not fit for travel one lor.. which we later encountered and discovered.. haha.. 
hee.. Ade as the Science Teacher introducing the Fish-tail Fern to us.. haha.. 
Surprisingly.. the walk wasnt as tough after we were mentally prepared by Kelvin and Spider.. haha.. but we juz walked and walked.. hee... i think all the crapping along the way.. made everything easier.. and cos there was no sun.. i think that made the walk less tiring too.. 
& finally arrived.. no we were not sweating profusely.. it was the rain.. yes.. it started to drizzle when we were nearing the top.. not a bad thing also la.. cos that chased many pple away.. so we didnt have to wait at all lor.. we had all the time we wanted on the bridge.. hee.. no one chased us or anything.. 
& we happily walked on the bridge.. and created alot of noise.. haha.. just as always.. before the sky started to send some signals..
& we decided to leave.. 
oh yar.. this stairs.. pls compare with Ah Pek's picture when he was there.. 
Left:
The stairs.. & the rain.. when we were there
Right:
The stairs.. & the sun.. when Ah Pek last went
so u can tell.. the rain started to POUR.. and i do mean POUR.. if u read the news.. u shld noe how big the rain was on Sunday.. no more pictures at this point.. cos i simply had to keep my camera and continue walking le.. 2 umbrellas to 5 pple.. got umbrella also no use lor.. the rain was just too big.. we soon realised that the area wasnt set up as a main water catchment area for no reason.. so we were totally drenched la.. 
So we just continued to seek shelter.. wait for rain to stop.. and continue on.. It was fun la.. other than the fact we were soaked and feeling cold to from the occasional wind breeze.. we continued walking in the rain.. on another shorter route out to the main.. and we were so glad to see civilisation again.. & that ended the Sunday at MacRitchie.. 
Oh.. im finally done with this entry.. Did anyone tell u b4 that photo blogging is tiring? hafta wait so long to upload.. thats y i had to finish it in 2 installments. (Its now Wed morn.. ) & thats also why u see the photos turn smaller.. cos its faster to load.. haha.. Nway.. for more photos.. refer to Gmail.. i blasted the inbox with 8 messages.. ahaha..
debbie out
@ |11:00 PM|
'The thrill of excess'
I like this phrase. And it has absolutely no relation to the content of this entry.
Anyway a thousand apologies to all of you.. My fingers were a bit itchy so I changed the template for the blog.. and my apologies especially to Debbie because the tagboard has been deleted. Oops. Please insert another tagboard here.
I was quite tempted to change the blogskin to the shocking pink one.. but I don't want to spoil my eyes lah.
So. Let me moan about my life in general.
I think I am born with low EQ and auditory processing deficits. I find it hard to pay attention to what people are saying for more than 15 minutes. I also cannot provide you with an expected sincere response.
As luck would have it, I chose to take up something which requires me to listen empathetically. I'm not that stupid lah so when people talk I will nod my head vigorously in agreement. When I'm in a lousy mood I will even frown to give the impression that I think hard enough to dispute what you say.
I actually think I'm quite good at it. But it's extremely exhausting to try to guess the kind of non-verbal reaction you are looking for. Imagine doing that for 8 hours daily.
So here I am, thinking and rethinking why I am doing this. But it's a bit too late to look back anyway.
Slips do occur here and there, like when my supervisor thanked me for helping out, I said, "No lah. I'm on attachment. If I don't help out, I would have failed already."
And another time when my supervisor gave me an unacceptable grade for one of the components of my attachment evaluation, I said, "I don't think that's very fair .. (pauses to point finger to myself) .. to me" to her face when my lecturer was present as well.
And the time when I typed 'friends' as 'fiends' and I thought it was hysterically funny.
I still find it funny.
Xiu Juan out
@ |9:35 PM|
A lousy start to the week..
Before I cover the event of our HSBC TTW.. let me lament first on how shitty my week started off.. but not to worry.. now that im here to blog.. just shows that things have turned for the better le..
Nway.. im referring to monday onwards la.. so nope.. im not saying that the TTW was shitty.. it was fun in fact.. but it all started on monday morning.. woke up to discover that i had a stiff neck.. or 落枕 as they so-call it. If u stil dunno wat that is.. its something like u twisted ur neck while sleeping in a wrong position la.. So nway.. that started all my torture.. Made me super grouchy for the day la.. cos it hurts whenever u wanna turn ur head alittle..
But well.. thats not all. Cos i already had a little sorethroat on sunday morning. Then the rain on sunday of cos didnt help la. then sunday nite also so COLD.. so i woke up on monday with a sick body. Sorethroat and cough. and feeling feverish cos the weather was so cold. But luckily the thermometer said i was just thinkin too much la. but nway.. it didnt help that i still had lessons and a discussion for preparation of Major Presentation on Tue (ie. today) it didnt help that i didnt sleep well the night b4 and was preparing the presentation slides. didnt help that i went to the clinic and the stupid nurses kept me waiting over half hour.. waiting for.. nothing. there was no one in the docs room lor! the doc was obviously eating snake la.. & they had to make me complain TWICE b4 they decided to check on the doc. *growls*
So basically, for the rest on monday.. i was like a grouchy zombie.. & everyone who saw me said that i was Face Green Lips White. for those who dun understand, type +0( into ur MSN and u sick that sick smile. yar, something liddat la.
So as a summary, basically i felt very bad on monday la. But now that its Tuesday, everything's better le. After medication, throat not feeling that bad; after a night's sleep, neck not so pain le. I concluded that the main caues of my sorrows was reli the neck lor.. i think i normally sick reli not so bad one .. *growls again* & my virtual presentation was over and went quite ok bah.. (if u dunno wat i mean by virtual presentation, ask me next time and i tell u.. hee) .. then the other major presentation is also over.. hee.. felt so much better that we went for a mini celebration at crystal jade for dinner.. hehe.. aiyah.. the gurus say we shld always celebrate short term successes rite? hee..
& so.. here i am now to blog.. and taking a rest la.. (hmmz.. yep i worked hard rite? deserve a good rest. yes i shld) tmr still need to study for quiz on thurs.. (haiz.. ok i will take a SHORT rest only) .. counting down to the hols.. its coming soon.. yeah.. ok la.. i think u all are bored with me liao.. i shall blog bout TTW later after the photos are done...
debbie out
@ |8:43 PM|
tired
yup..as my title evidently states..i am veri tired with life rite now..
i detest having to stay in school until 11pm to discuss projects..
i detest having to DO projects..
i detest having to keep trying to contact my group leader who has her phone switched off the WHOLE day..
i detest having to account to other group members when i am NOT the group leader NOR the assistant group leader..
i detest having to make ppt slides..
i detest presentations..
i detest quizzes and tests..
i detest the fact that everyone likes to put tests and quizzes and deadlines all in one week..
i detest that some lecturers find it amusing to have a mini presentation before the real presentation..
i detest that some lecturers think we are all only taking ONE module..
i detest that even tho my timetable says i have a 3-day week, i am in school practically 7 days a week..
i detest that almost all the people around me are starting to question the existence of weekends (cos we are all STILL doing work)..
i detest that students from other faculties think bizad is a slack fac..come do the projects before stereotyping us of that..
i detest that i have to study..
i detest that i have to sleep at 5 am every day juz to finish my work..
basically i detest everything that is going on in my life now..juz a matter of time before i truly completely break down..
sorry to complain here la..no personal blog la..
ARGH i hate life
j_foreva out
@ |12:22 AM|
Woo hooo...
Wooo hooo... Hee, I have decided that I shall come n post a little something to show that I have actually been reading up even though I didnt post or tag anything. Well, to ah pek's entry, I also wan to comment man.... I was at home when I heard on the news that 2 guys were caught and blah blah, you all know the story. First thing that pops into my mind is 'Huh? U mean pple actually got fined and prisoned juz becuz of some comment made abt racist riots?' Or sth like that lah. I nv really go n check out the full details. Seriously, is that really such a big issue? N I rem some big shot (but I cannot rem exactly who) talking about freedom of speech in Singapore to a CERTAIN extent. Actually it's rather true lah, one should nv be bringing up race-related topics but fined n imprisoning seems too harsh a punishment. I mean, their lives are ruined. Sigh...n that woman also very the eng hor? I was still wondering how come got someone go read and find out.
This incident goes to show we are all going to be frogs in the well very very the soon. Also, it suddenly brings back certain memories of when I was in the US. One day at work, this fren of mine was suddenly telling me that he's really proud to be an American becuz America is a free country. Stupid me was like...free country?? So wat? Singapore also free country wat....ok lah, maybe we're not an independent country for as long as US is, but still free mah. Wat is the big deal man? Then I realised that he meant free as in really FREE....freedom of speech, freedom of whatever they wan to do basically. I mean I actually heard that pple there smoke marijiuana, watch porn (not online kind somemore) etc, even heard of illegal immigrants lor. In fact, one woman actually told us that SHE is an illegal immigrant. I almost yundao. For six yrs already somemore. Best lah, think maybe US is too big bah. So even if someone makes a remark, it might take a great ton of effort b4 stirring something real big. N in our case, we are too small to afford any trouble caused by a few miserly remarks. I dunno, but somehow I guess this shld be the main reason bah.
I guess I sort of grew up more in the US, seeing and experiencing stuff that I will nv ever be able to find in small n strict Singapore. Also, I think that the woman who went to complain rite, if she's in the States, she wont only be blacklisted. I guess she'll prob be killed by now. Hahahha... hmmm...I guess I shld end here bah. This seems like a real serious entry, esp when it's coming from me. And my usual entries are fei hua and more fei hua and yah, fei hua. Maybe seeing ah pek's entry inspired me bah, or maybe I'm juz too bored. Hahahaha....
Well, one last thing, my dear husband-to-be and the future kaima of my kids, I seriously dunno wat I wan lah. All I want is a msg to me on my birthday to wish me happy birthday k or a call also can?? AND THIS GOES OUT TO EVERYONE IN S44!!!! Hee, MUST wish me hor? No excuse for forgetting....muahaaahahhhaa....oh no, I must have gotten some ego waves from spider liao...hahahahaha...ok lah, better go n start studying liao. Spent a lot of time typing this. Plus got a stupid bahasa test next wk. Hee.... see some of u'll at the HSBC TTW this sunday!!! *another attempt to help deb advertise*
snowade out
@ |11:03 PM|
Stoopid Singaporeans
I have to admit, this banal plain blog has suddenly metamorphosed into a bustling blog. I am so inspired to post another entry but time is simply not on my side. So here's an entry without pretentious expressions and pompous vocabulary.
One thing I really been dying to blog was about the stoopid racist blogging incident. I mean, it super paiseh lah, for foreign media such as Associated Press and Reuters to report it. Everyone else in the world is probably laughing their heads off.
Seriously speaking, I almost choked on my lunch when I read that one of the blogger was jailed for one month while another was sentenced to a nominal prison term of one day and fined the maximum S$5000. KNN, what is the world really coming?! Just for a few stoopid mindless comments, their lives are literally ruined. Lucky thing still got the yellow ribbon campaign to fall back on, but still, that is not the whole point.
Then on sunday, the Straits Times interview the irritating intolerant insidious ignoramus insolent person who reported the racist blogger to the police. Wah piang, I almost died of heart attack when the article say that the woman also go report another blogger to the police. Watch guys, for another life destroyed by his blog!
What you all think ah? I personally think that she is taking the issue too far. I agree that racism should never be tolerated esp when you want to preserve racial harmony (or that is what was being drilled to our infantile minds). But treating the police like your mother, every little damn thing also complain, is seriously reflects the imaturity of the society at large.
Here we are, trying to be a global village, but how the hell we survive in the real world if a little bit of comments also cannot tahan? Surely, if that woman live or study overseas, she will probably be blacklisted by the police there for calling them every other day for comments she see on the web.
Sigh. With a government that promotes intolerance to every little shit, the citizens of this island state will sooner or later become some frog in the well.
I think I will rewrite this post. So 乱. I don't even sound coherant.
Ha.
Chinese are as dirty as the yellow river.
Malays blend in the mud.
And Indians hide in the dark.
Would that get me into jail? C'mon I successfully insulted the 3 major races in Singapore! Bwahahaha. Sue me!
Kelvin Lim out
@ |12:40 AM|
1st day of attachment
It is fated. The people I like usually don't like me.
I like old people, but they don't like me!!
Huh. Why ah? Don't I come across as a good and nice person? They don't want someone to sound encouraging while they are doing passive stretching meh? They would rather have other therapists who make fun of them....hmm.
Hai. Sian. My interactive reasoning has a long way to go. Sometimes it's not about giving the most politically correct and empathetic response. It's about making the other party feel challenged. Arrgh. I shall cease to be so accomodative. I shall be A BIT MEAN!! BWAHAHAHAHA!
But my first day is actually much better than I expected. The therapists in my setting are actually quite friendly and nice. And I suspect my supervisor also has the same kind of 'heh heh' (which you ignorant fools have labelled thus lame) humour.I realised that all my supervisors, past and present, have such nice and eternally youthful hands! This reminds me of a physiotherapist in my last placement who mentioned that hands are therapists' bread-and-butter. Oh no. My hands already look quite aged. Hmm. I must have nice hands too, for the sake of my career. That way, when my patients see my hands, they will go, "Wah, that hand therapist has such nice hands. I feel secure leaving my hands in her hands. My severed flexor tendon (or whichever hand condition you may have) will return to function in no time!"
Hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo! That's exactly the kind of career satisfaction I crave. I will start taking good care of my hands.
Debbie's right. Aquarians are quite crappy.
Xiu Juan out
@ |8:41 PM|
............
i think the next few weeks are going to kill me..deadlines..tests..and ultimately my exams..
and there is NOTHING to look forward to!!! i wanna go abroad laaaaaa..let me out of singapore please...
i am starting to be pretty amazed at the times i slept..the other day i slept at 7am..juz in time to see the beautiful sun rise and everyone's alarm clock go off before falling into a coma..saturday i slept at 5..to wake up at 9 to eat the delifrance breakfast buffet (only available at delifrance bistro i think)..not bad ah..the things i do for food..hahahah..but it was actually not THAT good and the service sucked..where got people give coffee and dun give sugar/milk/creamer/spoon one?? not going back man..
i saw my primary school bookshop auntie on sunday..she immediately recognized me and said "ahhhh u neva change at all!!" this goes to show 3 things:
- i used to hang out ard the bookshop so much that the auntie blacklisted me..
- i neva age at all =D
- i am still as fat as when i was in pri school (i was in TAF club..shows how fat i was..or am still am..=()
anyway..meeting her made me think of my primary school's lovely bookshop..actually not that lovely la..all it sold were stationery..but i loved to go in and juz squeeze with everybody to see the usual stuff that was being sold day in day out..haha
anyway,if ur daughter left u a message in the middle of the nite saying "hey mum, i slept rather late so may not be able to wake up in time for breakfast..if you can't wake me up then dun die oso drag me out of bed k? sorry.." , how would you interpret the messsage?
a) dun even wake the daughter up cos she wants to sleep instead of going to eat an insignificant breakfast with you
b) try to wake the daughter up as u understand that she wants to go but she is afraid she wun be able to wake up
.......
OF COS IS (B) LA
and if u chose (a), you can go be good frens with my dad..cos u have the same illogical thinking as him...chose to argue with me in delifrance when all i wanted to do was to have a nice breakfast (which is a meal i haven't had in ages bcos of my weird sleeping hours)..PISSED MAN..*fuming*
oh well..is over..i needa go do my OB stuff le..die la...my present to my fren haven't make finish...die die die..
speaking of presents..
my dear wife-to-be and the mother of the children who will make me a kaima..wat do u wan for ur birthday har?
=) take care to all..and HANG IN THERE!!!
j_foreva out
@ |4:49 PM|
Another week..
Hihi.. im here to accompany XJ so that she wun feel so bored.. haha..
yar.. its quite an unearthly timing.. 2.00am.. i guess i will finish this and put myself to bed.. for this past 2 sat nights i've been sleeping too much.. so much such that i wake up late on Sun.. and cant sleep at night.. unhealthy cycle.. stil got classes tmr one lor.. okok.. i shall count sheep or wateva.. maybe seagulls (rite XJ?.. haha)
hmmz.. a few more weeks.. a few more quizes and reports and presentations to go.. and i will be free.. ok.. hang on debs.. im looking 4ward to my hols.. starting to fantasize the things that i shall do for this last hols of my life.. haiz.. that sounds so sad.. haha..
this week.. nth much la.. except.. HSBC TTW on SUNDAY! haha... another advertising attempt.. pls pls.. no more postponements hor.. heee...
okok.. im starting to feel sleepy... shall go to bed now.. good night/morning... Tata!
yar.. its quite an unearthly timing.. 2.00am.. i guess i will finish this and put myself to bed.. for this past 2 sat nights i've been sleeping too much.. so much such that i wake up late on Sun.. and cant sleep at night.. unhealthy cycle.. stil got classes tmr one lor.. okok.. i shall count sheep or wateva.. maybe seagulls (rite XJ?.. haha)
hmmz.. a few more weeks.. a few more quizes and reports and presentations to go.. and i will be free.. ok.. hang on debs.. im looking 4ward to my hols.. starting to fantasize the things that i shall do for this last hols of my life.. haiz.. that sounds so sad.. haha..
this week.. nth much la.. except.. HSBC TTW on SUNDAY! haha... another advertising attempt.. pls pls.. no more postponements hor.. heee...
okok.. im starting to feel sleepy... shall go to bed now.. good night/morning... Tata!
debbie out
@ |1:53 AM|
Attachment countdown: 10 hours, 4 minutes, 47 seconds
Debbie's right. What happened to the rest of our classmates?
Anyway, let me commence on another self-absorbed soliloquy:
All goods things must come to an end.
Argh crap. Why can't I have a week of holidays before attachment starts?!
One of my lecturers was giving us some kind of last minute psych-boost before packing us off to the longest attachment in our academic career (yah I know, 2 months is considered quite short for some of you). He commented that all of us look quite jaded. He then went on the recount another story in which 2 of his students also appeared disillusioned. He remediated that by bringing them to see an "inspirational" sunset. According to him, we should try to remember the reason we chose to be in the "helping" profession.
I agree with one of my classmates. I get pretty disturbed when people use adjectives such as 'caring', 'helping'/'helpful', 'noble' etc etc to describe doctors (to a lesser degree), nurses (to a great degree) and therapists (to some degree). Because when I ask myself very frankly my reasons for choosing OT, my reasons are usually self-centred rather than positive:
- I don't have to sit at a desk - won't get fat so easily
- I can talk to different people - less boring
- Can brag to people that I work in a hospital
- Don't have to use the computer other than performing amateurish functions - a leftover protective mechanism from the disgusting JC computing days.
- Don't have to travel to Buona Vista or Jurong East just to attend school - school for me is just 15 minutes away
- Disgusting variety of courses available in Unis here
- Don't have to compete with the many brilliant people in engineering
- Pay lesser school fees
- Can mix around with a different group of people (non-St Nick's or VJ - even though I also mix around with Jojo now)
- (when I got sponsored) Oh! Allowance!
- Definite job vacancy
See?! See?! I'm such an egocentric person by nature. If I follow Freud's theories, my Id has has reigned tyranny over my Ego while my Superego perishes into nothingness.
And now that my attachment starts tomorrow, silly questions run through my mind:
- Will I like my supervisor?
- Will my supervisor like me?
- Will my supervisor have a sense of humour?
- Will I get sucked into silly politics?
- Will I drop a patient?
- How many patients will I get?
- What time should I wake up to be on time?
- What bus should I take?
- What should I put down as my learning objectives?
- Do I have time to continue watching my Korean Drama?
- What can I do to avoid reenaction of the tragedy of my last placement?
- Should I read anything tonight?
Blergh.
Xiu Juan out
@ |9:49 PM|
Yay!! pt 2
Isn't life wonderful? Purity in every breath you take, happiness in everything you do?
Oh I think I'm really hooked onto the Korean wave now, albeit a bit late. Or maybe it was just escapism kicking in for the exams and attachment? Nevertheless, I'm glad that I have some kind of 精神寄托 for the busy times ahead. I'm continually amazed by how good-looking the actors and actresses are and how well they can act (again, it could be biasness on my part, but who cares?!). Am watching Full House so I'm very very impressed by Song Hye Gyo. Somemore she's so incredibly pretty.. which was a bit of a distraction from her acting lah haha.
Oh man. I'm so incredibly shallow. I have ceased to ponder over matters. Notice how I never ask how the rest of you guys are doing. Nothing is important except me me ME! *chokes happily on own egocentricity*
Xiu Juan out
@ |11:49 PM|
YAY!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
My papers are over as of 10.00 am today!! I am officially free.. for the next 3 days, that is. Attachment starts next week and lasts until December.
Nevertheless, I am under the grand delusion of invincibility! Let me read Bobath and I will recite to you the principles of Neurodevelopmental Theory! Give me 10 stroke patients and I will sucessfully rehabilitate them to their maximal functional capabilities! Give me a dementia patient and I will make sure that he/she achieves the highest quality of life ever since her diagnosis! I love the elderly! Let me work with old people!
Oh-ho am feeling extremely high now. Shall go and watch more Korean drama.
Xiu Juan out
@ |9:36 PM|
It's me again..
Hihi..
haha.. sorry u have to see/read me again.. just a note to all.. the HSBC TTW postpone to 15th/16th k.. sy and ade cmi on 9th.. all those affected take note k..
i've decided not to send thru yahoo grps.. in case bombard those who arent interested.. ok ya i noe not everyone comes here.. aiyah.. nvm la... there's the co-coordinator who will inform everyone also.. hahaha... (thanks sy!)
eh.. nway.. so hope now more pple can make it la.. spider.. u would have finished ur exams by then rite.. come la! come k..
haha.. sorry u have to see/read me again.. just a note to all.. the HSBC TTW postpone to 15th/16th k.. sy and ade cmi on 9th.. all those affected take note k..
i've decided not to send thru yahoo grps.. in case bombard those who arent interested.. ok ya i noe not everyone comes here.. aiyah.. nvm la... there's the co-coordinator who will inform everyone also.. hahaha... (thanks sy!)
eh.. nway.. so hope now more pple can make it la.. spider.. u would have finished ur exams by then rite.. come la! come k..
oh well.. start of another week.. got a presentation on thurs.. scared-ed.. haiz.. wish me luck.. all the best to everyone too!
debbie out
@ |12:03 AM|